I had no idea where to start. I couldn’t stop looking at him, if I kept this up I wouldn’t even have to explain to Khalood the predicament I’m in, he could easily guess it all. He started walking toward us, sending my mind into overdrive trying t…

I had no idea where to start. I couldn’t stop looking at him, if I kept this up I wouldn’t even have to explain to Khalood the predicament I’m in, he could easily guess it all. He started walking toward us, sending my mind into overdrive trying t…

3 years ago”Yala banat ily jahiz minken yanzil ilqa3a, lat5aloun Hind bro7a ta7at”"Inshalah mama, ana jahza, anzil an6er ma3a 5alty Hind”I was 18, my senior year in high school and it was my cousin Samar’s wedding, she was the first grandchild to get m…

3 years ago”Yala banat ily jahiz minken yanzil ilqa3a, lat5aloun Hind bro7a ta7at”"Inshalah mama, ana jahza, anzil an6er ma3a 5alty Hind”I was 18, my senior year in high school and it was my cousin Samar’s wedding, she was the first grandchild to get m…

“Hath shfee raylich, kil shahar radich lna tara ilzawaj mo l3b, intay shsawaitay, akeed minich, intay soosa, 9ij bilsha ana al7een ishbasawi shfeech? la shahada, la wa’6eefa, istagfar allah”"Mama 7beebty oboch m39ib shway malich shu’3ul feeh, bacher in…

“Hath shfee raylich, kil shahar radich lna tara ilzawaj mo l3b, intay shsawaitay, akeed minich, intay soosa, 9ij bilsha ana al7een ishbasawi shfeech? la shahada, la wa’6eefa, istagfar allah”"Mama 7beebty oboch m39ib shway malich shu’3ul feeh, bacher in…

Khalid: thelfay, a9alan ana ibtilasht feech blsha, mino ’3airy yabeech, by5a, o di3la, o sa5efa, jaikara o mteena, mat3arfeen itsolfeen? mat7seen? Tadreen shloun intay 6alag bl thalth bly my7af’6ich BARA!I walked out of my husbands house and headed to…

Khalid: thelfay, a9alan ana ibtilasht feech blsha, mino ’3airy yabeech, by5a, o di3la, o sa5efa, jaikara o mteena, mat3arfeen itsolfeen? mat7seen? Tadreen shloun intay 6alag bl thalth bly my7af’6ich BARA!I walked out of my husbands house and headed to…

What the hell did I do? I feel so low! So disgusting, he will never forgive me for this EVER! He doesn’t even want to hear me say the word sorry. I feel so guilty, I don’t know why I did what I did, it is embarrassing, it’s humiliating and it’s not worth it. He loves me and he cares and I did that to him. How dare I? I’m such a whore no, I am WORSE than a whore. I don’t have dignity, I feel so small.

What do I do? I stabbed a heart in his chest, I betrayed the one I love, and I betrayed my life. What am I supposed to do now? How can I earn his trust?

Wai3 I am the most disgusting person ever

I just need help. I really need someone’s help.

Thanks to everyone who helped me:**

Now, My conclusion is that I was NOT wrong, he just has issues….

OR that he’s gay.

I am very offended by him.

My QUESTION to the GUYS:

Why is it when a guy gets rejected he gets angry, and when he rejects a girl he gets angry cause she even thought about it?

DON’T WE HAVE FEELINGS TOO?? SHNO YA3NI YOU REJECT US OO WE ARE SUPPOSED TO APOLOGIZE!

7AMDELLAH WEL SHEKR!

YES A MONTH..NO AZIZ.

i was sad .. i was torn apart..i didnt know if he was dead or alive. i wanted to call him to hear his voice for him to tell me that hes alright and that there is nothing that i should worry about. but things that i wanted never came true..it has been this way in a month and 2 weeks . i never knew that he had this much effect on me i never knew how much i could care i never knew i was…..in Love with him. i had random crushes before but aziz was ghair.

i worried alot about him..i sometimes asked the jam3a about him and asked if he called or la2..they told me ina he took a break..7aram he probably was sad..since i heard he was so close with his father..his father understood him in everything from girls to ayshay bil dinya they talked..i went to his friend Mohammed..i had to .. i wanted to know if he was ok.

me: Mohammed?

Mohammed: haala?

me: sorry to disturbe you..i just wanted to ask..shlone aziz? laish mo ga3ed iye halayam?

Mohammed: ee wala aziz min 3ugub ma tiwafa il mar7oum o uhwa ingalbat fee il dinya .. bs 3afwan mino intay?

me: ana jawa il S*****..a friend of aziz’s..oh mayshouf shar inshalla

THAT DAY..

i was sitting home waiting for noonie to come. my phone was ringing my ringtone was ” wilghale a9la ghaleee o ilzain yafrith nafsa” i picked up the phone if was nooro.

noonie: jooj babe red velvets??

me: YES YES YES AND YESS !! extra icing please :)

noonie: haha ya7ibich 7ag hal icing .. inshalla anything else ?

me: eee eee and COOKIES

noonie: 7athiirrr

me: a7iibiich

noonie: comeon people one at a time mo kilmara 3ad..ana chithe asti7i (a)

me: waaaay nooro yal thiqaa! wayidd 3a6aitiich wayh bs shasawe ana ! a7ibiich yal kalba :p

noonie: hehehe wala mo kithry babe.

she hungup and came to my house to spend the day with me..we hanged around and watched confession of a shopaholic..we loved clickflik movies :p
faj2a while i was enjoying my EXTRA iced cupcake my phone vibrated with a msg…

i couldent belive i just called him AZOOZ ! waay wala ana wa7da 8abiya fashlaaa..fashlaaa..what will he think of me now. Oh dear he probably thinks that im a stupid person that ma2asti7e 3ala wayhi :( ahh whyy !

i was stairing at his number for HOURS..i dont know why i just did, but why did he give it to me i asked my self..100 questions came through my head about today. i mostly did what any girl would do with a guys number..a DAGA ;p

i did the daga but not with my phone i did it with my nannies phone :) dont ask why i did it i just wanted to hear his husky voice. very time i hear his ” Aloo ” i melt. Haha Noora thought i was a typical Kuwaity with what im doing..i didnt know what she ment..i just laughed.

after a week aziz’s father past away (allah yir7uma) so i decided to go to the 3aza with noura. we went to the 3aza it was quite..his mom was crying (poor thing..ga6i3at galbe) and his sisters cried too. i stayed there for about 15mins then decided to leave.
i wore my black juicy tranning suite with a 3abaya and had my hair up in a messy bun and with my over sized wafferers..noora wore the same ta’3reeban.

as i walked to my car i saw aziz in his car alone..so i decided to say 3athim allah ajrik.

*Kock Knock*i knocked on his window, he didnt here me..he was sar7an and had the sadest look on his face that i ever saw. *Knock Knock* this time istaw3ab chan iliif wayha..his eyes were red and wayha kan asfaar.

me: um..hala aziz..3athim allah ajriik..allah i8amid roo7a il janah inshalla.

aziz: hala jawa..ajirna wajrich..inshalla ameen.

me: yala 3ayal ma3a6lik .. i have to go now itha tabe ayshay just tell me or give me a ring here’s my number.

YES I GAVE HIM MY NUMBER..MO 3AN SHAY BS I HAD TO..WALA KISAR 5A6RE SHAKLA :(

Aziz’s Thoughts:

wala ma tiwa8a3t inha tiyee..did she care??..was i something she thought about??..wala madre bs wala ya7lailha 5oush bint o san3a..im glad she gave me her number..and the bet thing ina she didnt give it to me in a flirting way..but in a caring way..ya3ne if i needed something.

after that i havent seen aziz in a month..

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the next day of jam3a i was to embarissed to even show my face after the “incident” that happened ams..and part of me wanted to go to see aziz.

while i was walking to class noonie came along cause we had the same stuff today (thank God) gabel la atdish noora saw aziz with a really hot guy..he was tall , he had a gifil and his lips were amazing..the one that were kissable :p

noora : MINO HATHAA??

me: hatha aziz !!

noora: laa ya shagoul..the one ily yamaah !

me: ooh madre..probably his friend.

noora: mashalla mazyooun.

noora: a7la min 7abebich (she was beginig to i6afirne :p)

me: ayy 7abebb ay ba6eekh !

noora: imbalaa imbalaaa :p

me: NOOROO !! comeon.

noora: hehe i love doing that to u !!

me: ee u always do thaatt ! ma7ibiicch.

noora: ana amoout feech .

we walked into class and thankGod this time i didnt sit next to him. I sat next to Noonie while aziz and his friend sat infront of us. every once in a while aziz would turn around to look at me. He either dropped his pen..or i7ik his head or streached. hehe i thought that it was funny but in a way it was sweet.

we figured out that his friend ily wiyah kan isma Mohammed il G****** o 6ala3 that his mom and noonies mom were friends in jam3a..since noonie asked her mom. And when her mom asked her why are you asking she always had a way of mixing things up like saying ” laa wala just asking la2na partner ma3ay ib shay” or “la just asking 3ashan lazim i give him the papers the doctor told me to give him” haha wala hal bint 3ayaara.


i headed back to my car after the class, noora didnt come with me la2na she had to go to her grandparents house. i walked to my car in silence. i felt the feeling that someone was watching me bs i didnt turn around la2na khift shwaya. i drove my car as i put my ipod on shuffle and i was listening to infinity ( i just love my techno :p )

i was eyeing the car behind us wila 7asaita hes following me..7awalt athay3a bs ma gidart. nizalt il jam3iya ayeeb cham sha8la wila he was there..i didnt know what to do i was scared.

stranger: hala

me: (ignored)

stranger: shd3wa mata36ena wayh ya 7ilwa?

me: (still ignored)

aziz: int ma tisti7iii??

stranger: o int ti6la3 mino ballaaah??

aziz: lik wayh tis2al haso2aall??

stranger: ee as2aall !

aziz: ana wild 3amha khaiir? fe shay? ga3ed o tit7arash ib banat il nas? shino li3ba 3indik?

i was so shocked to find him there like really SHOCKED!..7abaiita that day ! jad 7abaita..no one ever did that to me. The stanger had nothing to say and just left.

MEANWHILE…

aziz: hala jawa..3asa ma sawa feech shay?

me: um..laaa wala..madre shagoulik aziz mashkoor wayid.

aziz: 7athreen jawa..here’s my number thats if u ever needed anything.

i was scared but happy for him to give me his #

me: thankyou aloot azoozz ( DID I JUST SAY AZOZ : )

aziz: hehe azoz ..i like the sound of that..anyway jawa ana ta2a5art lazim aroo7..be carefull.

AWWWWW IKHAF 3ALAAY ! gale be carefull sij sij gentleman. As i finished with the jam3iya i went home and told Noonie about what happened..she was shocked really shocked.

me: tislaam

aziz: 3asa ma ta3awartay ilyoum?

me: haa..la la it was fine ..it happens alot ( I DID NOT JUST SAY THAT OUT LOUD)

aziz: aha..i see ( he said with a smirk )

aziz: yeah im aziz by the way ..it was nice meeting you…?

me: ooh yeah its jawa..its nice meeting u too. Bye

as i walked to the car i can see noonies face shine with happines, she saw me talking to him.

noora: JAAWAA! i saw everything.

me: you stalker!! inzain inzain khala9 it was bad enough.

noora: shsawaitayy ba3aaddd !

me: youm gale salamat..gilt la 3ade it happenes all the time !! bil’3alaa6 i said this out loud.

noora: hahahaha its ok u clumsy person.

As i opened blackberry there was o note texted to me .. it said:
“hey stranger..you dropped your blackberry..i hope ma ta3awartay ilyoum..have a nice day..
- Aziz il M*****.”

i showed noonie what he wrote. she said that he was so sweet blah blaah blah :p
that day noora came over to my house.

mom: hala noora 7abebty shlonich?

noora: hala khalteee! tamam sha5bariich?

mom: wala zaina ..ha shlone umich?

noora: zaina wala..itsalim 3alaiich.

jawa : hala mama..whats for lunch?

mom: pasta..and scalope

jawa and noora: YUMMM!! :p

mom: haha ya7ibkum 7ag il pasta

we enjoyed the pasta and for me EXTRA TABASCO :p hehe yum..noora never liked spicy food. 3axii :p

after that we decided we go swiming..since i was the oldest of my brothers and sisters..i had one brother wich was 12 and a sister wich was 14..i loved them both so much. but we tend to fight about stupid things like the remote..or who goes were and stupid things :p

i wore my bright orange bikini and noonie wore her cute purple one :)
we swam for hours

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i hope u like my posts people..since im new to all of this:)
love u:*

Maya went straight upstairs to her room, after dropping Lulwa home, changed into her over sized tshirt, washed her face, brushed her teeth, and went to bed.
She stayed opening her eyes, turning and twisting, from one position to another, unable to sleep…’uff im tired i have to sleep..laish magdar argid’ she thought to herself, feeling frustrated..
’100-99-98-97-96-95…’ she counted backwards, a thing Maya always did whenever she couldn’t sleep..
1 hour later
After being awake for the past hour, just thinking about 5aled and his smile, the way he looked at her, how deep his voice was, was it obvious he was into her, does that mean he’ll break up with Tahni…..
lots of things went through her mind, so she decided to stop thinking and go to sleep..
‘i’ll watch gossip girl’ she thought, it’s better that staying awake, thinking endlessly about something that had no future..
1 hour later
Maya was fast asleep..

Maya woke up the next day and decided to head to Lilo’s for breakfast to change the mood she was in….

Incoming call: Maya
“Goodmorning” said Lulwa
“hey there lulu.. had a goodnight’s sleep?” Maya asked
“yup..did u?” wondered Lulwa, after what she whitnessed last night
“kind of…inzain sim3ay i’m thinking lilo’s for breakfast, just you and me” suggested Maya
“ok wela shrayech we go to Caramel, they have good breakfast there?”
“uum inzain ilyoum lilo’s bacher caramel..how does that sound?” Maya asked hopefully
“great..let me change and i’ll meet u there in an hour”
“ok wayed zain.. yalla byee”
“byee”

Maya changed into her new pair of jeans, and a light pink plain 3/4 sleeve shirt, wore her white gladiator sandals, put on eyeliner and lipgloss, wore her golden Rayban sunglasses, took her handbag, car keys and left to the car..

1 message received: Tahani
i really had fun last night, hope to do it again soon :)

‘oh god’ Maya thought.. she felt so guilty..

1 message sent: Tahani
ya we really enjoyed it as well.. can’t wait :) xoxo

Maya reached Lilo’s, sat on a table for 2, ordered fresh lemon juice with mint, and waited for Lulwa.

Lulwa settled on with her white skinny jeans, silver chefon top, light grey high heel sandals, pink lip gloss (her fave), black sunglasses, tiny diamond studs earings, and her blue Balenciaga hand bag.

Lulwa reached 10 minutes after Maya..
“hii” smiled Lulwa
“hii” Maya stood up to kiss Lulwa on both cheecks
The waiter came over to Lulwa, asked her what would she like to drink, she thought for a minute then ordered carrot juice..
“Lulwa basi2lich so2al, jawbeeny 7ata low i won’t like the answer..” Maya said
“ok shinow?” Lulwa wondered ‘alla yaster, akeed 3an 5aled’ she thought to herself
“did u see 5aled looking at me ams?” Maya asked, her heart rate beeting faster
“um yaa..a few times, laish?” Lulwa wondered, “where is this going Maya?” Lulwa hated if her friend even considered 5aled as an option, as far as she was concerned, he was TAKEN, and Maya had to accept that., whether she liked it or not!
“ok i’ll tell u..remember when i left to go to the bathroom?” Maya started
“yaa” Lulwa was all ears
“6ila3t min il 7amaam ila i saw 5aled just standing there, looking straight at me, walla at first i thought he wanted the bathroom, confused or something, but he just stood there, looking at me in a way i swear no one ever looked at me like that before” Maya said
“Maya sheeleeh min mu5ij yumkin he was finding the sign mal the men’s bathroom or something” Lulwa said, thinking she can’t let her friend fall for a man who was TAKEN for crying out loud! what part of being taken did not Maya understand.. Lulwa was starting to get worried..
she didn’t want her friend to be the bad guy in the story here…
“he SMILED at me lulu! walla he looked at me and smiled! even i’m confused!” confessed Maya
“ee akeed he’ll smile at u maya! shino.. ur his fiance’s friend! akeed hell smile at u, he won’t ignore u ya3ny…..duuuh maya!” Lulwa snapped
“EXACTLY” Maya said loudly..”he’s her FIANCE, why would he smile at me and look at me the way he did! Lulu fakray!” Maya almost yelled, and took a deep breath
“Maya, i know u started falling for him, bass stop, NOW stop, this is going no where, i don’t want to see u hurt…..ever….don’t do this to ur self, u don’t deserve i..” Lulwa began feeling sad for her friend
Maya felt numb, if only he wasn’t engaged, this could be a start of something new, something she dreamed of, something she saw only in movies, something she just read in books..
And like that, 5aled and Tahani’s subject was closed for the rest of the time..
they asked for the check, after eating their food, and left..
their subject was closed………………………………………………………………….
until, there he was, getting out of his red Ferrari, wearing blue jeans, and a black shirt folded til his elbows, wearing mirror sunglasses that made him look even hotter, and a silver Cartier watch..
‘am i dreaming’ Maya thought
“Maya! out of here now!” Lulwa chuckled, grabbing Maya from her arm, acting like a cop..
but Maya couldn’t move, she just stood there, staring at him as he stared back… it was as if they were two magnets being pulled close to each other without doing anything, without their will, without any force coming from them..it’s like they were being dragged to each other by something stronger than them, stronger than all mankind, stronger than nature…
5aled smiled at Maya, with a look that she only knew the meaning to it.. because she only felt it.. she only felt what he was feeling, she only knew what it was like to fall in love at the first sight..
Lulwa pulled Maya, and begged her to go to her car, at last, she went..
she sat in her car, as Lulwa sat on the front seat..Maya kept staring at him, his eyes were still fixed on her. Maya wanted to tell Lulwa to look at the way he looked at her, but for some reason her voice was gone..
Maya felt her insides melt…and not for long, as she felt her heart beat faster and faster, and this time, not because of what she felt towards him, but because of the disapointment that she felt..
Maya and Lulwa saw her entering Lilo with him, there she was, on his right, wearing a white dress up to her knees, with her long brown hair tied up on a high pony tail and her tan Hermes bag, holding his hands as if they were the best couple in town….

But Maya still couldn’t deny that she suspected something wasn’t right between 5aled and Tahani..