“Late in the night we enjoy a Misty moon. There is nothing misty about the bond between us.“ The Festival of the Cherry Blossoms, Chapter 8, The Tale of Genji

A Midnight
astral voyage,
A fantasy
Yozakura,
Back again
by dawn

Posted in Poetry

This post is dedicated to 3anooda bes 3ashanich;*

After the incident with Ahmad, he stopped calling and messaging as much. He would message every day, but it wasn’t like before… I was confused; I didn’t know what I did wrong! I knew I did nothing wrong. He started fighting with me for no reason, and I would cry, and Adel would call me to calm me down. I didn’t know what to do, so I called him and messaged him. He barely answered any of my calls, and never replied to my messages, and I was angry with him.

‘What the hell did I do to him? What did I do wrong? What went wrong? Ugh! Where the hell is he? I want him to call me and apologize. Maybe he has other problems… maybe he’s really that busy, I mean he does have exams coming up, but DAMNIT! He doesn’t study!! UGH!’

Every day I had the same thoughts, every day I asked myself the same questions. For two weeks, I didn’t hear from him… For 6 stupid days I waited, from Christmas until New Year’s Eve I waited. On New Year’s Eve, Shahad and Farah came over, we were hanging out, and I suddenly blurted out “UF MADREE SHFEE AHMAD!!!!” They didn’t know what happened, so I told them what happened from A to Z. They were understanding, and they suggested I should message him and tell him how I feel… so I did.

“Hey Ahmad, its Lulu, I don’t know has been up with you lately… I miss you, and you haven’t been calling, nor have you been messaging. Is something wrong? Did I do anything wrong? Anyway, please don’t do this to me I love you, and I’m worried…”

Yes people I told him I loved him via a message. Imagine the stupidity 7amdilah wil shekr.

While we were watching a movie I get a message from my boyfriend *Ahmad, it said ‘I don’t want to be with you anymore.’ I was infuriated! “How could he do this to me? After what we did last week!! How could he?” I cried out. *Shahad (My friend) asked me what was wrong, and I answered her by saying “That asshole DUMPED me!” So as a friend she comforted me and told me that everything will be okay, and I have nothing to worry about.

The next day I woke up extremely late, and went out with my family, I got back home at around 9 as usual I turned on my laptop and signed on MSN. My Ex *Ahmad was online; he started talking to me as If nothing happened. This is how the conversation went…

A: Hi!

L: hey, what’s up?

A: oh nothing much, and you?

L: NM either…

A: oh BTW it’s not Ahmad, I’m his friend.

L: Do you by any chance have a name?

A: LOL, yeah, my name is Nasser.

L: oh hi Nasser. ‘Hmm maybe he should be my rebound’ I started thinking about it, and at that time I thought it was the right thing to do, revenge. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not a revengeful person, I forgive easily but I was angry at that time. Anyway so Nasser and I talked from 9:30 till 6:00 am! Imagine, we talked about everything, he was very interesting. He looked like a monkey though… (I’M SERIOUS)

When it was 6, he asked for my number, so I gave it to him. He called me as soon as he took the number. I went offline, got to bed and started talking to him as if I knew him for a very long time. I felt comfortable, yet that feeling came back, the bad feeling? Yeah that one. I just didn’t know what it was back then! I should have listened, little did I know what will happen 3 months later.

I hope you liked the post. I know I don’t post a lot, but I have school, and practice, and and and…

Updates: International day is coming up… My friends and I are doing Lebanon, and Basically, NO ONE knows how to do the Dabke properly, it’s hilarious. No and you know what’s funny? They actually think they have a chance of winning *rolls eyes*

Juju: *** Came back! YAY! I’m so happy! I’m seeing him tomorrow, and I’m going to play kout, until I can’t play anymore, and that’s impossible since I’m always up for a game of Kout with the guys.

Last Wednesday, I was in the yard with 3 other girls, and we were sitting there with ONE guy, and we’re year 11′s and 12′s are segregated cause the school is a CUNT… our head of year came, and he took my badge away, and all 4 girls got detention, and the guy got suspended!! Mu 9ej! My mom was like the school has issues, and it’s ridiculous.

I’m on a diet; I have to lose 6 KG! Stitch DON’T say a word! I NEED IT!

Mmm… I’m angry with doodles, VERY angry. Full stop.

I’m dying for chocolate bar! Tomorrow is my cheat day, I get to eat it! KAIFI!

Okay, enough for today.

Until next time;*

Instead of going to Nino’s and having their Giant Mushroom dripping with oil and cheese… i decided i would make it on my own today…
All it took is one Giant mushroom, some rocket, some cheese, herbs, and ten minutes exactly!!!! With minimal fat and maximum flavour! 
I opened the grill in my oven. While it [...]

yours-sick moi:(

I started a new blog. I always have comments and I always take pics. So i decided to start a new blog away from my main one so that I dont clutter.3anooda In PicsEnjoy

Oooo confession time? For those who haven’t figured it out yet, tara ana Lilo! I keep getting confused and commenting from wrong accounts so just wanted to let you guys know! enjoy.. or not, kaifkum!;**_______________________________We walked hand in h…

Oooo confession time? For those who haven’t figured it out yet, tara ana Lilo! I keep getting confused and commenting from wrong accounts so just wanted to let you guys know! enjoy.. or not, kaifkum!;**_______________________________We walked hand in h…

Oooo confession time? For those who haven’t figured it out yet, tara ana Lilo! I keep getting confused and commenting from wrong accounts so just wanted to let you guys know! enjoy.. or not, kaifkum!;**_______________________________We walked hand in h…

Oh my god, Please let it be M7md.

3bdullah: 5aleeki ana ra7 ashoof meen!

He walked furiousley towards the door. He opend it and to both our surprises it was the cab driver. He said “Sorry to disturb you sir but your wife forgot her mobile in the car” To that i screamed “GET HELP GO GO GET HELP” The driver just stood their trying to put my words together. 3bdullah snatched my phone and pulled the driver into the house. While he wasnt noticeing i grabbed my phone which he placed on the table and ran out, got in my car and drove.

I cant believe i got away. It was a living terror. How could someone do such an insane thing like that? Yeah, i got out safley but what about the driver? He did nothing but return my phone and now there he is at my house getting beaten. That wasnt supposed to be him. It was supposed to be me. He did nothing to deserve the pain he’s going through right now. But still, no way in hell im going back.

At M7mds..

I knocked the door so hard and loud that i probabley woke up the entire neighbor hood.

M7md: 7beebty sheeki?

Me: Nothing, i just wanted to spend the night here if you dont mind, but dont get the wrong idea.

M7md: E ofcourse 7beebty tfathly. Bs lesh fee shay f betik?

Me: L2, its just that im re painting the walls in my house and i coudnt handel the smell. So im gonna need a place to crash for a few days.

M7md: Stay for as long as you want.

M7md took me upstairs to the guests bedroom where i would sleep. He asked if i needed anything or if i wanted to do anything. I wanted to so bad but the thought of 3bdullah in my mind and what happend today.. i just wanted to sleep and get the day over with. We said our goodnighs, he kissed me on my cheek and left to his bedroom.
That night i couldnt sleep, i woke up every hour or so. I couldnt get 3bdullah out of my mind. Where is he? Is he at my house? Tracking me down?
Im sure hes searching for me right this second. If he found me he would probabley beat the living hell out of M7md.. i dont what things he’s capable of but i know that he would go to the extreme.

The next morning i woke up with black circles on my eyes. I barley slept. I kissed M7md and sat down next to him at the table. I was silent for the whole morning. If i spoke i would probabley blurt out everything that happend. And the last thing i want is M7md getting hurt by 3bdullah. I dont want to take that risk.

M7md: 7beebty wsh feeki? You didnt eat anything.

Me: La im fine i just didnt sleep well , thats all.

M7md: 6yb do you wanna go back to your house and get a couple of things?

Me: NO!!!!!!!

M7md: Bsmilah ok ok we wont go..

Me: Sorry wallah bs, it smells so bad that i .. nearly…. got sick… and i dont want you to you know get sick…

M7md: How could paint get me sick?

Me: I dont wanna go ok 5ala9 please !!

M7md: Ok.. bra7tik.

That afternoon M7md and I went and walked around a local mall. We went into a few stores. He bought himself these hot dark jeans and a green Ralph Lauren Polo shirt. Yeah, you know men and their obsession with polo shirts. Especilay when the girls see them in the pink ones, they all go crazy. I mean whats the big deal? Its freakin pink! Its not hot, its gay and girly ! Now black is hot!

We then sat down at coffee bean where we had out hot mochas.
I felt knots building up in my stomach. I wanted to tell him, i had to. He has every right to know.

Me: Baby… i need to confess something to you.

M7md: Ok….. confess away.

Me: I lied. My house isnt being painted. 3bdullah showed up last night at my house.

M7md: Na3am !! 7beebty intay t3ali 3ndi.. esh 9ar?

Me: I asked him to leave but he refused so he tragged me into the house and said that he wanted me to come to Riyadh with him. I told him about us and he god furiouse. He was about to hit me —

M7md: WHAT THE LITTLE ASSWHOLE!!! WALA A7AD YMID YADO 3LEEKI !!

Me: Almhm 5alny akamil. The bell fj2a rang it was the cab driver, apparentley i forgto my phone in the cab. While he wasnt seeing me i ran out and came to you.

M7md: 6ub where the hell is he?

Me: Thats the thing, i dunno. And im really scared if he finds me.

M7md: If he finds you? If he does ill take care of him.

Me: No, 7beeby please. He can seriosuely hurt you. You dont know what he is capable of.

M7md: I wont hurt him dont worry, unless he lays a hand on you. We’ll call the police and have him sent to Riyadh to jail. Im a lawyer remember, ive got my connections and i know exactley what to do. But…

Me: Oh here we go, theres a but.

M7md: Im going to go check out your house. You stay back at mine i dont want to risk you getting hurt.

Me: Me? I dont wanna risk you getting hurt either !!!

M7md: Baby trust me I’ll be back safe i promise. Listen I’ll take a cab to your house right now, Take my car and head to my place.

Me: Ok, bs baby please becareful.

M7md: Lat 5afeen 3alay 7beebty. A7bk. *he kissed me on my lips*

Me: A7bk.

We walked out and went our seperate ways.

My place…

When M7md arrived my front door had still been left open from last night. He walked in and the place was trashed. No one was there. It was like an abandoned home.
He walked up the stairs, once he reached the middle he saw tiny drops of blood. He continued up the stairs. My bedroom door was closed. He opend it and there on the bed he saw the cab driver lying there… dead on my bed. It seemd to M7md that he had been beating reall bad.. street bad.
I knew 3bdullah does crazy things when he’s upset but i never thought, never crossed my mind it would lead to something like this. Murder… a killer !

M7md moved back a few steps from the dead body and covered his mouth with both his hands. Poor thing he was so freaked out.

Suddenly he heard the door downstairs close so hard!

” AGHHHHHHH WEIN IL BNT !!!! “

“I had to dry my hair after taking a shower..”
A sly glance and a nudge.
“Why?” And then the knowing look and an array of hints that I must have needed  to wash because I was tainted from having sex.
“No!” I protest in consternation, with a weak embarrassed smile to even be discussing this private topic [...]

When someone close to you has bad breath, how do you deal with it?
A few weeks ago one of the callers on Dr. Foz’ program said that she had not kissed her husband in several years because his breath disgusts her and he feels offended by this, not knowing the cause of her distance.
A person [...]

The letter was from a wife complaining about her husband.
He drank hot milk with cardamom every night and she thought that  drinking milk was juvenile.
Also, he was so lighthearted and jokey all the time that he could not even be serious during sex.
She felt he was infantile.
Dr. Foz read the letter with a mixture of [...]

El sharha mo 3leehom. El Sharha 3la il jareeda il 3areeqa ilee rethat tansher hal i3lan!!!!
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He had his puppy face on which was really hard to resist but I just pinched his cheeks and went on to class. Class went by like a turtle I just couldn’t wait to spend time with him.

Finally after class was over I found him standing outside his car just waiting for me. And as soon as I went to the parking lot I saw him signaling me to go with him in the car but I signaled that it’s better if we each went in our own cars, and for once he didn’t insist which was a shocker, I remember Mi7sen my ex used to get really mad if I told him I did not wanna get in the car with him. He analyzed it by saying that I did not trust him and some other nonsense.

Bandar was behind me the whole time and he kept signaling me to go faster and that I was really slow, he pointed on his cell phone every once in a while indicating that he wants to know my number. I just laughed and ignored.

He implied me to go faster so I did, and I went fast but yet he did not find it hard to catch up with me. I can see him from the mirror telling me are you crazy and doing the crazy 7araka with hand and telling me to slow down immediately. Uh ohh somebody’s mad. We arrived at Starbucks but thankfully it was empty absolutely empty other than the employees and one man working on his laptop. He left me the close parking space and parked a bit further.

I knew he was angry so I’ve gotta find my way out of his angriness and I knew that I couldn’t just be furtive seeing what I have just done.

Bandar (hathi tista3bi6, ballah 9arlaha 7adith, fee a7ad yamshi chithi ib hal sir3a!)

Cala (uh oh he looks really furious ok only one plan will work): halaa 7abeeebi ( i said it in a dala3 voice and stroked my finger over his chest.)

Bandar ( God how can she make me forget about everything with just one word I was so mad and now I can’t even remember what I was mad at her about): Halaa 7abeebi haa?

Cala: haha, baby, you can’t hide your smile it’s obvious that you’re fighting it

Bandar: (i ignored her which was really hard to do)

I said to him with more dala3 and gave him my puppy face: Baaaaaby.. please wallah sorry ma3eedhaa wallaah wallaah

Bandar (god i can’t resist her anymore bas i have to not let her go that easily): akeeed? (with a nathra min 6araaf 3aini)

Cala: ee 7abeeebi akeedaain bas la tiz3aal 3alay

He did not reply oo haz his shoulders as in I don’t care or whatever.. he did not even look at me, I wasn’t sure if he was chaffing anymore.

Cala: shfeeek ba3aad laish za3laan?

Bandar (haha fir9a walah she’s so cute smila 3alaiha) : tabeeni arthaa?

Cala: ee 7abeebi I’d do anything bas la tiz3al 3alai

Bandar: anything?

Cala: yes baby

He pointed on his lips indicating that he wants me to kiss him.

Cala: ha-ha-ha in your dreams!

Bandar: you said anything..

Cala: okaay aside from that!

Bandar: ok then..

He pointed on his cheeks.

Bandar: that’s as far as I’m going tabeeni artha you know what to do

Cala (this is so embarrassing I better get it over with shakla mu9ir)

I kissed his cheeks really quick just a peck and ran away.. all of a sudden his hands held me. He pulled me to him so close and kissed my cheeks. But not quickly it was a really slow kiss and I felt him breathing in my neck which caused my body to linger.

I wanted to change the subject because he’s gonna notice the change in my reaction since it was really evident. It’s either that or my eyes are just gonna give me away.

Cala: haa khala9 6aa7 el 7a6aab?

He whispered in my ears: 6a7 el 7a6aab min ziman from the moment you told me 7abeebi but the rest was just an act to get what I wanted.

I pushed him awaay and hit him on his shoulders: Bandaaaar

He pulled me back: whaat I’m a guy and you’re a really hot girl.. do you blame me? Plus there’s no way in hell I’m gonna pass a chance that leads to getting a kiss from my baby.

I was too shy to respond.. we headed into Starbucks and oddly he did not ask me what I wanted to drink.

He came back with the tray holding a cheese croissant with two iced white mochas. It’s as if he read my mind I was so hungry that I wanted cheese croissant and wanted something to cool me down which was the white mocha.

Cala: It’s as if you read my mind

Bandar: yeah well you’re gonna pick out dessert.

Cala: you better not pamper me this much i think I’m gonna get used to this

Bandar: 7abeebti you better get used to this because that’s how you’re gonna be treated from now on.

This was by far the definition of pure bliss. We went cruising in his car showing me places I never knew existed in Kuwait. Then he took me to the beach, and we walked hand in hand for half an hour. He stroked my hair every now and then pulling back strands of hair off my face. No one would have ever guessed that a guy like him with this figure would be so sensitive and romantic.

He whispered in my ear words that snapped me out of my own reverie: 3umri.. tadreen inich a7la ma 5alag rabi?

At that moment a cold breeze of air hit my back, instantly I was covered in Goosebumps, his words didn’t help. I wanted to tell him I love him, but I knew it was too soon even though the feelings I was experiencing could only be explained as love)

Bandar: Galbi bardana?

Cala: mm shwaya

Bandar: ana adafeech 7abeebti ta3alay come closer

I was standing a few steps away from,I tripped over a rock and fell into his strong arms. We were dangerously close, facing each other he held my back and my chest was touching his. He was staring at my eyes the whole time with a worried look. I on the other hand was staring at his lips I wanted him so bad.

Bandar (Bandar Bandar snap out of it before doing something that you might regret if you kissed her now she’s gonna think that you’re just playing)

He released his hands and stepped away. He was moving farther and farther.

I didn’t know what was wrong with him so I just stood there staring blankly at him without moving, without breathing. What? Is he gonna leave me or what exactly? I did not wanna cry even though I don’t know how far I can fight the tears back.

Cala

I woke up with a smile on my face that day. I took a quick shower and felt so refreshed. Today was definitely a dress day for me. I dressed up, accessorized, blow dried my hair, and decided to apply a bit of make up today. I applied some bronzer on my face with a bit of blush and lip gloss. Without adding anything to my eye because they looked better without make up. I guess my eyes do distinguish me, they look beautiful without make up. Checking my reflection for the last time in the mirror I was finally satisfied with my look. No not quite. I think I’m going for a pony tail today. Okay now I am satisfied.

I was rushing down the stairs knowing that I am already late.

Cala: Good morning Baba good morning mama. I kissed the crown of their heads. Sorry I gotta go I’m already late.

Baba let out a whistling voice: Hello beautiful!

Cala: babaaa stop it you’re embarrassing me!

Baba: Whaat I didn’t say anything wrong or out of the blue! You look stunning smila 3alaich

I hugged him quickly: Thaank you baba:**

Byeeee

Bandar

I woke up with a smile on my face that day. I took a quick shower and felt so refreshed.

Brushed my teeth adjusted my gufil.

Ok Bandar you have to look good today. Today shows your look when you’re with her. It reflects how you feel when you’re with her. If you’re sad you will be too lazy to dress up for her. If you’re happy it shows that you have been trying on a thousand out fits just to look good for her. But I don’t wanna seem like I’m trying to hard. I decided to go for a Burberry Navy V neck with the monogram on the elbow’s sleeves with beige shorts. This might sound too gay but I actually remember my sister flattering this outfit and she has really good taste in clothes so I guess Loolty will like it. I caan’t wait to see her.

I was rushing down the stairs knowing that I am already late.

Bandar: 9ibaa7 el 5aair yuba, 9ibaa7 el 5aair yuma. I kissed the crown of each of their heads and went to head out but first.

Bandar: Haa yuba basherni 3anik? Nag9ik shay? Tamerni 3ala shay gabil la amshi?

Baba: Laa wlaidi tislam ma dga9ir, bas hallah hallah bil dirasa

Bandar: wintay yuma.. nag9ich shay? Tamreeni 3ala shay min il jam3iyaa.. mini minaak?

Mama: laa ba3aad galbi maabi ila salaamtik oo imsh gabil la tit2a5ar wi5ith lik hal lugma ta5ith’ha ma3ak

Bandar: ya36eech el 3aafia yuma mala da3i ta3abtay 3umrich.. yala 3an ithinkum ana asta2thin al7eeen lazim amshi

I took the driver’s range rover and rushed onto the road. I saw her in her G class she looked stunning. I parked and waited for her to park and as soon as she came down the car I couldn’t help but smile and laugh at the thought of a really tiny person coming out of a really big car. She looked cute. So innocent yet so attractive.

I went down to him only to see him with a wide grin on his face. The sun was directly on his face he looked really good with the neat gufil but yet really messy long hair and with his aviators on. Oh my my!

I decided to put a little charm of my own. I was wearing heels that day and I let my hair go on my way to him.

Bandar (mashalaa she looks like a model.. only better! That face.. there’s no way a model could be as beautiful as her. What in the world is she doing? Oh no she’s torturing me I can’t! WTH Cala not in public! It’s as if she was tempted to seduce me.. no noo this is not gonna be one of those physical relationships there’s no way I’m gonna let this affect me! I’m a grown up and I can control myself bs she has to stop)

Cala: shfeek what’s wrong?

Bandar (am i that obvious): 7abeebti you look incredible wallah mabaligh

Cala: Mashkour you don’t look so bad yourself ( he’s incredibly hot!)

Bandar: so baad haa?

Cala: eee sh’hal thi8aa il zaayda?

Bandar: walah 3aad i7igli

I gave him a look as in i7lif?

Bandar: wallah ba3aad wana il 9aaj.. walah baby as long as I’m with you moo bas i7igli ila i7igli oo ni9.

He put his arms around me and pulled me closer. ( I hope i can manage being next to her without showing that I’m fighting my temptations.)

Cala: bandoori not in public please

Bandar: bandoori and you expect me to let go? Huh 7ilmay

I said with a strict voice: Bandar I’m serious please not in public 7achi il nas may5ali9

Bandar: ee walah asif 7abeebti a9lan madri shloun ana 7ita wagif ma3ach chithi aham ma 3alay sum3itich.

Cala: haha 3ad moo lai hal daraja ina ma togaaf ma3ay.

Bandar: 7abeebti tirayagtay?

Cala: mm no i was in a hurry

Bandar: zain khala9 how about after class we go grab some coffee and something for you to eat?

Cala: okay baby how about Starbucks il Kaneesa mafi nas

Bandar: okay 7abeebti as soon as you finish call me!

eeeeee ta3aalaay!!

you little missy, li 7saab thani ma3aach ba3dain! shloun ams 6afat 3alai madri! Wintay wiya wayhich laish ma 3a6aiteeni your number

Cala: haha it’s because I was playing hard to get

Bandar: hard to get hatha awal ya mama amaa al7een noo! Yala shtan6ireen give me your number bser3aa

Cala: laa ya baba I’m not giving you my number!! I’ll meet you there at 10 if you’re late bamshi moo dgoool

Bandar: 7ilwa hathi shinu you won’t give me your number!! Loola 7abeebti yalaa 3ad bla d3alaa just give me the number oo khala9

Cala: haha 7ilwa hathi Loola, i like it. No one ever called me this before.

Bandar: 3jibtich? Shofay itha ma36aiteny raqmich babdy anadech Calo!

Cala: haha kilshay minik 3asaal ya 7abeebi, yalaa bye

Cala: hehe yala I’m driving you home and don’t say no I insist from now.

Bandar with a huge grin: enshaala 7ayati just let me call a friend to come pick up my car

Cala: ok baby take your time.

Bandar: haa? shinu? Ma simaa3t?

I said with an innocent look: nothing, I just said take your time.

Bandaar: ahaa okaay, if you say so.

He came down and started tickling me: haa shgiltaay? lail7een ma giltay shay?

Cala: Bandaaar pleaase I’m really tickilish.

He kept tickling me.

Cala: Fine I said baby! He stopped tickling me as soon as I said it.

Cala: Happy?

Bandar: More than happy, ecstatic. I wanna be hearing it a lot more from you. (I heard it many times but that’s the first time a7is ib ma3na il kilma o I appreciate it)

I said with a grin: mashalaa hatha weedik t3awrik oo chithi

Bandar: loolty yalaa 3aad balaa dalaa3.

Cala: Mabi ( i raised my shoulders like an angry child)

Bandar: looly 7abeebti I’m so sorry khalas ma3eedha bas la tiz3ileen mini magdaar 3ala za3lich (i really can’t. Magdar 3ala za3alha ana ma 9adagt 3ala allah ina she’s mine and only mine)

Cala: you’re way too adorable ina az3al 3alaaik (and i pinched his cheek)

He blushed a little: ohh so i see I’m not the only one that blushes?

Bandar (I never knew that too that’s the first time I blush, guess that’s only when I’m with you): Well your affect on me is more than what you realize.

The ride back home was really pleasant we kept talking as if we just met I learned many interesting things about him that I did not know. He had a twin brother that passed away a couple of years ago. Allah yir7ima.

He listened intently whenever I talked. He’s such a good listener.

Bandar: looly 7abeebti tara you’re not gonna drop me my house.

Cala: ok 7abeebi i’ll drop you wherever you want even though I think you should go your house to rest.

Bandar: yeaah I’m going to my house bas first you’re going to your house oo i’ll walk to the jam3iya oo have a friend pick me from there.

Cala: olaa olaa oo laish 3aad kil hal 3abala?

Bandar: 3alashan it’s late right now oo I can’t let you go home by yourself and from now on you better get used to it. (i hope she doesn’t feel like I’m trying to control her)

Bandar: looly baby I’m just doing this la2ani 5ayif 3alaich I don’t want anything to happen to you oo walah i9bayan hal ayam yin5af minhum eyoon lai byoot il nas I’m not trying to control you or anything.

Cala: So what if you were? I like it. It’s the first time a7ad e5af 3alai lai hal daraja and I know that you’re not the controlling type. I gave him a smile.

He held my hand the whole way with a smile that did not wash off his face. He kissed my fingers and hands every couple of seconds.

Caa: Mm baby please tara raa7 ad3am you’re distracting me.

Bandar: mm sorry 7abeebti but I can’t help it. A9ab3ich hathaila mal 3aa’9! They’re so tempting.

I was blushing so much: Bandaaaaaaaaaaaaar

Bandar: hehe amoot 3ali yisti7oon.. Khala9 khalaa9 I’m sorry ha sikatna

Bandar: baby I wanna tell you something, I know that this is all going too fast, but I swear it’s only because I saw what it was like not having you around, and it was like hell. I don’t wanna go through it again and I don’t want to waste another minute of my life regretting the fact that I did not tell you how I feel about you or not being around you.

As I was about to reply to what he had just said, he realized that I was heading to Surra.

Bandar: hehe 7abeebti shfeech nisaitay? we’re going to your house first.

I said with a smile on my face: La ma nisait

Bandar: 3ayal laish ray7a il Surra?

Cala: hehe ma3arafnalik moo tabeeni arou7 baitna awal?

Bandar china ma 9adag 5abar, but of course it took him a while to figure it out: haaa?

7ilfaay!! 7ilfaay wallah baitkum bil surra?

Cala: hehe ee shfeek shda3wa moo m9adig

Bandaar: aywaa wala la6aayi7 3indich kil youm. oo this way it’s even better agdar a6aman 3alaich whenever I want oo make sure that you’re safe near me.

Cala: lol okay bas moo a6la3 one day washoufik imkhayim bara baitna

Bandar: walaah 3ad if I did, who could blame me?

I went to my house and the weather was amazing. Bandar made me drop him off before I entered our block saying that he doesn’t want to get me into trouble and for my reputation and all. He was just perfect. My knight in shinning armor. Bandar decided to return to his house by walking since our houses were only a block away

Bandar (oh shitt!! how did it not cross my mind! I didn’t get her phone number. I can’t go back now it’s way too risky for her.

Khala9 inshala i’ll get it first thing in the morning.

Aah i just wanna hear her voice before I go to sleep and tuck her into bed. That sensational voice. (Allah etamim 3alaina inshala)

‘ shloonha il 7ilwa ? ” Am sorry wrong number ! ” A..’ And before he could say anything I hung upMo mn 9ija ! mn wain yab ra8mee hatha ! mn wain 6ila3!’ Shno sh9ar 7yaty ? ‘ Faris asked’ Umm.. baby remember 7amad ? ” uhh from camp ? I think so .. ye…

i7iim i7iiim! Ive been lazy hal ayaam(a)! Well not lazy ..stressed to be exact! You have no ideaa how much tests, quizzes and projects we have (only if ur in my skool)

Soo i promise you beautifull readers that i’ll post on thursdaay nite..i thought about writing a quick post to tell u what happened bil fone call but i didnt think it’ll be good since i only have 9 minutes until my studying break is over..yes yes not 10 minutes..9!!

-tengo que irme..adios;*

Hey guys, i was feeling a little generous today so here you go. :D
hope you like it. And thats it fyewwww… yallah till tommorow. enjoy!
Love u ! xx

The next few weeks were amazing. Everything was working out perfectley with M7md. We saw eachother probabley more than we should. We talked about everything, he knew everything about me. He was so charming that whenever he would talk to me i couldnt stop blushing. I got butterflies everytime i’d first see him. The most thing i loved about him was his sense of humor. He sure does know how to make a girl laugh like an ideot. Kan dayman ydale3ny. And one thing that really put my heart at ease was when all of us would hang out. Me, m7md, Sarah, Kareem, Haya, and Fai9al. We would go out to dinners together and head on over to the beach for the weekend. We were like one big couples group. It was lovley. There was never this kind of thing with 3bdullah. He never liked to do group things thats much.

Tonight was me and M7mds 1 month annaversary. And yeah i know its lame to celebrate something of 1 month but he seemd really 3xcited about it so he wanted to take me out for a nice evening. Y7belo !! Im so head over heels for guy im going to suffocate.

I wore this mini flowy red dress. Gold heels. Diamond earrings. Black tiny clutch to put in my lip gloss and cell phone. You know what they about the color red.. it drives men wild ! ;)

That evening at M7mds house…

M7md: Your beautiful you know that?

Me: *blushing* hmm.. thanks

M7md: So one month.

Me: Yup.. mm hmm… as weve come to so far.

M7md: La baby please dont get nervous on me again.

Me: 7mood walla im not but im just so excited i dont want to ruin it by making a fool of myself.

M7md: Haa? baby how could you make a fool of yourself? Anything that come out of your mouth is sweet.

Me: M7md i want you to know that i care for you deeply. And this past month has been like heaven. Im really happy to be with you.

M7md: With that said I have something to give you.

He pulled out a thin long velvet colored box. I opend it and to my scock it was a diamond tennis bracelt. Ive always wanted one of those OMG how did he know !!?

Me: M7md its gorgouse thank thank thank you!!

M7md: Let me see it on you… I saw you staring at it as we walked passed the store. It seemed to catch your eye in a split second. I knew you wanted it.

Me: Your the sweetest damn thing. Wallah thank you. but you really didnt have to.

M7md: Wsh d3wa doody i wanted to.

I gave him my wrsit, as he put the braclet on i couldnt stop staring at him and smiling. It all felt like a dream, I couldnt believe my eyes. He then removed his eyes from my wirst and turned it up at me.

M7md: There, beautiful.

Me: Thank you 7beeby.

M7md: Doody?

Me: Na3am 3yoni.

M7md: A7bk..

I looked at him and smiled.

Me: O ana ba3ad a7bk.

M7md: Happy annaversary baby.

He then leaned towards me and kissed my lips. Probabley our longest kiss haha !

After that we went and dined in his dining room. He cooked me this amazing meal. Yes.. he does cook. I love a man who cooks, its so so sexy.

Two hours later, after i got home.

“Thank you sir have a nice night”

As i walked up the steps to my house someone was sitting on the ground near the door. I was scared, i couldnt make out who it was. It was man.
As i got closer he got up. I slowly moved back wanting to run. I could barley see since it was night and all. I didnt have my out door lights on. The man got closer to me until i could finaly see his face.

“Oh my god… 3bdullah ?”

“Hey baby im back, aww whats the matter? Didnt you miss me?”

He had this look in his eyes. Something didnt feel right. Now i really wish i had listend to M7md and let him take me home.
Why did i feel he was about to do something? I dont know.

I wanted to scream but i was scared.
I wanted to run but i was scared.

3bdullah: C’mon lets go inside.

Me: Ummm. no i think think you should leave.

3bdullah: Hmm… no get in.

Me: Why ?

3bdullah: I wanna talk.

Me: So talk.

3bdullah: Inside.

Me: No.

3bdullah: DINA AL7EEN INSIDE.

Me: NO !! GET THE HELL OUT OF HERE !

He grabbed me by my arm and started to pull me until we got into my house. He then pushed me onto the couch and i started to cry.

3bdullah: Ive been thinking about us..

Me: *sobbing* Us? There is no us anymore dont you get it !!

3bdullah: Come with me to Riyadh.

Me: HELL NO !! I have someone in my life and im in love with him.

3bdullah: YOU WHAT !! *walking over to slap me*

Ding Dong.

(ashwaa al7mdela.. ya rab sa3edny ya rab sa3edny)

It is working!!! It is WORKING!!! The diet and the 30 minutes exercise on Wii Fit daily has paid off!!! I have LOST WEIGHT!!!! Significant amount of weight!!! and it is NOT WATER!
HEYYYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
Yesterday i have done the Wii Body Test, it shared with me my happiness!!!
The Wii session daily is amazing! The day i used [...]

My trip was cut 2 days short. It did not go as planned. I had a 6 hour road trip back home alone last night and with a really bad flu.Today the flu is worse and I feel like I have mucus in my brain. There is so much pressure in my head I just wanna dri…

I was in utter shock. I mean yes there probabley would be an explination what I saw, but it definitley won’t be a good one. Although I was kinda jumping into conclusions, I couldnt help but think back to last night. Was it something I said or did. Cause you know mean, the one tiny thing you do could make then flip and go the other way. But I did nothing wrong I’m positive. You saw how we ended the night.. PERFECT! All we needed was some backround music and some black and white lighting and a big THE END across the screen and were done.

Haya finally arrived . I called her up and asked if we could instead just order in.

Haya: Ahlan !

Me: Hayouuuuuuuuuuuuna !! *gave her a hug and kiss*

Haya: Haha ayy ayy ayy thahrii ya hablaaaa !!

Me: Hehe sorry, come come sit sit !!

Haya: Ok so now tell me did he call you today?

Me: Who?

Haya: Who? M7md thats who. *looking at me in confusion*

Me: Oh you mean the guy whos’ practicaly cheating on me at this very moment. Nah were good.. peachy… fine.. perfect !

Haya: WHAT! WHAT DO YOU MEAN CHEATING!

Me: I went on over to his house this morning to surprise him with breakfast, but then through his window I saw him, he was about to hug this girl.

Haya: Thats what your fussing about? A hug? Maybe it was his sister, or cousin or…

Me: His bitch?

Haya: Dina babe seriousley c’mon. You yourself told me you were falling for him. So dont judge him so fast.. like you do everyone.

Me: Heeeeeeeey !!

Haya: Oh c’mon who are you kidding! Anyways lets get it over with so yallah call him up.

Me: Huh?

Haya: Yeah .. call him up.

**Dialing M7md**

M7md: Hala bl gamar

Me: Hala feek

M7md: Kfk?

Me: Good you?

M7md: Good. Hey I think I’m getting lucky.

Me: Oh really, how so?

M7md: Yesterday I was out with the most adorable thing in the world, and this morning free breakfast on my front door.

Me: Oh yeah, i hope you enjoyed them.

M7md: Did you?

Me: Yeah …

M7md: Y7lwlik walla, why didnt you stay?

Me: You were busy hugging some girl.

M7md: What? Oh.. awww cute, your jelouse.

Me: No, im not but I’m just a little upset.

M7md: No your jelouse hehe. Listen do you know that girl was.

Me: Are you for real? .. How the hell am I supposed to know who the little tramp is when she was hugging you so damn hard she didnt move for me to see her !!

M7md: Oh dina… dina.. dina .. dina

Me: What?

M7md: That girl this morning was my sisters friend. Both she and my sister came to see me.

Me: Oh really? Well I didn’t spot your sister anywhere.

M7md: Thats cause she was in the kitchen making us some juice.

Me: Well whatever, the hug didnt seem friendly at all.

M7md: Ok first of all she and my sister have been friends since grade 2. And when i was little we would all play together. And I stopped keeping in touch with her a long time ago. That hig was a way of saying hello. I promise you theres nothing.

Me: Oh…

M7md: Doody, you know I care about you so much to hurt you.

Me: Yeah… ok im sorry i over reacted.

M7md: Its ok. So do you have anything planned for tonight?

Me: Im here with Haya now, but at night Im free.

M7md: Ok good I’m gonna come over, we’ll watch a movie.

Me: Ok see you then, bye.

**End**

Haya: Mmm hmm !

Me: What?

Haya: And you thought he was cheating on you. Poor silly girl. You know not all men are the same.

Me: Whatever!

Haya: No dont say that. Listen to me very carefully. He likes you alot ok. Dont back away from him give him a chance, and be your full self. Let him see and discover the real you. Please Dina.

Me: Fine fine!!

Haya: Now about me and Fofo… damn he’s a great kisser.

Me: Okaaaaaay and thats the answer to every question I had to ask you.

Haya: Hahaa ya ws5aa !!

A couple of hours passed by. We ordered in Chinese. Haya suddenly had to leave cause Fai9als mom wanted to see her, which was something she wasn’t so thrilled about. You see she never really liked her mother in law. She was too much into other people lives (malgoofa). Haya thought of her as ” a pain “. Now as for me I wanted to look good for M7md.
I hopped into the shower and started to get ready. I wore my dark blue barmodas, pink sleevless top and a losse white sweater over it. With it my white Chanel flats and diamond earing which was my moms. God I missed her so much. If only she were here to know what’s been going on. You know sometimes I dont believe their death that I always feel their going to be downstairs in the living room once I came down. But now my house is dead with silence.

He came !!

M7md: Aww look at you all dressed up for me. *gave me a kiss on the cheeck*

Me: Hehe la yikthar bs !!

M7md: So how would you feel if we watched the notebook?

Me: YEEEES YEEEEES YEEEEEEES !! AGHH !!

M7md: Wow.. ok yallah haha 7lelik

We popped in the movie and sat down on the couch. We were sitting on the same couch but were far from one another. He pulled me by my arms closer to him. He put his arms around me. Through out the movie i kept on crying. He laughed and whiped my tears away. Its not funny ok !! Its such a powerful movie and that Noah.. wohoooo he’s damn hot !! Oh right theres a nother hot next to me hehe.

I fell asleep on his muscular chest. M7md tried not to move and got the blanket that was next to him to cover me up. He just kept staring at me, stroking my hair lightly.
I finaly woke up to find him still there in the same position he was when we first started the movie. He just stared at me as I woke no, No words said. He pulled myh hair back behind my ears and pulled me closer to him. He put me back onto his chest but this time in the position where we were both facing eachother. We didnt take our eyes off eachother. He whispered to me ” I never want to forget this moment “. He slowly leaned in ans kissed my nose. I closed my eyes. I could then feel his warm breath beneath my nose. This was it the kiss i wanted. I was ready. I knew he was.
His lips touched mine. It was so soft. I melted to the ground once i felt them. He kissed me with such passion. He then slowly backed away and pulled me closer to him. We then remained the same. Me lying on his chest with him holding me like i was a jewl he was trying to protect.

This is the beggining of a new chapter in my life. I was certain M7md was going to stay in it.
Remember when i said i had faalen for him? Yeah well sctrach that and put it real hard !