Originality:

1 : the quality or state of being original.
2 : freshness of aspect, design, or style.
3 : the power of independent thought or constructive imagination.

I’m angry.
Scratch that, I’m infuriated.

Have you noticed the lack of originality in our generation? I AM sick of self tanned, orange haired girls asking “Eish your BBM?” FUCK YOU! that’s my BBM, bitch.

I want to take their Katy Perry filled iPods and beat them repeatedly in the head till they just DIE. Yes, I want them all to die, ALRIGHT?

Not only do they all dress the same, talk the same, act the same, and listen to the same fucking music, THEY ALSO THINK THE SAME EXACT WAY!

Why do people have this urge to be like everybody else? why would you want that when you could be YOU? screw joining the herd, I’m standing OUT! call me the black friggin’ sheep, I don’t care.

I’m launching a Counterculture! together, we shall be against EVERYTHING mainstream!

Well, except The Backstreet Boys…
and Furbies….

Well, we’re against anything that is CURRENTLY mainstream. Things that once were mainstream are fair play *takes out her Baby G watch* what? they’re cool, okay :P

COWABUNGA!

Dedicated to the cute lil’ girl emnilia :P;* 5ala9 , His name is wahab , thank you all ! ~ Noura’s phone ringed , it was Shai5a . She 6ala3at her mobile from her pocket , saw it was shay5a then put it back in her pocket .. Wahab was still…

My Lovley Reader,

I’m finaly back home, sorry I’ve kept you waiting so long.

I’ve missed you all and your wonderful comments.

Enjoy the post .

Love you all ;**

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3 Months Later

Everything was perfect, on the right track and still heading that way. Rayan was such a sweetheart, always there by my side and the babies. He sometimes wouldn’t sleep at night just incase I woke up and needed anything. He would spoil me to a level that I never knew exhisted. He was simply amazing and I’m so glad to have him in my life.

Haya was I think about… 5 months pregnant but yet as always still glowling like an angel. Sara and Yusif, well things were heating up with those two. They grew incredibley close in those 2 months. He even took her away to Kan for a long weekend.

Once again everything was perfect for the 3 of us that we coudln’t ask for anything more or better.

Rayan: You look beautiful 7beebty.

Me: I look like a fat pig in tracks !! * falling back onto the sofa*

Rayan: Its juciy, you love juicy.

Me: Ugh.. juciy my ass.

Rayan: Hormones?

Me: Yeah, worse every day.

Rayan: 3adi 7beebty. Just think of it from the positive side.

Me: ….

Rayan: Were soon going to be parents and have our selves a little rascal running around the house.

Me: Rascal huh? What makes you think its going to be a boy ?

Rayan: I’ve got a hunch. *winks at me*

Me: Yeah well it’s going to be a little angel.

Rayan: Hahah yseer 5air inshallah. Yallah let’s go see.

Me: You made the appointment ?

Rayan: E esh feeha ?

Me: Rayan… what did I tell you !! I wanted it to be a surprise for the both of us.

Rayan: 7beebty I really wanna know .

Me: Well I dont ok ! Can’t you please respect my decison.

Rayan: Ok listen, how about this… we go but only I will know what it is and you wont. I’ll have the doctor just tell me.

Me: Fine but how I can trust you not to blab.

Rayan: Wallah 7beebty I wont.

Me: Uff.. fine yallah lets go. Help me up.

So we went to the hospital and Rayan got the sex of the baby while I stuck to the deal I made with myself. I mean why do people love to spoil the surprise? Why ruin the thrill ?

Later that day after the hospital for some reason Fai9al wanted to meet up with me, so Rayan dropped me off and this was how things went.

Fai9al: Halla bl 8amar. *hugs me*

Me: Haha ahlan.

Fai9al: What do you wanna drink?

Me: water would be fine thanks.

Fai9al: Bs? Yallah 3ad.

Me: La walla Fofo shab3ana.

Fai9al: 6yb 3ala ra7tik.

Me: So how are you and Haya.

Fai9al: A77m..

Me: Haha sorry and the baby?

Fai9al: La everythings well 7mdela. Bs Haya keeps going on and on about how fat she’s getting and about the tracks she has to keep on wearing.

Me: She and me both !

Fai9al: Haha inti ba3ad ?

Me: YES !!

Fai9al: Y7belkom.

Me: So, why did you want to mee up? Is everything ok?

Fai9al: La I just wanted to catch up thats all.

Me: Oh.. ok.

Fai9al: So how was the visit to the hospital ?

Me: It went fine.

Fai9al: Wow I can’t believe your having a little girl.

Me: WHAT !!!

Fai9al: What ?

Me: A GIRL !!!???

Fai9al: Bsmila 3leeki Dina yes a girl.

Me: Awww *tears* Im having a girl.

Fai9al: Oh sweetie come here *hugs me*

Me: A little girl…

Fai9al: Want me to take you to Rayan ?

Me: Yes please.

We payed the check and Fai9al dropped me off home. Yeah I didnt want to know but I felt happy when he told me. You know when you dont want to know something and once it hits you, you get excited,not mad at the fact that you found out?
I arrived home and found Rayan walking up the stairs. I hurried over to him and hugged him.

Rayan: Uffff bshweeesh hahah esh feeki 7beebty?

Me: Were having a baby girl.

Rayan: Ya 7ayati inti… a7bk marra.

Me: W ana ba3ad akthar ya 3mri.

Rayan: Yalla lets go upstairs and watch a movie in bed.

Me: Perfect.

We walked up the stairs, changed into our warm sleep wear and cuddled into bed and watched a movie.

While we were cozying up, Sarah and Yusif were still up late.

Yusif: I love you…

Sarah: I love you too…

Yusif: Do you really ?

Sarah: With all my heart.

Yusif: Would you move in with me if i asked you?

Sarah: No…

Yusif: Sarouuuu !

Sarah: E 6b3an I will.

Yusif: I love you…

Sarah: Oh my god enough we get it.

Yusif: Way to ruin the mood.

Sarah: 7beeby its not that , its just that your too sensitive. You have to chill and relax we dont always have to say it to eachother. I know im your first girl friend but it doesnt mean we have to follow up to Cory and Tepenga.

Yusif: Who ?

Sarah: Their this couple on a disney show called “Boy Meets World”

Yusif: O… k

Sarah: Dont look at me that way I’m just giving you an example.

Yusif: Ok Im sorry. But I cant help it.

Sarah: Yeah well its kinda annoying wallah so if you could cut it down a bit.

Yusif: Sarah are you seriouse?

Sarah: Whats wrong with what I said ?

Yusif: Well first of all its rude. And second, yeah I may be a bit sensitive when it comes to us but thats only because im madly in love with you, the first girl I’ve ever been inlove with.

Sarah: I know 7beeby and i love as much as you do –

Yusif: Yeah it really shows…

Sarah: I do, dont say that !!

Yusif: Fffffff….

Sarah: It’s just a little weird ok..

Yusif: How on earth could this be weird for a couple to do ?

Sarah: Well Kareem was never like this…. oh

Yusif: Excuse me?

Sarah: I… I’m sorry that was never supposed to come out….

Yusif: Yeah if it didn’t then you would have been thinking it …

Sarah: I didn’t mean it I’m —

Yusif: Don’t…. please dont..

Sarah: Sufi I’m so sorry…

Yusif: Yeah… I think I’m gonna call it a night.

Sarah: No wait please dont go.

Yusif: I’ve got an important client coming over in the morning.

Sarah: Oh…. well cant you stay the night? I mean its late.

Yusif: Thank you but I’ll be fine.

Sarah: Well… will I see you tommorow ?

Yusif: We work together Sarah.

Sarah: Yeah I know but I ment after ….. work…

Yusif: I dont know I’ll have to see.

Sarah: See? See what?

Yusif: You know what your right. I dont have to see anything. You see what you want from me and when you finaly know then let me know.

Sarah: Where’s all this coming from you know I love you.

Yusif: I know you do I never said you didn’t.

Sarah: So what’s the problem ?

Yusif: The problem is that you just compared me to a man that took you for granted and cheated on you. So I’m sorry if my personality does not match his. Im the caring devoted type and if thats not what your into then you can just fall back into his arms.

Sarah: Yusif !!

Yusif: I’m leaving now bye.

Sarah watched Yusif got into his car and dirve off until he disappeared. Did she just make the biggest mistake of her life ? I got a phone call from her in the middle of the night in tears.

Me: Hello

Sarah: Dina ?

Me: Hala 7beebty, isnt it a little too late for you to be this up?

Sarah: I’m scared.

Me: 7beebty whats wrong?

Sarah: I think I just made the biggest mistake.

Me: What ?

Sarah: I think I just lost Yusif…

2 Days Later

Yusif: Ok, so you wanted to meet up now what ?

Sarah: Ok I know what I said was out of line and it should have never come out and I’m so sorry. I dont want him or anybody like him. Im greatful to have you, someone who cares so much for me and would do anything just so see me smile. I love you and again I’m so very sorry. And I mean this from my heart.

Yusif: You really hurt me you know that ?

Sarah: I know baby.

Yusif: 5ala9 almhm its all over and done with. Let’s move on and go on and get your stuff.

Sarah: So you still want me to move in ?

Yusif: It never left my mind for a second.

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I know this is a bit short. Bs yallah sam7ony. I feel things are moving a bit slow so the next post is going to start from 5 months later. Because it would be close to Haya and Dina’s birth. And well I just think it would be best. I hope thats ok with you all ??

xx

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Weekend issue-

The

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long

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Dedicated to Laymoon :o)

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Bader: ..

Jumana: bader?

Bader: Wallah itha 7asaitich close to ready ill tell you..

Jumana: La2!! i need you to tell me now!

Bader: y9eer 5air..

Jumana gave up and just sat in silence untill they arrived al-shaab park.. (so she can pick her car up because he made her ride his for the surprise remember??)

it was 10:40

Jumana (in a very formal way): Thank you bader i really had fun.

Bader: La7’6a..

Jumana: na3am?

Bader: laa tiz3ileeen! bas magdar agoollich al7een..

Jumana: itha ma giltlee laish.. hathee a5er marra akilmik feeha.. la2inna may9eer chithy!!! a7is im carrying 1000 pounds of guilt going out with you chithy.. this is certainly not guiltless..

and she got out of his car and walked to hers..

Bader: la2.. jumana.. ni6raay!

She was still run-walking to her car which was a bit far..

a group of 3 spikeanians ;p (ya3nee 6aggat spikey skinny oo that stuff) approached her and started following her and kind of touching her and poking her..

Jumana: i7tirim nafsik a7sanlik..

she sad as she semi turned to them while walking.. nafs.ha ib 5ashimha 3ala goolat.hom ;p

Spikanian 1: oo2 oo2 it.haddid ba3aad

Spikanian 2: amooot 3al wardy ana

Spikanian 1: ma gad shift il-wardy 7ilo bas lamma shifta 3alaich ‘3ayyart rayey

(he was weaaring a pink tee with music writings all over)

Spikanian 3: shda3waaa! sharfeena bkilmaa wa7da bass..

Chan spikanian 1 ygoom oo yag’6ibha min eedha oo he turns her to face him..

Spikanian 1: inzain 3a6eena wayh ;)

she screamed at him and tried to fight him off but he kept holding..

Spikanian 1: walla many 3a’6ich.. shda3waaaaa ;)

Jumana: HIDNYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!

He wouldn’t and she started to tear up.. cuz she was alone with three guys at the end of the shi3ib parking..

Jumana “god im so stupid!! laish 5allait bader!!”

She started to cry..

Spikanian 3: haaay la tabcheen shaddala3.. mi7na 3a’6eenich

Spikanian 2: Shda3waa hatha w bas maskat il-eed shloun il-bajy? ;)

Jumana started crying more..

6AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA5

Spikanian 1 fell to the ground.. he was covered with blood coming out of his nose and mouth..

spikanian 2 o 3 huddled up over someone..

Jumana just froze there..

BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOV

Spikanian 2 & 3 heads bang with each other…

And they fall.. then the three of them runaway..

and then she saw..

Jumana (still covered in tears): Bader?

Bader (in a very remorseful tone): ASIF JUMANA!! WALLAH MA KAN 8A9DI AHIDDICH!! KINT GA3D ADAWWIR 3ALAICH! RI7T WAGGAFT YAM SAYYARTICH GILT YIMKIN ITKOONEEN MINNAK BA3DAIN SIMA3T 9RA5..

Jumana tried to stop crying.. she hated when she cried infront of people.. but she just cried harder.. the whole situation was just soo.. over whelming.. who would’ve know what would happen if Bader didnt come..

Bader: wallah asif!!!! allah y5alleech la tabcheen! bas! ga6a3tay galby..

He came closer and hugged her..

Bader: Wallah if you give me the chance.. i will never let anyone lay a hand on you or hurt you.. just give me a chance… try me..

Jumana kept crying silently on his chest..

she gradually stopped crying and he let her go..

Bader: haa 5ala9? c:

Jumana shook her head with shame..

Bader smiled and side hugged her all the way walking to her car..

While there walking in al-shaab park’s msafi6.. the girls there kept giving Jumana dirty looks.. and flirted with bader and doing everything to get his attentio.. One girl actually stopped them and asked for his number.. but he being a nice guy even to hal-ashkal declined politely..

he dropped her off to her car.. and told her to wait inside and lock the doors because hes gonna go to his car and then he will ysayerha all the way home..

Bader: gifleeh 3adel.. a5af wa7ed min hal-8aleeleen il2adab yifta7ah 3alaich o ysawee 7arakat..

Jumana: inshallah..

She smiled that painful smile.. the ones after u cry real hard..

Bader: itha tabeen ay shay 6iggay hirin arid lich rake’6..

Jumana laughed..

Jumana: bader.. i think i can manage a few minutes alone..

Bader: oo right.. sorry.. ok umm latroo7een digeega..

He ran back to his car..

Jumana smiled at his goofyness..

she waited 2 mins

6oooooooo6 6oooooooooo6..

She looked at her rear view mirror and saw bader..

She started moving and he followed..

When they got to their houses..

Jumana: Thank u bader..

Bader: dont thank me.. ilyoum killish ma kan what i planned..

he looked down..

Jumana: a9lan taby the truth! today was the best day i had in a very long time…

Bader: kanaw madree shbysawoon feech hathool oo itgoleen the best day?

Jumana: Eee la2inna one bad event cant ruin a day full of great ones..

Bader semi smiled..

Jumana: i played games i would have never tried.. ate like ive never ate before.. and rode horses even though im scared of them.. and saw my favorite movie under the stars.. shaby ba3ad?? :-)

Bader grinned..

Bader “hathee ihyaa.. ee hathee”

Bader: mashkoora.. :)

Jumana: inta illy mashkoor..

They said there goodbyes.. and stood there..

Bader “move legs move!!”

Jumana “waay shna6ra ana!!”

Bader “maybe i should ask her out again.. la la a5af itgooly laish obooy ib yir’6a o madre shno, ba3dain kil shay yi5tirib..”

they both managed to move and entered their houses..

Jumana entered her house screaming..

Jumana: YYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! XD IYAANNIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Baba: shno illy iyannin?’

She saw her father yi6la3 min i9ala with her mother and brother following..

Jumana: Haa?!?! laaa.. ha???

Baba: shnoo illy iyannin? oo laish it9ar5een ib no9 il-laaail!?!?

Jumana: um.. feee ga6wa barraa itshawwig..

fai9al: yy oo yy a5er shay tilgoona 3itwee 9afi6 yam lizbalaa..

Jumana: agool.. yalla minnaaak!

fai9al: Shtabeen 7a6a doobich dooby!?!

and they kept fighting for 10 mintues untill ma oboohom zafhom zaffaaaa ;p..

Jumana headed for her room..

She changed he clothes and wore her betty boop pjs ;p

she went over to open her window..

but then stopped..

Jumana “iff bader..”

She turned around and sat on her bed.. and then opened her bo 6agga laptop..

she kept looking at the window..

suddenly she started to breath really fast and her eyes were teary

she ran over to her brothers room and opened the window and almost threw herself out..

She took a deep breath..

Jumana “ista’3firallah..”

she got out.. and saw her mother..

Mama: jumana shfeech!??

Jumana: bas ‘6agat nafsee, kint m9akra iddireesha..

Mama: Haw!! ba6leeha!

Jumana: Laa yumma!!

She was too late, her mother was already in her room shirri3ing the window

Jumana: yummaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!

Mama: Maynoona intaaay!? laish 8amtaa nafsich?? tabeen tmooteen!?

she wasnt screaming but she was talking loudly..

Jumana peaked to see if he heard or something..

but she just saw open lights..

then she saw bader walk over to his window..

she hid behind the curtains.. but she could still see..

Mama: haaw!! mafeeha shay il-direeesha! laish ma ba6alteeha?

Jumana: haa madree..

Mama: 5ala9 yumma ana baroo7..

Jumana: yalla ma3a issalama..

Mama: allah ysalmich.. bas haaa ma t9ik.. shfeech min5asha wara il-barda? shit6al3een?? haaa??

Jumana turned and faced her mother..

Jumana: laa bas bashoof itha yimkin il-barda 5arbaanaa.

Mama: allah yi9li7ich ya bnayty..

Jumana laughed and her mother walked out..

she hid behind the window again and saw Bader…

his window was already open..

he then came to it and looked at Jumanas

Jumana “ayal chathaab.. i would never look.. ee ee 9aa7”

and then he closed his curtains..

Jumana “wee ‘6alamtah.. iyannin hal-2insaan iyanniiiiiiiin! XD”

She felt drousy.. so she closed her laptop and went to bed..

next morning she woke up to her mobiles message alarm..

She looked at her clock..

it was 1:30

Jumana: i might as well get up now..

she threw off the covers.. headed for her bathroom.. brushed her teeth.. twi’6at.. and then got out prayed and changed her clothes for uni..

She stared at her kabat wondering what to wear..

Jumana: shalbiiiis.. shalbiiis..

She eventually decided on a navy coat with a white shirt and a slim brown belt with beige pants.. beige laffa.. hot pink flats with her favorite gucci babouska bag and gold accessories .. she applied mascara blush and lip gloss.. and she was ready to go..

she saw that she had an hour and a half left so she thought she would get something to eat..

she went down stairs and saw her mom sitting bi9ala drinking her tea..

Jumana: salam 3alaikom..’

she kissed the crown of her mothers head

Mama: wa 3alaikom issalam hala bibnaytyy ta3aaly gi3daay..

She took a seat beside her mother..

Mama: Haa shal-kash5aa.. lyoom shaklich ‘3air.. sh6ary 3alaich il3ada jooty riya’6a jeans w nafsich b5ashmich.. ;)

Jumana: yummaaaaa shakoo.. ;p ma 6ary 3alay shay bas chithy ishtahait ilyoom albis 3ala moody..

Mama: ahh inzaain ;p.. haa shtabeen takleen??

Jumana: abee chai 7aleeb oo baskoot :o)

Mama: CHANDRAAA MAKE FOR JUMANA CHAI 7ALEEB AND BASKOOT

Chandra: OKKK MAMAAA

Chandra brought the chai 7aleeb and baskoot.. and Jumana la6itah killah ;p wa3alayya you3ana ;p

An hour passed so she got up and went to her car after saying goodbye to her mom.. because she figured the half an hour would be wasted on the way stuck in traffic so she wouldnt be late..

She was in her car when she got a call from Lulu

Jumana: Heeeey

Lulu: Umbaaai yalla tell me sh9aar ams!

Jumana told her every single detail.. from il-shi3ib laaain spikanians ooo salfat iddireesha ;p

When she was done with the salfa she was in her unis cafeteria..

Lulu: UMBAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAI!! IYANNIN!!! IYANNIN!!! TARA IN MA TIZAWJTEEH ANA BA5THA BA5THAAAA!! WITHA TIZAWWAJTY BA6IGGICH 3AIN!!

Jumana: Chub 3aad shno atzawijaah..

Lulu: heeeeeeeeeeeeey!! il-walad perfect wil-perfectness 7ag allah.. laish ma titzawijaainah??!?!

Jumana: madreee ;p a5aaf

Lulu: min shnoooo!!??!

Jumana: inny akoon alone ma3ah :S

Lulu: kaach 9irty alone ma3ah cham marraa!

Jumana: noo i meaan when were married maykoon fee boundaries faaa.. madree :S kissing w madree shno :P a5aaf!

Lulu: haha! ma 3indich salfaa ;p

Jumana: siktaay!

Lulu: weeeeeeeee ta2a5art 3ala my class.. BYE!!

Jumana: B-

9akkitah ib wayiha ;p

Jumana “7mara ;p”

She places her phone on the cafeteria table.. then she noticed she had a message..

Jumana “eee 9aaa7 message ilyoum i9ob7..”

She opened it wala..

Bader Al-Flani:

Thanks for yesterday :)

It was full of adventures :P

and spending it with you made it indescribable.. (i know cheesy ;p bas i cant put it into words)

Jumana “Umbaaai min9ijaah!! chinny im in love ;p laa shda3waa.. bas iyannin iyannin!! XD”

Jumana:

and thank u as well :)

Send..

Jumana “WAAAAIH is that the best i can do! malat 3alaay ;p malsoona 3ind ‘3air il7aja fa8a6 ;p”

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Inshallah its enough ;p

Bas i know that this post was kind of crappy cuz im experiencing this thing called

WRITERS BLOCK

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January 23,2009
12:35 PM
On the beach

Okay, so I was sitting in the balcony at 8 am because 9ara7atan I don’t feel like sleeping. I mean nimt cham sa3ah o bas I don’t feel like a7taj anam ba3ad.. Anyways, ga3dah bil balaconah wil jaw i3aqid chan iyeeeni FAHOODI again. So g3d a6al3ah, chan agoolah ” Are you planning on coming here wella bas bit6il 3lay min balacontik?”. “walla ya 7ilwa I was planning on jumping bas ‘3ayart rayeeh” he replied. I turned to face him, I gazed into his eyes for what seemed to be a minute then I shrugged, and said “Okay” then I stood up picking up my glasses and tanning lotion waiting for him to say something… ” Yal kaaaaaaaaaalbah! Latdisheen ni6ray gi3day” he said quickly and jumped into my balaconah.

Ana 9ij I wanted him there, I don’t know why. I felt safe when he was around me, you know what I mean? Y3ni we can talk about anything and do everything together. IF ONLY I could trust him again…

We were in a deep conversation about the future, what would happen and with who would it happen. Then, he said , “Tithakerain that book you read? Illy feeha the TRUTH game o yig3idoon they play it 6ool il qi9a?”.. I quickly replied ” EEEEEEEEEEEH!!!!” laman istaw3abt iny wayid ishta6ait, I read that in his face, I quietly added ” laish?”. “Madri 5al nil3abhaa?”he replied .. GOD, HE’S BEAUTIFUL, SO DAMN BEAUTIFUL. “okay yalla let me explain to you the rules of the game” I said in a daze. ” I already know them” he answered, then I said ” you remember..” well not said, but whispered. ” How can I ever forget?” he replied, and he was inches away from my face, his gaze moving from my lips to my eyes. Just as he was coming close, just as my stomach was doing summersaults, I quickly turned around so that his kiss would be on my cheek. We both acted like nothing happened and started the game.

“Okay, YOUR TURN AWAL!”

“yala mashi..”

30 seconds later “YALAH”

“okay, what’s your worst fear?”

“emm, that would be dying alone.”

“really?”

“ee I’ve always feared never being in a relationship..y3ni mo 5arabee6 I love you o siwalif 9a7ba o 9a7ib. But like a real marriage or something.. I don’t know It may sound weird but what if no one wants me you know?”

“everyone mo bas wants you, illa mayteen 3laich”

BLUSHING HARD INTO ALL SHADES OF PURPLE ” anywaaaaays..” y3ni bathayi3 il saglah:p “my turn!”

“shoot”
‘
” what’s your worst memory?”

“we both don’t want to go there”

“oops”

Looking down, “yeah..”

“yala 3ayal UR TURN again.”

“yalah, mino a7la wa7id 3umrich shifteeeh? ” raising his eyebrows up and down and had this goofy smile on his face, the one that made his GOD DAMN BEAUTIFUL eyes twinkle and the one where ikoon shag 7aljah laman his eyebrows !
“emm, that would be Zac Efron!”

“wai3 thoqich”

“adri! “

” o the question was Kuwaiti guys only.”

“you can’t change your question”

“IM NOT!”

“Fine, badoor ilflani”

“bu 3yoon zirg?”

” EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEH UFFF JAMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEL YITHBAAAAAAAAAAAA7″

“mm ee okay. Dorich.”

“what’s ur happiest memory with me?”

“hmm..” GAZING INTO THE HORIZON,” tithakerain hathak ilyom laman 5athaitich intay o sula o ri7na mu5ayam 3ami?”

“e”

“ee yoom bilail me and u gi3adna 3ala il bench ilazrag o g3dna insolef..chan”

“agoolik whatever illy giltlik iyah, I was seventeeeeeen who cares!” giggling an awkward giggle. He then looked at me with hurt eyes and said, “yala ba5ith shower wingawimhum winroo7 nitrayag..”

“yala”

And with that we went in separate ways, that night bil mu5ayam.. He told me he loves me, and I said that I loved him too bas im not looking for a relationship. He said he wasn’t too and that nothing will change o hal ashya2.

Yeah, and p.s I got it for him, I got it for him BAAAAAAD. I don’t think I can handle it anymore, I need a plan. A good and healthy plan.

January 23,2009
6 PM

Today was the best day ever. EVER! ever!

After writing in my journal, I went into il ba7ar o I was thinking of a plan. Three hours later, I got the weakest plan anyone could imagine, but hey- im weak! I got out of the sea, told bader that sulla mishtahya boat ride way may o hessa.. 6ab3an he took them. Fahad makan lah 5ilg so I didn’t go..BECAUSE THIS MAKES MY PLAN SO MUCH EASIER!

I sat next to fahad ib his chair, he had his iPod on (probably a jalsah or something like that) and his hat backwards. He was looking to his right so I poked him on his left hand. He looked at me and took his headphones off. I straightforwardly asked ,”let’s get this straight inzain? Do you love me?”
He looked at me confused,” ha? “

“do you love me?”

“mm ee”

“mmm ee?”

” I do love you “

” ugh, good.. this makes it easier.. COME!”

I pulled him off his chair, ran into the hotel, opened the door to my room, pushed him onto my bed.. 7beebi he looked so confused. I then sat next to him. He automatically sat 3adel then I said
” Would you ever cheat on me?”
” Never “
“would you ever leave me?”
“lo amoot”
” can I trust you”
” hopefully”
“should I love you?”
“that’s up to you.”
” come here “

He looked into my eyes, searching for an explanation. He was so mal 3ath.. madri shagool. So I pulled him in, kissed the hell out of his lips, devouring its taste, sucking on his lips changing from the one on top to the bottom one. I lied him on the bed, he flipped me around so now im on the bed and he’s on top of me.. Not touching any part of my body, but he was there. So he kissed me some more.. We kissed for half an hour, and I could feel something in his pants growing, so I started to laugh.

He was embarrassed. So I said ” don’t be , u have the same effect on me” And with that he kissed me again and I pulled down his body so that it was practically ON ME. His hands slowly went under my shirt, then under my bra strap. I had my hands in the back pockets of his jeans, pushing him down. We were in that position for what seemed like another hour. Then I pushed him away, and said “Badoor!!!!!!” and he was all calm, “Lat7ateen..” and I was all confused and 5ayfah..

He put his hands on my chin, turned my head around to face him, and quietly said ” mara7 ab3id 3annich lo shi9eer tadreen 9a7? Tadreen inny amoout feech o magdar a3eesh bidoonich? Tadreen ina 7atan u5ooch yadri iny mayit 3laich? Tadreen shkither a5af 3laich o aghar 3laich? Matadreen 9a7? Le2enich lo tadreen chan ma5iftay il7een.. WELA SHAY ra7 ijeesich min ilyom o rayi7.. “

“fahood!”

“3yoonah”

“kiss me some more?”

“ta3alay intay amray amer”

So we kissed, and kissed, and kissed. Then at around 4:30, nizalna siba7na ishway 3ala mayoon.. and when we saw them, sulla immediately came up to me demanding to know what happened. But I replied with a “I don’t know what you mean? Nothing happened.” Some things should be kept a secret, and me and him? Well that’s my secret.

During the last two months things between Rayan and I really progressed, well relatively progressed. He’s been very patient with me, trying his best to NOT freak me out by coming on too strong. He gave me all the space I needed, which is something that’s really important to me, that was of coarse until I developed the annoying desire of wanting to spend all my time with him.

All in all things are going very well for us, except for the Tareq part.

What Tareq part, you ask? well, two weeks ago Tareq contacted me and expressed how important it is to him that we remain friends. I agreed on that we should still be friends, after all I’ve known him all my life. I started hanging out with him every a couple of days, without the rest of the group because the guys aren’t very fond of him, probably because of how Rayan feels about him.

Rayan hasn’t said anything about me being friends with Tareq, but I can tell that he’s not very happy with it. Is it bad that I’m looking forward to seeing Rayan jealous? well I am, it’s because he’s always so chill and calm, I can’t wait to see his bad side.

Okay, now I should update you with the “important events” that happened in those two months. Well, there was only one important event, and this is how it went.

Waleed started dating this whore of a female, then her brother found out about them and all hell broke loose. He (her brother) brought all of his friends and they beat the hell out of Waleed. He was beaten up really bad, So he then got all of the guys, and went to get “revenge” from the brother.

I would’ve killed to be there and watch all of them fight for their lives, but unfortunately I couldn’t. From what the guys told me, this is how things went down.

Waleed was in the center of it all, beating the hell out of the brother. 3azeiz said that the look on Waleed’s face when he was beating the guy was just pure evil, rage was an understatement of what he was feeling at that moment. In the end the guys had to literally snatch Waleed away from the guy, he just kept hitting him over and over again till he (the brother) fainted.

3azeiz, being the human wall he is, was right in the front. Being the tallest and largest one of them all, he wasn’t actually harmed from the fight. Nonetheless, Dana immediately took on the role of his devoted nurse, even though he wasn’t in need of any actual medical care. She got a costume and a first-aid kit and everything which made 3azeiz as happy as a clam.

Sultan was beyond thrilled about the fight, he jumped right in with a “3ajra” and struck a guy right in the middle of his face. He then went on to cause as much damage as humanly possible, he literally went psycho crazy on them.

Adam was beaten up the worse, but not by the guys who were actually involved in the whole thing. He kept shouting curse words at this huge guy who didn’t even have anything to with the fight (Classic Adam), finally the guy snapped and beat the living crap out of Adam.

Rayan kept trying to break off the fight. He went to Waleed and Sultan, who were both causing tremendous amounts of damage, and tried to calm them down. Of coarse, he failed miserably, and ended up being accidentally hit by Sultan’s 3ajra, then he was beaten up by three guys. Which made him a pretty bloody mess. When I saw him I don’t quite remember if I was scared or happy? I mean, the sight of an injured, bloody, beaten up Rayan was just very orgasmic.

3abood tried to be the peacemaker, but when a guy punched him in the face, he decided to join the crazy beating train. His “beating session” was cut short though, because he involuntarily started to throw up. After that day, he made a decision to never eat week old cheeseburgers ever again.

Last but not least, Faisal, who wasn’t able to make it because Aseel refused to let him go. She actually locked him up in the bedroom, so he wouldn’t go.

Pretty hardcore stuff, huh?

That was the only somewhat important event during those two months, the rest of the days were actually boring and normal.

Oh, one last thing, did I tell you guys that Rayan and I still didn’t kiss? yes sirree bob, not a single kiss. I don’t think it’s humanly possible to want to kiss someone’s lips more than I do, it’s driving me crazy.

HOLD YOUR FIRE! It took me 7 years to actually kiss Tareq, okay? and when it happened it was … meh! not the first kiss that I’ve always dreamed of.

So yeah, I want to wait till he just can’t NOT kiss me. I want him to want it bad, scratch that I want him to ……….. I want him to YEARN for it! that’s right, YEARNING is the word I want. (Don’t call me a tease, I’ll struck you with my laptop if you do)

I just want our first kiss to take my breath away, mmmkaay?

Sorry I was really late in posting this part. Forgive me I’ll make it up to all of you I promise!

PREVIOUSLY;

“What are you doing here” I sighed “Stalking me?” I thought to myself. “Well I live here of course!” He laughed “WHAT? NO YOU DON’T!” I screamed “Yes I do” He smirked “Guess what love .. we’re neighbors!” He laughed hysterically and drove off.

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The next I woke up completely tired, I quickly took a shower, wore my casual Abayah and fetched my car keys and headed to the garage.

As I backed up my car, I saw Rashid .. taking out the trash! “Is this guy serious?” I said to myself. I opened the window “Are you seriously taking out the trash?” I said.

He laughed and came closer to the window. “Good morning to you too” He winked “I’ve been living in New York for a while and I didn’t have anyone to take out my trash so yeah it’s a habit” He smiled.

“Aha okay” I was going to close the window when he suddenly said “Laa Fai .. I know how this looks bas wallah I’m not stalking you. Wallah kanat 9edfa .. I was interested in the house and loved the Freej I never knew I’d be your neighbor ya3ni please you know me I’m not that pathetic” He smirked.

“Okay .. that’s a relief I guess?” I said coldly “Wait .. I know that things are weird between us now”-and he looked into my eyes-”I’m really sorry about that and I’m over all this drama .. let’s just act as if nothing ever happened and perhaps we can be friends” He smiled sincerely.

“Friends? I can never be that” I thought to myself “So? Sho rayich?” He asked “Because I seriously think that things wouldn’t ever work out between us you know” He said quietly.

“W..hyy?” I asked myself. I was suddenly crush and disappointed.

“You do have guy friends don’t you?” He asked “Well ahem .. not really” I said quietly “Haha okay .. so you are as innocent as you seem fine I’ll be your first then” He smiled.

“Enzein” I whispered “Sure let’s start over as .. friends” I smiled “Cool! So Fai I’m Rashid your new neighbor” He laughed “Hey .. you already know my name” I smiled “Nice to meet you too .. but I have to go .. ” I waved to him and backed up my car and left.

Friends?
Let’s see how things will work out.

I came back home a bit earlier than I thought as I drove my car into our main gate, but I coudn’t not stop. Rashid was out of the house TOPLESS with shorts and washing his car.

“WHAT THE HELL?” I almost screamed “Ahh ya Fai let us stare please” Lamya was drooling.

“3aib yl ‘3abyah .. How the hell does he want us to be friends?” I cried out. “Ah he’s so hot I can NOT get over it” Lamya hummed “Oh look he’s waving” She pointed.

I looked at him and the soap slipping over his abs. “Wallah 9edgch he’s so hot!” I surrendered I waved back and quickly drove in. “Enti 3anz 3anz 3anz! Wallaaaaah HOW CAN YOU NOT BE WITH HIM HE’S SOOOO HOT!” Lamya said while we were getting out of the car.

“Ya bint! It’s complicated and it’s not only about looks” I sighed “Okay, he has a HOT personality wallah he’s a catch bas enti wallah ‘3abya” She whined “Ufff one word. ALYA!” I sighed “Oh 9a7 ufff! Why does she exist” Lamya sighed. “Whatever let’s go in” I said quickly.

Wallah 9a7. Why does she exist? Why is she so important to him that he doesn’t want to talk about her. Most of all why does he think things will never work out between us? I don’t blame him I’ve been such a burden and a kid. I should seriously move on!

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Stay Tuned,

A Lover in Dubai

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