Dedicated to the girls of ACA ;***and to all my readers…..ENJOY ;)))____________________________________________Noora……I got into my car….heartbroken. i tell him that i love him oo the answer that i get is this..?! ive been holding it inside of…

Thank you all for being so paitent with me:* I am finally done with exams! Yala a5aleekum tegroun…
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Message Sent. 7:24 Pm
To: Khalid

I need to meet you… Tadri how stressed I am. Chenha milcheti ou melchatha

1 Message received. 7:25 Pm
From: Khalid;*

Inshallah iyey ilyoum ili i7na namlich feeh. Bs 3ad ashoufich bacher, mako 6al3a el fayer nafs kil mara, a5af i9eer shay aw a7ad ishoufich aw ahalich ichekounich.

As I read this message it gave my goose bumps all over my body, is he serious, talking about marriage? It sent shivers through my spine, I looked at my dress, 7asait chena this thing 9ar men gabil.

I ignored his message and did not reply. I will later, it won’t hurt him, right? And I am lost, ya3ni shnu agoulah? I threw my mobile, and it landed perfectly on the bed. Then I headed towards my cousin, maskeena she was stressed out, fa I helped her to calm down. I helped her with everything she needed, and she stressed my out with her. I went to my mobile to see if there were any miss calls, but there weren’t, I turned around, and watched the clock, SHIT! It’s 8:36!!! I took everything I needed and ran out of the door, down stairs to the ballroom.
Hours pass by, and I danced like never, it was the first time in a couple of years I attend a close relative’s milcha. And when it was time for A7mad to come down 7ag my cousin, I had to go and get the debla. So I took the room card from my Aunt, and went to her room 3ashan ajahez el debla since they were all busy. I finally reached the room, swiped the card a couple of time bs ma g3d yeshti8il!! SHIT!!! I ran down to the lobby, I wasn’t aware of whom will I be seeing down, and will the people stare because my dress was revealing, and also since we are in Kuwait, they will not like what they see. I gave the reception the card; they fixed it for me il 7imdillah. And when I turned ila ashouf guys staring! My feet were shaking, and I could feel my cheeks turn red. I tried walking but my leg won’t stop shaking, I had to drag them! I get closer and closer to the guys, I could hear them whisper, chenhum yet7achoun 3ani, and stare at me mn foug lai ta7at. Then I realized that they are A7mad’s friends! I made my way as fast as I could to the room, prepared the dibla and took it down so they girls could take it to the 3aroos (you know when the small girls yamshoun 3ala the song) I was late, and the song started. I kept cursing myself the whole time, I know ba5areb 3alaihum il milcha. Bs ashwa tawha badya, it went perfect. As I see A7mad placing the dibla, I started crying. I could not believe what was happening, lafait ou lamait my mom so hard. Then my mom started crying.
After the milcha, I went back home and slept, the next morning I woke up at around 1 PM, I saw my mobile and received a message from Khalid

1 New message. 11:43 AM
From: Khalid;*

Ga3da?

I called him immediately, I miss his voice:*

Khalid: Aloo
Me: Hey!
Khalid: Shloun el milcha?
Me: WANASAA! I danced like never ;p
Khalid: Aham shay you had fun
Me: Thank you
Khalid: Ha, inshoufich ilyoum?
Me: Madri, ashouf w agoulik. But I need to talk to you about many things
Khalid: May5alif.

I closed the phone, and went down to eat lunch with my family. We talked for a while till my parents were silent, and they were eying each other, madri ishsalfathum. I knew at that moment, when they started eying each other that something was up. They looked worried and kept looking at each other. I just wanted to go up to my room and not hear what’s up with them but something told me to stay.
Mama: “Zayoun, nabi in7acheech ib mawthou3”
She said in a serious tone. Ihni ana i5tera3t, what could it be except Khalid?
Me: “Shfeekum? Is everything okay?”
Baba: “Mako ila il 3afya” he replied calmly
Mama: “Zayoun sm3eeni 3adel ou don’t over react inzain?” I knew something is up, I could feel it from the way she said it.
Me: “A7ad towafa?” I asked hoping no one did.
Mama: “La allah laygoula!” she said almost yelling
Me: “3ayal shenu?”
Mama: “Ako wa7ed 9bay met’3ademlich” She finally said
Me: “Ma abeeh,” I answered before hearing a thing about him.
Baba: “Al-Zain, wala i7na nabeech itezawjain al7een”
Me: “Then why are you opening this subject dam tadroun my answer is a no?” I asked pissed off! Yadroun ma abi atzawaj, and I love Khalid.
Baba: “La2na il walad shareech.”
Me: “Then let him wait, baba ana ma abi atzawaj al7een I’m too young.”
Mama: “Ana gelt 7ag umah men gabel, ou geltlaha inich lail7een moo dasha el jam3a. galatli itgoul 7ag waladha ou betred 3alai b3dain, ou lamen radat 3alai waladha gal yabi yan6erich ou lai 5ala9tay jam3a tezawjoun.”
Me: “Mashallah! 3ala kaifa nitzawaj?!?” I said not aware that I was rude, bs 7adi tenarfazt. I want Khalid, If it were him, I’d say yes without hesitating.
Mama: “Ana ma geltlich tezawjeeh! Intay shoufay li9bay, uhwa shareech! Itha ma i3jebach reftahy, ma7ad gha9bich ou hathi 7ayatich. Bs may9eer in3aleg li9bay 7ag cham sena ou a5er shai ma tabeena.” She yelled.
Me: “ba3ad sbou3 bared 3ala jawabkum, lazim afaker.”
Mama: “i5thay ra7tich bs 7adich shahar”
Me: “Okay.”

I went to my room, this is not good! I kind of have feelings for that guy, ya3ni he is willing to wait 4 years 3ashani?!? I need my girls.

Outgoing call: Kadi:*

Kadi: Aloo
Me: Kadiooo, wanich?
Kadi: Bil bait.
Me: Meet me at Starbucks D3ya.
Kadi: On my way.

Outgoing call: Manour;*

Muneera: Aloo
Me: Wainich?
Muneera: At avenues m3a my family
Me: Could you make it to Starbucks D3ya right now?
Muneera: Shfeech?
Me: I need you asap,
Muneera: 3a6eeni 30 min. max ou ayeelkum
Me: Thank you;*
Muneera: Welcome;*

Outgoing Call: Jadi

Jadi: Hey!
Me: Jadiii! Whats up?
Jadi: Mako ana ou jouno g3d in7ous, ray7een bait yaditi.
Me: ta3alaw Starbucks D3ya, I need you help!
Jadi: Bs negdar for a couple of minutes.
Me: That’s enough.

We all meet at Starbucks, and told them about that guy. I was confused.

Me: Ya3ni shasawi, shagoul 7ag Khalid?
Jouna: Ana agoul you should talk to him, and tell him. Ma tadreen maybe ma yabi yetzawaj?
Kadi: I agree, yemkin he’s not that serious.
Me: Et.hagoun he’s not? Bs today il 9b7 g3d igoul itha i7na namlich.
Jouna: How many days is ur limit to give ur parents an answer?
Me: A month
Jadi: Great! Shoufay for a couple of days how is it between you and Khalid, ou itha it7seena madri shoun tell him ou shoufay b3dain.
Muneera: La wait for 3 weeks, la2na tawkum in a relation ship, later confront him.
Me: Thanks you guys

As soon as I left Starbucks, I sent Khalid a message to meet him up, but he did not answer.

JAWA-aaaaaaaahhh bamout min il wanasa !..wa ahkeeran..the dream i dreamt all my life since i was a small kid..me and noonie always wanted to get married and live happily ever after..like nothing can ever rewin this momment…until..my BB flashed the re…

I want to..Close the door..Be alone in the darkness..I want to..Scream..My voice bouncing off the thick walls of my room..I want no one to hear me..I want no one to see me..I want no one to ask me..I want to..Breathe..

May 31 2009,My friend, Dee and I, Jay decided to finally post something on our new blog. i7im i7im.We thought the best thing to write about is how our day went.It started like any other day, waking up to the snogging and moaning coming from my parent’s…

Dana: Thank you I got it bas please no more my brain hurts “rubbing her temple”

Moodi : wow dana we finished two chapter. I must be a very good teacher. “stretching her back”

Dana got up to get herself something to eat. She was was hungry from all the studying.

Moodi’s phone rang.

“Now put your hands up
Up in the club, we just broke up
I’m doing my own little thing you
Decided to dip but now you wanna trip
Cuz another brother noticed me
I’m up on him, he up on me
don’t pay him any attention
cuz i cried my tears, for three good years
Ya can’t be mad at me”

Moodi didn’t want to answer it she loved the song. She decided she better answer the phone or her mother will worry about her since it is 11:30 am wow how the time passed by.They have been studying for three hours give or take several minutes.

mother: Hello moodi where are u yalla tara the invite is at 12

M:okay mama ka I am leaving and getting in a taxi. See you there

Mother: okay yalla bye

Moodi waited for Dana to return so she can say her goodbye. she left the cafe and got in to a Taxi and went to the restaurant . She entered the restaurant and surveyed the place for her mother and aunt. She found them in a table near the window. She heading towards them with a big smile. She greeted both of them with kisses on the cheeks and sat down.

Aunt Taiba: Mashalla Moodi you changed

M:thanks “while blushing”

Aunt Taiba: Someones shy

mother: Taiba bas 7aram you are embarrassing her “turning to her daughter and cant stop admiring how cute she looks”

Aunt Taiba: Oh here is Aisha

Aisha: sorry i am late oh Moodi how are you long time no see. where have you been hiding?
“while hugging her and kissing her” mashalla you look beautiful

Moodi: stop it Aisha so it is now i am the one hiding. What about you ?

Aisha : touche, redirecting the questions towards me to avoid answering smart “smiling”

Moodi: shut up you were the one busy with exams

Aisha: so true okay let forget about that. So what are you doing tomorrow ?

Moodi: nothing why ?

Aisha : Well me and my cousin Dalal you remember her right

Moodi: How could i forget

Aisha: come on we were kids and sorry but you were an easy target “Laughing”

Moodi: I know whatever so what are you doing?

Aisha : oh yeah we are going to the movies and hopefully dinner So are you in.

Moodi: okay

until next time
xoxoxoxoxox

Hey everyone!Just a few random stuff about me. Hope you’ll enjoy them and tell me a bit about yourselves too :)1- I’m crazy about quotation marks. I love quoting my favorite lines and stuff, it makes me feel so educated lol. My school books are filled…

She used to always despise girls who would go around asking about a certain guy, she thought it was pathetic and humiliating. Yet since the day he dug his finger into her bare arm, she had to struggle to keep herself from doing so. After nearly a week of battling with herself, she gave up. She had to know who he was, and she knew exactly who she had to talk to to get all the information she needed.

“Uh, Rana, there’s this guy I keep seeing around campus w I want to know who he is”

Rana’s eyes nearly popped out of its original position, she never thought the day that Aseel would ask about a guy would actually come. “Okay. What do you know about him?”

“Erm. Nothing”

“What do you mean nothing?”

“I mean nothing. We never even talked to each other”

“Okay. How does he look like?”

“Well he’s very tall. He has dark black hair, big dark eyes, a very adorable smile. Mmm, light olive skin tone…. mm oh and he wears eye glasses”

“Saudi? Khaleiji?”

“Well, I don’t know. He looks very Mediterranean, I guess. I don’t know maybe he’s Khaleiji, but he might be Arabic I guess.. but then again he might not be”

“Wow, how very helpful of you”

“You know what, never mind. Forget I ever said anything. I have to go to my class now”

“Fine! bas if you see him, how about you go talk to him? that would be easier than asking me for information about him” Rana grinned deviously.

“Whatever. Yalla b’bye”

Every Tuesday, at around 12, Faisal has a two hour lunch break. Today, just like every Tuesday, he went to his quite “reading” spot on campus to have his lunch. He threw himself on the bench and rummaged furiously through his backpack. “Damn it, I forgot my sandwich” He sighed and sunk into the bench, sulking silently about his lunch-less lunch break.

She scanned the premises for any familiar faces, but she found none. She never liked sitting alone, so she wandered away from the noisy building looking for a quite spot for her to have her lunch at. A smile magically appeared on her face as she saw him disconsolately slouching on the bench.

“Excuse me” She cleared her voice, trying to prevent it from cracking.

He jumped up and the book in his hand went flying out of his hand, “Uh.. yes?”

“Do you mind if I sit here?” She smiled and pointed at the half empty bench.

In a second his backpack was already at the floor, “No, no, not at all”

“Thank you” She tittered and sat down. Neither of them bothered to start a conversation, they were both too nervous to do so. She kept shuffling around and he kept nervously rubbing his knuckles. After Aseel lost hope that he would start up a conversation, she took out her sandwich and proceeded to unwrap it.

He quickly placed his hand on his stomach as it made a loud rumbling sound, “Fuck. I hope she didn’t hear that”

She giggled and extended her arm, handing him half of her sandwich.

“No thank you” He politely declined.

“I insist”

“No, really, I’m not hungry”

She gave him a questioning look and laughed, “Yeah? fine…. but eating this won’t harm you, would it?”

“I guess not”

“Then please take it! I made it myself and I want to know what you think”

“Uh.. okay. Thank you” He took his half and took a little bite of it, “This is good!” he exhaled enthusiastically.

“Really? you’re not just saying that?!”

“No wallah! it’s delicious” He nodded repeatedly, which made his eye glasses slip off.

She melted at the sight of his glasses falling off, “Aww thank you!”

Two hours passed faster than either one of them ever thought it possibly would. He was a bit nervous at first but she made him feel at ease, which made those two hours very enjoyable on both ends. She was everything he ever dreamt of, and more. He eagerly listened to every single word that escaped her mouth, he was mesmerised by her. Aseel was equally as mesmerised by him as he was by her, maybe even more.

“Gosh, look at the time! I have to go!” She quickly stood up and snatched her bag from next to him, “This was fun”.

“It really was” He nodded and stood up in front of her.

“Um… do you eat lunch here every Tuesday?”

“Eee”

Her voice dropped and she looked down at the pavement, “Well, um then maybe I’ll stop by next week?”

“That would be great!” He nearly yelled with excitement, he rubbed his knuckles and looked apologetically at her “Uh.. I mean, yeah that would be nice”

“Great! I’ll see you next week, then” She waved goodbye and walked away, then she swiftly turned around “Uh.. my name is Aseel by the way”

“Faisal”

“Nice to meet you, Faisal”

“Nice to meet you too, Aseel”

I realized Part 38 was very short so I added part 39 as well! I’m very generous today.

“He’s kinda my .. uh” Rashid tried to say something but he suddenly lost his words. But Saif gladly continued “My twin brother” and he smiled widely.

And

Well ..

I .. was .. mm .. speechless ..

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“Wha . . . at?” I blurted out after moments of that annoying silence. “You .. you .. never”-and I pointed to Saif-” mentioned you had a twin” I raised my eyebrows.

Saif laughed “Well uhmmmm my family kind of disowned me, you know etbaro meny so they act as if I don’t exist” He continued laughing.

Rashid glared at him, got closer to him and hugged Saif. I could see that Saif’s face was confused, then Rashid stared at him, smiled for a moment then punched him.

“Damn you” Rashid muttered “We disowned you yal chalb? It’s you .. you who abandoned us for that girl”.

Saif stood straight and said quietly “You know what Rashood.” Saif suddenly looked at his brother seriously “It worked out, me and her, it worked out, even though you all said it won’t, I even have a son” He snorted arrogantly at Rashid.

“WHAT I HAVE A NEPHEW?” Rashid groaned “How could you not tell us!” Rashid was ready to punch him again.

“As if you guys want to know” He muttered “What’s his name” Rashid suddenly asked, and Saif froze “I .. I .. don’t want to say” He said in the most coward tone I ever heard.

“TELL ME” Rashid glared “God, I called him Rashid okay?” Saif mumbled.

And all I can say was “awwww.” Rashid laughed, and had his arms around Saif’s shoulders “So you still love me after all little bro.”

Said pushed him away and muttered “Chub.”

“Let’s go we need to catch up” Rashid suddenly smiled to Saif “God if we must” Saif rolled his eyes. Then they suddenly turned around, and almost deserted me.

But then Rashid turned his head “Fai, aren’t you coming we have to uhmm .. talk” He smiled softly. And all I could do was form a subtle smile and follow them both.

- Part 39 -

We were walking aimlessly around the streets of New York and both brothers were not talking, and Rashid didn’t utter a word to me after inviting me to join them.

“Why the hell did I agree to going with them?” I asked myself. Then Rashid suddenly said “STOP” and pointed to the City Bakery “Let’s have some coffee” He said, well more like demanded.

Saif looked at me helplessly and shrugged then followed Rashid into the coffee shop. “Ugh .. this is beyond awkward!” I almost screamed and followed them in.

We sat in a really small table actually set for two people but Rashid demanded for another chair, and I had the “honor” to sit between the two guys.

And there was the typical awkward silence between them. “Wala channa they were hugging eachother minutes ago” I thought to myself. “I think I shouldn’t be here” I quickly said trying to escape the awkwardness.

“No no” Rashid suddenly said “I need you here” He pleaded but with a strong tone to it.

Saif eyed both of us and chuckled “You”-and he stared at both of us-”are an item? Like together?”

“No” I quickly said but Rashid’s “Yes” surpassed my low voice, I quickly looked at Rashid shocked for oh-so-many reasons.

Rashid suddenly faked a cough and said “Uhh .. maybe? I mean .. aah no” He finally made up his mind.

My anger grew stronger and my patience weaker, what the HELL is going on? Why did Rashid drag me here, there is nothing between us .. well anymore and really why do I care about his .. weird twin brother? Seriously?

“Ah .. aba agool shai but please don’t bite of my head, my son needs a father” Saif joked. We both shot a glance at him.

“You guys are obviously are a couple I mean ahem there’s something between you and looks like you need to talk and work things out, because e9ara7ah me sitting here doesn’t make sense I mean comm’on Rashid seriously you don’t want to talk to me you just want to trap her”-and he looked at me-”somewhere so you can talk to her”.

Rashid’s lips parted, more like were ready to bark but he sat quiet and just hmmmm-ed. Saif stood up threw a small card at Rashid “I have to leave, call me okay? Oo salem 3al ahel” He winked and left.

I looked at Rashid and all I can say was “What he just said .. is that true?” I asked him honestly.

“Kind of” Rashid said but was staring at another direction. I quickly stood up but Rashid held my wrist immediately “Stay” He whispered “Please” I looked down to him, I really didn’t know what to do, so I .. sat down.

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Until next time,

A Lover in Dubai

Wednesday February 4, 2009″Ayyyy.” I cried, rolling around in bed. It was 10:00 AM oo ba6ny thabi7ny. I reluctantly got out of bed, wore my cozy slippers and walked into my bathroom. It was freezing in there.I sat down out on the toilet and got a speci…

Today was the day I was finaly going to ask for my divorce. I’ve been patient with him for too long, giv ing him chances and fogiving and forgeting. But now I’ve had it! I want to live my live, For once I want to wake up in the morning and not think of the worst to come, I want to wake up feeling alive.

It was Friday which ment family lunch and I really wasn’t in the mood. Once again I tell to tell my parents another bad news between me and M7sin. I just hope it’s the last one I’ll have to give.

Noura: I really don’t wanna go in there..

Rima: Noura your gonna have to tell them sooner or later. I’m here so don’t worry about a thing.

Noura: *sigh* Alright let’s get it over with.

I walked in where my whole family greeted me. We had our pleasent lunch and talked about what we’ve been upto this past week. It seemd like we all had our own thing going on. Relationships between Jamal and Yasmeen and Rima and Yasser, and ofcourse my non-stop drama with M7sin.

Mother: Noura 7beebty how are thing’s going between you and m7sin?

Noura: Actualy mama that’s what I wanted to talk to you all about.

Mother: 5air?

Noura: Well I’m going to see him today and ask for a divorce.

Father: WHAT ?

Noura: I know you guys never wanted me to have a failed marriage, neither did I. But I can no longer be with a man who treats me like trash anymore.

Mother: 7beebty were not mad at you if that’s what you think. We only want the upmost happiness for you.

Yasser: Noura… I’m going with you.

Jamal: Me too !

Rima: Don’t look at me, I don’t wanna see that asswhole!

Mother: LANGUAGE !

Rima: Hehe sorry 5alty.

Noura: I really appreciate you all trying to help but I really think I should do this on my own.

Yasser: And if he tries something?

Noura: He won’t. His manner with the abuse has changed. I’ll be fine.

Yasser: When are you gonna go?

Noura: After lunch.

Rima: I could drop you if you want.

Noura: No it’s fine.

After lunch I said goodbye to my family and was off to see M7sin. He would probabley be at home since he’s usualy back by the afternoon. Once I entered the gate I saw a red rang rover. That was weird since we only had two cars, M7sins Mercedes and my Porshe. Who would be visiting in the hour that he takes his afternoon nap?

I walked in to an empty house where M7sin was no where to be found. I checked the whole first floor, nothing. I decided to check upstairs, maybe he was having his after noon nap.

As I walked down the hallway I could hear noises. I couldn’t quit make them out. But once I got closer to the bedroom it all became very clear. At the moment I really wished I was deaf to the sounds that I had just herd. I felt like my ears were going to bleed from disgust.

I blasted the door open where I caught some women ontop of my husband. Naked!

They quickley got up and grabbed the sheet to cover themselves up.

Noura: Fara7 ?!

Fara7: Uhhhh… hey…. Noura…

M7sin: Shit!

Noura: Yeah shit! What the hell do you think your doing?

M7sin: ….. I…. I assure you it means nothing.

Noura: Oh, that makes it all better. And you ! How could you? After our meeting I actualy thought you were a decent person.

Fara7: I broke it off with him but then we got back together.

Noura: Back together! Are you hearing yourself? Your sleeping with a married man!

Fara7: Well maybe he wouldnt need me so much if you would just do your part!

Noura: And who are you to tell me how to be a wife?

Fara7: For one thing your not fulfiling your husbands needs. It sure feels good that I can.

Noura: M7sin what is she talking about?

M7sin: She isn’t wrong. I mean I’ve been so pateint with you.

Noura: What do you mean?

M7sin: It’s been a month Noura. I’m a guy, I need…. to…

Noura: Oh my god… you are one selfish human being.

M7sin: I have my needs! You wouldnt give them to me, so I found someone who would.

Noura: I am your wife! You are supposed to be patient and understanding.

M7sin: I’ve been too pateint and too understanding.

Noura: So you go and bang the first slut you can find !

M7sin: Ma asma7lik tgoleen 3anaha kitha !

Noura: Oh so now your defedning her !

M7sin: Hell yeah I’m defending her , I love her !

Noura: What?

Fara7: What?

M7sin: Yeah.. Fara7 I love you…

Noura: This is disgusting. You know what you two really do belong together.

M7sin: Noura…..

Noura: I’ll be waiting for the divorce. You have a week! …… Good bye M7sin.

Two Hours Later…

I finaly came back to the hotel where Rima was waiting for me, and a surprise guest aswell.

Fahad: Your back.

Noura: Your here.

Rima: How did it go?

Noura: I walked in one him… in bed with another women.

Fahad: ….. *sigh*

Rima: Sweeite I’m so sorry..

Noura: It’s ok, weird to say I’m relived.

Rima: Forgive me you guys but I think I’m gonna give you two some time.

Fahad: So what now?

Noura: Now…*walking towards him* I’m with you.

This cant get any worse, i thought to myself.  In the middle of all the chaos, i was praying to god that 3abdulla wont get into a fight with this guy. All i wanted him to do was get us out of this situation.3abdulla pushed the guy away from 3awash.  …

This is so exciting! 9ij 9ij ya3ni this is history in the making! Do  you know what I’m talking about?The women in parliament?I’m watching them voting and organizing right now, it’s SO exciting… Masooma Imbarak ya7lailha 7ail midmaja… It made …

I just finished episode 22…I cried so so much.It was the most depressing and tragic yet most beautiful ending ever…I’m going to watch episode 23 tomorrow… is that the final episode?

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Sara…

No call. No message. No nothing.

“Sara 7abeebty, why the frown?” Reemas asked.

We were in her room. I was standing, braiding her hair, while she sat on the chair in front of the mirror. I then snap back into reality.

“What frown?” I faked a smile.

But to no luck, it didn’t work. Reemas knew me too well that it wouldn’t work whatsoever.

“Sara?”

She was obviously waiting for an explanation. I let out a big sigh.

“Am I that obvious?” I asked her, my voice seeming to get smaller and smaller.

“Aww 7abeebty, its ok.” she got up and gave me a hug.

“Cuddly Bug!” she squeazed me tighter, and at that point I couldn’t help myself but cry.

“Shhh, its going to be ok.”

I told her what had happened and when I was done, all she did was stare at me.

“Don’t tell me this is the reason you’re crying? If you are, well then I declare you a 5IBLAA! Sarziee, wnty mn 9jich?! OMG, Sa7ar and Summar where so right about you, you’re extremely sensitive!”

Summar and Sa7ar…? Oh what the heck, as if I care right now!

“Shoofy, he’s probably in the chalet or el 3zba with his friends, y3ni shay 3ady come on! Y3ni seriously, akeed he’s going to forget about his phone o he’s going to have fun m3 a97aba, wnty b3d Alla yhadaach, don’t be like that!”

She was right, he probably is. But even though, a good night message won’t hurt, would it?

We were in the DVD room watching Heroes. You maybe thinking, ewww, its full of 5arboo6a and shit, o ham science fictiony bs I like it, y3nii hmm…INTERESTING! Hehe, o the other reason we watch it is because Milo 7ada HOT baby with a capital H! Y3niii, DAAAAY-UUUUM! Can’t I have him for a day? AHAHAH, anyways, I got up and excused myself while the twins and Reemas continued watching. It was about 01:00 a.m. and Nayif wasn’t here, he was in the chalet. My mom and dad were away, so I grabbed my car keys, threw on my 3abaya and shaila and went to the girls.

“BANAAAAAAT! Get your asses up, who wants to go for a cruise?” unexpected, right?

They all jumped up at once meaning a YES!, except for Summar. STRAAANGE, I thought.

“Ok, let me say it again, CRUISEEE BABYYYY!” wishing that she’d jump up, but no such luck.

“E7mm…” Sa7ar cuts in.

I turn around to look at her.

“Summar…umm…can’t…uhhh-”

“Fahad made me promise him no more late night cruise’s bl lail.” she said that so fast, the words just spitting themselves out of her mouth.

WTF? Whaaat?! Shnoo?!

“Come again…” I said slowly mo mstaw3ibaa.

Shyabii he tells her what to do and what not to do, baal! Abadan ma twa8a3ta mna!

“T’9kroon a couple of days ago, youm kina 3al corniche chi 3al wa7daa?”

“Well he saw us dancing o chii o 3a9ab, o thats why 9irt ma roo7 m3akum el cruisaat bl lail…”

“Come on 3aad! Just this once. O inty you’re not his yet, fully I mean! Please Summar!” I pleaded her, but no such luck. Hufff!

She stayed at home, and Sa7ar stayed with her too not wanting to leave her alone. I gave Summar a hug and then left. Reemas and I went the garage and turned the lights on.

“Porsche?”

“Mercedes kashf?”

“Amazing weather!”

“Yalla!”

We got in and drove off to the corniche. Thee weather moo bs e3a8id…YJANIIIIN! Y3ni 7ada 5ayalyy, oo ’3areeba y3ni, e7na eb q6r! Our shaila’s slipped off, o mahma gimna en3adlhum, y6ee7on, so we just put them on our shoulders. Ma kan fi wayid nas, except for kam mn sayara y3ni. We were dancing and singing, having soooo much fun!

Bader…

I couldn’t sleep any longer and so I was up at 12:52 a.m. My room was dark and the door was closed. I got up and made my way to the bathroom and splashed my face with water. The water was cool, refreshing. I brushed my teeth and went to the living room, where I find Ali, my older brother laying on the sofa.

“Hahaiiii, shaklikk filim!” he teased as I went to our me a glass of water.

“Tawny gayim, b3d shloun tabeeny akoun?!”

“Badoor-” his mobile started ringing.

“La7’9aa.” he picked up his mobile and answered it.

“Halla Bu Jassim, sh5bark u5ooy? Shmsawyy? Doom Inshalla. Ana 6ayib el 7mdilla, ee kiluhum b5air. Shloun? Ee ee, yalla kany 6a3ni rub3 sa3a w ana 3ndikum. Yalla 7abeeby, tamr 3ala shay? Alla ysalmk, yalla ashofk!” and he closed the phone.

“Bader, el shabab bys’hroon eb mayls el Flani, tyeeye?”

“Aaay Flani?”

“7amaan AlFlani, ely bl Dafna.”

“Ee ee, yalla.”

“Ok yalla, 3ashir dgayig o ana 6ali3.”

I went in my room, opened my closet, searched for an ironed thoob o ’3tra, o badalt. I combed my hair and sprayed on some perfume. I then wore my Mont Blanc handcuffs that Maroom got me for my birthday last december. When I was done, I went to my night stand o 6ala3t my other mobile, ely I rarely use, o switched it on. UFFFF! Sara! 5alny adg 3alaiha, la la akeed nayma, 5ala9 akalimha el 9ub7.

I met 3alooy in the car and off we went.

Sara…

We were dancing, singing, and having the time of our lifes. Poor Summar, I really do appreciate the advantages of being single. Well, ok, I’m not single, its just that its not racmy, you know? Y3ni, he didn’t even…propose…anyways, what I’m saying is ina y3ni Al 7mdilla, nobody’s in control of me, well except my parents, 3rafto what I mean? Uff, I bet I got you so confused right now, walla ma aloomkum, I’m confused my self too!

We were at the Diwan R/A when an Audi drives by us. There were two guys, ely ysoog labs ’3tra 7amra o ely 8a3d yama ’3tra bai’9a. Ma lama7t’hum 3adl since the wind was blowing my hair on my face and so I continued driving.

Reemas was talking 3an 3abood, or shall I say ’3aboody’ Aaawww I know, so cute 9a7! Well anyways they’ve been getting along great together. We were all going to Cannes, London, Milan, and Barcelona; Reemas was joining us, just like as planned.

“Uuuufff, Cuddly Bug, lazim we get a tan before we leave, o don’t worry, we’ll perfect them in Cannes too!” Reemas said lowering the volume.

“Ee we SO have to! OMGosh, rawaitich el summer dress ely 5athaita mn GAP?”

“Laa.”

“Y3A8IIIDDDDD!” I literally shouted.

The next thing I know ena the Audi ely kanat next to us was know behind us speeding up, to catch up with us. SHIT! Don’t tell me I screamed that loud. Alla yastr bas!

Ali…

I want to see her, my mystery woman. Wainha, 9irt ma ashoofha bl malls wla shay. 7attan 8abl youm knt tqreben at least once a month ashoofha bl ritz, al 7een ma tbayn. Bs law a3arf esma o min mn mina, chan she’d be mines el youm 8abil bachr.

Faj2aaa, nsma3 9ar5a mn el Mercedes ely jdamnaa, I know, impossible! Bs el shuwari3 7adhum kanaw fa’9yeen ’3air thalath, arba3 syayeer. Bader told me to step on the gas to see if something was wrong, and I did as I was told.

Youm 8arabna mn 3ndehum, Bader nazal dreeshta and…froze?

Sara…

SHIT! Bader? CRAP! 9jj eny r7t feeha, la7ool, mub wagta!

“Umm, law sma7tay e5ty, fee shaii?”

WTF?! Ohhh, ma3a wa7id, 9aa7 nsaiit.

“Uhhh…la…la mafy shay.”

“Enzain 3ayal…7asboo ok?”

I nodded my head and then they instantly left. I turned around to look at Reemas, wla I see her confused and dazzed just like I was. The next few moments we were in silence until I recieve a message.

1 recieved message. 00974*******

Go home. NOW!
I’ll talk to you tomorrow.

1:59 a.m.

I just stared at the mobile screen. No. Musta7eel. It can’t be…Bader…could it? Akeed it is. I didn’t answer back. I cut our cruise short, making up the lamest excuse ever, which was I needed to pee! I know, sooooo lame, bs ma3raft shagool!

When we got back home, we both went into our rooms, washed up, changed and got into bed. I covered myself up with the covers of my blanket and opened my inbox. I inhaled and exhaled and read the message, WOW, mn bain kl el nass ely eb q6r, hu y6la3?

Alla ya3lam shino b9eer bachr, all I could do is pray and wish for the best.

Bader…

Sara? Shitsawy 6al3a al 7een? Eb hal 7aza? Eb n9 el lail? O la b3d ya 3ainy bl corniche! She didn’t text me back, ymkn ma 3rfat el ra8am o ma radat. LA2, musta7eel, akeed 3rfat ina ana! Ufff, shm6al3a bl lail?…aby afham!

“Bader…Bader…BADER!!!”

“Ha ha?” I jumped back into reality.

“Enzil, yalla goum. Kana, w9alna.”

“Ee ee, yalla.”

mi2saa halpost 3alama 9aar….awal shay the internet 3allag oo mora’6ee y9eer save..b3dain i copied it to microsoft, onto a flash, onto another comp., pasted it, did the coloring all over again oo il7een im gonna post it phew !!A5eeranENJOY ;***_______…

I’m continuing Prison Break, the final season.I stopped before at like episode 14 and these past two days I’m watching an episode after another.The series is just heart-breaking…. I still can’t believe what happened with Bellick, poor guy. I keep try…

After I reached Rima’s hotel she invited me in and we had a long talk. We talked about the past couple of weeks and just tried to figuire everything out. I apologized to Rima, I’m lucky she even forgave me. We tried to figuire out why M7sin would do such a thing, cheat.. on his wife. He practicly crawled on his knees begging me to come back and once I do he turns into the man I fell in love with… after all we’ve been through the ups andthe downs he goes and does this to me?

What did I do? Was I not enough for him? We finaly passed that bumpy road and now he wants to climb a brick wall ?

Rima suggested that I should be away from him and stay with her, I agreed.

So a few days had passed. I canceled my number and got a new one, if M7sin called god knows what I would have done.

On one Tuesday morning I got a surprising phone call that woke me up. Only my family and Rima knew my new number. Rima was in the next room asleep and my parents wouldnt be awake at this hour so who could it possibly be? I got up and walked towards the dresser where I had kept it and looked at the screen. It was some random number. I answered the phone and it was Fahad. But how did he … ?

Noura: Hello ?

Fahad: Noura! Good I got it down right! How are you?

Noura: Fahad? How did you get my number?

Fahad: Rima gave it to me.

Noura: Aha, ofcourse she did.

Fahad: I’m sorry if this is too awkward for you I could just erase it.

Noura: No it’s fine. I’m actualy glad you called. It’s been a while.

Fahad: Which is why I called…….. Are you free right now?

Noura: Now? It’s like 7 am!

Fahad: So?

Noura: I’m exhausted and I wanna go back to sleep.

Fahad: Yallah 3ad bla kasal !

Noura: Haha mani kaslana !

Fahad: If your not then yallah !

Noura: Alright alright fine. Where should I meet you?

Fahad: There’s this new cafe that jusr opend up, I hear it has the best carrot cake.

Noura: Haha you know me too well don’t you?

Fahad: Well I’ve never seen someone so addcited to carrot cake.

Noura: Ok, I’ll see you there. Bye.

I suddenly felt so fresh. I jumped into the shower, got out, and wore my black skinny jeans and a loose white top. Finished the outfit off with my new black ankle boots from Victoria’s Secret, quickley applied a naked beige lipstick and a bit of mascara and I was all set to go.

It took me about ten minutes to get there and once I did, my heart started racing and took controle over my entire body. I walked in and saw Fahad sitting there, his back faced towards me. With every step I kept telling myself to go back and run. What was I doing? Was this a breakfast date? I was half a second away from sitting down with my long lost love.

Noura: Hey you.

Fahad: Hey yourself.

Noura: So wheres the cheescake?

Fahad: Haha why are you so nervous?

Noura: Who said anything about being nervous?

Fahad: You tell lame jokes when your nervous..

Noura: Well, this is kinda awkward.

Fahad: Noura, relax were just having brekafast.

Noura: Yeah your right. So how’ve you been?

Fahad: I’m doing fine, what about you.

Noura: Hmmm let’s see. I just found out that my husbands having an affair, and I moved in with my best friend. So you tell me.

Fahad: What the hell is that guys problem?! 7beebty Noura I’m sorry I wish there was something I could do.

Noura: You asked and I answered so what you can do is start my day.

Fahad: I was always good at that. *wink*

Noura: Fahad…

Fahad: Yeah?

Noura: I’m sorry… about everything I’ve put you through.

Fahad: Why are you the one aplogizing? If I wasn’t such a coward and went off to the U.S. then non of these would have happend.

Noura: Then were even haha. Let’s put it all behind us and start over.

I placed my hands on his and held on them so tight. I knew what I wanted, so did he. We spent the morning that way. We both ate our deliciouse carrot cake and drank our coffee. Fahad and I talked about everything and just laughed until tears formed in our eyes. I havent laughed like that in such a long time.

This is how I wanted to spend my life.. with Fahad, not in misery.

After out four hour breakfast Fahad took me back to the hotel and dropped me off at Rima’s door. We both stood their nervous , staring at the floor. He finaly raised his head and lifted my chin up and leaned in to kiss me. I qucikley reacted and pushed him away slowly.

Fahad: Did I do something wrong?

Noura: No Fahad, it’s not you it’s me. I just don’t feel it’s right for me to kiss someone else while I’m still married. That would put me under “cheater” and no way am I allowing myself to sink to M7sin’s level.

Fahad: 7beebty don’t worry, I understand.

Noura: I knew you would. So anyways thank you for a wonderful morning.

Fahad: Hey anytime.

The door suddenly sprung open.

Rima: Well well well, looky here.

Fahad: Hello to you too.

Rima: I was worried about you!

Noura: Very funny. Don’t lie you twet, my phone was on the whole time and I know you gave Fahad my number.

Rima: Oh.. hehe well anywho I’ll be inside waiting to hear the details.

Noura: Fashlaaaa !!

Fahad: It’s ok… almhm I’ll call and check up on you later.

Noura: Ok.. bye.

The minute I walked in Rima pulled me onto the couch and begged me to fill her in. I had no choice, her constant nagging was hell to bare.

Rima: Ufff your love is like Disney. You gotta bring a little lust into it !!

Noura: RIMA ! I’m still married !

Rima: Hell that would never stop me. Fahad’s red meat !

Noura: Your sick…

IM BAAAAAAAACK…ive missed u all so so so soo much :p..SO shlonkum..shakhbarkum..hows life?i finished my exams ! woho…matsadgoun il ra7a ily ana feeha al7een..pheww. its been a longs 2 weeks of studying..la3at chabde ! ..instead of studying sometime…

Bader…

I finally reached the offices to book a flight for me and 3abdalla. I checked how I looked in the mirror and arranged my ’3itra. I turned the ignition off and felt for my mobile, but I didn’t find it. I put my hand in the side pocket of my thoob and I didn’t find it and so I rewinded the events of my day to remember where I last left it.

After I got 3abdalla’s call I went in to shower and stuff and ufff! I placed it on the dresser and I forgot to take it, 3aad law gilna nsaita bl bait ahwaan l2ana 6reeg 3ala ma u9al el shalaih. Yalla b3d, Al 7mdilla 3al kl 7al.

I got down from the car and went in the building. It took me about an hour and I was done. I left with the tickets in my hand and went back home. I park my car in the garage and go to my mom, she was sitting bl 9ala, o salamt 3alaiha.

“Halla eh a7laa um bl dinyaa, shloonch?” I said as I sat next to her on the couch.

“Agool, bs 3an suwalfik hathy, waink ma trd 3ala mukalamty, 5ft 3alaiik!” she said worried.

“Yumma et3arfeen wildich el emsabah! Nsaita bl shalaih.” I said as I kissed her forehead.

“Mthl ubook, sub7an Alla. el ’6ahr ena shay bl jeenat! Kl u5wank nafs 7altk ma 3ad Maryoom e5tk!” she said laughing.

“E7m, yumma, hay el shay y5aleena special!” I said as I popped a tamra in my mouth.

“La 7abeeby, wla special wla shay yal tambal! It makes you a looser like the rest of my brothers, o ana el unique o special, its obvious!” said Maryoom as she entered the living room.

“Yalla bs 6eery zain! Yumma, 8oolay 7g bntich t7trm nafs’haa!”

“Yalla 3aad bskum ehwash, thnainatkum e7tarmoo nafskum tara a5aleekum w aro7 ’3urfty! Ma 9adagt el bait hudoo2 o yait ag3ad wla tyoonly ento el thnain tg3doon 3ala rasy!” she said irritatedly.

Haha, I love this women. Hehe, and as for maryoom baraweeha b3dain.

Mariam was the smallest one of us, so y3ni you could say ‘Daddys Girl.’ She was so daloo3a, uff a7yanan ta8hr, bs haha walla I love her so much, wneesa! Etsawyy jaw! She was in her first year of college.

My mother got up and went to the dinning room to check on the dinner and I went ans sat next to Maryoom.

“Maryoom!” I whispered in her ear.

“Shtaby?” she said whispering too mndamja in a TV show.

“Aby akalmich.”

“Ok, but why are we whispering?”

“I feel like it.”

“Ya maleeeeeeee8!” she said in her normal tone of voice while lowering the volume of the TV down.

“Gool, sh3ndkk?” she asked.

“Umm, bs ya wailich en6la3 mn bainatna!” I warned her.

“La et9adg 3aad, baroo7 af’97k 3nd kil el nass! Yalla fknyy 3aad!” she said sarcastically.

“Maryoooom…” I said in the warning voice of mines, yet again.

“Bader! Seriously yalla 3aad, baroo7 sleepover, 3nd Shayoo5!”

Shai5a was our cousin, and they were extremely close to each other.

“T3aly, yalla enroo7 ’3urfty, hnaak bagoolich.” I got up and she followed behind me.

When we got in the room I closed the door shut behind me. I was going to tell her 3an Sara and the engagement I was planning for her!

“Shoofy, well umm, for the past few months-”

“Who is she?!!!!” she jumped all excitedly.

Wijaaaaaaa3, sh3arafhaaaa!

“Ha?” I said confused!

“Ee ee yalla gool, yallaaaa!!!!”

“Sara AlFlani.” I finally gave in smiling, but it was still weird though, how’d she know?

“OMG!!!!!!!! Badeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeer mabrooooooooooook! O wooooow Mashalla Mashalla, el bnt mamloo7a o 7ada jameela o a5laa8 3alya o 3aila mu7taramaa! I’m soooo happy for youuu!” she said jumping up from the bed and hugged me.

“Hahaa, Alla ybark feech! O el fal lich!” I said winking.

“Helloooo, I’m too good for guys, o plus 7ameer, ma ya36oon wayh!” she said.

“SHINOOOO? 5aiir Inshalla, la b3d ‘ma ya36on wayhh!’ agool maryoom, yalla e7tarmy nafsich!” I said looking at her disbelievingly.

“AHAHAH, chill it, don’t worry, o la b3d ufff! El 7a’9 7ag el shalgaa wl balgaa wl 3awyaa wl mn7a6aa!”

“MARYOOOOM!” I couldn’t help myself anymore and I cracked up.

“Seriously, walla! Ufff! Anyways, 7ilo 7iloo, 6la3 3ndk ‘thoo8 fl banaat!”

“Laish balla? Mn gal ina ma3ndy ‘thoo8!”

“La la bs ya3nii agool, anyways uff yalla ta2a5art! Bye, big broo! Bakalmkk bukraa!” she said and ran out the door. Ya7laiha walla, bs WAIT! Uff, hathy shloon e3rfaat? Yalla bas2alha bachr, its the only way!

“Badeeeeeer!” my Mom called me from downstairs

“Halla Yumma?”

“El 3asha braaz, yalla enzl nt3ashaa!”

I went down to have dinner and an hour and a half later, I kissed my mother good night and left up to my room. My father was away on a business trip. I washed up and changed into my boxers and then went to sleep.

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Hope you like it :)
i made it longer !!!!!!!!!!!
yeah

My sister has Volunteered to edit my post from now on :)

I just hate checking my writing. I once wrote something in a test and when the teacher asked me what did i mean by that :(

i was clueless. God knows where that came from :(

An edited post will have my sister’s signature

M”

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Essa was leaving the cinema with a smile on his face. The movie was amazing just the way he thought.

While he was walking in leicester he spotted Moodi and she wasn’t alone. She was with a guy taller then her and was stuck to him like glue hiding under his jacket. He didn’t know why the sight of her with the guy made him uncomfortable. He avoided her and decided he wouldn’t want to disturb them.

He went home since he had work the next day.

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Knock knock

M: what ? “screaming”

Her mother: its 7:00 am didnt u tell me to wake u up

M: oh sorry mama thank u

Moodi got up and took a shower. She then applied some make up since she will be going for lunch straight afterwards with her mom. They are invited by her mothers friend. She decided she will wear her white dress with her red heels ( yeah she loves those heels) She took her snake skin bag and went down stairs to get the approval of her mother.

Mother: yeah good u chose that u look fresh and cute but don’t u think the headband we bought the other day will go with it.

M: yes thanks I forgot about that

She kissed her mother and got the band and hurried because she was late.

Moodi entered starbucks to find Dana sitting in the same table near the window. She thought yeah now we have our own table like friends. (i know she is a bit crazy but u got to love her )

M: hi dana I’m sorry I’m late

D: no its okay I was early

M:oh do u want anything I’m going to order

D: no thanks already got my order “pointing at her drink”

Moodi headed to order her drink when she found Essa in front of her talking on the phone. She thought when he finishes she will say hi. She was looking at the sandwiches and muffins wondering what to order. She couldn’t help over hearing.

E: oh the batman movie already went to it sorry

F:oh so was it good (this part she didn’t hear :p)

E: yes it was very good okay talk to u later

E: May i have one caffe Latte” while taking out money out of his wallet”

Essa kind of turned around while he was taking out what he owed for the coffee. He was surprised to see Moodi.

E: hi

M: Hi

E: i didnt know you were behind me

M: I was waiting for you to finish your phone call to say hi

E:oh

M:I am sorry but i heard you watched batman.

E: Yes it was amazing i saw you there in leicester but you were busy so i didnt say hi

M: oh that was my brother. He made me skip lunch to go to that movie but i must say it was worth the waiting in line for the ticket.

E: did you see the car

They were discussing the movie while they waited for their orders. The orders finished each one took their order and said their goodbyes and left. Essa to work and moodi back to the table to start the tutoring lesson. Essa while he was going out watched Moodi go to her table and was dumb struck by who she was sitting with. She was sitting with his sister. He made a mental note to ask his sister who she is.
Essa then headed to his work happy because he will finally discover who Moodi is. He was very curious but didnt want to be rude.

until next time
xoxoxoxo

M”

اللهم اني عبدك ابن عبدك ناصيتي بيدك ماض في حكمك عدل في قضاؤك اسالك بكل اسم هو لك سميت به نفسك او انزلته في كتابك او علمته احدا من خلقك او است�…

ENJOY ;))))_______________________________________________6alal………..mn awal ma 6ila3t mn ilcafe 3ala6ool radait ilbait oo min hathak ilwagt oo ana ga3d bil9ala agalib ib hal 8anawat, ashoof e3adat li3bat ams….bs mo mintibih lena mo5i b3eed. ya3…

In the spirit of sharing (what? Everyone else is doing it!) here are 25 things about tigerlilly: 1. I mimic noises, accents, actions. It’s lots of fun for me. I don’t do it consciously. It just happens. 2. I love photography…

I know people. How unsual! A post from L! I can’t believe I was about to write my name. Oh, well. I guess I need to work on that. Anywho, your feedback really made my day. Remember readers, your comments might be the reason behind the smile on people’s faces so don’t stop them from smiling. I’m really really REALLY sorry I won’t be posting for the next two weeks because of the ultimate fear of each and every student; EXAMS. Yes, exams are next week and 7adi mali khlg, though I know you deserve a post. I’m sorry guys; I know it’s pretty short, but hang in there.

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I signed in from my laptop, and there was he.. A box popped, saying:

” Hey! “

Me: ” Hi “

Fai: ” How are you? “

Me: ” Good, and you? “

Fai: ” Good. Listen, about what happened? “

Me: ” What about it? “

Fai: ” 7amani’s really sorry. He didn’t mean to get mad at you, but the driver was complaining and he refused to turn on the AC. You can’t believe how hot it was! Plus, we stayed for more than an hour in the sun. You understand L, right? “

My expression was BLANK. I didn’t know what to do. Should I forgive him that easily or act like the stubborn girl I am? La thiglay L, thiglay. Why didn’t he tell you this himself? Can’t he speak for himself? I understand. His ego won’t let him! La L, don’t jump to conclusions. Wait and see, but first you have to act like everything’s alright with his sister.. Act smart.

The flood of nudges woke me up.

Fai: ” You still there? L la tz3leen. Wala mu qasdi. Where are you? “

Me: ” I’m here, I’m here. It’s just that my mom called and I just had to go. You know mothers. La t7ateen ana mazi3alt. It’s okey. Ba3dain we’re sisters o your brother 7isbat ukhooi. ;) “

Okey, I have a confession. I said that on purpose because I KNOW he’d be reading the chat logs afterwards. I can’t let him off the hook ib hal ser3a. El thigl zain, and I just don’t want him to get his hopes up. ;)

Being the stalker I am, I facebook-ed him. We ALL know almost every girl in Kuwait has a fake facebook account, at least most of the people I know, so I added him up from my fake facebook account, and it just hit me.

I created an e-mail address, and logged in my fake facebook account. To my luck, he accepted my friend request without any questioning, and I in return, stole his e-mail and added him up on MSN. Boy, that takes a lot of courage! To tell you the truth, I was scared of the fact that he’d know who I was, and then BOOM! I had second thoughts bas gawait galbi. After all, he’s my cousin, and I didn’t do anything wrong.

I waited for him to sign in, but he didn’t. I began to lose hope. I was mostly afraid, really. Not afraid of him, bas akhaf a6ee7 mn 3ainah. Sa7 narfazni bas elghali yebga ghali. I was strangely attached to him. Though nothing happened between us, but I sensed this chemistry between us. He may have not spoken up, but his eyes spoke for him. They showed this longing, this desire, this passion, and somehow convinced me that I’m his, and he’s mine, and that’s how it’s going to be.

Something woke me up from daydreaming.. Something I waited for.. Something I was looking forward to.. Something I thought of every night before I go to bed, I dream about, and wake up to find the same thoughts.. Something that I didn’t predict would happen today, tomorrow or the day after.. Something I wanted so bad, but I don’t want anymore.. Something I spent weeks planning for, but now I just wish I could go back in time to where none of this happened..