you called my cellwith your beautiful sound of your voice to tellwe’ll MEET .. together we are going OUTFrom happiness i couldn’t feel my FEETi screamed from the top of my voice like so LOUD that i skipped a beat and all the people who were around…

Heey I’m on my way to the gym with my friends….When I get back I’ll post part b inshallahThank u all for reading ;* Love uuuStill in love? I think so ; )Originally uploaded by Henný GWe all want this.Fahadwana bil sayara sa2altha shitsawii…wi9alii…

Heey I’m on my way to the gym with my friends….When I get back I’ll post part b inshallahThank u all for reading ;* Love uuuStill in love? I think so ; )Originally uploaded by Henný GWe all want this.Fahadwana bil sayara sa2altha shitsawii…wi9alii…

Dear Diary,S3ood came a few hours after 3abdallah left the flat, as soon as I opened the door his eyes went to Fa6ma’s closed door,”How is she doing?”"Madry, she said she wants to sleep, but I don’t think she’s sleeping”"Yeah, my brother is an idiot”"T…

I have nothing to say but a lot of you will kinda hate me for this post :$!

PREVIOUSLY;

Then it hit me. Does Rashid know? Of course he does he’s Abdulaziz’s brother! Oh my god! How come he’s not fighting for me? But I ended it.

But I want him to fight for me! I want him …. to fight for me.

fight for me Rashid .. fight for me!

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I had to meet Rashid.

I want to know what he thinks about all of this situation. I bet he does not know. Wallah if he’d just whisper those words I want to hear .. ‘I’ll wait for you .. ‘ I’ll be his. Without questions or anything.

Little did I know I’d meet him the same day.

Lamya apologized to me and told me she’d take me out as a treat. Of course I couldn’t say no! We all headed to Panini in Grand Hayat for Brunch. We sat down and chatted for a while, when I saw Alya.

“Omg Lamooy choofi” and I pointed to Alya “That’s Alya” I said “The Alya?” Lamya asked “Yes” I muttered “She’s gorgeous!” She said “Uf I know” I mumbled.

“Ayh let’s stop staring she can see us clearly” I said “Oohh wait! There’s a guy” Lamya suddenly said “Where” I quickly looked back. “Isn’t that Rashid?” Lamya asked “Oh shit!” I murmured.

“Enrawe7?” Lamya asked “No” I said “Why is he meeting with her? ufffff” I muttered “We shouldn’t leave let’s spy on them” Lamya said “Great plan!” I replied.

We sat down for a couple of minutes Rashid didn’t even notice us thank god.

Alya suddenly mumbled something to him and gestured him to stand up. They both stood up and left.

“OMG! Uf wain saraw?” I asked “ma3arf let’s follow them!” Lamya decided.

We quickly stood up put some cash on our table and hurried behind them. “I feel pathetic” I whispered to lamya “3adi we are 19 we are supposed to be pathetic” She chuckled.

“Ohh I can see them” She pointed to a corner “They went there yalla ebesr3a” She held my arm and we tiptoed to the corner. “Shhhhhhh” I said and we tried to listen.

I could hear Alya whispering something and Rashid laughing and then suddenly.

“GOOLEE WALLAH?” Rashid laughed “I’m so happy 7abeebty”

Me and Lamya stood shocked and I quickly peaked my eye.

“Hhahahaha you’re choking me” Alya laughed. Rashid was hugging her tightly “Wallah Alya I love you!” He said “I love you too” She whispered back.

And that .. was it.

No Fai & Rashid. No Rashid & Fai. Everything was clear now.

I looked at Lamya she quickly took my hand and pulled me away. “7abeebti” She said and hugged me “Fai 6af wallah it is his loss lat9e7een.”

I pulled myself away “Maba a9ee7 .. I won’t cry for something that was nothing” I said weakly “Because it seems like I was nothing to him .. ” I whispered.

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Stay Tuned ;)

A Lover in Dubai

I woke up with a bad headache, it felt like I was banged on my head with a baseball bat, my head was too heavy and my eyes were barely opening and I made it to the bathroom scarcely. Standing in the shower, I started recapping the night before. T…

I woke up with a bad headache, it felt like I was banged on my head with a baseball bat, my head was too heavy and my eyes were barely opening and I made it to the bathroom scarcely. Standing in the shower, I started recapping the night before. T…

Hello everyone !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I would like to get something of my chest.

See I kind of attacked someone today. Yes I am violent but on rare occasions. I didnt hit anybody but I kind of verbally attacked them. I did not use any curse words . See we were discussing something and she was all like no who cares about this I don’t know it , so it’s not important. So I was like it is important and get out of your bubble !!!!!!!!!!!

“hides her face behind her hands”

walla if you were there you would of totally did the same thing :)
any ways so i feel guilty for that.


Another thing is i kind of told someone your work is ugly and he wasnt meant to hear it . See i didnt know he was behind me “bites NAILS”

SO HAVE YOU ATTACKED SOMEONE LATELY BECAUSE THEY ANNOYED YOU AND FELT GUILTY ABOUT IT (EVEN IF SHE DESERVES IT ) ?

okay think about it.
until time
xoxoxo

Yesterday:i waited..i was nervously looking at my phone,checking the time..i was at a friend’s birthday dinner and all i can think about was Him…it was 9pm and still nothingit was 10pm and nothingjust as i was about to leave i recieve two weird texts…

You guys know how social circles arw right? Once your in it’s all fun and then once you make one tiny mistake the words out like snap. Well what I’m about to tell you is under that category.

You know how Riyadh is with the rumors and gossips? Well I love near it so I know. Once its out, its never forgotton.

Two months ago I went to Riyadh to visit garaybeni. So I stayed with them at their grandmothers house. And next to their house was XX’s house. XX was my second cousin who was also my age. The way houses were like one, there wasa door between the two walls so that is could sort of be like a mini cimpound you get it? Anyways moving on.

So one night XX says he wants to meet me downstairs to say hi. So we sat and chitchatted. And a few times he tried to kiss me. I moved away telling him no and he stopped. Good right?

Then the next 2 days I kwpt seeing him again. Not cause I was intrested no. But cause I’m used to staying up late until 5 am then sleeping so was he, the rest of house are used to sleeping at like 1 or 2. So what do I do? Stay up alone bored or get some company? NOT that kind of company you guys, im not that type fo girl.

So again every now and then he would try to kiss me but I would stop him. XX is the type of guy that adds any random girl on FB. Accepts any random girl on FB. Has alot of female friends. Well lets just come out and say it , he is one hell of a charmer with the ladies. The bad boy.

Anyways I made sure we just talked and not kissed. Which I handeled very sucessfully.

So once I arrive back home he stops talking to me. Wallahi everything was fine between us and I know when peopleare faking something.

I asked him why all of a sudden he’s being distant and mdri wallah nseet what he said. I told him ino why do you always ignore me, you never even say hi. and all he had to say was thofy wajhik. I was like what the hell ! 3eeb mo 97???? 3eeb 3lee… 5ale rejal o yitfahim ma3ay b adab 97 wla l2 ???

So we didnt talk for like a month. After I got my Blackberry I sent all my contacts my BB they all added me except 7amad. Usualy we have these lame fights then its all good again. He lost my number so he asked who? I answered its me D. and he didnt reply back after that.

I called him later and he answere in such a rude way:

XX: Aloo meen ?

D: Hala XX ana D.

XX: Ahhh… ahleen.

D: Kfk?

XX: 7mdela…

D: Ok, why havent u been answering my calls or messages?

XX: Mash’3ool.

D: Aha too busy to send me your pin?

XX: Teben shay 3ashani mash’3ool.

D: La mafi shay salamtik. Bye !

Just like that !! I was pissed as hell !!

ana wsh sawetlo y3ni ?

So then I send him a message last night.

Ok why did you block me, I know you did. If I did something to you then atleast be a man and say something.

And I swear this morning I woke up all sweating (sorry for the details) to find 2 messages from him. My heart was racing. You know when you all of a sudden wake up. Kind of like a stroke wake ? Of that makes any sense…

He replies saying that he feels sorry for me and that he is more of a man than my father. that he cant bleieve the words i said about him “xx wanting me” I NEVER SAID THAT WALLAHI!! THE STORY OF HIM NEARLY KISSING ME WAS ONLY TOLD TO MY MOM WHO TOLD ME TO LET IT PASS. I NEVER TOLD ANYONE ELSE!!

Again he told me “thefy wjhik” and he said alot of stuff. I mean how could be believe such nonsense? You know when half of his cousins were judging him and making him feel like shit I was the one that stood up for him saying la 7aram 3leekom he is a sweet nice person once you get to know him. And this is the thanks I get?

I would never hurt anyone intentionaly.

Now this is on my mind and also first thing in the morning and I go studying to do :S

What do I do? The last message I sent/replies to him said:

St’3forallah ya XX. 5ala9 sawi ili tiby. Ma ra7 a’3sobak b shay. Bkefik. Yallah ma3a l salamah. Oh o ana maskeena? Oh XX, poor XX, one day ur gonna wake up and realize that the world is not a joke so take it seriously cause now your really not. Bye!

And his last reply was:

Porr XX? Haha y9eer 5air.

AGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! WALLAHI YA NASS MA SAWETLO SHAY WALLAHII !!

I was always kind and nice to him. Always backed him up whenever someone said somethiing about him.

What do I do now? I cant talk to him now cause then he will think Im weak and thats one thing im really not !!!

See I feel he is the type that is something bad happend he blabs. And he lives in Riyadh, what if he blabs? In 2 seconds my rep could get ruined. Wallah riyadh people are pissing me off !!

What do I do know? Im freaking out here? I mean god knows what he’s telling people now !!

But who would do such a thing and give XX these false statements ?

Pourqoui babe this one is for you ;**I love you all ;**__________________________________________________________________NOAFwhat am I doing …. its so sad walla ina when I am feeling down I have no one to go to… no one to talk to ….I had to turn …

Random Fact: I cannot function without a corset, I dont need one I just love how it feels ;**______________________________________________________________NOAFma a9adig…MA A9ADIG….3ndy raqma….bs I wont call him akeed I wont…..a9lan I cant I don…

When inspiration hits.. Dear Diary,I woke up early this morning to find Fa6ma packing her suitcase, she’s determined to leave tomorrow evening, naturally I’ll be going with her. I knew she wasn’t happy about leaving because she hasn’t stopped crying si…

Sorry people but I’ve been busy lately.. exams.. gatherings ahh wayed ashyaa2.. this isnt really a post post but i dont feel creative right now.. bs hnee what happened after fai9al left.. sorrry bs aw3idkum post sooooon ;****Ana shaaga ilwayh mnsad7a 3…

Please forgive me I know it’s a late. But today was a little hectic so just now at midnight I had the time. Hope you like the post, I should probably warn you, that with me so exhausted it may be crap for tonight .. sorry again !

love u all

xx- D.



Two Months Later…

I was in bed for the past two days. I had a cold and a fever. Thank god my whole family were taking turns coming to visit me, sadly Fahad didn’t show.. which was kind of shocking. Well not really shocking, I mean I havemt herd from the guy in two months.

Everyone was so sweet, everyday getting me my blueberry muffin and tea. Jimmy getting me the sour gummy worms that I was obsessed with. Yasser rambling on and on about his daily events. Don’t think I haven’t forgotten my parent’s. They were the sweetest of them all. You see I had all of Audrey Hepburns movies on DVD, so they brought them all over from their over here. I’ve been watching them hour after hour.

Noura: You guys c’mon I was a little girl how the hell was I supposed to know haha !

Mother: 7beebty we know your evil side very well so don’t try to act all innocent.

Noura: Haahaha !

Yasser: So what now? Are you gonna bore us with another movie?

Noura: 7aram 3leek Yaso ! Gigi was amazing !!

Yasser: Yeah for gays.

Mother: YASSER !

Yasser: Sorry mama, but seriously it is.

Jamal: … I liked it.

Father: Yasser get him a girl.

Jamal: *shooting noura a look* Uhhh.. haha yeah maybe soon.

Mother: Awww 7beeby Jimmy inshallah allah yjeeblk w7da.

Noura: Oh I think faith already took it’s course on that one.

Jamal walked on over and hugged me, which I though was sweet till he pulled my hair.

Noura: Aww Jimmy remember when you broke your arm?

Jamal: What’s that got to do with anything?

Noura: Oh no reason just reminding you.

It had gotten pretty late so they all decided to leave except for Yasser whou wanted to spend the night but I convinced them all to go and get a good nights rest. They agreed and we said our goodnights.

M7sin: Well, that was nice.

Noura: Yeah it really was, by the way where were you? You said you were going to make yourself a sandwhich.

M7sin: I did.

Noura: It took you an hour?

M7sin: Ok you know what this is really unfair of you to pointing fingers at me !

Noura: Who-oh who said I was pointing any fingers?

M7sin: Ya Noura I really wanted to spend time with you for the past week since you’ve been sick but your family’s always here.

Noura: M7SIN ! Ofcourse their gonna be here, there my parents, my siblings. They want to make sure I’m ok.

M7sin: You are ok.

Noura: Haha *sarcastic laugh* yeah I’m all whoopdi doo with you.

M7sin: That’s not funny.

Noura: Whatever, dim down the lights I wanna sleep.

M7sin: You dim them yourself.

Noura: Wow, is this how you treat your two month pregnant wife ?

M7sin: Agoul bs haa ! Yallah bas nami.

Noura: Wow… how do you do it ?

M7sin: Do what?

Noura: How can you be such a perfect gentelman infront of the whole entire world but once your alone you turn into this monster?

M7sin: Ya Noura watha7y 3ala 7dodik.

Noura: Oh now you wanna talk about boundaries? Haha well baby are you in for a heat discussion.

I got out of bed and headed downstairs. I wasn’t sleepy anymore and wanted some hot milk. He followed me making me nervous. I started to walk faster and faster till he grabbed my the hand at the upper tip of the stairs.

M7sin: WSH FEEKI MA T7TARMENI HAA !! WHO THE HELL DO YOU THINK YOU ARE !! YOUR NOTHING WITHOUT ME !! YOU HEAR ME !! YOU CHEAT WORTHLESS WOMEN !!

Just like that he pushed me down the stairs. He stood their in shock and I tumbled all the way down. I was screaming in pain.. for myself and for my baby.

Once I landed M7sin ran down and pulled me up and held me in his arms. He tried to see if I had a pulse and I did. He searched for any injuries, luckily there was just a tiny bruise on the side of my head. I gainede conciousnes a few minutes later and pushed off of me and tried to stand up.

He tried to help me but I just pushed him away. I started for the door.

I was speaking with my pain and tears.

Noura: I’m leaving this house so don’t you dare follow me. I’m going to stay with my parents for a while. Don’t even try and contact me…….. Oh and wipe of the face of yours, cause it means nothing to me anymore.

I walked out , got into my car and drove. I went over to the hospital to check on the baby.

You know what I hate? When your against something and then finaly get used to it, and then poof it’s taken away from you just like that.

The doctor called me in. He said that I was lucky that I didnt get any seriouse injuries. But unfortunatly for the baby…. it was gone. I lost my poor child. How could this have happned to me? He forced me to have this child and now he killed it. Shocking as it is, I didn’t shed one single tear. They just wouldnt form.

I walked out and decided it was time… time to tell yasser. So I texted him to meet me outside in the garden of our parents house.

Once I arrived I told everything. All the way from the beatings to cursing to pushing me down the stairs. He just held me in his arms and I felt secure. Finaly I started to cry… more and more tears were forming by the second. I guess I just didnt want to believe that this happned. My child… the beautiful thing that was apart of me is now gone forever. Yasser adviced me to tell my parents.

I listend to yasser and the next day I told it all. My parents were strong for me. They hugged me saying how proud they were of me. After out little warming we had a beautiful lunch out in the garden. I finaly felt relaxed.. free… happy. Is this really happening? Ok, enough with the jokes, somebody pinch me!

After lunch Fahad had come to say hello to my parents, not knowing I was there. The shock on his face.

Fahad: Hala 5alty… Oh Noura.. hi

Noura: Hi !

Fahad: How’ve you been?

Noura: Never better !

Fahad: Ahaa…

Fahad gave me a little wink.

Fahad: 5alty lazim amshe al7een walla 3ndi kam shay lazim asawe.

Mother: La wallah 5asara, yalla ma3a l salamah.

Noura: Uh… mama I’m going out to do some shopping.

Mother: Ok 7beebty have fun.

I rushed to the door and the second I stepped out I found Fahad right infront of me. He took me by my hand and we were off.

I love this song by Mary J Blige

and my favorite line:
“So i like what i see when i’m looking at me when i am walking past the mirror”

I made my friend listen to the song and told her about the line She had the nerve to tell me that she knows what she will get me for my birthday. She told me she will get me a mirror. Oh my god right how rude !!!!!!!!!!!!!

LOL walla she made me laugh my head off.

hope you liked the song
until next time
xoxox

please check out this blog;**, each post tends to get me speechless;* http://damgedgoods.blogspot.com/2009/05/day-it-all-started.html

I was sitting with my colleague sipping my daily dose of caffeine, until he had entangled my attention. His fierce laugh had attracted my attention, a gasp of air had been stolen from my lungs. It was obvious that they were engrossed in a deep serious conversation. His friend was normal, not bad but not the one that you’d go back to look at, not the one that would leave you hanging from his looks. His eyes were pitched black, what was he wearing you ask? A dishdasha, but oh boy how did he look in his dishdasha.

I on the other hand, was discussing my wedding with my colleague, we were talking about my fiance, it was a traditional marriage, we have been engaged for over a year now and I loved him so much. I knew that we were compatible for each other and was sure that he was the one. He managed to grasp my attention once again, his distinct features made my tongue automatically went to lick my lips as they had instantly become dry, a lack of saliva of no account of my own.

All of a sudden, his attention was distracted as well. He looked distracted at me, checking me out from my head to toe. A sense of absolute familiarity and discomfort raced down my spine. His stare felt like a piercing sword thrusting through my heart. The way he looked at me, it was as if we were lovers, as if we had known each other from before, yet we just met. As if he was my soul mate. He was caught through mid sentence, lost in his own train of thoughts.

I knew that I was in love with my fiance, but what am I feeling? His energy was peculiar, it destroyed all what was in me. Who am I? Am I ready to get married? Why am I getting married? Is this the man I want to spend the rest of my life with? Tons of thoughts ushered through my brain, but I knew better than to stay there gazing back at him. I picked up my belongings and hastened to the door.

I couldn’t help but recall the incident of my dear friend, she was in love with her husband for five years, she just got divorced from him for being abusive. Is it absurd of me to think that? What if he wasn’t my soul mate, what if someone lying out there is who’s meant for me, I mean I have only known my fiance for a year now. He is definitely in love with me, we’re building our future house right now. The voice in me, deep down, way deep down, kept telling me NO DON’T MARRY HIM! HE’S NOT THE ONE!

But I knew better, I could not call the wedding off.

All the people that I’m going to disappoint once I call it off, most of all, him.

I do love him, marriage is right for me. Our house will soon inshala, and we will live a happy life.

I shall not strive for this guy that I’ve just met, I shall not let his forceful nature drift me apart.

I imagined my life with him, what would it be? A sorry tale perhaps.

I would be the woman stuck at home while he’s hanging late at night in the dewaniya.

Raising our four children all on my own.

I might be dealing with neglect and abuse.

Depressing nights all on my own trying to handle my sick child and wandering around the hospitals all on my own.

Deceiving my self with the idea that maybe he’ll change one day, raising my hopes, that he might alter. Then again why would he? He’s just a common guy who doesn’t even have respect for his own self.

I knew my fiance, and I won’t let a moment of lust get the best of me, I am an intelligent, sensitive girl that deserves to be cared for. That guy might have caused me some euphoria that could be tasted on the tip of my tongue, my lips but it was only momentarily. It’s not something that would last but what I have with my fiance is the kind of love that never fades, as much as I am ashamed to say that now after my previous disclosure. From now on all what this man to me is the distant memory of a beautiful man seated in a cafe that literally blew me away with his sensual lips. It was a moment of weakness, but it did teach me a lot. My decision all seemed easy now.

Deem: 7abeebi, khan namlich after two days.

Munthir: I love you ya 3umri entay

Deem: I love you

Munthir: I have been longing for these words more than you could imagine, I promise to make you the happiest girl alive as long as I’m with you and you won’t regret any decision you make with me.

Deem: I want to see you

Munthir: Place, and expect me there within 5 minutes.

Here I am today, 5 years after the incident, sitting in the house that we have built, he never showed up. He hadn’t kept his promise. All I could do is cry over his memory, all good memories. I was jolly with him, no one could’ve denied that. I have lost the dearest, most precious thing to my heart, and to my displeasure he had passed away on his way, reluctant to meet me. I guess you never value a thing until you lose it. Till this day, the moment of betrayal I had terminates me. It makes me think twice about any movement or action with it’s consequences. I am happily married, from the outside at least. Deep down I could never be happy. His brother knew that and I knew that. His dad made the wrong decision putting himself in such position and my dad on the other half did his duty as a father and saw what was best for me, or so he thought. The agony in seeing his brother trying to make me happy and not remind me of him torments me, he gave up his love and yet here he is trying to make me happy as much as he could except the fact that I see Munthir in every move he does, and in every word he says.

Out to dinner the other night, X and I were enjoying our meal, when faj2atan, out of no where, X throws this question at me:

“Who do you love more, your dad or me? “

And with no hesitation what so ever, “Oboy 6ab3an“, while casually reaching for my drink.

.
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Now I didn’t ask him in return if he loves his mother more!
Because really now I know the answer, and frankly I don’t want to hear it ;-)

I woke up to the loud shouts of yousef, my husband. As soon as i realised who he was shouting for, i jumped out of bed and rushed into the bathroom and locked myself inside. Its a harrowing experience everytime this happens. Why can’t we be the perfect…

Since I’m depressed.. another post..Dear Diary,Today when I woke up Fa6ma was up in the living room, she was still tired but atleast she was consious now.”Good morning Fa6oom” I said when I saw her huddled on the sofa watching Tyra on TV,”Hi Nooro, how…

A Week Later…

Doctor: Congratulations your pregnant !

Noura: R-really ?

Doctor: You don’t seem happy..

Noura: No, ofcourse I’am, it’s just that … I’m happy and shocked all at the same time.

Doctor: Is this your first?

Noura: Yeah..

Doctor: Well it’s a blessing to have.

Noura: I know.. Umm… when’s my next check up ?

Doctor: Just go on straight to the reciption and the nurse will skedual it for you.

Noura: Oh ok thanks.

*Incoming Call Jimmy*

Noura: Hello ?

Jimmy: Hey, where are you ?

Noura: Uhhh… just walking out of the market.

Jimmy: 6yb yallah hurry over.

Noura: Is everything ok ?

Jimmy: Ya habla it’s friday !

Noura: Oh SHIT I totaly forgot yallah I’m on my way.

Jimmy: I can’t believe you forgot and your husband didn’t.

Noura: H.. he’s there ?

Jimmy: Duh !

Noura: *mumbling* great…

Jimmy: What ?

Noura: Nothing, I’m on my way bye.

I arrived kind of late, everyone was already having lunch. So I just sneaked my way in and sat down next to Yasser. It was nice lunch, we all chatted up with some intresting stuff that happend to us this past week. I ofcourse just shut my mouth and nodded along.

After, we all headed on in the guests sitting room and drank our tea.

Noura: Umm.. guys I have some important news to share.

Mother: E 7beebty?

Noura: I’m……… pregnant.

Every one jumped up with joy, even M7sin. I went and hugged everyone. They all congratulated me and once I reached M7sin I whispered into his ear…

Noura: You got what you wanted. But harm me or this baby and so help me god I will ruin you, I’m not giving you mercy this time.

I could see the fear in his eyes. I could smell it on him.

A few moments after my little threat I excused myself to go to the restroom. I wasnt in the mood for all that “happy happy”. I just wanted a little space. So I went on up to my room and lyed down. Then out of nowhere I started to sing.


Someone must have herd and knocked the door. I went and opend it and it was Fahad. He walked in, sat on the bed and just stared at me.

Fahad: Hi…

Noura: Hey…

Fahad: So… is it true?

Noura: Yeah.. it is….

Fahad: I though you wanted to wait atleast a year.

Noura: I…I did….. but the sooner the better… right?

Fahad: What happend to you?

Noura: What are you talking about?

Fahad: What happend to that fiesty strong independant women who used to say “hah i laugh at the face if men”

Noura: How the hell do you know all of this about me??

Fahad: I just know…

Noura: You payed that much attention to me huh ?

Fahad: You glowed more and more everytime I saw you. I remember once, there was this huge party at your aunts house and you totaly forgot . And you though it was one of theose normal family gatherings, so you wore your ripped jeans and white long sleeved top and walked in. You didnt even care that there were people in evening dresses. You went up and said hi to everyone and they still loved you.

Noura: Yeah well that was along time ago. I’m not that girl anymore.

Fahad: Noura… Nouni..

Noura: Don’t call me that.

Fahad. Noura….. what did you do with that girl? You were vibrant, happy, confident, str–

Noura: STOP IT OK !!

Fahad came closer to me and hugged me. I knew I should have pushed him back but I just couldn’t. I wanted to be in his arms. It’s been the first time in a long time that someone has held me in the way. I felt security. We both then sat on the floor with him still hugging me.

Fahad: Are you happy?

Noura: About what ?

Fahad: The baby..

Noura: Ofcourse I’am !!

Fahad: How did he do it?

Noura: Excuse me ? *getting up*

Fahad: You didn’t want this baby now, and when you make your mind you stick to it. Why the sudden change?

Noura: Ok now you’ve crossed the line. What is with you so obsessed with my life ?

Fahad: Noura I just want tomake sure your safe.

Noura: Yeah well do you see me dead on the ground? No, so please get it through your head… I can take care of myself !

Fahad: I know you can but I just want to be there for you like before…

Noura: Before? What do you mean before?

Fahad: Just take care of your self ok? I gotta go.

Noura: No wait!!

Just like that he stormed out. I ran after him a couple of seconds later but he had already left. I saw M7sin sitting down with a look on his face signaling us to leave. So I said my goodbye to everyone and left for home.

Once we got back I hurried on up and changed into my victoria secret mini and got into bed. I just wanted to rest..

M7sin: Noura?

Noura: What ?

M7sin: Are you ok?

Noura: I’m exhausted, I’m having a little nap.

M7sin: Uh.. do you want me to get you anything?

Noura: Oh suddenly you start to care? abuse then cheat , whats next ?

He slowly backed away and walked out. Meanwhile back home I was being talked about.

Yasser: Is it just me or did anyone notice Noura today ?

Mother: What do you mean ?

Yasser: She didn’t seem excited when she told us about her pregnancy.

Mother: 7beeby maybe she’s just tired or something.

Yaser: Yeah maybe..

Jimmy: Yaso she’ll be fine don’t worry about her.

Father: 6yb yallah let’s clean everything up.

*Incoming Call Rima*

M7sin: Hello ?

Rima: Hala M7sin is Noura there?

M7sin: Yeah but she’s asleep. I’ll have her call you later.

Rima: Ok thanks, by the way how’s she doing?

M7sin: She was at the doctor today.

Rima: OH MY GOD!! Is she ok?

M7sin: No worries. She’s pregnant now.

Rima: Pregnant !!

M7sin: What’s the matter?

Rima: Wow, nothing but weren’t you guys going to wait atleast a year?

M7sin: Yeah well change of plans.

Rima: Ahaaa… well let her call me when she wakes up.

M7sin: Will do.

M7sin called the phone company and had them block Rima’s number from the house phone and my cell phone.


I couldn’t sleep, all I could think about was Fahad and the words that he said to me.. “I just want to be there for you like BEFORE”. What did he mean by that, before? We only met twice, he even said so. The other times were at family gatherings which he never came up to me. What the hell is going on?

First I meet him and he automaticly assumes something is wrong. Then he kisses me. Then he shows up at my house at the right time. Then now he’s talking to me as if he’s known me my whole life. Ok, I get that were family but who is this guy?

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My little pretties I’m feeling vibrant and oh so happy which is why you will get another post later tonight. *sigh* don’t you just love me? ;*

A quick post for all of you! love you all :*

PREVIOUSLY;

Is he serious?
Can I leave Rashid for him?
But I .. I .. L .. Rashid I do .. I won’t leave him for Abdulaziz so suddenly.
How can Abdulaziz do this to Rashid? What’s going on?

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I talked to Lamya, she’s an idiot.

We had a huge fight. She told me that Abdulaziz is super hot and mature and I should move on with him instead of Rashid. Is she serious? Does she seriously think I’m that low and lame? I told her that I’d never do that!

I won’t hurt Rashid this way even though he hurt me a lot. He will always be my first love and I can never. NEVER do this to him.

But GUESS WHAT! Abdulaziz talked to my dad asking him for my hand! I did not know if I was mad at him, well he’s too charming for me to be mad at him but what he did was inappropriate!

Later on that day Mama talk to me about Abdulaziz. I wanted to shout “NO!” But strangely I did not.

My mother felt that I was completely nervous and confused. She said I was too young to make a decision so she would totally understand if I say no or if I need time to think.

She said that I should forget that Abdulaziz’s father is my dad’s bestfriend and that my dad would never pressure me just to satisfy his friendship.

After long thinking I decided that I didn’t know what to do. I told my mom to tell them to wait.

He did say he’d wait right? I’ll make up my decision later.

WAIT!

Then it hit me. Does Rashid know? Of course he does he’s Abdulaziz’s brother! Oh my god! How come he’s not fighting for me? But I ended it.

But I want him to fight for me! I want him …. to fight for me.

fight for me Rashid .. fight for me!

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Stay Tuned

A Lover in Dubai

- 3abdalla -


I woke up this morning with the worst headache ever, my head was throbbing with pain so badly. I wish she was here. I remember two years back whenever I used to have a headache, I’d take a panadol and call her. And when we talk I feel the pain go away little by little. IT may sound pathetic, but it was real.


Its been a little over than two weeks now, that I didn’t see nor hear from here. But of course I won’t see her, she in Qatar, with Sara. I miss her so badly. From the day we…broke up? Well, I don’t know if the break up was official but I’m guessing not. Anyways back to where I was, from that time, my heart had a huge whole in it. I felt so empty, like she took my other half away. But now, that spot has been refilled, my love is back. To tell you truth, I’ve been praying and praying just to at least bump into her. Like what they say, a total coincidence. She was the sweet to my heart, and how I lived without her all that time was, strange. Although, it was very difficult. Very indeed.

Finally, that day that I had wished for to come came. It was such a relieve. But I was honestly shocked. After the first year of praying and wishing of “bumping” into her, I thought I was insane that I’d ever get the chance to see her again, But I kept on and stayed strong. I stayed positive the whole way. The reason was, and everybody I knew knew it too, it was because nobody would ever be my Reemas. Reemas, was one in a million. And when I first met her and locked eyes with her, I thanked god and realised how blessed I was to her in my life.


- Reemas -


Where is she? Oh well, I might have thought it would’ve taken a little less to talk to your lover, but, sorry, I was proven wrong! I swam a few laps back and forth. It seemed to loosen up the tension in me.


These past few days, I’ve been, not only confused, but the heck confused! I miss…3abdalla. I wonder when I’ll finally get to call him or even text him. I kind of feel guilty for making him wait this long, but like I said. I will when I’m ready. And that the reason I’m confused, am I ready or not. I really have no idea. A second I pick up my phone and write a message, and the next I’m hesitant and erase it!


Mhhhhmmm, that’s enough about me. I never thought, me, yes as in MOI, would be this big of a drama queen! Random topic, random topic….YES! I got it. Sara, Bader, and the engagement! After we came to Qatar I forgot about it. And whenever I remember, Sara would be with me and I promised him not to tell her a thing, and so I couldn’t call him and help out with the details. Hehe, I can imagine them growing old with each other but still remaining the same old lovey dovey couple, Badra, hehe. Badra was the celebrity name I gave them just recently.


Oh, here comes Sara, or shall I say Badra, hehe.


- Bader -


I woke up at 3 in the afternoon, when I find two missed calls and a message from 3abdalla.


1 msg recieved. 3abood.


Bdaiir, wainkk int?
Shfeek ma trdd 3ala my calls,
el muhm give me a call,
aby akalmk.


12:00 p.m.


A3ootho bl Alla, sh9ayrr b3d. I went and washed up, prayed and called him.


“Bader, ya5y int wainkk?”


“Kanii, shfeek? 3asa ma shar?”


“Uff, eskt, 7altyy ma2saa el yoom.”


“Lasih yubba, sh9ayer, oh la let me guess Reemas?”, I said teasing him.


Akeed mo huy, wlaa…


He stayed silent. Ee, akeed its her.


“3baiiid, Reemas?”


“Ee ya m3awdd…”

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