Pourqoui babe this one is for you ;**I love you all ;**__________________________________________________________________NOAFwhat am I doing …. its so sad walla ina when I am feeling down I have no one to go to… no one to talk to ….I had to turn …

Random Fact: I cannot function without a corset, I dont need one I just love how it feels ;**______________________________________________________________NOAFma a9adig…MA A9ADIG….3ndy raqma….bs I wont call him akeed I wont…..a9lan I cant I don…

When inspiration hits.. Dear Diary,I woke up early this morning to find Fa6ma packing her suitcase, she’s determined to leave tomorrow evening, naturally I’ll be going with her. I knew she wasn’t happy about leaving because she hasn’t stopped crying si…

Sorry people but I’ve been busy lately.. exams.. gatherings ahh wayed ashyaa2.. this isnt really a post post but i dont feel creative right now.. bs hnee what happened after fai9al left.. sorrry bs aw3idkum post sooooon ;****Ana shaaga ilwayh mnsad7a 3…

Please forgive me I know it’s a late. But today was a little hectic so just now at midnight I had the time. Hope you like the post, I should probably warn you, that with me so exhausted it may be crap for tonight .. sorry again !

love u all

xx- D.



Two Months Later…

I was in bed for the past two days. I had a cold and a fever. Thank god my whole family were taking turns coming to visit me, sadly Fahad didn’t show.. which was kind of shocking. Well not really shocking, I mean I havemt herd from the guy in two months.

Everyone was so sweet, everyday getting me my blueberry muffin and tea. Jimmy getting me the sour gummy worms that I was obsessed with. Yasser rambling on and on about his daily events. Don’t think I haven’t forgotten my parent’s. They were the sweetest of them all. You see I had all of Audrey Hepburns movies on DVD, so they brought them all over from their over here. I’ve been watching them hour after hour.

Noura: You guys c’mon I was a little girl how the hell was I supposed to know haha !

Mother: 7beebty we know your evil side very well so don’t try to act all innocent.

Noura: Haahaha !

Yasser: So what now? Are you gonna bore us with another movie?

Noura: 7aram 3leek Yaso ! Gigi was amazing !!

Yasser: Yeah for gays.

Mother: YASSER !

Yasser: Sorry mama, but seriously it is.

Jamal: … I liked it.

Father: Yasser get him a girl.

Jamal: *shooting noura a look* Uhhh.. haha yeah maybe soon.

Mother: Awww 7beeby Jimmy inshallah allah yjeeblk w7da.

Noura: Oh I think faith already took it’s course on that one.

Jamal walked on over and hugged me, which I though was sweet till he pulled my hair.

Noura: Aww Jimmy remember when you broke your arm?

Jamal: What’s that got to do with anything?

Noura: Oh no reason just reminding you.

It had gotten pretty late so they all decided to leave except for Yasser whou wanted to spend the night but I convinced them all to go and get a good nights rest. They agreed and we said our goodnights.

M7sin: Well, that was nice.

Noura: Yeah it really was, by the way where were you? You said you were going to make yourself a sandwhich.

M7sin: I did.

Noura: It took you an hour?

M7sin: Ok you know what this is really unfair of you to pointing fingers at me !

Noura: Who-oh who said I was pointing any fingers?

M7sin: Ya Noura I really wanted to spend time with you for the past week since you’ve been sick but your family’s always here.

Noura: M7SIN ! Ofcourse their gonna be here, there my parents, my siblings. They want to make sure I’m ok.

M7sin: You are ok.

Noura: Haha *sarcastic laugh* yeah I’m all whoopdi doo with you.

M7sin: That’s not funny.

Noura: Whatever, dim down the lights I wanna sleep.

M7sin: You dim them yourself.

Noura: Wow, is this how you treat your two month pregnant wife ?

M7sin: Agoul bs haa ! Yallah bas nami.

Noura: Wow… how do you do it ?

M7sin: Do what?

Noura: How can you be such a perfect gentelman infront of the whole entire world but once your alone you turn into this monster?

M7sin: Ya Noura watha7y 3ala 7dodik.

Noura: Oh now you wanna talk about boundaries? Haha well baby are you in for a heat discussion.

I got out of bed and headed downstairs. I wasn’t sleepy anymore and wanted some hot milk. He followed me making me nervous. I started to walk faster and faster till he grabbed my the hand at the upper tip of the stairs.

M7sin: WSH FEEKI MA T7TARMENI HAA !! WHO THE HELL DO YOU THINK YOU ARE !! YOUR NOTHING WITHOUT ME !! YOU HEAR ME !! YOU CHEAT WORTHLESS WOMEN !!

Just like that he pushed me down the stairs. He stood their in shock and I tumbled all the way down. I was screaming in pain.. for myself and for my baby.

Once I landed M7sin ran down and pulled me up and held me in his arms. He tried to see if I had a pulse and I did. He searched for any injuries, luckily there was just a tiny bruise on the side of my head. I gainede conciousnes a few minutes later and pushed off of me and tried to stand up.

He tried to help me but I just pushed him away. I started for the door.

I was speaking with my pain and tears.

Noura: I’m leaving this house so don’t you dare follow me. I’m going to stay with my parents for a while. Don’t even try and contact me…….. Oh and wipe of the face of yours, cause it means nothing to me anymore.

I walked out , got into my car and drove. I went over to the hospital to check on the baby.

You know what I hate? When your against something and then finaly get used to it, and then poof it’s taken away from you just like that.

The doctor called me in. He said that I was lucky that I didnt get any seriouse injuries. But unfortunatly for the baby…. it was gone. I lost my poor child. How could this have happned to me? He forced me to have this child and now he killed it. Shocking as it is, I didn’t shed one single tear. They just wouldnt form.

I walked out and decided it was time… time to tell yasser. So I texted him to meet me outside in the garden of our parents house.

Once I arrived I told everything. All the way from the beatings to cursing to pushing me down the stairs. He just held me in his arms and I felt secure. Finaly I started to cry… more and more tears were forming by the second. I guess I just didnt want to believe that this happned. My child… the beautiful thing that was apart of me is now gone forever. Yasser adviced me to tell my parents.

I listend to yasser and the next day I told it all. My parents were strong for me. They hugged me saying how proud they were of me. After out little warming we had a beautiful lunch out in the garden. I finaly felt relaxed.. free… happy. Is this really happening? Ok, enough with the jokes, somebody pinch me!

After lunch Fahad had come to say hello to my parents, not knowing I was there. The shock on his face.

Fahad: Hala 5alty… Oh Noura.. hi

Noura: Hi !

Fahad: How’ve you been?

Noura: Never better !

Fahad: Ahaa…

Fahad gave me a little wink.

Fahad: 5alty lazim amshe al7een walla 3ndi kam shay lazim asawe.

Mother: La wallah 5asara, yalla ma3a l salamah.

Noura: Uh… mama I’m going out to do some shopping.

Mother: Ok 7beebty have fun.

I rushed to the door and the second I stepped out I found Fahad right infront of me. He took me by my hand and we were off.

I love this song by Mary J Blige

and my favorite line:
“So i like what i see when i’m looking at me when i am walking past the mirror”

I made my friend listen to the song and told her about the line She had the nerve to tell me that she knows what she will get me for my birthday. She told me she will get me a mirror. Oh my god right how rude !!!!!!!!!!!!!

LOL walla she made me laugh my head off.

hope you liked the song
until next time
xoxox

please check out this blog;**, each post tends to get me speechless;* http://damgedgoods.blogspot.com/2009/05/day-it-all-started.html

I was sitting with my colleague sipping my daily dose of caffeine, until he had entangled my attention. His fierce laugh had attracted my attention, a gasp of air had been stolen from my lungs. It was obvious that they were engrossed in a deep serious conversation. His friend was normal, not bad but not the one that you’d go back to look at, not the one that would leave you hanging from his looks. His eyes were pitched black, what was he wearing you ask? A dishdasha, but oh boy how did he look in his dishdasha.

I on the other hand, was discussing my wedding with my colleague, we were talking about my fiance, it was a traditional marriage, we have been engaged for over a year now and I loved him so much. I knew that we were compatible for each other and was sure that he was the one. He managed to grasp my attention once again, his distinct features made my tongue automatically went to lick my lips as they had instantly become dry, a lack of saliva of no account of my own.

All of a sudden, his attention was distracted as well. He looked distracted at me, checking me out from my head to toe. A sense of absolute familiarity and discomfort raced down my spine. His stare felt like a piercing sword thrusting through my heart. The way he looked at me, it was as if we were lovers, as if we had known each other from before, yet we just met. As if he was my soul mate. He was caught through mid sentence, lost in his own train of thoughts.

I knew that I was in love with my fiance, but what am I feeling? His energy was peculiar, it destroyed all what was in me. Who am I? Am I ready to get married? Why am I getting married? Is this the man I want to spend the rest of my life with? Tons of thoughts ushered through my brain, but I knew better than to stay there gazing back at him. I picked up my belongings and hastened to the door.

I couldn’t help but recall the incident of my dear friend, she was in love with her husband for five years, she just got divorced from him for being abusive. Is it absurd of me to think that? What if he wasn’t my soul mate, what if someone lying out there is who’s meant for me, I mean I have only known my fiance for a year now. He is definitely in love with me, we’re building our future house right now. The voice in me, deep down, way deep down, kept telling me NO DON’T MARRY HIM! HE’S NOT THE ONE!

But I knew better, I could not call the wedding off.

All the people that I’m going to disappoint once I call it off, most of all, him.

I do love him, marriage is right for me. Our house will soon inshala, and we will live a happy life.

I shall not strive for this guy that I’ve just met, I shall not let his forceful nature drift me apart.

I imagined my life with him, what would it be? A sorry tale perhaps.

I would be the woman stuck at home while he’s hanging late at night in the dewaniya.

Raising our four children all on my own.

I might be dealing with neglect and abuse.

Depressing nights all on my own trying to handle my sick child and wandering around the hospitals all on my own.

Deceiving my self with the idea that maybe he’ll change one day, raising my hopes, that he might alter. Then again why would he? He’s just a common guy who doesn’t even have respect for his own self.

I knew my fiance, and I won’t let a moment of lust get the best of me, I am an intelligent, sensitive girl that deserves to be cared for. That guy might have caused me some euphoria that could be tasted on the tip of my tongue, my lips but it was only momentarily. It’s not something that would last but what I have with my fiance is the kind of love that never fades, as much as I am ashamed to say that now after my previous disclosure. From now on all what this man to me is the distant memory of a beautiful man seated in a cafe that literally blew me away with his sensual lips. It was a moment of weakness, but it did teach me a lot. My decision all seemed easy now.

Deem: 7abeebi, khan namlich after two days.

Munthir: I love you ya 3umri entay

Deem: I love you

Munthir: I have been longing for these words more than you could imagine, I promise to make you the happiest girl alive as long as I’m with you and you won’t regret any decision you make with me.

Deem: I want to see you

Munthir: Place, and expect me there within 5 minutes.

Here I am today, 5 years after the incident, sitting in the house that we have built, he never showed up. He hadn’t kept his promise. All I could do is cry over his memory, all good memories. I was jolly with him, no one could’ve denied that. I have lost the dearest, most precious thing to my heart, and to my displeasure he had passed away on his way, reluctant to meet me. I guess you never value a thing until you lose it. Till this day, the moment of betrayal I had terminates me. It makes me think twice about any movement or action with it’s consequences. I am happily married, from the outside at least. Deep down I could never be happy. His brother knew that and I knew that. His dad made the wrong decision putting himself in such position and my dad on the other half did his duty as a father and saw what was best for me, or so he thought. The agony in seeing his brother trying to make me happy and not remind me of him torments me, he gave up his love and yet here he is trying to make me happy as much as he could except the fact that I see Munthir in every move he does, and in every word he says.

Out to dinner the other night, X and I were enjoying our meal, when faj2atan, out of no where, X throws this question at me:

“Who do you love more, your dad or me? “

And with no hesitation what so ever, “Oboy 6ab3an“, while casually reaching for my drink.

.
.

Now I didn’t ask him in return if he loves his mother more!
Because really now I know the answer, and frankly I don’t want to hear it ;-)

I woke up to the loud shouts of yousef, my husband. As soon as i realised who he was shouting for, i jumped out of bed and rushed into the bathroom and locked myself inside. Its a harrowing experience everytime this happens. Why can’t we be the perfect…

Since I’m depressed.. another post..Dear Diary,Today when I woke up Fa6ma was up in the living room, she was still tired but atleast she was consious now.”Good morning Fa6oom” I said when I saw her huddled on the sofa watching Tyra on TV,”Hi Nooro, how…

A Week Later…

Doctor: Congratulations your pregnant !

Noura: R-really ?

Doctor: You don’t seem happy..

Noura: No, ofcourse I’am, it’s just that … I’m happy and shocked all at the same time.

Doctor: Is this your first?

Noura: Yeah..

Doctor: Well it’s a blessing to have.

Noura: I know.. Umm… when’s my next check up ?

Doctor: Just go on straight to the reciption and the nurse will skedual it for you.

Noura: Oh ok thanks.

*Incoming Call Jimmy*

Noura: Hello ?

Jimmy: Hey, where are you ?

Noura: Uhhh… just walking out of the market.

Jimmy: 6yb yallah hurry over.

Noura: Is everything ok ?

Jimmy: Ya habla it’s friday !

Noura: Oh SHIT I totaly forgot yallah I’m on my way.

Jimmy: I can’t believe you forgot and your husband didn’t.

Noura: H.. he’s there ?

Jimmy: Duh !

Noura: *mumbling* great…

Jimmy: What ?

Noura: Nothing, I’m on my way bye.

I arrived kind of late, everyone was already having lunch. So I just sneaked my way in and sat down next to Yasser. It was nice lunch, we all chatted up with some intresting stuff that happend to us this past week. I ofcourse just shut my mouth and nodded along.

After, we all headed on in the guests sitting room and drank our tea.

Noura: Umm.. guys I have some important news to share.

Mother: E 7beebty?

Noura: I’m……… pregnant.

Every one jumped up with joy, even M7sin. I went and hugged everyone. They all congratulated me and once I reached M7sin I whispered into his ear…

Noura: You got what you wanted. But harm me or this baby and so help me god I will ruin you, I’m not giving you mercy this time.

I could see the fear in his eyes. I could smell it on him.

A few moments after my little threat I excused myself to go to the restroom. I wasnt in the mood for all that “happy happy”. I just wanted a little space. So I went on up to my room and lyed down. Then out of nowhere I started to sing.


Someone must have herd and knocked the door. I went and opend it and it was Fahad. He walked in, sat on the bed and just stared at me.

Fahad: Hi…

Noura: Hey…

Fahad: So… is it true?

Noura: Yeah.. it is….

Fahad: I though you wanted to wait atleast a year.

Noura: I…I did….. but the sooner the better… right?

Fahad: What happend to you?

Noura: What are you talking about?

Fahad: What happend to that fiesty strong independant women who used to say “hah i laugh at the face if men”

Noura: How the hell do you know all of this about me??

Fahad: I just know…

Noura: You payed that much attention to me huh ?

Fahad: You glowed more and more everytime I saw you. I remember once, there was this huge party at your aunts house and you totaly forgot . And you though it was one of theose normal family gatherings, so you wore your ripped jeans and white long sleeved top and walked in. You didnt even care that there were people in evening dresses. You went up and said hi to everyone and they still loved you.

Noura: Yeah well that was along time ago. I’m not that girl anymore.

Fahad: Noura… Nouni..

Noura: Don’t call me that.

Fahad. Noura….. what did you do with that girl? You were vibrant, happy, confident, str–

Noura: STOP IT OK !!

Fahad came closer to me and hugged me. I knew I should have pushed him back but I just couldn’t. I wanted to be in his arms. It’s been the first time in a long time that someone has held me in the way. I felt security. We both then sat on the floor with him still hugging me.

Fahad: Are you happy?

Noura: About what ?

Fahad: The baby..

Noura: Ofcourse I’am !!

Fahad: How did he do it?

Noura: Excuse me ? *getting up*

Fahad: You didn’t want this baby now, and when you make your mind you stick to it. Why the sudden change?

Noura: Ok now you’ve crossed the line. What is with you so obsessed with my life ?

Fahad: Noura I just want tomake sure your safe.

Noura: Yeah well do you see me dead on the ground? No, so please get it through your head… I can take care of myself !

Fahad: I know you can but I just want to be there for you like before…

Noura: Before? What do you mean before?

Fahad: Just take care of your self ok? I gotta go.

Noura: No wait!!

Just like that he stormed out. I ran after him a couple of seconds later but he had already left. I saw M7sin sitting down with a look on his face signaling us to leave. So I said my goodbye to everyone and left for home.

Once we got back I hurried on up and changed into my victoria secret mini and got into bed. I just wanted to rest..

M7sin: Noura?

Noura: What ?

M7sin: Are you ok?

Noura: I’m exhausted, I’m having a little nap.

M7sin: Uh.. do you want me to get you anything?

Noura: Oh suddenly you start to care? abuse then cheat , whats next ?

He slowly backed away and walked out. Meanwhile back home I was being talked about.

Yasser: Is it just me or did anyone notice Noura today ?

Mother: What do you mean ?

Yasser: She didn’t seem excited when she told us about her pregnancy.

Mother: 7beeby maybe she’s just tired or something.

Yaser: Yeah maybe..

Jimmy: Yaso she’ll be fine don’t worry about her.

Father: 6yb yallah let’s clean everything up.

*Incoming Call Rima*

M7sin: Hello ?

Rima: Hala M7sin is Noura there?

M7sin: Yeah but she’s asleep. I’ll have her call you later.

Rima: Ok thanks, by the way how’s she doing?

M7sin: She was at the doctor today.

Rima: OH MY GOD!! Is she ok?

M7sin: No worries. She’s pregnant now.

Rima: Pregnant !!

M7sin: What’s the matter?

Rima: Wow, nothing but weren’t you guys going to wait atleast a year?

M7sin: Yeah well change of plans.

Rima: Ahaaa… well let her call me when she wakes up.

M7sin: Will do.

M7sin called the phone company and had them block Rima’s number from the house phone and my cell phone.


I couldn’t sleep, all I could think about was Fahad and the words that he said to me.. “I just want to be there for you like BEFORE”. What did he mean by that, before? We only met twice, he even said so. The other times were at family gatherings which he never came up to me. What the hell is going on?

First I meet him and he automaticly assumes something is wrong. Then he kisses me. Then he shows up at my house at the right time. Then now he’s talking to me as if he’s known me my whole life. Ok, I get that were family but who is this guy?

~~~~~~~~~~


My little pretties I’m feeling vibrant and oh so happy which is why you will get another post later tonight. *sigh* don’t you just love me? ;*

A quick post for all of you! love you all :*

PREVIOUSLY;

Is he serious?
Can I leave Rashid for him?
But I .. I .. L .. Rashid I do .. I won’t leave him for Abdulaziz so suddenly.
How can Abdulaziz do this to Rashid? What’s going on?

——————————–

I talked to Lamya, she’s an idiot.

We had a huge fight. She told me that Abdulaziz is super hot and mature and I should move on with him instead of Rashid. Is she serious? Does she seriously think I’m that low and lame? I told her that I’d never do that!

I won’t hurt Rashid this way even though he hurt me a lot. He will always be my first love and I can never. NEVER do this to him.

But GUESS WHAT! Abdulaziz talked to my dad asking him for my hand! I did not know if I was mad at him, well he’s too charming for me to be mad at him but what he did was inappropriate!

Later on that day Mama talk to me about Abdulaziz. I wanted to shout “NO!” But strangely I did not.

My mother felt that I was completely nervous and confused. She said I was too young to make a decision so she would totally understand if I say no or if I need time to think.

She said that I should forget that Abdulaziz’s father is my dad’s bestfriend and that my dad would never pressure me just to satisfy his friendship.

After long thinking I decided that I didn’t know what to do. I told my mom to tell them to wait.

He did say he’d wait right? I’ll make up my decision later.

WAIT!

Then it hit me. Does Rashid know? Of course he does he’s Abdulaziz’s brother! Oh my god! How come he’s not fighting for me? But I ended it.

But I want him to fight for me! I want him …. to fight for me.

fight for me Rashid .. fight for me!

————————

Stay Tuned

A Lover in Dubai

- 3abdalla -


I woke up this morning with the worst headache ever, my head was throbbing with pain so badly. I wish she was here. I remember two years back whenever I used to have a headache, I’d take a panadol and call her. And when we talk I feel the pain go away little by little. IT may sound pathetic, but it was real.


Its been a little over than two weeks now, that I didn’t see nor hear from here. But of course I won’t see her, she in Qatar, with Sara. I miss her so badly. From the day we…broke up? Well, I don’t know if the break up was official but I’m guessing not. Anyways back to where I was, from that time, my heart had a huge whole in it. I felt so empty, like she took my other half away. But now, that spot has been refilled, my love is back. To tell you truth, I’ve been praying and praying just to at least bump into her. Like what they say, a total coincidence. She was the sweet to my heart, and how I lived without her all that time was, strange. Although, it was very difficult. Very indeed.

Finally, that day that I had wished for to come came. It was such a relieve. But I was honestly shocked. After the first year of praying and wishing of “bumping” into her, I thought I was insane that I’d ever get the chance to see her again, But I kept on and stayed strong. I stayed positive the whole way. The reason was, and everybody I knew knew it too, it was because nobody would ever be my Reemas. Reemas, was one in a million. And when I first met her and locked eyes with her, I thanked god and realised how blessed I was to her in my life.


- Reemas -


Where is she? Oh well, I might have thought it would’ve taken a little less to talk to your lover, but, sorry, I was proven wrong! I swam a few laps back and forth. It seemed to loosen up the tension in me.


These past few days, I’ve been, not only confused, but the heck confused! I miss…3abdalla. I wonder when I’ll finally get to call him or even text him. I kind of feel guilty for making him wait this long, but like I said. I will when I’m ready. And that the reason I’m confused, am I ready or not. I really have no idea. A second I pick up my phone and write a message, and the next I’m hesitant and erase it!


Mhhhhmmm, that’s enough about me. I never thought, me, yes as in MOI, would be this big of a drama queen! Random topic, random topic….YES! I got it. Sara, Bader, and the engagement! After we came to Qatar I forgot about it. And whenever I remember, Sara would be with me and I promised him not to tell her a thing, and so I couldn’t call him and help out with the details. Hehe, I can imagine them growing old with each other but still remaining the same old lovey dovey couple, Badra, hehe. Badra was the celebrity name I gave them just recently.


Oh, here comes Sara, or shall I say Badra, hehe.


- Bader -


I woke up at 3 in the afternoon, when I find two missed calls and a message from 3abdalla.


1 msg recieved. 3abood.


Bdaiir, wainkk int?
Shfeek ma trdd 3ala my calls,
el muhm give me a call,
aby akalmk.


12:00 p.m.


A3ootho bl Alla, sh9ayrr b3d. I went and washed up, prayed and called him.


“Bader, ya5y int wainkk?”


“Kanii, shfeek? 3asa ma shar?”


“Uff, eskt, 7altyy ma2saa el yoom.”


“Lasih yubba, sh9ayer, oh la let me guess Reemas?”, I said teasing him.


Akeed mo huy, wlaa…


He stayed silent. Ee, akeed its her.


“3baiiid, Reemas?”


“Ee ya m3awdd…”

Dear Diary,It’s been a week since 3abdallah arrived, Fa6oom cries herself to sleep every night, I know because I could hear her sobbing through the thin walls of my flat.Yesterday morning S3ood came over to invite us to a barbeque in the park, the weat…

WAYED I posted ilyoum, be keep in mind the “vanishing illusions” was posted without me knowing, Cupid ;* il 7ilwa dshat my account and posted it for me after I sent it to her, you know I love you babe ;**CHANGE, seriously babe you went private? leana t…

I saw this pink car in Salmiya today. The car was very acrobatic i must say. Probably maybayen in the picture mala7agt a9werha bas it was somehow dancing. See how its slightly bent? 7asait’ha roller coaster ride. What do you call it when they play with the tires and make it look like its jumping? The guy 7a6 the mexican flag on the back window. Shino ya3ni? Are you mexican? I very much doubt

Two months have passed since that “incident”, and I can’t lie and say that I cried myself to sleep every night, because I didn’t. Life moved on, nothing changed, except that he’s not around.

I haven’t seen or heard of him since that day. I don’t miss him though, I don’t miss him at all. I don’t even think about him, well unless something reminds me of him. Which weirdly enough happens a lot. Whenever I listen to ANY song, regardless of the content of the lyrics, I start thinking about him. Pretty weird, huh?

Misjudged your limits, pushed you too far.
Took you for granted.
I thought that you needed me more, more, more.

I wonder how he’s doing, you don’t think he misses me, do you? no, of course not. Why would he? he absolutely hates me.

Anyway, whatever, why am I even talking about him?

Today we’re throwing a huge “Halloween Party”. Even though it’s NOT October, it’s actually no where NEAR October! but Dana decided she wants to have a Halloween party, so here we are, doing what her majesty wants.

“You guys, how do I look?” Dana got out from the toilet dressed up in a tiny white t-shirt with PETA written on it, daisy dukes, trashy heels, oh and a pair of ginormous fake boobs.
“What the hell are you supposed to be, white trash?” Sarah said, who’s in a Morticia costume(the mother from the Addams family).
“No, Pamela Anderson! God you’re a retard” She sighed and skipped to the mirror, “Wow, I look good with huge boobs. But it’s so weird it’s like so OUT there and it gets in the way of things”
“It’s supposed to be out there, bass you wouldn’t know because you’re an A cup” Aya said as she applied her eye liner.
“Bitch. A is the new DD” Dana replied, poking her huge fake boobs with the most amused look on her face.
“Whatever, huh eash raykom?” Aya twirled around in her I Love Lucy costume.

We all nodded in approval and went back to working on our costumes.

I went to the toilet and struggled with getting in my purple tights. Why are tights so fucking annoying to put on? anyway, I put my costume and wig on and went downstairs, which is where the girls were.

“OMG! YOU LOOK HILARIOUS!” Dana shrieked and laughed hysterically.
“Ha ha ha! very funny! shofi meen yitfalsaf!”
“La tredi 3aleeha, walla your costume is great” Aya said.
Sarah came out of the kitchen and gave me a questioning look “What are you supposed to be? a person from the future?”
“NO! Jane Jetson, you tard”
“Ahhh, right!”

We kept buzzing all around the house, doing some last minute additions to the decoration, until the guests finally started to arrive.

“Hey! the purple one is here to ROCK this party!” Adam shout-moaned and strutted his way towards us, with the guys walking behind him. A very theatrical entrance, I must say.

Adam was dressed in the most flamboyant purple suit I have EVER seen, a white ruffled shirt, black boots, a purple guitar and a hairdo that completed his Prince costume.

Sultan was wearing a Panda/Cow suit. How is that possible? very easy, he bought a Panda costume and a Cow costume, then he cut each one in half and sewed half a Panda with half a Cow. Why did he do that, you ask? simple it’s because, I quote “A panda costume is lame, a cow costume is even lamer, BUT a mutant half Panda half Cow costume is pure genius”

Waleed had a huge magnet around his neck, and little toy cats glued to the huge magnet. Get it? he’s a “Pussy magnet”. Barf, I know.

3azeez and 3abood came as “Peanut Butter and Jelly”, 3azeez’s a peanut butter jar and 3abood is a jam jar.

Lurking in the back was Rayan, wearing a nerdy grey suit, a red bow tie, white leather shoes, and his hair neatly combed to one side. Who knew Pee-wee Herman could actually look this good?

Fuck, what the hell is up with my heart? oh god, oh god, oh god, am I having a heart attack? is this what a heart attack feels like? shit shit shit I’m going to die.
you know what? fuck it, who cares if I’m suffering from a mild heart attack and probably dying, what is the hell is HE doing here?

I grinned goofily in anticipation, as he came closer. Why am I nervous? what the hell, Mya! stop acting weird! BEHAVE! .. he’s coming over, oh god he’s coming over.

He walked right pass me, without even looking at me, and went straight to the girls. It was as if I didn’t even exist.

I saw Dana and Aya exchange worried looks, so I smiled to assure them that I was fine. I mean, what did I expect? that he’d hug me and tell me how much he misses me? of course he wouldn’t.

I stood still in my place, gazing at his back, waiting for him to maybe turn around and just look at me? Well, he didn’t.

I’m sorry.
Two words I always think, after you’ve gone.
When I realize I was acting all wrong.

The night was great, everybody was having a good time. Well, almost everybody. I mean, I know I’m acting gay, but it feels weird to see him after everything that happened. Plus the fact that he completely AVOIDED me didn’t make it any easier! does he really hate me THAT much?
“Mya…”
“Hmm? Oh, Rayan, hey” Shit…
“Uh, listen I’ve been looking for the girls but I couldn’t find them, can you tell them that I had to leave?”
“Why? come on stay!”
“No, I really have to go”
“Dana’s going to be very pissed off! you’ll never ever hear the end of this. I’m sure whatever it is that you have to do, you can maybe not do it 3ashan Dana doesn’t murder you?”
“I really have to go”
“Um.. okay”
“Bye”
“B’bye”

Throw me a dream please, it’s been a dreamless sleep.
For such a long time, such a long time.
Sing myself awake, watch the branches break.
No one could ever take your place.

“Hey, sorry to bother you again, but Sarah took my mobile galat that you’re keeping them all somewhere.. w I need it so..”
“Oh yeah, sure, ta3aal I’ll get it for you”

I start walking to a room where we’re keeping everybody’s mobiles, to avoid any missing mobile cases, while Rayan followed me silently.

“Have a seat, this may take a while” I smile and signal him to sit down,”Ahh, this is it, right?”
“Yes” He takes his mobile and steadily walks towards the door.

“I miss you…”

Wait, WHAT?!!!!!!!!!

He was as shocked as I was from the words that just escaped my mouth. What the hell? why did I say that? I DON’T miss him!

“Bye, Mya”

****************

After a LONG and excruciating evening, which seemed to last FOREVER, the party was over. Everybody left and the girls were all passed out on the couches. Problem is, I’m not sleepy at ALL. Hmph.

I grabbed a bag of gummy cola bottles and got out to the garden. It was cold and wet, not my preferred weather but hey, it beats sitting around ALONE doing nothing. I took off my annoying orange wig and laid down on the grass, quickly devouring the bag of candy in my hand.

“ZOMG! you asshole, you almost gave me a fucking heart attack!!!” I screamed in horror, “Don’t you know that you shouldn’t be lurking in people’s gardens in the middle of the night?”

“Sorry…” He came over and laid down next to me, “Why’d you do that?”

“Do what?”

“Tell me that you miss me”

“Beats me”

“Well, do you?”

“I guess so..”

“I miss you too”

“Rayan”

“Yes, Mya?”

“I’m sorry, for everything”

“It’s okay”

“No, it’s not. I know I was a major bitch, and I know that what my apology isn’t going to change the fact that I did what I did. But I’m sorry, I really am”

“That’s okay”

“The only explanation I have is that I was just scared, and when I’m scared I freak out and well … stuff like that happen”

“Well, I’ll keep it in mind that I shouldn’t scare you ever again. You turn into the incredible hulk when you’re scared” He chuckles.

“Yeah I do”

Silence.

“Rayan”

“Yes, Mya?”

“Can I lie on top of you?”

“You want me that bad, huh?”

“Shut up. Can I?”

“Be my guest”

I climbed on top of him and laid on my back, with him chuckling goofily underneath me.

I went out to the forest and caught A hundred thousand fireflies.
As they ricochet round the room.
They remind me of your starry eyes.
Someone else’s might not have made me so sad .
But this is the worst night I ever had.

“Rayan”

“Yes, Mya”

“I want you know that what I’m about to say is something that you’ll probably never ever hear me say ever again”

“Okay”

“I love you”

“Turn around”

“Why?”

“Just do it”

“Fine” I turned around and looked down at him, resting my elbows on his chest for support.

“You have no idea how much I love, Mya”

His hands slipped to the back of my neck and pulled me closer to him, I had to quickly place my hands on the wet grass to keep myself from falling off. I held my breath in anticipation, this is ACTUALLY going to happen………..!!!!

Wait, am I supposed to open my eyes or close them? I read it somewhere, but I just can’t remember! keep them open, no, no I should close them, wait open? no definitely closed! oh god…
“What are you doing?” He laughed, amused with my comical blinking.

“Nothing, nothing”

He lifted his head and pulled my head even closer to his. Our foreheads were touching, his nose gently pressed against mine.

“Can I do this or are you going to hit me if I do?” He whispered.

“Just kiss me already, you idiot”

Our lips finally touched and it felt the world around us erupted. It wasn’t one of those steamy lip-devouring kisses, no. It was really soft and felt like it was literally happening in slow motion. It slowly escalated from a light kiss to a more passionate one. He was doing all the work, while I laid there trying my best to not faint.

Oh, great, another heart attack.

We both pulled away and I rested my head on his chest, desperately gasping for air. (kissing while suffering a heart attack isn’t a very good idea, my friendsies. Believe me.)

“Rayan”

“Yes, Mya?”

“If you get a boner I’m going to cut your penis off”

“You’re a mess” He chuckles.

“Hmph, thank you”

“Mya”

“Yeah?”

“Whatever the mess you are, you’re mine, okay?”

“Okay”

The End.

Tigerlilly, you went private?:( and now I can’t access your blog:( please invite me on puerlish@gmail.com ;** Thank you very much :*

and for all of you out there:p I LOOVE YOUUU please don’t give me that look eli so you’re here and you haven’t been posting bas WALLA WALLA this part precisely, it’s not working with me kitabta alf mara oo I’m not like any of the things I’m writing:(

I LOVE YOU ALL:***

7amad: ha sh9ar?3esa: 5ala9 okay7amad: mta?3esa: dinner7amad: ee ay 7za3esa: ma adree7amad: 3wais, mita bn7adr3esa: 7amado shagaitny b3dain dalool itdig 3ly o itgouly7amad: inzain inzainheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeya…….bashouf noaf….noafty……9ab…

I really hope you don’t mind baby, this is just too good ;** I love you ;******************************************************************************She was anxious, her heart was beating, her palms were sweaty.I cant believe it….she thought to her…

I joined Twitter ..YES I DID! It’s like I don’t use enough technology already .. and as if I need any other thing to help me procrastinate ..Well, I joined .. and, surprisingly, I love it! It’s a way to blog without actually blogging in a blog .. you g…

OH MY GOD!
OMG OMG OMG OMG!
OMG I’m sooo EMBARASSED … i don’t know where to hide my face!!!!
You see, in late 2008, my Butootee was going for a 3 day 3omra trip with a friend.
It was the first time he leaves me alone and travels from the day we got married.
I was extra emotional. I was [...]

Ilyoum 2 posts of “the one” and before you give me that face, I need to think about “me and you” in terms of what is happening you know? But I promise no shocking events between Bader and Jazzy :Das always I love you all ;**____________________________…

Two days had passed and I still ignored the fact that his “mistress” called him.

I decided I was going to take action so I did. M7sin was asleep, he didn’t have to wake up until 10 anyways. I texted her…

Hey sweetie I’m at the office now so please don’t call. But I wanted to have lunch with you at Barbetos so how about 2. I’ll see you soon. :*

Ok, I know I just sent that message without even thinking, but what else am I supposed to do? This was the only way for me to get the truth. The day went by, M7sin woke up and heade to work while I waited anxiously for it to be 2.

Finaly the moment of truth had arrived. I walked in then all of a sudden froze, I don’t know how this women looks like. How the hell am I going to spot her. So I had no choice but to scan the area and hope for luck. And oh did luck strike me. There was a table filled with teenage boys. A table with a couple. A table with some girly girls checking out the table of teenage guys. And another table at the far end of the room where a women sat. As I walked closer to her I coud tell she was beautiful. She had long wavy brown hair with a few blond low lights. She had hazel eyes. And was wearing these skinny jeans with a hot red top. And ofcourse I cannot forget her gold million inch heels. What did M7sin buy her that ?

I came around to the other side of the table and sat down. She gave me a confused look. I freaked out and out of no where started.

Noura: M..m..m7sin…

Hot Girl: Excuse me?

Noura: You know M7sin right?

Hot Girl: Ummm… not that it’s any of you business but yes… and you are?

Noura: His wife.

Hot Girl: *shcoked look* Wife??

Noura: You seem surprised?

Hot Girl: Oh my god !

Noura: Oh please, dont ok, just don’t.

Hot Girl: One thing I’m not , is a liar. And M7sin never told me he has a wife.

Noura: Bullshit !

Hot Girl: I swear to you on my parents life and my own !

Noura: St’3forallah ya bnt.. hadi shway !

Hot Girl: Uhh..

Noura: Noura.

Hot Girl: Noura, Im terribly sorry. If I had known he was married I would have never –

Noura: How long has this been going on?

Hot Girl: It’s only been a week. And I can assure you that we havent done anything. Not even a kiss on the lips. Just a hig and a kiss on the cheek.

Noura: Now what?

Hot Girl: Are you for real ? I’m going to end things with him ofcourse. I will not be known as the “other women”.

Noura: Thank you…

Hot Girl: Fara7.

Noura: Fara7, thank you.

Fara7: And I’m assuming you don’t want him to know that we’ve met?

Noura: Yes, I would really appreciate that.

Fara7: Mind if I ask you something?

Noura: No, go ahead.

Fara7: You deserve much better. You seem like a caring white eharted person. And you don’t deserve to be treated like crap.

Noura: Well I cant do anything about that.

Fara7: What are you talking about? Divorce him.

Noura: *sigh* It’s not that simple.

Fara7: Why not?

Noura: Because I’m living in a nightmare that I can’t wake up from. *tears forming*

Fara7: 7beebty… I’m so sorry.

Noura: No, it’s ok. It’s not your fault. You didn’t know.

Fara7: Hey, I’m sorry if I’m being way out of line but if you ever want to talk.

Noura: Yeah, thanks.

Fara7: Here’s my card.

Noura: *wiping the tears* Who knew I would actualy befreind you haha !

Fara7: Haha mn jd wallah !

Noura: Well he’s gonna be back soon, but I’ll definitley call you.

Fara7: Take care of yourself Noura.

I got back home feeling like total shit. Yeah ok she didn’t know and we hit it off but what now? She got the chance to walk away from him, but I can’t. I’m trapped.

I walked into the living room only to find M7sin sitting there with his cell phone in his hand.

M7sin: You know… I thought marriage was about trust.

Noura: It is.

M7sin: Haha, do you really think I’m stupid?

Noura: Huh?

M7sin: Don’t play dumb with me you b***h

Noura: 8LEAT ADAB MAT SIBANI !!!

M7sin: ASIB 8AD MA ABY !! WSH 3NDK TFATHSEEN JAWALI O TRSLEEN MESSAGES !!

Noura: YOU CHEATED ON ME !!!

M7sin: YOU WERE PISSING ME OFF I NEEDED TO !!

Noura: HOW THE HELL WAS I PISSING YOU OFF? I WAS BEING A GOOD WIFE AND THIS IS HOW YOU THANK ME !!

M7sin: 5ALA9 INTAHA SHE BROKE IT OFF WITH ME, ISNT THIS WHAT YOU WANTED !!

Noura: YOUR A SELFISH BASTARD AND I HOPE YOU ROTT IN HELL !!

Ding-Dong !!

I opend the door only to find Fahad standing there. He had this look on his face, I look that said “I know what’s going on”

Noura: Fahad, now’s really not a good time.

He stormed in and headed straight for M7sin.

Fahad: Hala M7sin kefik? Listen Um Noura told me to rush on over and get her.

M7sin: 5air esh fe?

Fahad: La wallah mafi shay bs there was this gathering she forgot to tell her about. And she told me to come and get her.

M7sin: Were busy.

Noura: Let me get my bag *shooting m7sin a look*

Fahad and I drove for hours without speaking. I was so glad to be out of that house. It was like a dongeon in there. It wasn’t my home any more. I was afraid in my own house.

We finaly stopped driving and was in the parking lot of McDonalds. Without speaking he just walked out and into Mc’s. A few minutes he came out with food. He got me a double cheese burger, fires and a chocolate sundae.

Noura: Why are you doing all of this?

Fahad: You need it.

Noura: Thank you Fahad.

Fahad: Why do you let him treat you like that?

Noura: Like what?

Fahad: You know like what Noura.

Noura: I can’t do anything about it. It’s complicated.

Fahad: What’s complicated? Go to your parents. Tell them and then you could finaly be free of him.

Noura: I cant do that… Im too scared.

Fahad: Noura, look at me *cupping my face in his hands* everything in this world is scary but we all have the strength to face them. I know you.. so well and you are one hell of a women, you can fight this I beleive in you. Now all you need is to believe in yourself.

Noura: Fahad… your words are amazing but I can never happen.

Fahad: But –

Noura: Fahad please dont… just take me back home.

Fahad: Oh yeah? What do you think will happen once you step into that house? Do you think you’ll get a warm welcome? A kiss? A hug?

Noura: I dont care anymore. Im nobody… just some girl my husband beats around.

Fahad: Hey! You are not just some girl. Through my eyes, your beautiful.

Noura: Fahad stop ok. please just take me back.

Fahad gave me a look of disapointment and drove me back home. Once again the drive was silent. I got back home at around midnight. I could bare to look at fahad so I just got out without saying a word.

I walked in only to find the house in comeplete darkness… M7sin wasnt anywhere to be found. I was relifed. I walked up and into my bed room. He wasn’t in there either. I thought “finaly this was my good night”

So I got into the shower. Enjoyed the hot water on my body and after a few minutes put on my robe. I opend the door and founf M7sin standing there with nothing but his boxers on,.

Me: Wow, you really think were having sex after all of this.

He grabbed me by my waist and pulled me close to him where I could feel his breath on me. He forcefuly took my robe off and threw me onto the bed. I was screaming so loud, crying so loud that I though I was going to lose my voice. I was terrified. Being forced by my own husband. He forced himself on me…

He lyed ontop of me. And entered me. He got annoyed my screaming and covered my mouth with his hand. I wanted to die right there.

He disgusted me. I no longer felt his love. He moaned and talked to me all at the same time…

“You will finaly give me my child weather you like it or not…”

All I could feel was pain, not the pleasure that he once brought me.

After about a few minutes which seemed like an eternity he got off of me and went into the bathroom.

I still lyed there bare naked crying… I wanted to get up but I was in just too much pain.. mentaly and physicly.

Is this what it had come to? Force? I would have given him the child if he just waited a bit more longer.

Trapped…

……………………………………………………………………………………………………P.s : Not me ;)ONLY LOVE ( 1)It’s a cold February night. People are bustling through the streets, either pulling up their coat collars or …

You guys..

I’m so sorry to bug you all with this. But there’s this e-mail that added me on msn. I’m not the type to accept anyone. But on msn I accept then ask to see who the person is and if I know em’ then I keep, if no then buh bye. So I asked this person who she/he is and his was the reply which freaked me out…

(2:12 PM) your life:

hi do u know me??
i’m sure u don’t
i just have something 2 say
i love u !! <3 <3

WTF? Where did he get my email? From who? Why? Is this a joke ?

When I told him enough with the silly games just tell me who you are, he signed out and said he was sorry.

Then today, like five minutes ago he signed in again. Here was how things went…

(2:02 PM) Doody ;*:
hi, ok listen plz just tell me who u r, i mean this is kind of absurd… u all of a sudden adding me then saying u love me. if i dont know u then how cud u possibly be in love? exactley… so plz just me straight with me and tell me who u r… im not looking to cause any trouble

(2:04 PM)
You have just sent a nudge.

(2:04 PM) your life:
i’m sorry , ican’t say

(2:04 PM) Doody ;*:
and why’s that ?scared?ashamed?

(2:04 PM) your life:
both

(2:05 PM) Doody ;*:
aha.. why

(2:05 PM) Doody ;*:
if u came all this way to tell the girl u love her and to add her then whats one more step towards telling ur name. i mean its not that im gonna blab to the whole world or anything. i just wanna know so that we can get this done with

(2:06 PM) Doody ;*:
im really not upto games and tricks so plz im asking nicely tell me who u r

(2:06 PM) your life:
i’m not going to tell u .. ur going to find out !

(2:06 PM) Doody ;*:
and how eactley will i find out ?

(2:07 PM) your life:
try to !

(2:07 PM) Doody ;*:
non of the ppl i know for sure ur not one of them and if u were, then ur playing a trick

(2:08 PM) Doody ;*:
i cant , u need to atleast give me hints and stuff like that. but if u want me to find out and then i actualy do, then eventualy i will know its u, so whats the dififrence finding out now or later?

(2:08 PM) your life:
srry

(2:08 PM)
your life is now Offline

(2:09 PM) Doody ;*:
u really cant be seriouse ? who r u? tra walla may seer kitha

I copy pasted it all, after everything he said he put a smiley bs mdri lesh it didn’t want to come up here.

This never happend to me. I know I should just brush it off my shoulders and move on with my life but this thing is really bothering me, and when something really bothers me I cant let it go , not until I get to the bottom of it. I need to know who the guy is. Not cause I’m intrested or anything no. But cause I feel it’s someone I know. And once I know who he is then I can play a little game if my own. I’ve always been good with those.

I realy need to know who’s been doing this. So I have a favor to ask love ;** <<<

Please I need you on this to help me.. I’m going to send you something on your email so please respond back to me there. 3ashan your just the right person with the right “7atakat” to help me on this one :) Its alot to ask I know but it would really help me so much !!

The rest of you.. umm if this did happen to u before what did you do?

THANK U !!
LOVE U ALL !!
SAM7ONY FOR THIS OH SO RANDOM POST !

XX- D.

He gazed into my intense eyes with great caution. Everything and everyone around me was a blur. I looked back at him, and said “you told your parents about ME? Im older than you. In a year. Were still in school! YOUR AN ELEVNTH GRADER!”. He dragged me to a corner and i distinctivly remember what he said. “Your different Fajer. Your different. We’ve been together for over a year. I love you. And they were fine with the fact that your older than me. So what y3ni? Age is a number, thats what you always say.” I didn’t know how to react. Im happy with him, and im glad his parents are open minded when it comes to these things. Bas what am i supposed to say. Y3ni i can’t make him come to the same university im going to, i can’t make him ruin and change his life for me. I CANT. So, i simply replied “But thats a quote i use for dancers! Ballerinas! Oh shit. Thank you Na9ir, im LATE.”

I quickly ran out of that section of the super market into my drivers car and told him to take me to Ballet as quick as possible. On the way, i kept replaying the conversation i had with na9ir. Was he serious ? Telling his parents? I mean, i know i told my mom. BUT im a girl, im not the one proposing. I’ve been in other relationships, i have to admit. But never was I in one thats so serious ledarajah ina i told my mom. but this time i did, min il bidaya. That may actually mean something. That may mean me and him? Maybe me and him are supposed to happen. I believe in fate, and fate has a big role in this. Meeting in AP Chem. when i was an elevnth grader. Falling in love with my younger lab partner. Meeting his parents. His sister joining ballet with me.

After ballet, and after they told me that i got the lead in this years DANCE, i called my na9oor squeeling in the phone words that summarized everything i loved ” NA9OOR BALLET LEAD LOVE YOU BYE” He was used to my squeeling phone calls after ballet, it became more of a routine, so when it was time he answered after awal ranna and laughed along.

A week passed, and i was so busy with ballet practice that i never gave na9oor the attention he needed. but its okay, he understands. I mean dancing? its my passion. I loose control doing it, and i can proudly say im the best at it in my dance classes! Im pretty tall, and white, and thin. My face has a few thrown freakles here and there, but they were usually shown only when i tie my kohal black hair so tightly into a ballerina bun during shows and dress rehersals.

The show was in eight days, my graduation was in fourteen. I was floating from happiness. Everything was going great it was bound something bad was on the way. The show came, i danced my ass off. On all days the show was on, na9oor came and sat first row! He tried making me laugh, did some silly faces.. but a ballerina shouldnt even grin while dancing. I was always first, always infront, always in the middle. I was the show while the rest were dancing around me.

On the last day, Na9oor saw me coming out with my hair still in my 9aloon made bun and when i was in a long tshirt and thats it. He hugged me so tightly, and whispered something along the lines of “your killing me, i love you!” I failed my attempt in not blushing and told him inna we have to leave to study for exams. Which were after the weekend, and i didnt even open a book- i was too busy with ballet. But its okay, it didnt matter. I was accepted in my first choice uni in america, and they were impressed by my high grades, extra curriculars, and hard coarses.

Exam week, it was hectic. Chaotic acctually.. i studied for each exam a day before, but in all – i think i did okay. I was over at na9oor’s when he opened the subject i have awfully attempted to hide. I was traveling in seven days. Seven days exactly. My dance lessons? I was going to be emailed all the practices in video, i’ll practice there and i’ll be back by the next show which was during my christmas break. Na9oor and i will be doing the long distance, and inshalah by next year.. well lets go back to conversation. “Fajoor, 7beebti” Oh that “7beebti” activated the robotic butterflies in my stomach, he was waiting for a reply, so i snapped out of my daze and said ” hmm? “. He gave me the im-hurting look and said “Your leaving in a week. Fajoor i love you and im going to miss you so muchl. im not going to say any cheesy shit cause that never works for you.. so im just going to tell you exactly how i feel.”

He put one hand on my back, and the other behind my head and pulled me into a kiss, a passionate kiss that im never going to forget. And after minutes of that, he pulled me into the tightest bear hug ever made. “Im going to fucking miss you.” And at that, my phone rang alarming me. It hushed in two seconds, we both knew it was the driver and his “miss call intay”. I left with a smile on my face, and whole in my stomach. I was missing him already. God help me.

Sorry 4 lateness =(With 2 projects and 2 tests and , and and .. !You never find time to post =(Just wait for 36lat el-9aif , *AHHHH*~Receptionist : Asef Bas Ma Negdar Nda5elha ..Wahab : shno ya3ni !Receptionist : mo masmoo7 laha ted5al .Wahab : ee shel…