Hmm so this post is totally random, but I thought that it would be cool to know who each one of you guys are voting for in the elections! WOHOOO

Soooo how about that, you mention which da2era your in, and who are the 4 that you want for them to win even if you were under 18 and can’t vote;**

I LOVE YOU ALL:**

Sorry adri 6awalt 3alaikom, had wayid stuff going on!Lovekom ;*Oh, and i put comment moderation on cuz i’m not a fan of spammers ;pbyeee;** enjoy!__________________________________________________________”Sooooo… Where are we going todayyy?” I threw …

Noura: What do you mean ?

Yasser: I mean is everything ok with you?

Noura: Yeah ofcourse.

Yasser: Noura, I’m your brother you know you can tell me anything.

Noura: Soso I love you ok, and if anything was bothering me you would be the first person I’d run to.

Yasser: I don’t know Nouni, You seemed kinda off yesterday.

Noura: I did ?

Yasser: Yeah, you were not your down to earth calm self. You were well… diffirent.

Noura: Can we just please drop this? I’m fine ok.

Yasser: Ok, if you say so.

After that we just kinda sat in silence the whole lunch. It was kinda awkward. Why did I lie to him? He’s my brother who I’m so close with. But the problem is if I tell him then he would tell my parents and they would go see M7sin. He would be humilaited and put under the sppot light. I cannot have that happen to him. He hit me once, he loves me, I love him.. and thats that.

Later that day Jamal called me and boy did he have some intresting news I though I’d never hear him tell.

Noura: Oh my gosh. Are you seriouse?

Jamal: Yeah, and shes the most cutest thing I’ve ever seen.

Noura: How long have you known her?

Jamal: Well.. we were friends for a year and now I finaly got the courage to ask her out.

Noura: Awww this is so cute. But…

Jamal: Oh no c’mon please not the but.

Noura: Mama and Baba.

Jamal: You just had to say it didn’t you?

Noura: Jimmy, you know they would never approve.

Jamal: Yeah, but they wouldn’t have to know.

Noura: You mean sneak date ?

Jamal: Yeah, something like that.

Noura: *sigh* Jimmy, what are you really asking for ?

Jamal: Well, I was hoping we could tell mama and baba that your taking me out to the movies then you could drop me off at the restuarant so that I can meet up with Yasmeen.

Noura: We? Oh no!

Jamal: Nouniiii please I’m begging you. I’ve had a huge crush on this girl for the longest time and to find out that she actualy feels the same way is incredible.

Noura: I… dunno…

Jamal: Please !

Noura: So I’ll drop you off then pick you back up or what ?

Jamal: I love you !

Noura: Yeah yeah.. so what’s the plan smart guy?

Jamal: I was thinking tommorow. And yes you would be back to pick me up.

Noura: Ugh.. see you tommorow at 8.

Well that was kinda weird, I mean do normal guys tell their sisters about dating? Haha he is so adorable.

My friend Rima called me up and invited me over. Rima and I have known eachother for five years now and are very close. She’s doing her masters in London and is only here for a short visit. She called me up the second she got off the plane.

Rima: Ah! Do you know how much I’ve missed you ! *hug*

Noura: Haha I’ve missed you more. It’s been like a year, this cannot happen you can’t leave me again.

Rima: Wow if I didn’t know better I’d say you were a lesbian.

Noura: Ewww! You are so bad!

Rima: Joking…

Noura: Whatever… so tell me how’s Europe? Does it miss me? *pout*

Rima: Hey yeah… what happend?

Noura: Huh?

Rima: You used to always come to London like three times a year whenever you find time. It’s like your baby. You love it over there.

Noura: Yeah I do miss it.

Rima: Well I’m leaving in a week so why don’t you come with me?

Noura: To London? No, I can’t leave M7sin.

Rima: Oh c’mon just come for a week then head back. You havent been there in a year. I’m sure he won’t mind.

Noura: Yeah, but –

Rima: No buts. Once your home talk to him about it and do NOT take no for answer do you hear me?

Noura: Haha, ay-yi captain.

I was over at her place for a couple of hours then thought I should be heading home. It was getting kinda late anyways, plus I haven’t seen M7sin since the morning.

M7sin: Hala 7beebty kfk ?

Noura: Ahlan.

M7sin: How was your day?

Noura: I was over at Rima’s just now. She’s back from London for a week.

M7sin: Oh thats nice, did you have fun?

Noura: Yeah I missed her.

M7sin: When will you be seeing her again?

Noura: Well in her words “I wanna see what changed in the shops” so yup thats whats planned for tommorow.

M7sin: Haha y7lelha.

Noura: 7beeby theres something I wanna talk to you about if you don’t mind.

M7sin: Not at all, what’s up?

Noura: Well Rima had this idea and I really liked it.

M7sin: Which is…. ?

Noura: That I’d go back with her to London and stay a week. You know to change a bit of sceneory.

M7sin: Why would you want to go?

Noura: You know how much I love London and I havent gone in such a long time. And I think it would be fun. So I’m going to go.

M7sin: Oh so you’ve already deicided?

Noura: Well I though you’d be happy and would want me to go.

M7sin: You know I want you to be happy but in London ?

Noura: So? I want a small vacation.

M7sin: What about me?

Noura: Not every vacation means having your husband around. It’s a girls week.

M7sin: Aha… girls week?

Noura: Yeah.

M7sin: Well I don’t think you should go.

Noura: Sweetie, I wasn’t asking if I could go. I was telling you that I’am going. *walking away*

M7sin: COME BACK HERE !

He pulled me back making me fall to the floor on my knees. It burned. My knee slid on the carpet real bad. I stared up at him and he had tears in his eyes. This time I’ve had it. Whatever happend to talking rationaly?

Noura: Ok, now I’m so going. And by that I mean I’m staying at my parents house and going to London. Just try and stop me !

For the next couple of days I was staying at my parents house. Ofcourse I didn’t tell them the real reason. All I said was that the workers were making too much noise which bothered me. Luckily something good came out of M7sin building another extention. It came in very handy.

I would also see Rima every day and we would laugh and shop… laugh and shop. Like I said I’m not a shopaholic but I was going to London for a week so I wanted to look my best. Europe !

Finaly the day had finaly arrived. Our flight was in two hours and I had just had lunch with my parents and had everything all ready to go. I said goodbye to my family and got into the car and was on my way to Rima’s house.

She called me as I was on my and asked if I packed one of my winter coats, since it often gets a bit chilly at night. I totaly forgot so I quickly told the driver to turn around back to my house to get a coat. It’s ok since M7sin would be out of the house. Every Tuesday he and his friends would go and have dinner at this same old restuarant. The coast was clear.

I headed on up to the bedroom once I arrived and grabbed my coat. As I was walking down the steps I saw M7sin standing at the bottem. I completley ignored him and walked right passed him. As I opend the front door he quickly closed it and grabbed me by my arm so tightley. He dragged me hard into the living room and pushed me onto the couch.

M7sin: WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE HAA?

Noura: M7sin are you crazy what has gotten into you !?

M7sin: ME? ME? ME YA NOURA?

Noura: Yes you ! becuase incase you havent noticed, you’ve hit me twice. I think thats what they call being an abusive husband !!!!

M7sin: ISKITY BS ! WHERE THE HELL DO YOU THINK YOU’R GOING ?

Noura: I don’t have to take this. I’m leaving.

M7sin: L2 YOUR NOT !! WHEN I SAID YOU WERE NOT GOING TO LONDON I WASN’T KIDDING !!

Noura: You can’t trap me M7sin !

M7sin: CALL RIMA AND TELL HER I’M SICK AND THAT YOU CAN’T LEAVE WITH HER NOW !!

Noura: HELL NO!! NOW WHO THE HELL DO YOU THINK YOUR TALKING TO ! GOOD BYE!

M7sin: NOURAAAAAA !!

He pulled me by my hair as I started to walk away and again pulled me right back onto the couch. I began to cry heavily, it felt like my hear my heart was going to explode. He grabbed the house phone and ordered me to call Rima. At first I refused but then he hit me on my back as if I was an animal and ordered me again. I was so scared that I gave in and made the call.

I called up Rima who answered with such excitement that it broke my heart. I held back my tears and told her that M7sin was really sick and that I couldn’t leave him. She seemed sad at first but understood because she knows I’m a good person and have reasons for all my actions.

What have I done? I just lied to my best friend. We’ve never lied to eachother. Never, not once. Or kept secrets. I have to tell her about M7sin. I was going to during this trip. But now considering what M7sin is capable of when I least expect it, it’s impossible. Who know’s what he’ll do if he found out I told anyone.

Yes, now it is certain. I’ve been labeled . “Abused Women”

“Intay im9adga they won’t get into a fight..” This sentence kept repeating over and over again in my head. I don’t want to see him get into a fight or even get a bruise. That wasn’t how i pictured it to be. How selfish am I? I shouldn’t have told him to come or even told him the freak was flirting. Reem was speeding and he was in spitting distance to us at the same speed. Seriously sh3ara wa7da oo yid3amna! I didn’t want to look at him, but at the same time I wanted to shout at him. I wanted him to leave before my hero comes. Reem tried to do one of her tricks that she used to do when guys kept following her and could drift them, but none of them worked for that freak. “fichaaaay fichaaay il direeshaaa” he yelled across the road.

Reem: hathaaaa min9ijaa? laysawii fithee7a hal hailegy.

Me: Reeeemoooo dishay dishay ay block I’m terrified.

Reem: laaaa he’ll rape us!!

Me: min9ijich intaay? a7na in Kuwait mo ib America.

Reem: intay shiftay wayha wallla ina yishbah our driver.

Me: heheheh mo wagtich Reeemooo!

Reem: adish hnii?

Me: sheno hal man6a’3a?

Reem: mmm madree read the sign.

Me: shfayditich tro7en mokan oo intay ma itdelen.

Before she answers, 3abood called:

Me: 3abood

3abood: waaainkom?

Me: yaaa wailllyyy 7ada im3a9eb!! 3abood bindish da5el ay block.

3abood: intay wainkom awal?

Me: yooooomaaaa.. im freaking out.. answer him and calm down.. relax. A7na yaam ..

Reem: goleela a7na yam il fire station.

3abood: nii6raaaw kanii yay..

haaw shloon sima3ha hatha..

Me: ok 3ab..

6006 60006 6006( he shut the phone)

Reem: shfeeech? shfee? shfeekom?

Me: im3aaa9eb 7ada .. he hung up.

Reem: ana gitliiich!

Me: inzain u’r supposed to calm me down.

Reem: I wish bs I’m scared too.

Me: we should wait for him.

Reem: do you notice that we’re in the middle of the road. How could we ever stop?

Me: madreee park somewhere .. thiiiink!

Reem: ok ok i’ll park next to the mosk.

Me: fast..

I texted 3abood that we were next to the mosque. My fingers were shaking, I never took that long texting a message. It was hard this time even though the sentence includes five words. The freak was trapped between the crowd and still trying to come to us. Two minutes later, the freak’s light blue Touareg appeared next to us. At that moment, I kept saying every and each do3a2 I have memorized. He opened his door and at the same time a strong constant flusher from behind left us visionless. It was obvious from the anger of the light that it was 3abood.

Reem: is that him? black tahu?

Me: ee ee go after him.

Looking at the immense, voluminous black car approaching made me feel safe under lock and key. Nothing would ever harm us when 3abood is here. His glance would scare the hell out of everyone. But ofcoarse the freak havn’t noticed that the one in the black car was 3abood. In his baby foolish thoughts he thought “another guy is flirting, there is a competetion over here.” He immediatly rushed to his car and followed us.

Incoming call 3abood:

Me: aloo

3abood: sim3ay bindish 3ind Nizha, oo awal ma anzil min il sayara intaw imshaw.

Me: laa 3abood I can’t leave you.

3abood: Jawa 7abeebty sawy 3ala il gitlich 3alai oo 5ala9.

Me: bs 3abood..

3abood: Jawaaa bsss 5alaaa9 ana ra7 at9araf lat5afeen 3alai.

Me: fine.

3abood: 7abeebty intay.. yala bye!

Me: bye..

I won’t leave I just said that to keep him quite.

Reem: ha shgaal?

Me: nroo7 7adeeqat Nizha oo awal ma yanzil ygool u have to leave. But i’m not leaving.. I can’t leave him with there alone with him. I can’t be a selfish, mean, and ungenerous with him. I can’t call him to fight for me and I would just leave them finish their punches.

Reem: Jawaa hadaaay.. you have to, you’re a girl oo u can’t stand in between a fight. You will get hurt.

Me: I don’t really care as long as I stay next to him.

Reem: as you like, but trust me you’ll regret this. You don’t want to see this scenario.

Me: just please lets stay ok?

Reem: ok, even though its a bad idea.

3abood parked his car next to the “7adee8at Nizha” Reem parked next to him and Salem parked next to us. It was like in the movies when bad guys have their car parked to scare the good guys. I felt like i was doing a movie, I know funny feeling, but the way we parked was HOTT hehe ;p 3abood went out off his car and gave me a fly kiss. I knew this fly kiss means something. It meant that he will do something, you could say, the kiss symoblizes a fight. Salem noticed that it was that guy that he was warned by was here. Salem came out of his car with confidence.

Salem: hatha int ?

3abood: ista7 3ala wayhik.. ana 7athrtik ib Sharm, oo hal mara ra7 tindam.

Salem: ya3nii rayal wiya wayhik? itdafe3 3ala 3abeebtik?

3abood: agool igthib ilsanik la al7een ana agthiba lik..

Salem: iglib wayhik zain..

3abood went closer to him, this time his shoulders went broad, his eyes were on fire, his fists were ready to fight.

3abooooooooooooooood I yelled out of the window.

3abood: 6il3aaaaw min hal mokan.. hal ashkal il wa95a ma yinfa3 wiyahom

Suddenly, a punch came on his face. 3abood fell on the ground and Salem was standing.

SHIIIIIIIIIIT!! NO NO NO DON’T YOU DARE HIT HIM AGAIN! STAND UP 3ABOOOOD!

3abood stood up and punched him several times. Salem was trying to fight back. They were both punching each other and I couldn’t watch him get hurt. I came out of the car crying.

What was he doing? and for what? me? ok ok, this way too much. I couldn’t believe the fact that he was doing this for me. Yes, he wants to defend me but I don’t need this. I can’t see this. I hate fights. This reminds me of school. The guys use to fight every Thursday about something really stupid. And now, looking at a fight because of me and Reem, and my 3abood was in that fight with the weirdo. With every punch he get my heart skips a beat. My knew only him. I didn’t care about Salem( the freak) My eyes were only fixed on 3abood. I was too worried I forgot to breath.

Reem: dishaaaaaaaaay Jawoooo dishaaaaay!

Me: I can’t I have to do something.

Reem took 3abood’s phone from the car and immediatly called 7amany.

On the phone:

7amanii: hala bol 3obod..

Reem: 7amaaaniii bser3a ana reeem.. 3abood ga3ed yithawash bser3a ta3al a7na 3ind 7adeeqat Nizha!!

7amanii: ma3a meno?

Reem: ba3dain itshoof int ta3aal..

7amani: yala yay yay..

Reem came to me and pulled me back. She hugged me really tight to make sure I won’t go to somewhere in that danger zone.

Reem: 7amani is coming don’t worry.

Minutes later, 7amani came and stormed to them. He tried to pull them apart , but got hit from Salem.

7amani: yal 7aywan imsh 3an hal mokan la anadeelik il shor6a!

Salem: shbitgolohom ga3ed itdafe3 3ala 7abeebtik?

7amani: i7term nafsik yal wa6ii walla la adfinik bil arth.

Salem cleaned himself up and stormed to his car and left.

Reem and I were crying and they came to us hurt, bruised, and in pain.

rancid.
(one word poetry that may elicit an emotional reaction or a mental one depending on the person and the bank of memories stored within the brain and the level of sensitivity within the soul)
evoke.
detonate.
explosive love
in microscopic chips
sail through
Cyberalia.
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wretched bleak ways.
you only turn the page
with eagerness
and find
a black hole
that sucks you into
infinity.
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It is May already.
And still
you have not wandered
into the
valley of flowers.
Where can I find a field suitable
for us to meet
and embrace
through eyes
that have not seen the dark?
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There were three people waiting on a bench.
One of them got up to go to the restroom.
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I wanted only to be infinite
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Separate entities.
One entry.
A multitude of reasons.
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Seriously ?!Seriously ?!!SERIOUSLY ?!!!!2-6 ?!!!!!!@#$#!!?$%Bad mood & AWAY !!!Fortune Cookie of the Day :”To win in football, you need to score one more goal than the opposition” T. Henry

Ok so i have a 3irs after a while…and i dunno what to wear! ;(
7ist adawwir online bas ma 3ajabny shay!
….Any suggestions? =)

well hey all ,! i don’t know about posting my story again !! but the whole thing is that i loved a guy for two years !! i kept him in my heart all those two years with him not knowing anything about it, i started raising hopes and hopes and hopes !! and started to picture him every where i go !! i even had this dear stuffed animal it has a frog shape but it was very huge like the men size like if you hugged it you’ll feel wrapped HE IS MY ONE but then he rejected me four times !! i cried to him i ripped out my heart for him i STILL LOVE HIM !! LATER ON we end it up for both of us we won’t see each other anymore =’[ am gonna miss him so much and right now he is attached to someone and am dying here so if you read the last part of my letter that says love her . kiss her . give her everything i have always wanted..>>> means that i won’t be there anymore .. it’s like i wasted two years for a guy !! i am not proud to tell that ,that guy has RUINED ME and am missing him =( ,, this is my story “ a girl who begged a guy for his heart” cause she blindly gave him her heart without him asking her to, he’ll always have this little part in my heart even if someday i fell for someone else though i know i won’t cause there is no heart anymore, my heart was given to him and got CRUSHED ,there is no heart in me anymore ,<!–3!! that was the story that i was going to share in details 3=

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M7sin picked me up and took me to this new mall which had all the designer brands. As a girl I should be thrilled right? I had the oportunity to shop till I dropped, but instead we just walked around and browsed. He would ask me every few minutes if I wanted anything but I would simply nod and say “no thank you”.

I knew this was some sort of way for me to forgive him. But bribary? C’mon I would never let someone use me that way. I was well brought up and people don’t fool me that easily.

After about an hour of JUST browsing we headed back home and I prepared lunch for us. I made us some pasta and we sat down in the dining room.

M7sin: Are you ok?

Noura: Ofcourse, why wouldn’t I be?

M7sin: I don’t know. You didn’t buy anything. *confused look*

Noura: You know me M7sin, I’m not the shopaholic type.

M7sin: Yeah, but I wanted to get you a present.

Noura: What for?

M7sin: Just because.

Noura: Oh and by jusr because you mean what ?

M7sin: I don’t know what your talking about.

Noura: Oh c’mon M7sin don’t play the cluless card with me. It’s pathetic.

M7sin: Noura!

Noura: Don’t pretend like nothing happend.

M7sin: *sigh*

Noura: See what your feeling now, this is called guilt. The guilt of hitting your wife when she did absolutley nothing to deserve it.

M7sin: Fine, I may have gone a little over board and I’m sorry.

Noura: A little? No you went so over board that you drowned. You know I didn’t even recognize you last night. It was like a stranger was standing infront of me.

M7sin: 7beebty I know I had no right to do what I did. I feel horrible about it. But please don’t punish me. I wasn’t thinking straight. Please forgive me… I love you.

Noura: Alright I forgive you, but if it happens again I’m going to stay with parents.

M7sin: *kissed her hand* I love you.

After that we just watched a movie and went to bed afterwards. The next morning I heard people talking out in the hall. I got up, wore my robe and went to check it out. And to my huge surprise I find Fahad standing there talking to my husband.

Noura: Fahad?

Fahad: Haha Noura! You live here.

Noura: Yeah, wow what a coinsidence.

M7sin: Umm.. sorry but how do you guys know eachother?

Noura: Fahad’s related to me.

Fahad: Yeah we saw eachother yesterday at lunch.

M7sin: Oh well that’s nice.

Noura: What are you doing here?

Fahad: Your husband wants another extention added to the house, and he hired me for the job.

Noura: Oh, another extention? Why?

M7sin: Well I was thinking we could make it the babies play and bed room.

Noura: Baby! When did I become pregnant?

M7sin: Well we have to start sometime right?

Noura: Excuse us for one moment. M7sin can I talk to you for a minute.

M7sin: What’s wrong?

Noura: I told you I wasn’t ready to have kids yet. I’m still too young and atleast want to wait another year. You would have remembered that if you’ve listend.

M7sin: Yeah but its never too early to start the bedroom.

Noura: Ufff… fine M7sin do what you want but I would have appreciated you consulting me first.

M7sin: Now where are you going?

Noura: BREAKFAST!

Fahad: Is everything ok?

M7sin: Yeah dont worry about it.

So the guys planned everything out. Fahad was going to get started next week. After he left, M7sin came on over and started this huge argument with me. Again what have I done?

M7sin: So, he seems nice.

Noura: Yeah, he is.

M7sin: I mean you would know right ?

Noura: Excuse me?

M7sin: How was lunch yesterday?

Noura: Oh my god! M7sin please enough with this.

M7sin: No really. I found it strange that when you saw him this morning you brightend up with a smile.

Noura: Are you kidding me with this? I was surprised to see him thats all. And stop acting like your the victim here ok. You had this already planned without even filling me in. We had already dicussed this and yet you went ahead did the opposit of what we agreed on. You went behind my back M7sin.

M7sin: Behind your back? I did no such thing.

Noura: Oh but you did sweetie. See when someone does something without telling the other person, thats called going behind someones back.

M7sin: Well like I told you, theres nothing wrong with starting the room.

Noura: Fine ok. But just don’t bring up the baby topic again please.

M7sin: Consider it done.

Noura: I’m going to take a shower.

M7sin: But you havent even tocuhed your breakfast.

Noura: Suddenly I’m not hungry andymore. *walking away*

I showered and got dressed and went to have lunch with Yasser. He said he had something really important to tell me. Yasser was never the type to be all urgent, so I was kind of worried and rushed on over to the restuarant.

Yasser: You haven’t been yourself these past two days.

I’m feeling generous. Loool here’s part 30! And I just checked it, it’s like the longest post! You’ll love Rashid girls! I know I am.

Enjoys ;)

PREVIOUSLY;

“Wallah it’s not like that Fai .. I .. I love you!” He said loudly.

“Show me you love me” I whispered “Well you are not making it easy” He whispered back “No .. tell me .. tell me about her” I said.

“I .. can’t Ana asef Fai” He said quietly “I .. Like you .. Rashid but I love .. myself more and I’m .. letting you go” I said quietly and took some steps back.

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The next day was painful. I knew that I hurt Rashid, but I did that because I didn’t want to hurt myself or my family. I had no choice.

Disturbing my thoughts Lamya suddenly called. “Allo?” I picked up. “Fai our grades are out! Barkeeli I got a B-” She squeaked “I never thought I’d pass our drawing II class!” She screamed. “Oh my god! Akeed I passed ba3ad” I quickly closed the phone and rushed to the computer.

I slowly opened the blackboard, and clicked grades.

“D”

“WHAAAAAAAAT?” I screamed “No no no nooo way!” My eyes started tearing up I quickly dialed lamooy’s number “Lam .. lamya I I I .. got a D I have to .. re .. peat the course” I kept crying on the phone.

“Oh .. it must be a mistake” Lamya whispered “They never make mistakes omg omg Lamya what am I going to do” I cried “I can’t even do good in my own major” I wept.

“It’s okay 7abeebti you can do that course again no worries” She tried to calm me down. ” I’ll never get .. accepted abroad with such a bad grade on my transcript oh my god lamooy sho basawi” I cried.

My future is everything and I just completely destroyed it. “Maybe you can talk to the professor yomkn eynaje7ch” She tried to be positive.

“ARE YOU KIDDING ME?” I cried “I .. I worked so hard! That’s so unfair .. Agolich .. bye” I quickly closed the phone and cried to myself.

“Is my future destroyed? This is unfair I worked so hard .. ” I whispered to myself. “Fai?” My maid suddenly came in. “Enty okay?” She asked “Heeh” I wiped off my tears. She was responsible for me temporarly until my family come back from AD.

“Sho feeh?” She asked “Mashai .. ela el jam3a” I said “Rose can you please leave I want to be alone” I whispered and she left.

I quickly took a shawl and headed to the roof. People throw their emotional burdens to the ocean. I do that on the roof .. Imaging the whole sky as my ocean.

I walked around the roof crying and looking at the stars. “Yarab Yarab emsaween ’3ala6″ I prayed “Yarab” I whispered.

I stood by the little bridge between our house and Rashid’s house. My father built it when my uncle use to live there .. so he can visit us anytime. I sighed and looked at his roof. “Why does everything suddenly go all wrong?” I asked myself.

“FAI?” I heard a scream I looked up it was Rashid on his roof. Oh the coincidence? “What’s wrong?” He screamed. I wiped my tears quickly. “Mashai” I cried out.

“Why does he even care?” I said to myself. “Laish et9e7een?” He asked “I’m not” I screamed. He quickly jumped on the bridge and walked towards our roof.

“Why did you come” I whispered “I saw you crying” He said “So?” I asked “So? what’s wrong .. Fai you can tell me” He whispered.

“Why is he so kind?” I asked myself “After what I did?”

“It’s nothing” I muttered “It’s never nothing” He said softly.

“Tell me .. I’m a good listener and I never judge” He smiled. I wanted to jump in his arms I hated him why does he do this to me don’t I hate him? Didn’t I tell him to back off. But I couldn’t resist and I told him everything.

“Aww” He murmured “3adi it happens” He smiled “But .. but how will I ever be accepted in NYU now” I teared up. “If you’re talented enough you will be .. don’t make a grade tell you how intelligent and talented you are” He said.

“Hmm let me tell you what happened to me it might make you feel better” He laughed “I went to Boston University to study business” He said “I didn’t want to study business so I did bad really bad I failed a lot even though I tried because I wanted to afare7 ubooya.”

“Really?” I asked “Of course far7at ubooyh oo umayah aham shey .. anyways but then .. I thought about it .. it’s my life 9a7?” He said “9a7″ I whispered.

“So I thought 5ala9 Rashid you have to do what you want. I wanted to go to Cornell” He said “Isn’t that Ivy league?” I gasped. “Heeh ba3ad sho but I had pathetic grades I wanted to study mu7ama ba3ad” He laughed.

“So what did you do?” I asked “I didn’t go as a transfer I went as a first year again” He said “keef y3ny?” I asked “Y3ny I sent them my high school grades not my university grades” He smiled “Oo ba3dain?” I asked “Ba3dain the dean wanted to see me apparently sema3 about my bad grades in Boston” He laughed.

“So I went to him fully confident” He continued “What did you do?” I asked “I told him .. that I did badly because I hated business I was already accepted by the way with my grades but my experience in BU was the obstacle” He sighed.

“Anyways oo ba3dain I convinced him I deserve to be in Cornell and I won’t let my failure at BU change that .. I convinced the dean that I’m worth it and he had faith in me” He smiled.

“So? What happened” I asked “Nothing except that I graduated from Cornell with a law degree oh and with honors” He winked. I gasped “9edg? that’s amazing!” He smiled.

“So the main point is do you really think you want design?” He asked “No” I whispered back “I always .. wanted to study Journalism” I said “Here you go that’s why you’re doing bad” He laughed.

“Journalism suits you .. you always love to express yourself” He smiled “Thanks” I said.

“I’m sorry” I apologized suddenly “For?” He asked “For what happened before I was too harsh” I smiled.

He laughed softly “You weren’t .. you were truthful .. Fai” He looked to me “Wallah you misunderstand me .. you know how I feel about you” He held my hand but I quickly let it go.

“If .. if you love me .. Rashid prove it” I whispered “A guy who loves a girl comes from her front door not climbs from her window” I whispered

“What are you asking for?” He suddenly asked shocked “Nothing” I mumbled. “What .. are you asking for .. Fai .. I .. I can’t marry you” He blurt out. My heart stopped moving. “Shu qa9da?” I asked myself.

“You .. You’re too young” He said. “Excuse me?” I asked “No mub chi Fai don’t misunderstand” He said.

“I .. I ask you to wait for me” I said quietly “Wait for you? .. I don’t think I would be able to do that .. Fai .. I need you now” He said.

“Na3am?” I stood up “Rashid .. you mean I’m just important now?” My face expression went blank.

“La la laaa! Mob chy bas ya3ny I want you now too” He said “Okay .. you can but lazim eykoon official I can’t do this” I whispered.

“Laish official? You’re too young” He said “Wait are you afraid of commitment?” It suddenly hit me “Laa2″ He said slowly.

“Tell me about Alya” I suddenly said “Akeed she broke his heart” I thought to myself. He looked down “Maba arms 3anha maba!” He suddenly protested.

“Why why can’t you tell me about her why?” I asked angrily “Because .. I just can’t” He looked at me “trust me there’s nothing between us anymore” he whispered

“I dont trust you .. ” I said “I’ve told you that many times.”

“I know” He said “bas hal marah lazem you trust me” “Really?” I asked “I don’t know .. Rashid I don’t want to get hurt .. I’m sorry I need to leave” I smiled weakly. “Thanks” I looked at him and I left.

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Stay Tuned

A Lover in Dubai

Silent Readers :$ your comments please :*

So I’m not back from my break but I am back from my vacation:p I was just in the mood for writing this post, I hope you guys like it;* I miss you all so much:*
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I talked to Bandar today and I told him that I wanna see him tonight. He made up some excuse at first but I told him that I really wanna see him, he seemed a bit down. It was obvious that he tried to show that he’s fine with whatever it is that was bothering him.

The Scientific Center-

We were walking a long the beach hand in hands, and my baby seemed to be really upset, it’s been an hour and nothing he wasn’t planning on opening up and telling me.

Cala: What’s wrong baby? What’s bothering you?

Bandar inhaled a lot of air and exhaled it all at once

Bandar: Nothing, why?

Cala: Bandar I could tell that you’re upset from something, what is it tell me? Maybe I can help

Bandar: 7abeebti please it’s just my family is really pressuring me on doing something that I don’t want and it would be really nice if I didn’t have to recall it.

I was starting to panic, afraid that his dad would nag on him on marrying his cousin again, thousands of thoughts rushed through my mind: What is it?

He pressed my hand and pulled it up to his lips: Nothing that you have to worry about beautiful.

I pulled my hands back: They want you to get married, don’t they?

Bandar chuckled

Cala: It’s not funny, they’re back on your cousin’s thing aren’t they? Things didn’t work out with her boy friend so now she wants you doesn’t she? That’s the thing isn’t it?

His face went back to serious, the sign that I was fearing.

I cried and as I was about to walk away, correction, run away from him he held on tighter to my hand, he didn’t let go of his grip and he pulled me so close to him that our bodies were touching.

Cala: Let go, please

Bandar: never

Cala: Bandar please, what else do you want from me, hasn’t all what I’ve been through enough? Don’t you think that I do deserve to be happy some point of my life?

Bandar (it all hit me at this moment, she does deserve to be happy and not only at some point but all of her life, how would she be happy if I stayed this way, just like any other girl, she would want a man that would be able to acquire all her dreams, I’m gonna do this, and for you only my love, for you)

Bandar: Here’s the thing, lately my dad had sent my reports to a couple of hospitals in Germany, and there’s this really good doctor that told my dad that there is a 45% chance that I’d be able to regain my sight, I didn’t want to tell you so I won’t be filling your heart with false hopes and illusions. What if the operation failed and I wasn’t able to regain my sight? What then? We’d start over all from the beginning, I mean I’m finally adjusting to my situation but I just realized that this isn’t enough, not for me or for you, I know how much you suffer each day seeing me like this and you’re right, this is the least I could do to make you happy, I know that it is for me, but trust me baby losing my eye sight made me observe all the things that I could do while I was able to see and trust me, there are definitely some things that you’re gonna like.

He smiled his naughty smile. I was speechless on the other hand.

I hugged him so tight and he was taken back by my reaction, and

Cala: I’m going with you, and I don’t care if the operation fails, as long as I’m with you, it doesn’t make any difference to me but at least we can say that you tried can’t we?

He smiled and held me closer: you know how much I love you, don’t you?

We walked for what seemed like an hour and I didn’t want to seem so enthusiastic afraid that it’ll make it harder for him seeing me with many high hopes, I mean this was the best news that I ever heard in my life, this means that Bandar is gonna be all happy again, to say the truth that’s the most thing that matters to me, I can’t say that it doesn’t make a difference to me if he’s blind or not, it does. And it’s a big difference, but life’s all about comprimises and to me, I’m happy as long as I see him happy. I can tell that he was intimidated and excited at the same time, but he didn’t want to seem so eager about it afraid that nothing will change and that the operation would fail. I tried sucking him out of that mood.

Cala: Sooo when are we going to Germany?

I was hopping from excitement.

Bandar: haha we??

Cala: Duh! Well you don’t think I’m gonna let you go there alone, what if you regained your sight and then you’ll be missing the figure of girls so I’m not gonna let you drule over these German girls!

Bandar: haha, baby none of these German girls could be compared to you, e5asoon a9lan ma yiswon shay muqaranatan feech.

Cala: eee 3alabaali ba3ad

Cala: I’m gonna sleep with you in the hospital ok?

Bandar: my pleasure, I thought this day would never come

Cala: Bandero! Way3a you pervert

Bandar: Haa? Shinu? Ma gilt shay ana, hatha tafkeerich entay!

Cala: Laaa? Tafkeeri ana haa??

Bandar: Hahaa i’m just kidding baby come here

Bandar: ba3dain what are you gonna tell your parents?

Cala: I’ll think of something, try to make any excuse but I’m sure it’s gonna be hard.

Bandar: I’ll help you with the excuse, you suck at lying!

Cala: Fine, I’ll leave it to the pro.

We walked back to the car, we were greeted by Raju of course, I got into my car that was parked next to Raju’s and we each went into our seperate ways when we reached Surra. I found mama’s friend sitting in the dining room with mama, both of them were having dinner. We exchanged formalities and I sat with them for 10 minutes and excused my self.

I went upstairs, feeling ecstatic, I showered and left my wet hair to dry on it’s own. I found a missed call in my mobile, a number that I recognized, a number that I knew from the bottom of my heart but I decided to ignore it.

Knock knock

Cala: Tfathaal

Mama: Hala yuma shakhbarich?

Cala: 7emdila bkhair

Mama: Yuma 3araftay minu hathi el mara eli kanat 3indi min shwaya?

Cala: La yuma minu?

Mama: Hathi rifeejti min ayam el thanaweya, Um Mi7sen.

Cala: Ahaa ya7lailha, shakelha 7laiwa

Mama: Tgool ena bint’ha ma3ach bil jam3a isimha Rana Al Flani, mat3arfeenha?

It all clicked to me at that moment, Rana Al Flani, which means that she’s um Mi7sen Al Flani, Mi7sen!

Sorry Everyone 6awwalt 3alaaikum…bas 7issaw feeni MY LAPTOP 5ARBAAAAAAAAAAAAN!!! Eee my laptop 5arban ;( how can i live without it?! A9lan all of the posts are in my laptop! soo please ni6raw 3alay….i’ll post now the other half of part 8 o don’t get mad cuz its short! Bas sorry there’s nothing that i can do ;(
oo0o0o00o0 i forgot………… ENJOY :P


BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP!!!! *car’s horn*

Zaina turned around and closed her eyes from the close flash lights of the car…. She froze in her place…

7amad: ZAINA!

He pulled her away from the fast and furious;p car with his strong arms…her heart was moving so fast…she thought she would die…but 7amad saved her…he held her so tight…he didn’t want her to get hurt…her eyes were still closed…

Sh9ar?! Am I still alive?!

She opened her eyes and saw red fabric…it was 7amad’s shirt :p…she was in his arms…

7amad: Zaina ta3awwartay?

Zaina:…….haa?*looking at the ground* la ma ta3awwart…

7amad could here her heart beating so fast…kanat mi5tar3a…he held her until her heart beats went back to normal…

Zaina: ummmm….

7amad istaw3ab and let her go

They continued walking until she reached home…

Waaaaay il 6ireej L yom moo bas 6iweeel! Ma ba’3ait o9al L bait! Ooo 9a7 I was gonna get killed and 7amad saved me…he apologized..and he was trying to protect me…I think he deserves a thank you and…. another chance…

7amad was waiting for zaina to open the door and enter the house…she opened it and turned around…

Zaina: 7amad…

7amad(smiled): na3am…

Zaina: Thank you…o ….yes… I’ll give you another chance*she smiled back and quickly closed the door*

7amad smiled and whispered to himself “I won’t let you down” ….
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She ran to her room…she was thinking of 7amad…nothing but 7amad…she started to smile…she changed her clothes and went to bed…she opened her eyes in the dark room picturing 7amad in every corner of it…

Bas bas bas 5ala9 stop thinking about 7amad! I need to sleep! Ifff I have to admit he’s so cute! He’s my new hero…bas la its not that I like him or anything he just….just…iffffffffffff I can’t find the right word…bas banaaam!
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7amad reached home…he went to his room…he saw samya waiting for him…

Samya: haa 7amo0d sh9ar?

7amad: shbi9eer ya3ni?

Samya: ifff la itsawwi roo7ik ‘3abi…ma3ak inta o Zaina….

7amad: aaaaa…la ma 9ar shay…Sammo0y 3afia 6il3ay barra ta3baan banam…

Samya: L sharha moo 3alaik…L sharha 3alay ana illi ga3da as2ilik o a7awil asa3dik…9ij innik ma tistahal!

7amad: itsa3deeny ib shinu?

Samya (soft look): 7amad…I know inna u like her…

7amad: ………………………..

Samya: ok 3ayal ana baro07…ti9ba7 3ala 5air..

She went out of his room…he remembered Zaina…he looked from his window and found her lights closed…he smiled…he knew she was asleep because her window was closed too…he changed his clothes and went to bed…

A7ibha?!….it.hago0n inni a7ibha? 9ij inni ma agdar anam illa lamma asho0fha..o for some reason I feel protective of her….o her eyes…they take me to a different world…I’ve never seen such beautiful eyes mashallah…o itha shift.ha tibtisim lazim aridlaha L ibtisama 7atta lo min waraha…o the way she ties her hair into a ponytail when she’s thinking… (I discovered that min kithir ma a6ali3ha min L direesha)…o everything about her makes me think…o kil ma shift.ha ib mokan lazim ag3ad fee…bas 7ub?! ……….aaaaahhhhhh…bas 7amad 5ala9 bassik tafkeer ib Zaina….

He closed his eyes and he was thinking…and thinking….and thinking…until he fell asleep…

End of part 8…………

- Reemas -

I’m in his arms right now, it feels so good. So right. No, wait! What am I doing?! This isn’t me anymore, nor is his mines and maybe will never be again! But…but… I quickly pulled myself away, its like he’s taking advantage of me. I can’t do this. I got up took my bag and starting walking, more like walking-running. I had to get away from.

“Reemas! Reemas wain ray7aa? REEMAS?!!”, he got up and followed me. He came running after me and grabbed my hand.

“5alnyy…5alnyy bl 7allyy…3ABDALLA! I said LEAVE ME ALONE! Ma tfhaam?!”, I said trying to pull my hand back. I kept pulling but he wouldn’t let me go.

I was taking backward steps when I suddenly trip and fall to the ground.

“Reemas? Reemas 7abebty you ok? Fii shay? Reemas talk to me!”, he said kneeling down beside me, helping me get up.

“Shgltt? 7ABEEBTY?!! Many 7abeebtk wla shay, and don’t you dare say that again! And YES 3abdalla, yes! YOU! Its YOU ok!!!”, I said crying.

The tears were rushing down my eyes faster than ever. 7abeebty? Int a9lan lk 7g etsameeny 7abeebty? Int 9a7yy?! WTH is the matter with YOU?!!

“Reemas walla I’m sorry. I…I shouldn’t have, adry bs… Reemas 5ala9 pls lat 9ar5een 5ala9. I’ll leave. Goodbye Reemas.”, he helped me up and he LEFT. He just walked away. He turned his back and left for the door. No, you’re not supposed to do that! Lazim et3and o tylss m3aay! Shoo hay? UFFFF!

“3abdalla…”, I blurted out.

He stopped walking and stood in his place. If I hadn’t called his name he’d be out the doors and gone…gone forever?

He finally turned around. His eyes were red and watery, byt he managed to keep his tears in. Its…its…the first time I see him…cry. What have I done? Does he really love? In a way that he’d even cry for me? He wants me back?

I quickly ran up to him and hugged him ever so tightly. He wrapped his arms around me too. I had trouble breathing, but I didn’t care. As long as I was with him, anything except him would be the last I’d care about. I felt his strong muscular arms around, feeling very soothed and warm.

“I’…I’…I’m so…sor…sorry!”, I finally managed to say in between sobbs.

“Hushhh, no, I am. Baby please forgive me!”, he said letting go of me and raising my head up with the tips of his fingers on my chin.

I was so relieved I just nodded.He then wrapped his arms around me again. We walked back to the pool and sat on the deck chairs. He put his arms around my shoulders and I sank my head into his chest. When I first did, his smell hit me hard. Its been two years! We sat there accompanied by eachothers silence.

Meanwhile…

“Bader, whats taking them so long?”, I asked him.

“Madry, la7’9a. Bat9l fe 3abdalla wnty call Reemas.”, he said taking his mobile out of his left pocket and pressed speed dial.

I did as I was told and called Reemas. It took seconds for 3abdalla to answer I guess since Bader was already talking to him, but Reemas wasn’t answering. I ended the call and excused myself from Bader to go check on Reemas in the bathroom. I was worried, and moreover what was that earlier.

Bader had closed form 3abdalla. He said he’ll be back in a few minutes. As I was getting up to leave, my mobile was vibrating in my hand. It was Reemas. I immediately answered her call.

“Reemas! Where are you? O shfeech ma trdeen?!”, I asked her, with worriness filling my voice.

“Hey umm I’m ok, bs you uhhh had an emergency, uuummm the girl kind.”, when she said that, I swear I heard a voice in the background. Mn? Laykoon…?

“Ohhh uhh…”

“Uhh but I’m done now kany I going out of the bathroom, yalla see you in a few.”, before she could close I could hear someone laughing even harder in the background and said “Girl emergency?”, and laughing even harder. Next thing I could hear was “6ooooo6…”.

“Ha wain hy?”, asked Bader.

“Kahyy she’s coming. Uhh Bader…wain 3abdalla?”

“Laish? He’s on his way?”

“Uhh la ma shay, bs y3ni mo ’3areeba both of them mt2a5reen?”

He looked confused, so I quickly changed the subject. AAAA5 9j lain y8oloon men are men however clueless they are!

We talked about tomorrow, going back to Do7a that is. He was taking the same flight back home like Reemas and I. Seconds later, Reemas shows up.

“Sorry ta5art 3alaikum. Did I miss anything?”, she said sitting back down.

You mean was there anything I MISSED!!!!

“No…”, Bader answered then I followed.

“Oh there’s 3abdalla, wainik int?”, he asked him as he sat back down.

“Knt 6al3 mn el restroom o shft a friend of mine, t’9kr Laith Al-Flani?”

“Waaaal sh5baryy Laith! Alla Alla ayaam el thanawiya hatha yoom ayey azorkum hnyy, Sh5bara?”

“Abad ysalim 3alaik, kan wida yshofk bs kan msta3yl.”

“Ee ee, 3a6ny ra8ma b3dain, 5alny at9l fii. Ok 3ayal 5ala9 namshy?”, he asked looking at me and Reemas. We both nodded.

“Wl cheque?”

“Yubba el cheque shu’3la 5ali9. Yalla.”

As we left the restaurant, the boys had a fit o ena 3abdalla will pay the cheque th up coming time. We both headed towards the big doors and I gave my card to the valet guy and 3abdalla followed.

“Bader ma tyey m3ay aroo7 el mayls nshar shwaay?”

B3d ely 9ar mn hsway o la b3d taby tshar! UUUUf yalla aby arj3 el bait, I want to ask Reemas! by now I had alot of questions eb rasy. I couldn’t think straight.

“La walla 7abeeby 2asif magdar, my flight bachr el 9b7.”

“5ala9 3ayal I’m your ride to the airport bachr. Mta amrk?”

“La shda3waa, maby ata3bk wyay.”

“La la 7abeeby, shoof, int ’9aify o 3ala rasy. Uhh Sara mita your flight bachr?”, he asked facing me.

“9.”

“5ala9 3ayal, ana bakoon 3ndk 3al 7. Yalla kahy sayarty, t9b7oon 3ala 5air.”, he shook all of our hands and while shaking Reemas, he looked at her and they locked eyes. Moments later he’s gone.

“Wnta mn ahala.”, we replied in unison.

My car showed up seconds later. We all said our goodbyes and good nights and headed our separate way. I got in the car and turned around to Reemas as I drove off.

“Reemas, you’re so not good at this. Spill! Now!”

“Sara, remember my ex?…3abdalla?”

“WHAT!? Laykoon 3abdalla hatha ma ’3airaa? Reemas I’m so sorry, I the one who got you into all of this.OH sHIT! 7adyy sorry!”

“Laiish 7adich sorry balla? Bl 3aks ana 7ada 7ada happy o alf shukran cuz you did!”

“Tell me shno 9ar?”

And so she told me everything from A to Z. Wow, what a small world mn 8alb. But I was really happy for her. You see, after the break up, whenever I’d come to visit, she wasn’t the crazy, fun and lively Reemas I knew. She was different. She was broken. She had a huge part missing from her. She really loved him with all her heart. She’d call me every night from when they were together, telling me that I’ll be her brides maid when she gets married to well, him! She told everything. But that all changed. It all changed afterwards. I also used to call her to check up on her after the break up since our calls became alot less than when they were together. The bright and funny Reemas changed into the gloomy and dark Reemas. All this because of a boy, whom she really loved. I was there for her and never left her side. I thought it was ridiculous, though. I thought that that would never happen to me, y3ni all this emotion o 7afla just over a boy? But, no. I was proven wrong. Such things were true. Things like me ans Saleh’s break up. Thankfully, Reemas had never left my side. She helped on my, well lets say road to recovery. And if your wondering “…road to recovery?…”, its because after my break up, I couldn’t eat nor do anything. I just laid on my bed thinking, thinking and thinking until my brain couldn’t handle it anymore.

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Both me and Reemas were in our rooms packing our bags and doing last minutes checks. We finished packing at 1. We said our good nights and I went inside my room. I changed into my comfy pj’s after washing my face and taking a shower. I opened my hair, ran my fingers through it and tied it up into a messy bun with my fringe down. I took of my contacts and wore my glasses. I carried my laptop of the desk and sat on my bed with my laptop and my lap. I open it and sign into MSN.


MSN Messenger. 01:45 a.m.


Wa5r 3any, I’m a HOTTIE ;): Sub7an Alla, I was just thinking about you baby since I didn’t text you Good Night ;)

You. Yes You. A7bik: **GIGGLES** :$

Wa5r 3any, I’m a HOTTIE ;):Fdait ely ga3d giggling anaa. Alla Alla shway shway 3alay, adry inich et7beny ;)

You. Yes You. A7ibk: Weeeh! Mn 8al entaa?

Wa5r 3any, I’m a HOTTIE ;): Laish balla? Mo ana? Weeeh laykoon hathaak el HOTTIE ely he saved you from that flight of stairs you fell down?

You. Yes You. A7ibk: Ee et9adg 3aad, hathaak el HOTTIE babyy ;) Haha wa5r 3ank bs, 7abeeby ma ynfa3 chii, 5f 3alainaa shwaay.


We kept on flirting with eachother until I was struggling to keep my eyes open. We both called it a night at around 3.


1 msg recieved. B <3.


A7ibich ;)


02:55 a.m.

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1 outgoing msg. B <3.


I’m inlove with the HOTTIE ;**


02:56 a.m.

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1 msg recieved. B <3.


Haha stop, you’re making me blush.


02:57 a.m.

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1 outgoing msg. B <3.


OMGOD!
Tawnyy aktshf enk you’re gay!
Hehe.
Good night 7abeeby.


02:59 a.m.

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1 msg recieved. B <3.


Yup, well what to do.
Yalla 7ubby, you too.


03:00 a.m.

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After that, I set my alarm at 05:30 a.m. Even though I won’t be getting much sleep, I might as well rest a few hours. Minutes, I’m asleep like a baby.


- Reemas -


After saying Good Night to Sara, I washed and everything. When I finally got in bed, I took my phone off the night stand into my hand. I had taken 3abdalla’s number since I deleted it and changed my sim. I didn’t give him mines. I said that’ll I’ll call or text whenever I will. I was really happy. I was SO HAPPY. For the first time in 2 years I slept with a smile on my face. A smile that I really longed for too. A smile that really came from my heart. A smile because 3abdalla’s back. And before I know it I’m off to sleep with my mobile in my hand.



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Guys Inshalla you liked since you deserve a really long one for being extra patient wih me. A7ibkum. Muaaaaa <3

XOXO,
Sunset.

still usin ma bros laptop!! allaah y7afi’6lee hal-malee8.. hmph
anywaysssss
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Enjoy
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20 minutes passed and all the girls were at jumanas eating popcorn gawking at her waiting for the “big news”
Shahad: So.. whats the big news??
Jazzi: eeee sh3indich??
Jumana: umm.. Lulu remember at out colleges carnival.. i was working at the ticket booth with a guy named 3azeez..?
Lulu: ee the cutie pieee ;p shfeeh?
Jumana: HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
Lulu & Shahad: EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE??
Jumana: WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAANTS
Lulu and Shahad: EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!?!
Jazzi: bassich intay wiyahaaa t7achaw 3adel nafs bajy 5alg allah!! lazim itma86een il7achi!!??
Shahad: whoo popped ur bubble?!?
Jazzi: chub la..
Jumana: inzaaaaaaaaaaain.. he likes u lulu o nawy um.. yit8addam lich XD
Lulu: 9ij?!?! tara if ur lying its not funny!!
Jumana: wallah il-3a’6eeem XD
Lulu: oh ma gawd!
Shahad: wow..
lulu suddenly blows up..
Lulu: AHHHHHHHH! 5allaaait il-moo zaaain.. w allah rizagny bil-zain o a7saaaan!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! XD XD XD!!
Shahad & jazzi: AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
they all started screaming: AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!
Jumanas mom came stumbling down the stairs..
Mama: SHFEEEKOM!?!?! SH9AYER?!?!
shahad: Lulu ib titzawwaj!!!!!!!!!!!
Mama: Mabroook bnayty!! ta3aaaalay 5anfa89ich!!
lulu smiled and got up to get a hug from jumanas mom.. they hugged and jumanas mom started to cry..
Mama: yyy bnayty ub titzawwaaj w troo7 3annaa
Lulu: shda3waaa 5altii many ray7a mokaan!
they let go and jumanas mom sat down
Mama: athkir yooum kintay bil-ibtida2y kinty tyeen minny oo tig3ideen wiyya jumana ba3daain tit.hawishoon oo ta7lifeen innich it5al9een akil ilbaiit 3ashan jumana itmoot mnilyoo3 oo tarki’6een il-ma6ba5 wit6al3een il-baskooot killa witli6eena marra wa7daa ba3dain tabchee oo tyeey tmachi3 sha3rich.. 0o ga3adna sina nfachich feekom ba3dain 3ogob 3ashir digyeg radiana wala ya7lailkom til3iboon oo trak’6ooon chinna ma 9ar shay.. waaaay yumma bnayty ra7 olaaah 3alaaaich.. o 3ala kilkom la ri7taw witzawajtaw… allah ma 3a6anee bint wa7daa.. rizagny ib arba3 banat allah y5aleehom ly oo l2ahalhom..
and she started crying..
Shahad: GROUP HUUUUUUUUUG!!
and she squeezed them all into a very uncomfortable group hug..
they all break loose and start laughing..
Jumanas mom excused herslef and left the girls alone..
half and hour passed and all the girls went home to do their own things ;p
a few boring hours passed by with Jumana sitting infront of the T.V..
it was 7:30 when..

INCOMING CALL
Bader Al-Flani

Jumana: Aloo?
Bader: hala wallah :O)
Jumana: halaa feek :)
Bader: shlounich?
Jumana: zaina il7amdillah.. winta?
Bader: b5airr il7amdillah… umm soo.. mash’3oola??
Jumana: noo not really..
Bader: soo.. jahzaa??
Jumana: for shno?
Bader: 3asha..
Jumana: ay 3ashaa??
Bader: maa galoolich??
Jumana: SHNO!
Bader: Lol ;p i7na 3azmeen ur family 3ala 3asha ib lenotre tonight.. 3ogob no9 sa3a ta8reeban!
Jumana: 9ij!!!!!!!
Bader: ee 9ij!!! :P
Jumana: 3ayal i gottaaaaa goo!!
Bader: yallaa ma3a issalama ;)
Jumana: allahh ysalmik..
they hang up and jumana runs up the stairs and meets her mother on the way..
Mama: YAH!! jumana laish mo bdarich ga3da titjahizaain!?
Jumana: LA2INA MA7AD GALLY!!! D;
Mama: 3ayal shdarrach??
Jumana: min bader!
Uh-Oh..
Mama: oo min wain lich ra8maah?
Jumana: um.. min salfat il-da3maa..
Mama: ahh okaay
her mom said while smiling..
Jumana “awkwaard”
Jumana: OKAY BYE!
she run all the way to her room and shut the door..
she was heading to her closet room untill she noticed that the window was closed..
(ya3neee she has a seperate room that she changes clothes in..)
she opens the window andd then takes a deep breath..
She looked down at baders room..
and her jaw dropped..
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WOOW two posts in one daaay!! yaaay meee!

Tara im posting min laptop o5ooy la2inna laptopy 5ala9 intaha maaaat allah yi7imaa..
enjoy..
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Jumana: Okaaai.. mabrook? ;p
3azeez: someone it3arfeena..
Jumana: oh.. bas dont you think your too young? laish mista3yel?
3azeez: laa2 ;p.. cuz bakammil phd ib americaa.. oo bas 5ala9 8arrart abeee atzawwaj..
Jumana: okk ;p mno?
3azeez: um.. mo atzawwaj at8addam bas ya3nee itha wafi8at issalfa 9arat zawaj faa ya3nee nafs ishay oo mo nafs ishay.. bas ana a9lan madree laish mista3yel.. ya3neee moo chinna a7san 3ogob ma arid.. la la 8arrart 5ala9..
he was blabering..
He was nervous and jumana noticed
Jumana: shway shway shfeek?? :P
3azeez: sorry!
Jumana: inzaain mno??
3azeez: um..
Jumana: 3azeez!
3azeez: Lulwa il-flani.. XD
He said with a wide grin on his face
Jumana: LULWA LULWAA?!?!
3azeez: ee lulwa lulwa ;p
Jumana: AHHH!!
People stared at her..
Jumana: fashla ;p
they both laughed..
Jumana: yallaaa mita tit8addam?!?
3azeez: umm first abee minnich shayy..
Jumana: ma9laa7chi ;p gool..
3azeez: LOL ;p abeeech u put in a good word for me..
Jumana: inshaaaallah :) ba3aad awamir thanya?
3azeez: ee abeech tgooleen laha ana taan oo 6weeel oo ilbanat ysa3biloon lamman yshoofoony..
Jumana: may9eer! it’3ish.haa?? :P
3azeez: Lol! ee oo gooleelhaa 3yoona zirg oo it.thabi7 :P
Jumana: 7ilwaa hathee ;p
and they spent 10 mins talking about wat jumana was gonna tell lulu about 3azeez untill ma Jumana excused herself because she had to go home or her mother would start worrying..
She settled into her drivers seat.. and started to adjust her seat belt then suddenly froze.. Jumana “h-hee said that?!!?”
She remembered what bader told her the first time they he hugged her at shi3ib park..

late 2008..Aliyah was doing her usual Sat routine at night,..she was online chatting with her friends..She was dreading the fact that she had work tomorrowShe wasn’t motivated at allShe wasn’t working in something she dreamed of..She was in desperate n…

That night I just went into the bathroom and took a warm shower. I just wanted to wash away all the pain. When I got out I found M7sin asleep on the bed. I could’t sleep in the same bed as that man, I didn’t recognize him anymore. I went into the next room, which was the guests bedroom and slept there for the night.

The next morning I woke up and went to get my clothes and change. M7sin had to get up at 9:00 am so I set my alarm to 8:00 am. I didn’t want to see him.

I got dressed and asked the driver to drop me off at my parents house. They would be awake anyways l2no fe 9alat al jm3a, which my father and brothers go to always.

We had alot of cooking to do since we were expecting some more people. My third cousin and his mother were coming.

Noura: Ahlan ahlan !

Mother: Hala 7beebty 9bal el 5air.

Noura: Ooo something smells deliciouse !

Mother: Well I’m making pasta as well with all the traditional foods.

Noura: Haha a mixture of pasta with arabic food ?

Jamal: That’s what I said but she wouldn’t listen. Hey sis.

Noura: Jimmy halla 7beeby, how are you ?

Jamal: Not so bad and yourself?

Noura: All’s good hehe. Wheres baba and Yasser ?

Mother: Your father is out getting some fruit and Yasser’s still asleep.

Noura: Mn jidik? He’s still asleep haha I’m gonna go wake him.

Mother: L2 ya Noura allah y5aleeki mo zay a5ar marra. He came downstairs all grumpy and ruined half our mood.

Noura: La dont wrry mama we wont.

Jamal: I’ll come with.

Jamal and I giggled our way up to Yasser’s room. We knew exactley how to handel the situation.

Noura/Jamal: AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH !!

Yasser: AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH !!

We both laughed like hell leaving Yasser furiouse. His face turned all red and we still continued on laughing. This was like a small tradition Jamal and I have. Ever since we were younger until this day we do the same routine. Yasser was always the lazy waker in the family, so we would glady step on up to volunteer.

Yasser: Are you guys insane ?!

Noura: Really? Your gonna ask us that question again ?

Jamal: Yeah, what has it been? 8 years ?

Yasser: You guys are pathetic !

Noura: Or we just know how to have fun.

Yasser: I have got to get my own place.

Noura: So why don’t you?

Yasser: Because I’m used to this, my home.

Jamal: Awww someone’s gone all mushy. *pinching yasser’s cheek*

Yasser: Ugh get away from me you freak! Yalah I’m gonna take a shower and when I’m done I dont wanna see you guys still up here.

Noura: Haha whatever, Let’s go Jimmy.

* Later Bl Thohor *

Mother: Ahlan w sahlan tfathlo.

Aunti Salwa: Hala Hind wallah zaman 3anik.

Mother: Ya awlad t3alo ta7at yallah !

We all ran down like little kids, we totaly forgot guests were coming over. They could all here us laughing as we made our way down. Once we got into the living room we all froze infront of our guests. I was so red from blusing that I could actualy become McDonald’s next clown. I tied my hair back up and straightend up. Il awlad a5ar hamahom.

Mother: Nouni you remember 5altik Salwa and her son Fahad ?

Noura: Ahleen 5alty 7mdela 3ala salamah. Nawarti betna.

Aunti Salwa: Allah y5aleeki 7beebty.

Mother: Hatha Fahad Nouni don’t you remember?

Noura: Yes ofcourse I do. Ahleen Fahad kfk?

Fahad: 7mdela wallah inti kfk ?

Noura: I’m well thank you.

Jamal: Hala 5alty.

Yasser: Hala 5alty.

We all then headed to the living room. Starting from the head of the table was my dad then Yasser, me, Jamal, then My mother at the other head of the table. Then Fahad and 5alty Salwa then we get back to my dad.

We feasted on the food that my mother had prepared which was very deliciouse. We exchanged conversations and laughed. It was a pleasent lunch. After, we went back into the living room to have tea.

Mother: I’ll be right in with you guys, I’ll just clean up.

Noura: L2 ya mama. You go on in and let me clean up.

Mother: 7beebty inti walla 3adi, It will just take me a couple of minutes.

Noura: Mama I insist please.

Mother: Haha 6yb yallah try to hurry up.

Fahad: I could help her 5alty.

Mother: Oh Fahad… Umm.. ok yes it will be much faster that way.

Fahad and I cleared the table and started washing the dishes and putting them away. We started talking, catching up. He had just finished his PHD in the states and was now back.
We were in the kitchen for half an hour and we managed to talk about everything. How our lives have been and that sort of stuff.

Fahad: So how are things with your husband?

Noura: Were…. fine.

I started my way out the kitchen.

Fahad: Hey, wait.

Noura: Na3am ?

Fahad: Why did you just do that?

Noura: Do what?

Fahad: Stutter.

Noura: I didn’t stutter.

Fahad: Ok, if you say so.

Mother: Wa a5eeran.

Noura: Sorry mama we took a bit more time.

Aunti Salwa: It’s ok 7beebty. Fahad yallah we have to get going.

Mother: La taw bdri.

Aunti Salwa: Wallah ya Hind lazim nroo7. Fahad still didn’t unpack. And he has to meet his cousins today.

Mother: Aha 6yb ajal let me call the boys to say goodbye.

Noura: 5alty thank you so much for coming it was really nice –

Jamal: Yallah ma3a l salamah.

Yasser: Yallah lazim nshfkm 8reeb.

Fahad: Inshallah.

Mother: Noura walk them out to their car.

Noura: 7ather mama.

So I walked them out to their car. Aunti Salwa had already gotten in while Fahad stopped for a moment to say a few words to me.

Fahad: Kebarty ya Noura.

Noura: Keif? This was the first time I’ve ever seen you.

Fahad: Nope.

Noura: Mn jd?

Fahad: You just said inside that you remembered me.

Noura: Well I certainly wasn’t going to embaress myself infront of everyone.

Fahad: Haha ok then.

Noura: Wait, when did you see me?

Fahad: Twice. I remember. We were teenagers. You were 14 and I was 19.

Noura: Where was it ?

Fahad: My parents threw me a graduation party which you and your whole family attended. We chatted for a couple of minutesbut then you had to go. And I remember your excuse like it was yesterday.

Noura: What did I say?

Fahad: “Sorry but I really have to go, I’ve got a mani pedi”

Noura: Hahahahaha oh my god no way ! I’m so so sorry.

Fahad: Haha la 3adi it was along time ago.

Noura: Ok. Well take care.

Fahad: You too Noura, take care of yourself.

What’s this?

What just happend to me?

I think I just felt something with Fahad. I don’t blame myself, I mean he’s a smart and intrestand man. But whatever. I love my husband, and I will not allow myself to get caught in one of those webs.

I felt something yes. But it will go away in about ten seconds because I have a husband that I love. I’m a faithful muslim women and I will continue to remain that way.

* Incoming Call: M7sin *

Noura: Aloo ?

M7sin: Hala 7beebty wnk ?

Noura: At lunch at my parents house.

M7sin: Oh right I forgot. Well I ended up finishing work early today so how about we go to a mall or something?

Noura: A mall ?

M7sin: Yeah, remember that Armez bag you wanted?

Noura: What about it ?

M7sin: It’s my gift to you.

Noura: What’s the occasion?

M7sin: Does there have to be an occasion to get my wife something?

Noura: Thank you bs walla maho da3i. I don’t want it.

M7sin: Ok fine, but I’m on my way to pick you up right now.

Noura: Umm… I actualy wanted to stay a little bit more.

M7sin: Ya Noura ma shftik min ams wallah 7aram 3leeki.

Noura: 7aram 3l — ………….. Fine ok I’m waiting.

My 2 best friends and I started a little black book of fashion online to share with everyone who and what we wear.
So check it out and let us know what you think.
http://eyepollution.wordpress.com
Love, Flana.
xoxo

Since It wouldn’t be fair for you to wait 1 week then find a short post , I decided inna weekend would hav 2 short posts , w if that work it would be .. Weekend : 2 short posts Dawam days ;p : 1 medium post W I love you all :D ~ …

7athrat Janab My Beloved Dotting Husband, Mr. Butootee, Was out with a friend for coffee this afternoon…
So he leaves me home in the weekend to go for a cup of coffee, i don’t mind, im a coffee-holic, my mouth waters at the very mention of coffee, i tell him to go, enjoy his time, take as [...]

3 months later..Finally, its spring. Its always been the same routine during the spring break. My whole family would g to the chalet. When i say “whole family” i dont just mean my mom, dad, sister and i. Its literally my whoolee family, like grandparen…

We were at my mother’s 46th birthday and it was beautiful. Having all the family gathered up together, was such a wonderful feeling. M7sin was outside at the barbecue with my dad and two brothers, Yasser and Jamal. It seemed they were having fun laughing, you know the usual guy stuff. I was the only daughter which ment more spoiling for me and more working for the guys.

My mom and I were very close, especialy when I was a teenager. I used to tell her everything. She was my best friend yet at the same time my mother. We would spend hours every day talking and just enjoying eachothers comapny.

When I met M7sin, I was 21 and still in university. He was replacing my Psychology professor for a couple of weeks and we just happend to have this spark.

We flirted here and there but then I stopped him because I wasn’t sure where it was leading. Then one day I came home to find him sitting with my parents and brothers. M7sin had come to ask for my hand in marriage. I was thrilled but at the same time confused.

My parents would never agree to such a thing where I’ve dated him for a while then he comes and asks for my hand. But they agreed and the wedding was on. Ever since that day we were inseperable, I was madly in love with him.

We lived an hour away from the city which was nice, but it sometimes got hard for me to see my family and friends with them them living kind of far. M7sin worked as it came to be obviouse, a Psychology professor at a university nearby.

We had a nice living, a wonderful mid size house. Small garden and pool. Not oh so wow but it was nice.

M7sin: Yallah 7beebty nmshe ?

Noura: E yallah let’s go.

Mother: Nouni thank you so much 7beebty for coming. *kiss* I love you.

Father: La mashyeen al7een ? Taw il nas.

Noura: Sorry baba, bs M7sin has work tommorow so we got to go.

Father: Well can’t you stay for a while and one of your brothers can drop you home later.

Noura: 7beeby is that ok with you?

M7sin: Yes it fine. Have fun.

Noura. Love you. *kiss*

M7sin: Love you too.

Yasser: Baby sis !

Noura: Owwww your breaking my bones haha lossen up.

Yasser: Sorry Nouni. Let’s sit.

Noura: How are things with you ?

Yasser: It’s good 7mdela. Last year masters so its all good

Noura: E 97 I totaly forgot you’ve got one more year left. Thats so great I’m proud of you.

Yasser: Thanks.

Jamal: So what are we talking about?

Noura: Nothing, just about masters and all that stuff.

Jamal: Hey, what about you?

Noura: What about me ?

Jamal: How’s second year of marriage treating you.

Noura: Haha your adorable. Well so far I can’t complain. It’s all perfect, he’s perfect.

Jamal: Ok ok, dont get into all the mushy stuff please. Gross!

Noura: Gross huh? Your still 17 so just wait till’ a girl spins you around. Then we’ll see who’s talking.

Jamal: Yeah yeah..

Yasser: Nouni it’s been 2 hours, don’t you think you should be heading back?

Noura: Oh right I totaly lost track of time let’s go.

Jamal: Bye 7beebty. *kiss*

Noura: Bye Jimmy. Love you!

Mother: Your leaving?

Noura: Yeah, it’s gotten pretty late.

Mother: 6yb 3ala ra7tik. Will you still be coming over tommorow for lunch?

Noura: I’m not sure about M7sin, but I’ll definitley be here.

Mother: Ma hamani M7sin, aham shay inti.

Noura: Haha y7lelik mama. I would never miss Friday lunch. Yallah I love you all bye.

I opend the door to my house as slowly and quitley as I could. M7sin’s a very light sleeper. Anything can wake him up. I got in and shut the door behind me and made my way up the stairs. Once I opend the door to the bedroom I saw M7sin there wide awake sitting on the bed.
He was still in his clothes and looked at me strangley.

M7sin: Do you know what time it is?

Noura: 7beeby *sitting down next to him/kiss* I was at my parents house 3adi, and Yasser dropped me home. So it’s ok.

M7sin: No it’s not ok Noura. You made me look like a fool infront of your whole family.

Noura: What? How?

M7sin: You were supposed to leave with me.

Noura: So? I dont see what the big deal is ? I wanted to spend more time with my family. It’s not a crime M7sin, lighten up.

M7sin: What the hell is that supposed to mean? Lighten up !!

Noura: First of all dont curse at me. And second, it means your making such a big deal out of nothing. *heading towards the bathroom*

M7sin: DO NOT WALK AWAY WHEN I’M SPEAKING TO YOU !!

And thats where he did something I never thought possible of him. He hit me.
He grabbed my hand and pulled me back and slapped me on my face. I stood there in complete shock, not even feeling the pain on my face but the pain in my heart.

He never hit me, not once. Whenever we got upset from oneanother we would give space for a couple of hourse then resume to talk about it and try to fix things. But hitting me? Was that his way of resovling things?

I’ve seen these women on tv shows or movies getting hit my their husbands or boyfriends and I would feel sorry for them. I would sometimes actualy cry, men doing these horrible things to us women. It’s unjust and a disgrace.

Have I become one of these women?

A letter to my love, my life, my heart, my mind, my soul, my everything…

You.

Yesterday I saw You.

Yesterday I met You.

Yesterday I liked You.

Yesterday I played with You.

Yesterday I sat next to You.

You.

Today I talked to You.

Today I called You.

Today I fell inlove with You.

Today I felt safe around You.

Today is the day I can’t deny my love to You.

You.

Tomorrow we’ll be side by side.

Tomorrow I’ll never let you go.

Tomorrow I’ll love you more.

Tomorrow I’ll be in Your arms.

Tomorrow I’ll hug You like there’s no tomorrow.

If and only if…

You love me like I love You.

If and only if…

You care for me like I care for You.

If and only if…

You’ll never let me go.

But now, all I have to ask is a simple question.

A simple question that will make everything I said so clear.

A simple question that You have to answer.

A simple question that changes everything.

A simple question resulting in a new beginning.

A simple question that affects both our lives.

Now…

Do You my love,…

Love me?

P.S never forget that I love You.