“Glitter is a big fat lier, I know her and I tell you, don’t believe a word she writes“

“She goes on and on about her perfect life with her Mr. X. Amoot wa3aref who she is“

“She makes up fictional stories, and fictional characters, like the girl she talked about at a recent wedding “

“And getting invited to all those weddings? Who is she kidding? “

“Glitter is delusional. I bet she never had a car accident, nor suffered from a tumor. She’s a fake“

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When I first came into the blog world, I noticed that the main concern of most of the girls is love, and finding Mr. Right. They expect to live a romantic fairy-tale, and so did I at one point of my life.

Romantic movies and fictional novels have distorted our way of thinking. It’s not all candy and roses in real life. I see girls all the time lose themselves in the pursuit of love, compromising their way of life for the sake of getting a chance to live a fairy-tale.

This inspired me ..

and my main reason for starting this blog was to project a happy image of a family arranged marriage.

All I wanted to do was give hope that eventually you can find love. Not by breaking the rules and running behind your family’s back. Bel 3ax, find love with their blessings.

And I tried the best I can, to convey that no one is perfect. I wrote about my journey as openly as I can. I wrote about the good things, the bad things, and even my fears and doubts. After all, ma7ad feena khaly, ma7ad feena happy 100%. Kilman has their own problems bas elNas malha ella elwajha.

So you can imagine the hurt, and disappointment I feel when I hear people talking about me and saying those things mentioned above. I opened up my life to share and hoped it will be of a help to anyone who needed it. And instead, this is the feedback I’m getting.

Kuwait is small, wl 7achy yedoor o yedoor o yosalny.

What is really heart-breaking is that this awful crusade to “Discover & Distroy Glitter” is being launched by a girl who I used to dayman atsharrag feeha.

What did I do to deserve all of this?

So to her I say,

-Me being clever, and hiding my tracks well, doesn’t mean that I am lier.

-You being unable to find out who I am, doesn’t mean I fabricated my stories.

And to the other girl who claims she knows me,

I say you are the lier.

How pathetic it is to go around saying you know who I am while you have no clue?.. Wallah when I heard this salfa I was laughing so hard at how desparate you are to be known as the one who knows Glitter.

If you really know the real Glitter, then why don’t you tell your friends my real identity?

When they ask you again, spit out my name. Don’t hide behind any lame excuse like you have to protect my privacy and such, no.. I hereby give you permission to do so.. Yallah, go a head and tell them who I am, I DARE you.

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I’m getting really sick with all of this negativity.

I’m sorry, I shouldn’t let this crap get the better of me, I should be stronger. But the truth is: I’m not strong at all.

*sigh*

Anyhoo

I will borrow Shwaish famous sentence, with a little twist of mine, when I say:

I love you all, but some lel2saf, 6a7 mn 3ainy

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يوم اقلبت.. صوت لها جرحي القديميوم اقبلت .. طرنا لها انا وشوقي والنسيموعيونها ..عين لمحتني وشهقتوعين حضنت عيني وبكتويافرحتيالحظ الليله كريم…

“Daloooooooool!! I miss you!!” I yelled into my phone,“Hehhe I miss you too.. how are you? It’s been ages since I talked to you”“I know, I’m sorry, I’ve been really busy with the gallery”“Yeah? Not too busy for cousin Mohammed thoug…

I’m so into romance movies. Really into them. They effect me so much and leave me thinking at the end. And whenever I would see one, I’d always think of 5aled. That was how much he was on my mind and in my heart.

I remember the time when we said we loved eachother. I was planning on telling him the next time he came to see me. That was the plan.

But then one night I was watching this movie called “If Only”, Jennifer Love Hewitt acts in it. It’s such a moving movie. The whole time from start to finish I was crying. Im being dead honest here, I was crying the whole time. I couldnt stop crying! It has such a strong effect on me. The most things that get me emotional are music and movies.

3ala6ool after the movie ended I called 5aled…

5aled: Halla 7beebty.

Me: 5ALED !!

I was in tears.

5aled: Bismilah 3leeki wsh feeki ?!

Me: I LOVE YOU !! I LOVE YOU !! I LOVE YOU !!

5aled: Haha I love you too 7beebty bs why are you crying ?

Me: I know this wasnt how it was supposed to happen bs I had to tell you. La sama7 Allah 9arlik shay ?

5aled: 7beebtyyyyyyy ma ra7 y9eerli shay.. aw3adik I’m yours!

Me: E bs you never know! I mean what if fj2a Im gone or your gone! I want you to promise me that from here on out we will say everything we wanna say to eachother. At any moment when you wanna tell me something you say it 3ala6ool without a thought! And I will do the same! I dont wanna lose you!

5aled: Doody.. 7beebty.. 7ayati.. 3yooni.. I love you and I promise you that I will always be here. I wont leave you.

Me: Wallah ?

5aled: E wallah 7beebty… you know your a theif ?

Me: Huh lesh ?

5aled: Cause you stole my heart..

Me: Hehe..

5aled: Aha2 was that a laugh I just herd ?

Me: Its a giggle!

5aled: Still, you smiled.

Me: L2 a laugh is hahahahaha and a giggle is hehehe.

5aled: Aaha 6yb shokran 3al information.

Me: Hehe…

5aled: There it is again! A5555 wsh tsaween feeni!!

Me: I love you.

5aled: A7bik akthar!

Me: L2 say it in english.

5aled: Why ?

Me: Its more romantic in english.

5aled: La Doody, bl 3arabi.

Me: L2 english!

5aled: 6yb 5ala9. I love you my Doody.. forever my Doody.

Me: E kitha zain!

5aled: Whatever puts a smile on that beautiful face.


That night we stayed up until 6 am. Most of it was me telling him “I love you”. I was obsessed with those 3 little words. He would just laugh at me. I would too if I were in his shoes, I was seriosuly obsessed. Mdri wsh 9ar feeni. :$

Now THIS MAN is a theif… he stole MY heart!!

It was still summer. And in a few days 5aled was leaving for camp. I didnt want him to leave! 3 weeks! I had no problem with it at first but then I found out that he wouldnt have phone privledges. How were we gonna talk? I cant go 3 weeks without hearing his voice.

I was so worried. It was a mixed camp. Girls from all over America and Europe were gonna be there, plus half the middle east. I started to complain!

I trusted him, but the girls were the ones I had a problem with. You know keif el ajanib.. yshoofoon shay yb’3o w 3ala6ool ye7awloon ya5thoo. Sometimes men give in too quickly. Mathalan if a hot girl came and started seducing him, he might freeze up and allow her to do whatever she wants. Some men give in fast! I didnt want my baby to give in. I know he would never hurt me but still, you never know. Bs he assured me he would never allow any girl to touch him other than me.

I was complaining about alot of other stuff too. But he talked me through it all, and I became ok.

It was just 3 weeks, 3adi. No biggie. I knew he would call me or text me every chance he got. :)

The first 2 days he didnt contact me. 3adi… he was probebly settling in and all, so I waited.

A week passed and I hadnt herd from him, I was starting to get worried. Its been one whole week where was he?! Inshallah ma 9arlo shay!

I was so down during those 3 weeks.

3bdulah was in the States and the only way we would talk is through MSN. You see at that time he and I were still friends. Nothing happend yet.

All my cousins from Riyadh flew in. We all spent the summer together. After my grandfathers death, we didnt wanna go anywhere. We couldnt. Our parents told us to get out and enjoy the rest of our summer. They all listend except for me. I didnt want to have fun.

My mom told me not to feel guilty and that 2booy 3bdulah would want us all to be happy, especialy me. So I listend to her and tried to enjoy my summer.

We would all go to the beach everyday and I have to say I did have fun. It was hard at first but I made it through.

But I couldnt stop thinking about 5aled and what he’s doing. Was he thinking of me? Did he forget me? Why isnt he calling me? Texting me? Did something happen with …. a girl? Thats all I could ever think about.

Two weeks later he finaly contacted me. It was short phone call.

5aled: Gulbiii !

Me: 7aytiiiiii !

5aled: I miss you so much !

Me: I miss you so much more! Where are you !! Two weeks !!

5aled: I know 7beebty wallah I know bs they wont allow us to use the phones w kitha. Once a week and I had to call my parents.

Me: Your parents w ana l2 ?

5aled: Its not like that wallah.

Me: 6yb then what ?

5aled: You really wanna waist our time now talking about the past ? This is my friends phone w ma a8dar a6awel fa lets make the best of it.

Me: Ok.

5aled: Kefik ya gamar ?

Me: Good bs Im depressed shway…

5aled: Lesh ?!

Me: I miss 2booy 3bdulah.

5aled: 7beebty lat thygeen nafsik zeyada. Your too stressed already. Allah yr7amo w yd5lo el jannah inshallah bs al7een enjoy your summer.

Me: Thats what mama said too.

5aled: Esme3y kalam umik. Shes right.

Me: Yeah…

5aled: Anything intresting happen ?

Me: La walla abad. I just want you to come back.

5aled: Where to Jeddah ?

Me: E ajal wain. You said you and your family are spending Rama’6an here.

5aled: Uhhh… ymkin l2.

Me: What do you mean ymkn l2!! 5aled I have to see you !!

5aled: I wanna see you more 7beebty bs I dont think we’ll be spending Rama’6an in Jeddah this year. I dont think I’m coming. Most probably its straight back to Riyadh.

Me: AGHHH !!!

5aled: Hadi 7beebty…

Me: Kaif ahda? Gooli kaif ? I was waiting for these weeks of hell to end so that I can see you, w al7een tgoli ma ra7 tjy ?

5aled: I’m sorry 7beebty.. I really am…

Me: Whatever!

5aled: Kam marra agoolik ma a7b hathal klma.

Me: Sorry…

5aled: I love you ya bnt!

Me: Hehe.. I love you too.

5aled: A555 3ala that giggle !! Wnk bs !

Me: Ana hina f Jeddah !

5aled: Im sorry ya galbi..

Me: I know…


He wasnt coming… I was devastated. I kept counting down the days, and now I have nothing to count down to. He didnt even tell me when I was gonna see him again. :”’(

When he got back to Riyadh he told me he got me something. His cousin was going to Jeddah and so he said he will give it to her and have her give it to me. I found it wierd, why couldnt he just hang onto it until the next time?

I told him ok and it was set, the next day I was going to meet his cousin. I didnt want to accept it from her but 5aled insisted on it.

I was only gonna see her for like 5 minutes bs. That day I had plans with one of my closest friends, so I told her I’d be stopping by someplace to pick up something. She said she’d wait for me in the car knowing I’d only be a couple of minutes.

5aled said there was no need to give me his cousins number. And that he’ll plan everything. It made no sense. why wouldnt he just give me her number so we can arrange everything ourselves?

We were meeting at this little cafe, I arrived there first. Why is it that no matter where I go I have to be the first one there? Ma a7b kitha!

I sat for a while and waited. B3dain fj2a someone hits the back of my head. I turn around and who do I see?

5AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAALED !!!! <3 <3 <3

I couldn’t believe my eyes! My jaw dropped to the ground! He was here! My baby was here! I got up and hugged him so tight. So many people were staring at us but I didnt care. He was here!

Finaly… I was in his arms. I’ve waited so long for this.

Me: B-b-b-b- ut how? Y-y-y-y…

I couldnt stop stuttering.

5aled: Do you really think I’d spend Rama’6an away from you?

I slapped him.

Me: I hate you!!

5aled: Haha 6yb I love you.

He took both my hands and kissed them.

Me: Why did you lie to me!

5aled: I wanted to surprise you.

Me: This isnt a surprise, this is torture! A surprise is when you fj2a show up without putting me through all this misery.

5aled: Wallah I’m sorry 7beebty. La tz3aleen aham shay a7na al7een m3 ba3ath..

Me: Ummm.. hehe is that for me ?

5aled: 7ag a’3la w ajmal w7da bl 3alam…. where she is by the way she’s kinda late..

Me: Heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeey !!

5aled: Haha I love you 7beebty.. ya a7la ma 5alag Rabii… ofcourse its for you. 6ool 7ayati ra7 ykoon kitha. Adala3ek w adala3ek w adala3eek.. t3refeen lesh ?

Me: L2 lesh ?

5aled: 3ashanik testahleen kl shay f hathal dnya..

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I eventualy managed to forget about the whole fight and move on. I gave him an excuse this time, that is slipped out. I mean other than that he was perfect. He treated me like a queen, sometimes more than I deserved.

The next time I saw him was two days later at a Cafe called pearls. Here in J- town (thats what me and cousin call it, and Riyadh as Rio) the two most hot spots are Senses and Pearls.

The thing that I hate about 5aled is that whenever were supposed to meet up, he’s always late. Sometimes I would tell him to meet me at 8 and I would plan on coming at 8:30. Just to kind of teach him a lesson. But no, he wouldnt be there when I show up. So when does he finaly show? At 9. I just wanna strangle him.

So I was at Pearls and as usual he was late. Half an hour late to be exact. I wasnt just going to sit around, so I called 3bdulah, aka Boodi. My best friend.

We talked about when we saw eachother. It was the first time I had come to Pearls. That was one HILARIOUS night. But he was so sweet, he got me a present for my 15th birthday. So as it is obvious, this was like in 2007. He got me an adorable Tiffany necklace. I fell in love with it. And the way he gave it to me was adorable.

He handed me the box and I was so excited that I actualy ripped the ribbon off with my teeth! But there was nothing in it. “is this a joke” I asked him.

He said, “la la wallah here it is, I just wanted to see you go crazy. I hear it on the phone, so I wanted to actualy see it live”

“agh 7mar! give me”

And I snatched it from his hands.

I quickly got up and hugged him. It was so sweet, I wasnt even expecting a gift. But still I also got him something as a surprise.. he’s obsessed with Vans and hoodies. So I got him a Vans grey and white hoodi. I love mens wear, well their shirts and sweaters. Their so comfy, so I got myself one aswell. It warms me up, agh its amazing.

He adored it.

So while we were on the phone, he reminded me of how silly I was. See we ordered french fries and to me it tasted like the cheif mixed flowers in with the oil. So I actualy called out the cheif and complained. 3bdulah was so embaressed that he kept saying “no its ok the food’s great. ignore her.” He told me “wla tz3aleen, we’ll order something else”. So we ordered rasberry icecream. I thought it would be like the one at basken robins. Bs lel asaf it wasnt, it was worse. I actualy spit it out onto the plate. All 3bdulah had to say was “seriously?… seriously?” I just giggled. Bs wallah y7lelo he still ate the icecream, well from the other side.

I laughed and laughed so hard. Whenever we talk on the phone he has to mention these two things. Me waking him up at 4am when he had a huge exam the next day, just so he coulde check something for me on facebook. And the french fries and icecream incident.

Finaly 5aled arrived so I told Boodi I’d call him later.

That day me and 5aled spent 7 hours together. From 6 till’ 11. My mom told me to be home by 8. I lost track of time, but she didnt call me so I thought it was ok. So while I was in the car I called my mom…


Mama: WAINIK ?

Me: Hallah mama, bs knt aby agolik ini al7een fl 6areeg.

Mama: Ah mashallah al7een jayatli ? Inshallah you had fun? Dis obeying my rules?

Me: Wallah mama Im so sorry I lost track of time wallah Im sorry lwsm7ti la tz3leen mni.. allah yrtha 3leeki sam7eeny.

Mama: Dina… ba3al salamah.


And she hung up in my face. I was so scared. I hate it when shes upset from me. I called 5aled and told him what happend once I got home. My mom didnt even look at me, I just went straight to my room. He told me he would call and explain that it was his fault not mine. Awwwwww!! He was gonna take the blame for me.

After 20 minutes my mom called me to the 9alah and told me that she forgave me and to never do it again or else I wouldn’t be allowed to see 5aled anymore. I 3ala6ool said 7ather, I didnt wanna mess things up for me and 5aled. Not seeing him? Just saying that kills me!

We continued seeing eachother for the rest of the week. It flew by so fast, I didnt want him leave. Why couldnt he have just lived here? I hate long distance relationships!

A few weeks later 5aled started to get jelouse of 3bdulah. Not there’s any reason to be since were just friends, but he was so jelouse. He never had a problem with me talking to him before and now fj2a he does! I have to say I was so pissed!

5aled: I just think you should back away from him a little.

Me: Are you seriouse? Sorry bs l2.

5aled: Wsh eli l2?

Me: L2 y3ni l2. He’s like my brother. We’ve been best friends for four years now. He treats me like his little sister. I’m not going to ruin all of that. You know how many friends have backstabbed and hurt me in the passed. This guy stayed with me through the good and the bad. Sorry bs I cant have you take that away from me.

5aled: You have me.

Me: 5aled ism3ni.. I wont be the type of girl that relys on her boyfriend for everything. I need to have other people in my life too. I love you and all bs c’mon 7aram 3leek you do this to me.

5aled: Im not asking you to stop being friends with him, I just want you to minimize your time.

Me: Sh89dik ?

5aled: I mean dont talk to him after 10, cause its late and I dont feel comfortable. And dont talk everything at-thayag.. like two times a week would be fine. And talking for an hour, l2… talking for 5 to 10 minutes would be more than enough.

Me: Your joking right ? What the hell 5aled. I’m not your daughter to give me all these rules.

5aled: Bs ana at-thayag.

Me: You went to camp last year and came back with more than 50 girls whom you became friends with. Your facebook is packed with those girls. But do I say anything? No. Cause I trust you blindly. I’ve known 3bdullah for 4 years. How long have you known those girls ? 3 weeks at a camp bs!

5aled: Bs I dont talk to them on the phone.

Me: Its still the same. Msn, texting… facebook.. phone calls.. all the same.

5aled: Dina please 5ala9 entaha el mawthoo3!

Me: WHATEVER !!!!

5aled: Na3am ?

Me: E YOU HERD ME W H A T E V E R.. DO I HAVE TO SPELL IT OUT AGAIN ?


I was mad as hell. How could he just throw those rules in my face. He had no right to do that. I dont care what he’s reasons were bs he had no right what so ever. Wsh eli 2 times a week for only 10 minutes? 5air ?!

Now looking back I actualy wanna slap myself. I followed his rules without putting up a fight. If only I could go back in time. I would tell him that he’s my friend. He’s never made a move on me. We never had feelings for eachother. He treats me good, so good! He’s always there for me… I could go on and on.

And now.. me and him arnt friends anymore. Im so sad whenever I think about him. But I did this for love. For my 5aled. I really wish I hadnt since 3bdulah had done nothing to me. I dunno how this all became such a mess. It’s his jelousy. Un-neccesary jelousy. I wish that I could turn all this around. I miss 3bdulah and our friendship. But I cant tell 5aled that. He would get the wrong idea and make such a big deal. Its one of the reasons why Im depressed these days.

Yeah, Ive been depressed latley and losing 3bdulah is one reason. I lost yet another best friend.

But this is life, sometimes we gotta do things to make the other person happy. But why did I have to get rid of my best friend. The one person I knew I could count on. That knew all my secrets and my past. I just wish 5aled could understand and allow me to have my best friend back. I wish that he would understand what a big deal he’s making out of all of this. I wish that he could trust me. I wish that he could give me my best friend back. But I know he wont.. because he just wont.

To sum it all up… 3bdulah is gone.

Meanwhile summer was near and we were headed to London. Every summer has to start in London. Sometimes we would spend the whole summer their or spend a week or so and then off to some other place.

Since my grandfather was very sick , my mom didnt want to leave him for too long. She wanted me and my sister to have fun so she took us to London for 2 weeks. But unfortunatley we only stayed 4 days.

Once we landed my mom got a call from one of her sisters saying that my grandfather became even more sick and that he isnt properly taking his food nor mediacation. So they had this bag hanging above him filled with food. Not the actual food, but the juice. And injected into his arm was a thin tube connected to the bag of juice. Thats how he would have his meals. Through a tube. It was heartbreaking.

He also couldnt breath properly on his own, he needed the oxygen mask most of the time.

He had no strength, he was so weak and tired.

We booked the next flight out!

Everyday the family would gather in his bedroom. He had a huge bedroom, where there are two rooms in it. One was where he was at, and the other was a big 9alah.

Out of all my cousins I was the most one that stood by him. I couldnt leave him, not even for a second. for the next two months I would wake up, shower then rush straightly to him. I just wanted to hold his hand and kiss them.

My cousins were all having fun! Going to dinner each night! The beach each morning!

For gods sake your grandfather is dying and your off having fun !!

Have a heart for the love of god!! Allah yesam7kom! I was filled with rage

Yeah they would come and sit with him, but only for like an hour and then they were off.

I remember one night it was 1 am and I had just finished my shower. I came up to his bedroom to sit with him for a while before I went off to bed.

I walked in to find 5 of my cousins in the 9alah on their laptops, talking and laughing. Basicly enjoying their time.

I clinched my fists and kept whispering to myself. “dina just keep walking dont start, dont start. keep walking”.

{Suzy 101}

Im the type of person that says whats on her mind. I cant hold it in and wait for another time. It sometimes gets me in bad situations but its something I sometimes cant controle.


So I walked up to them…

Me: Your grandfather is sick in there and your out here playing on your laptops? Mashallah 3leekom, yallah have fun.

Meeny: La wallah 7beebty a7na hina kl leela.

Me: Really? Doing what exactley? Sitting out here doing whatever the hell it is your doing? Thats not called being there for him, thats called being bored in there so were sitting around in here.

3aysha: Look whos talking.

Me: Na3am 7beebty? 3ala fkra.. while you were out at dinner each night and at the beach each morning I was here. Here holding his hand watching over him. I wouldnt even allow the nurse to touch him. I took care of him.

Meeny: Yallah yallah bs engl3y..

Me: Screw you bitch!


I know, I know. I probably should not have cursed but once again I had no controle. But I didnt feel bad. Bl3ax I felt great! It felt so good saying those words to them. But c’mon, I had every right to say what I said. Imagine your in my position, how would you feel?

And I know deep down inside I got to them with my words.

I ignored that they were out there and went in to be with my grandfather.

A few days later I was sitting in my room on my laptop when my mom suddenly walkes in all gloomy.

Me: Mama shfeeki ?

Mama: 7beebty I have something to tell you…

Me: 5air esh fee ?

Mama: 2booy twafa elyoum el sboo7.

Me: Mama lwsm7ty goleli 83da tmze7y ?


My eyes started to water.

Mama: La 7beebty.. twafa…


I started to cry and cry and cry. I screamed, I just kept screaming la2 la2 la2 ! My mom tried to hold me but I would push her away and keep screaming. I didnt want to believe it. After about 10 minutes of contant crying and screaming my mom managed to calm me down. She took me in her arms and just held me. Garat 3lay Quran.

I told her I wanted to see him bs she told me it will only hurt me more.

I didnt care. I wanted to see him once last time. I hated myself for not being there. For being lazy and not waking up until 2 el thohor. I wanted to be there for him, with him when he passed. Until this day, I hate myself for not being with him.

I didnt care, I went to him. I went in to find all my aunts and uncles and cousins. I pushed my way through. They all grabbed me and told me not to go in but I just pushed them roughly aside and continued pushing through.

I got in. I saw hm lying on the bed with the sheets covering his face. The men were on their way to pick him up and take him away.

I started walking towards his bedside.

I pulled off the covers and kissed his head, then both his cheecks, then both his hands. Then I took a moment and hugged him. The last hug I was ever gonna have.

” Yaaaa raaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaab er7im 2booy yaaaaa raaaaaaaaaab da5ilo el janah yaaaaaaaa rbbbbb er7amooooo yaaaaaaaaaa rbbbbb!!!

Ahhhhh 2booy marrah w7shtany.. mat 9dg 8ad esh. Afaker feek kl youm! Mafi youm ymar bdoon ma afakir feek. Int f 8lbi dayman w dayman ra7 tfthel feeh! A7bk marrah !! A7san ab fl dnya kilah.. Allah yr7amik ! “

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Hi everyone ..This isn’t a story post, this is a huge apology to all my readers. I know that I didn’t post for almost two months and that’s so so horrible of me. But I’ve been very busy and I had a lot of things up my mind (personal stuff) so I didn’t …

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Sorry for this being short, I’ll try to post later tonight :*Saif: PING!!!Saif: I need to see you…7ala: I love you SaifSaif: I love you too, my life without you is impossible, I don’t care about anyone else, all I want is you…I opened my eyes to …

To Anonymous that asked me this…

okay yes am a chatter so am going to explain the guy am with:
he would talk to me for 5minutes one day saying he’s busy bla bla
he would talk to me for 3hrs or more n be all i love u n cuddly

he’s not moody he’s always happy….7laylahw he’s not the type of guy that is 7ail bossy ya3ne ana a3nad mena :p

like i wear whatever i want n go out men doon enna i have to call. etc w marat he would dispear for 2 weeks then call me! what do you think?


Ok.. umm so your saying that one minute he acts like a boyfriend who cares and all, then the next he acts like he doesnt give a shit? Mo marrah mehtam feeki y3ni? Cause thats what I got from what you said.

If that’s the case, then I say take time to think about it all. I mean if someone’s relationship mood with you is on and then off, its not right. Cause if he really does love you and care, he would make time for you. He would put aside everything to be with the women he loves. As for him disappearing all of a sudden and then coming back after 2 weeks. What the hell !? L2 ’3ala6 kitha.. w 7aram ysawi feeki kitha. He’s not treating you right this way. It seems to be he’s messing with your mind. Im not saying he’s cheating, we dont really have proof on that, bs Im saying that it looks like he’s kind of using you. Being all sweet when he wants to be and being an ass when he wants to be. If someone loves you they would never even think to hurt you, 7ata not even think about it! Im sorry but from what youve told me I dont like the guy. He has no respect for you, and he’s beneath you. You can do so much better. I cant tell you what to do, this is your life and your heart. But if I were you, id take time and think. Id think about how the future would be with him. What situations we’d come across, and stuff like that.
He is messing with your emotions. Be with someone you DONT have to complain about. Someone who gives you security. This guy *laughs* sorry bs.. he’s not the right guy for you. I really do hope you make the right decision. I hope this helps :)
If you need anything else, lemme know ;**

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We were on the phone one night and all of a sudden a fight began. I honestly dont remember what we were fighting about since it was such a long time ago. All I remember is me yelling at him, he made me so angry. I remember sitting on the head of the bed just grasping onto the bed sheets. Any tighter and i would have torn it.

Here’s what I remember…



5aled: Uffff 5ala9 ya Dina !!!!! Wallahi 7atta my ex was never like you !!!!!



His ex was never like me? What exactley did he mean by that?

I’ll tell you what he ment. He ment that his ex was better in situations like these. Basicly he’s saying that she was better in a way.. it hurt me. Y3ni why bring her up? Why? Shm3na?



Me: NA3AM ?!

5aled: … Im sorry wallah Im sorry I never ment to say that.. Doody walla Im sorry.

Me: Oh your sorry huh ? Never ment it to come out?

5aled: 7beebty inti wallah I would never mean to hurt you…

Me: Well you did… and the fact that you were thinking of her while we were arguing hurts even more. How could you still be thinking about her? Why the hell would she be in your mind right now ?

5aled: I dont know wallah I dont know …. please Im so sorry forgive me 7beebty.. I feel really bad !

Me: YOU FEEL BAD !!! YOU!!!!

5aled: Your right, Im sorry. Just please forgive me.

Me: I dunno 5aled…. I wanna hang up. Lets just call it a night.

5aled: La Doody please stay!

Me: Stay for what? Tell me for what? I have nothing more to say to you right now. We’ll talk tommorow. Right now I feel so much anger that I actualy wanna strangle you!

5aled: Afa you would do that to me?

Me: 5ALED ABADAN MO WA8TIK AND YES I WOULD DO THAT TO YOU !



Why bring up his ex? I mean why? How could she pop into his head like that while we were arguing? What was he thinking? “oh how “” never used to be like this.. she used to be like blah blah” That was exactley what he ment when he told me those words.

He was comparing us! I was being compared to his galelat adab ex girlfriend! How could he just not think and say something like that to me?

He really hurt me! I cried so much that night.

He wouldnt let me hang up. I really wanted to just shut the phone in his face but Im not that kind of person. He hates it when people shut the phone in his face. So I just stayed on and listend to everything he had to say. I wanted this night to end so bad, so what did I do?

I switched to happy and told him that I forgave him. I said whatever I had to say just to get him to hang up the phone. Until this day I remember it so well. Until this day my anger still lives.

That was our first huge fight.

But it wasnt how I wanted it to go. Im not saying I like planning fights or anything. But wasnt this supposed to be saved for like I dunno, the 10th fight? This was our first fight! Agh! Why couldnt we have fought about something a little first grade like crayons or something? :”(



Now please forgive me my amazing readers but I’m not really feeling it today.. Im in such a bad mood. I feel so numb. Its been a while now, whenever I read anything dealing with love or romance, or even see it I feel nacious and just wanna throw up. I dont know…

Mdri wallah wsh feeni ;s

Tommorow I’ll post inshallah.

I hope you all had a wonderful Eid with your families. :)

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3eeeeeeddddkuuuuum imbaraaaaakkkkkk!!!!3asakum min il 3aydeen il fayzeenok a5ir mo’3amarat LA ilyoum so ray7een bait 3awash and i see mr. Hubby ga3id yithba7 5irfaanDONT ASK min wain oo shloonoo 7amani i9ari5 5awooooofff oo yarkith wara so shlon 3eedku…

3eedkum mbarak everyone, I’m sorry I haven’t been updating for a while, it seems like I have no clue where this story is going, so I thought that if I ignored it for a few days something might pop up into my brain, but so far I’ve got nothing.. let’s h…

Kl sana w enti 6yba :)

That going to out to each and every one of you ;**

Have an amazing 3eid !

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Two weeks later he was here. He was finaly here. I was finaly going to see him. To hug him. To hold his hand. I just couldnt wait!

We planned everything. We were gonna meet at a Cafe called Senses. You remember it right? The cafe where I first saw Fai9al ;s

I never told him it’s where me and him went on our first date, the reason I didnt though was because I wanted to make new memories there.

Before I left the house I went and told my mom that I was all ready to go, and strangly she didnt give me a curfew. I was happy, she trusted me completly.

I was nervouse the whole ride over. See when I’m nervous my heart races so fast that it skips a beat. I am not joking, it seriously does.

An hour before meeting him I went and had my hair done. Not something too wow, I just blow dryed my hair. My makeup was natural, I never apply too much. I stuck with mascara and lipgloss. I have to say I looked super cute.

I walked into the cafe and made my way up the stairs. Remember those in wall tables? Thats where he sat waiting for me.

I was so scared so nervous… so EVERYTHING!! I mean this was the first time I’ve felt this way about anyone. I didnt wanna screw anything up. I stopped a few inches away before he could see me, took a deep breath and sat down.



Me: Hey

5aled: Ahlain

Me: Yeah..

5aled: Kefik ?

Me: Mm hmm…

5aled: Why are you shy ?

Me: Im not

5aled: Really ? Well then why are you sitting all the way at the edge of the table?

Me: …..

5aled: Ok….



Y7lelo he reached his hands out and pulled me close to him until our bodies touched. I got goosbumps the minute he touched me. My heart started racing all over again! I started to blush.



5aled: There thats better.

Me: So wheres my present ?



My sweet 16 had already passed so did his 18th birthday. I have to tell you about it. My cousin praticly sabotaged it… well she tried to. But I would never let anyone ruin it for me. So I just danced the night away and ended up having one of the best nights of my life.

I dont know what I ever did to 3aysha, remember her? My cousin that I was so close with. I told you I would tell you more about her later on.

Anyways it was a masquerade party. I was “little miss vixen” aghh I looked so hot !!! My hair was curled up and my makeup was so aghhh I cant even explain how amazing it was!!

Moving on.. I keep saying those words alot latley huh ?

So 3aysha didnt know any of my friends except maybe one or two so I invited two of her closest friends so that she doesnt feel awkward or anything. Sweet of me right ?

Everyone was dressed according to the theme, everyone that is except for 3aysha and her two friends. They walked in all slouchy with their fake smiles. They handed me my presents with absolute coldness. I ignored that, it was my night after all and I was not gonna let anyone bring me down.

The whole time they were sitting slouching down on the chair. They didnt even bother to get up and dance for a couple of minutes. Neither did they talk to me. I tried getting them to dance but they said that they were not int he mood and too tired. I mean what kind of people do that? So so SO rude! You know I was the one that threw 3aysha her surprise sweet 16 dinner ?? I was the one that bought this huge cake. I was the one that made reservations and actualy fought with the manager to get a VIP table! I did all this for my favorite cousin whom I love. And what does she do? Just slouch down on the chair like a child. I was furious!

After that night she never spoke to me. I had no idea what I did wrong? What happend? She was being selfish and cruel !

You’ll get to know more about what happend between us later. Let’s get back to me and 5aled now :D



Me: So wheres my present ?

5aled: Right here.

Me: Gimme!

5aled: No.

Me: 5ALED!



I tried to grab the present beside him but he just kept pushing me back.



5aled: Hadi hadi ya bnt !

Me: Hmmf !

5aled: La .. la tz3aleen.

Me: Too late z3lt.

5aled: 7beebty inti.. here.

Me: Hehe



I opened it and found a necklace. It had these three hearts. A big one then a medium one then a teeny tiny baby one. DIAMONDS! Agh I was so happy… not what I expected or kinda wanted bs still it was from him so I loved it.

He then opened his present. I got him a LV black leather wallet. It was gorgous! Men mostly have two options for wallets. Its either LV or Gucci. I for one hate Gucci and everything about it. I find that LV has better stuff for men.



5aled: You happy now ?

Me: Very.

5aled: Hatha aham shay..

Me: Umm are we gonna order or what ?

5aled: Anything you want.

Me: Im not really that hungry ((I was actualy REALLY starving)) so why dont we just order dessert or something.

5aled: Ok what do you have in mind ?

Me: Mmmmm chcolate souffle.

5aled: Oh…

Me: Whats wrong ?

5aled: It’s just that… I dont like chocolate.

Me: WHAT ?!!!!!!!!

5aled: Shhhh lower your voice.

Me: How the hell could you not like chocolate are you crazy !!

5aled: Its disgusting.

Me: WHAT!!!!!

5aled: Shhhhhhh your gonna get us kicked out !

Me: Sorry but were gonna have serious problems .

5aled: All cause of chocolate ?

Me: Yes all cause of chocolate !

5aled: 6yb how about this… I’ll try it. I wont promise you anything right now.. bs 3ashanik I’ll try to like it.

Me: Awwwww your so sweet.

5aled: And what do I get ?

Me: Ha?

5aled: We have to compromise …

Me: Yeah…… I dont think so.

5aled: I just did something for you so now you gotta do the same.

Me: Not necessarily.

5aled: Ooo your evil.

Me: Badri…

5aled: Oh so you know you are huh ?

Me: Angel by day, devil by night baby. ((then i gave him a wink and an evil smile))



Two hours later I left. I know my mom didnt give me a curfew bs still I had to show her some respect and not take advantage of her.

Once I was home I ran into the 9alah and told her everything! She was happy for me.

5aled didnt have a car here, he had one back in Riyadh. He usualy ships it when he’s in Jeddah but this time he didnt. Meaning his friend would have to pick him up. Meaning I would have to wait until his friends got bored of him and drop him home.

I missed him. I just wanted to talk to him, to hear his voice, I wanted it to be the last thing I hear before I sleep.

He finaly called me, at 12 am. Yeah it was kinda late but I didnt care. I waited!

I know we’ve just been dating for a short time but the way he made me feel… safe and loved. Wait.. did he love me? I dont wanna get my hopes up too high. It Seemed that everytime I do, I end up getting hurt. Slow down girl, slow down. Take a breath.

What I loved most was our late night phone calls. We would both cuddle into bed and talk. I loved that. The last thing we’d hear was eachothers voices.

What I loved even more was that sometimes when we’ve said goodnight and hung up, he’d call again to hear my voice one last time.

The night was perfect.

We had our hands interlocked the whole time. Every now and then he’d kiss it. His touch gave me butterflies.

He was still in the city for another week. We had all the time in the world. I already spoke to my mom asking her if I could see him every other day for the next week and she agreed. Y7lelha mama wallahi she was an angel. Being so understanding and letting me be free, with limits ofcourse.

But the next night.. me and 5aled had our first huge fight. He said something that really hurt me. Something he should have never said. Something that he should have never even thought about.

Something to do with his ex… :”’(




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Have an amazing 3eid my beautiful readers. I really hope to get more feeback from you. Very few are commenting. I know all of you read and like what you read but I would really like more feedback, it would really help booste me up and encourage me to write even better. I would glady appreciate that.

Allah y5alekom l ahlikom, have a wonderful day with them.

3ID MOBARAK ! :)

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A: 3eyounii, 7yaaati, babyy !!

i turn around and gave him the biggest smile ever! i knew i couldnt resist him! he is just to beautiful!!

N: 7yaatii enta;*

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Just being in his arms gave me butterflies, let alone his kissing me, la w on my neck !! which is my weak spot;$

He was so romantic he would do anything for me, when it was time for me to leave and meet up with khaltii in avenues, he didnt drop me off at the door and leave, no he looked for a parking spacee and walked behind me till i got to my table when he knew i would be safe how sweet right?

Anyways, i sat down w salamt 3ala everyone bl 6awla khaltii w her future husband w his sisters,

Khalti: so how was your friend enshalla you guys had fun;)

Najla: hehe eeh walla we did thanks etsalem 3alaich btw;p

(the rest of the table had no idea what we were talking about;p)

Khalti: zain ashwa el 7imdilla, allah esalemha

Beep Beep

Recieved
Marassii Ghorbitii;*
9:38 pm

Thank you for an amazing night 7abeebtii ;*

Sent
Marassi Ghorbitii;*
9:41pm

No sweetie thank you I had a great time with you;*
7abeebii im eating dinner now awal ma akhale9 ill msj u tc on ur way home;*

Recieved
Marassi Ghorbitii;*
9:43pm

Bl 3afya galbi ;*
Enshalla 7abeeebtii i will awal ma etkhale9een msj me ;* dont forget;(

AT LAST!!I’ve been waiting for this day since FOREVER! Happy Eid to all of you :)3eedkum Mbarak!w ta8abal allah 6a3atkumw kil 3am w intaw b 5eer :)w have fun and enjoy every single moment of this day and the upsoming non-school, non-working days ! :) …

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“Nhayan,” he called him.

He searched for him at the back of the house but didn’t find him. He looked for him everywhere until he found him sitting on the front steps of the house having a smoke.

“So, what’s going to happen next?” Nhayan asked him.

“I don’t know,” he closed his eyes as he rubbed his cold hands together.

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“Wake up,” she softly whispered into his ear.

“Babe, five more minutes,” he hugged her tightly and continued his sleep.

“Baby, you’re going to be late,” she kissed his forehead.

“I miss your kiss, you know that. I miss a lot of things about you,”

“I miss everything about you too, but I certainly won’t get to enjoy you when you’re sleeping and I’m staring at you, waiting for you to get up, yeah?”

“Come sleep with me then,” he pulled her closer to him as she got up.

“Hamad,” she said, irritatedly.

“Nouf, just shut up,” and he kissed her passionately, pulling her onto him.

The next hour they were dressed and having their morning breakfast. For once he felt that the house was alive, due to her presence. They had fresh waffles with maple syrup and their morning coffee.

He was leaning on the kitchen counter while she was pouring the coffee into the two mugs as he admired her gracefulness.

“What?” she giggled when she met his gaze.

“You,”

“Me?”

“Yes.”

Just as she was about to leave he scooped her up and carried her to his room. They walked down the hall and into his bedroom and they both got into bed and slept in each other’s arms.

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P.S. Sorry if it’s boring.

P.P.S. HEROINE! YOU BETTER POST SOON!

P.P.P.S. I’m sure you know that Mama Z opened up a new blog. If not, it’s zuzzypie.blogspot.com

P.P.P.P.S Love you all :*

I’m very very very very very sorry…bas i was too pressured w too tired w toooooooooooooooo busy :p w i have a list of things i have to say before u guyz read this post..
1) LOVE ;*: I LUV U WAAAYIIDD WAAYIIIDDD! W I MISS U ALOT! I dunno if ur reading this bas it3arfeen lama ur used to someone soo much? well i’m used on seeing u on blogger whenever i log in..a7is something is missing wallah ;* Thank u for everything..w i hope ur doing fine wherever u are :*****

2) Kiss;* mit thi7ikk 3ala ur comment :p a7is kil french teachers 5adaay ma yadroon wain allah ga6hum :p w ZAIN w Dazzy : I’M NOT DREAMING OF 7AMAAAD! WAAAIII333! AND IF I DO THEN ITS DEFINATELY A NIGHTMARE! i actually did dream of him that day :p W ONE MORE THING…I LOVE U BOTH SOOO MUCH

3) The thought of love w ACAgirl w laymoon w everyone else who commented thank u :*******

4) IKTISHAFT IKTISHAAAF 3AN 7AMAD…….i’ll tell u guyz later :p

This one is dedicated to…DAZZLIN :* THANK U FOR SUPPORTING ME :** Luv u

ENJOY :*******
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Mshary smiled while he looked at the number calling him..he excused himself and walked ahead of her…

IFFFFFFF!! YBI6 L CHABD! LAAISH 9AAYIR WAAYID MALEEEEEEEEEEEEE8!?? LAAAIIISSSHH 9AYRA MA ABLA3A! YA3NI ZAAID WLA MARRA SAWWAHA FEENI W7NA YAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAL! L7een mshary kbeer w rayyaal ya3ni..laaish chitheee?! tawwa zafni w ma36eeny speech a6wal mina! Huuuufff! ba3arif mino y7aachi! moo ohwa bi3arif kil shay ana asawii? w we’re not even officially engaged 3la golat Hala..me too lazim a3arif!

Jood Followed him…she wanted to know who is he talking to
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Zaid~

Ma raa7 a5aleech Ya JOod…ymkin i won’t get ur love..bas i won’t give up on our freindship…Bathbitlich ini ta’3ayyart..w bathbitlich ini a7ibich
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Waaainnaa?! ifff waainaa i can’t see him…waayiiidd za7maa! ybi6 L chabd hal Mshaary! shda3wa 3alaik ya3ni u can turn it off 7ag yom waa7id! ma raa7 y2aath–

Jood: aaayyy!

M7ammad: hehehe..

Waaiii33! killish mooo wagtaa!

Jood: …….

M7ammad: asiiff..wallaah asiiff ma shftich…hehhee..

Jood: 7a9aal 5aair…uuhhhh 3aadi as2ilik su2aal?

M7mmaad: *cough* hehe *cough* s2laay…hehe

Jood: shithaa7ik?

M7ammad: laaa bas ath7ak 3al 9idaf ..thani marra ad3imich hahaha..jana 9aa7?

ooo 9ijj! hatha ma yadriii..

Jood: haa? ee..la 8a9di Jood…

M7ammad: Jood? *confused* ’3areeba i thought ismich Jana…

Jood:*looking for Mshary with her eyes* aha…

M7ammad: itdawreen a7ad?

Jood: umm…eee ma shft wa7id kuwaiti labis blue polo ?

M7ammad: ee shftaa…. illi kaan yet7acha bel telephone?

Jood: EEE!WAAAIN RAA7!?

shfeeha chithee mishta66aa..laykoon rifeejhaa? laughing sarcastically* ashkaara chithee ba3ad? moo mista7ya… wana 3abali inha 5osh wa7da…

M7ammad: maadrii…

Jood: huuffff! *disappointed* inzaain uhh…ma sim3at mino kaan y7achi?

M7ammad: *smirk* yhimmich?

Jood: ee yhimni! plz M7ammad goollii mino kaan y7aachi!? aw moo mino bas shino sim3ata ygool?!

M7ammad: awwal tjawbeeny mino hatha?

iffff! waayyy would it kill u if u just answer me!

Jood: *deep breath* He’s my fiance…

thalamt.ha! 6alaa3 5a6eeebhaa…shagoollaahaa L7een?





M7ammad: *deep breath* madri wallaah shgaal bas kaan ygoool 7abeebtii asiifff barid 3ugub chaam yomm…shay chithee…

Jood: *gasp* SHINO?!

M7ammad: shfeech me5tar3aa?

Jood: M7ammad int min 9ijjik?!

she looked at him impatiently waiting for him to give her an answer..tears started to form in her eyes…












M7ammad: KAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAK!

Jood: *confused* shfeek? laaish teth7aak?!

M7ammaad: haha…laa bas..hahaha…6ala3taay 9aai..hahaa…9aaida!

Jood: *still confused* 9aidaa?

M7ammad: bsir3a yngaa9 3alaich wallaah…..knt a6africh..ma kaan y7achi wa7da..kan y7achy rifeejaa..hahahahaaa

Jood: WAAAYYYY M7AMMAAD! KILLISH MA YTHA7IK! CHITHEE A7AD YL3AAB BA39AAB L NAAS?!

M7ammad: hahaa…shnsawwi ba3ad…*wink* yallaah bye ya 7lwaa..

Jood:* furious*…….

he winked and walked away…while she stood there burning in her place..she cursed herself for thinking that Mshary would cheat on her…ofcourse he wouldn’t..she trust him…right?

I CAN SERIOUSLY KILL THAT PERSON RIGHT NOW! WAAAIIII33333333333! *imitating his voice* bye ya 7lwa…iffff … maleeeeeeeeeeeeeeee8! maleee88 maleee88 maaleeeeeeeeeeee8! killish ma 7abbaaita! madri shlon zaaid rifeejaa…o he made me doubt Mshaary! GOD i feel like a bitch for doubting him akeed he won’t cheat on me…its Mshary..he said he won;t leave me for nohing..plus he came to the states just to see me…he won’t be cheating 9a7?

Mshary: aahhh….joody asiif 6awwalt 3alaaich .. yallah mishaaina?

Jood: ohh Mshary… yallaaah *smile*
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THE END! SORRY ITS SHORT WALLAH WALLAH SORRY! tawni ashtiri hdoom 3eed believe it or not i just came back from shopping :p w hatha illi Allah gaddarni 3alaaih :p NO CLIFF HANGER SEE! BAS DON\T WORRY I PROMISE NEXT POST FEE A VERY LOVELY CLIFF HANGER! (6) MUHAHAHHAA…..www shbi9eeeeeeeeeer?? tadrooon? laa? okaaay :p agooool? la maani gayla fakraaw :p BTW… M7ammad moo 5arboo6i character :p he is important just like Shaheen ;) ull have to wait to see why though :D

LUV U :**********

Hello :)I hope everyone did well in their exams!W sorry for the late post :P3eedkum Mbarak Mu8adaman :)This post is dedicated to Um 3abdallah.. “fee the word you can’t pronounce :P”w Fa6oom.. “I miss youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!!”w to all my friends and lovely …

Hello :)I hope everyone did well in their exams!W sorry for the late post :P3eedkum Mbarak Mu8adaman :)This post is dedicated to Um 3abdallah.. “fee the word you can’t pronounce :P”w Fa6oom.. “I miss youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!!”w to all my friends and lovely …

An extra long post for my Pretties. Love you all ;**

Elyoum youm 3arafa.. Allah yqabel do3a2kom.

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On May 11… when everything changed…

It was late at night and I couldn’t sleep. 5aled was all over my mind. He was all I thought about. Since the day he asked me to be “his” I couldnt stop rewinding what he said…

I want you to be mine… my girlfriend… will you ?

He said it in the most softest cutest voice.

So yeah ever since that day I could not stop thinking about it. Yeah I did brush it off my shoulder but it just kept coming back. AGHH!!! I dont know whats wrong with me ;s

Anyways on May 11 it was like 2 am.. I couldnt sleep. My mom was awake and without even feeling my body I started to move.

You know when your about to do something, when your body takes controle and in your mind you just going “hey whoah what the hell ok umm where am I going oh god no Im not gonna do that” ?

Well thats how I felt.

I walked into the 9alah and sat across from my mom.

She imediatley asked me what was wrong. I didnt even say a word and she just knew! Thats my mom, she knows me that well.

Mama: 7beebty fee shay ?

Me: Ummmm…

Mama: *sigh* Alright yallah t3ali jambi.. let it out.

Me: It involvs a guy.

Mama: Aha… and ?

Me: Well nothing’s happened 6b3an cause I told him I couldnt go behind your back again.

Mama: But you are being friends with him behind my back..

Me: Mama wallah I’m sorry please dont make me feel bad. I feel it enough as it is!

Mama: 6yb Im sorry.

Me: So we’ve been freinds.. actually good friends for a while now and a few weeks ago he asked me to be “his” bs I turned him down 6b3an.

Mama: So what are you asking me now ?

Me: Im asking you to give me the permission to talk to him.

Mama: Bs your already talking to him, even before you talked to me. So why my permission now ?

Me: Mamaaaaaaaaaaaa wallah Im sorry please!!!


I started to stutter and cry.

Mama: 6yb al7een why are you crying ?

Me: Cause Im so sorry !


She leaned over and pulled me close to her and hugged me tight.


Mama: Does he make you happy ?

Me: Very.

Mama: Is he a good man ?

Me: To me yes.

Mama: Do you love him ?

Me: I dont know if Im there yet but as for now.. he’s near my heart.

Mama: Not inside it ?

Me: Not yet.

Mama: 7beebty, if the guy makes you cry like this then go be with him. Just be careful.

Me: Mama wallah? So I have your permission to be with him ?????

Mama: Haha e 7beebty yallah go call him,

Me: Wallah inik a7la um fl 3alam!! Allah la y7remni mnk ya a’3la min el nas !!! A7bkkkkk !!

I gave her a huge hug and ran straight to my room.

I grabbed my phone and dialed his number!

HIS PHONE WAS SWTICHED OFF !!! :”””(

I started to tear up again. I kept trying over a thousand times but no luck. I was so down. I knew he’d be asleep by this time and I really wanted to say yes yes yes ask me again the second he picked. I was so excited. He would have jumped out of bed hearing me say those words awal ma rad!

I went back to the 9alah and told my mom what happend and she hugged me. She told me to go wash my face and sleep. Tommorow morning I would give him the news. Sm3t kalamha w da5alt anam.

I woke up at 7:30 the next day and grabbed my phone which was ont the pillow next to me. I didnt want my phone anywhere but near me.

I dialed his number and THANK GOD it wasnt switched off!!

He answered after the second ring. Awwwwwwwwwwwwww ;***

5aled: Aloo?

Me: 5ALED !!

5aled: Hala.

Me: ASK ME AGAIN !

5aled: Ask what again ?

Me: Dont embaress me yallah you know exactley what I mean !

5aled: L2 I wanna hear it from you haha.

Me: 5aleeeeeeed !

5aled: 6yb 6yb. Will you be mine ?

Me: YES YES YES !!!

5aled: Y7belik !!!!! So what made you change your mind ?

Me: Well –

5aled: Uh doody class just started I really gotta go .

Me: NO YOU WILL STAY WITH ME SHWAY !!

5aled: 7ather 6al 3mrik.

Me: E adab !

5aled: So tell me…

Me: I went to my mom last night and told her everything. She gave me permission.

5aled: Y7lelha umik.

Me: E wallah ya7athy feeha. Bs tra I called you yesterday awal me 8alatli 6yb bs your phone was switched off !!!

5aled: E wallah Im sorry.

Me: From now on you will make sure its fully charged 24/7 and buy a charger for the car.

5aled: 7ather min 3yooni el thentain. Tmreen 3ala shay thany ?

Me: That’ll do for now.

5aled: Almhm I really gotta go the teacher is giving me a look and I think Im dead.

Me: Hahah Allah y3eenik. Ok bs call me the minute you get out of school!

5aled: Inshallah. Yallah bye 7beebty.


Wait wait.. hoooooooooold on a minute! Did he just call me 7beebty?! He did he really did !!! Ana 7beebto ? Awwwww yallah when will these 7 hours and a half end so he can call me?? 7beebto aghhhhh I miss him already !!

Finaly the hours past and he called me straight after school. I picked up after HALF of the first ring. Hehe..

5aled: Hala bl zain.. bl zain kilah!

Me: Hehe ahlain.

5aled: Kefik doody? How was school ?

Me: I had an exam today so that pretty much sucked.

5aled: Yallah 3adi inshallah you did fine.

Me: Inshallah.

5aled: I missed you.

Me: I MISSED YOU TOO !!


YA BINT!! KEEP IT TOGETHER. ALLAH YEFASHLIK!!


5aled: A55 bs mita bshoofik ?

Me: Yeah when are you coming anyways ?

5aled: In the next break.

Me: Mita y3ni ?

5aled: Three weeks.

Me: Im gonna see you right?

5aled: La t9dgy Im just gonna stay one week hanging out with family and friends and ignore you.

Me: Not funny.

5aled: Yeah I know.

Me: Dont worry you’ll learn from the master.

5aled: Mashallah wathqa ba3ad.

Me: E 6b3an !


We talked for about an hour but then had to hang up cause he has tutors from 4 till 7.

I would have to wait four hours before talking to him again. Once I hung up the phone I started missing him right away. What was wrong with me? I never used to be like this. This isnt me. What has this guy done to me?

I tried as much as I could to occupy my time. I’m a lover of DVD’s and Im not over exhajurating here but I have my very own Virgin Megastor in my room. Two glass cabinates, one filled with series and the other filled with movies. Now that I think of it, I really do need to get a third one. Theres just so many!!

I swear whenever my friends would come to see me, the minute they walk into my room they dont even say hi, they just walk straigh up to Virgin.

Once my friend walked in and bam it was right infront of her. And all she said was “oh baby oh baby” in the most seductive voice. I laughed like crazy.

At the moment I’m watching 13 series. I know I know.. goolo mashallah :)

Dont ask how cause even I cant understand it. I actualy dont forget anything. Whenever a new season comes out I never have to watch the last minutes of the the previous season cause I have it all memorised. Ma ansa wla wla wla shay!! Im keeping up with them all without a minute of confusion.

And Im not naming them by which I like the most. Their in random order.


1. Desperate Houswives

2. Mercy ((which is a better medical drama then Grey’s will ever be. No offence to those who love Grey’s))

3. Dollhouse ((recommended))

4. The Vampire Diaries

5. True Blood ((recommended asap))

6. One Tree Hill

7. Brother and Sisters ((recommended.. really amazing))

8. Lost

9. Ghost Whisperer ((I love jennier love hewitt

10. Gossip Girl

11. Private Practice

12. Cougar Town

13. Heroes



Anyways lets get back.

The hours past and he called me.

During our time apart :p I wrote a list.



Me: Listen I wrote a list.

5aled: Huh ?

Me: A list of things your gonna have to put up with. I dont want there to be any surprises in the future so Im gonna lay it all out on the table now.


(( I actualy still have the list I read to him. I stumbled onto it suddenly while I was looking for something))


5aled: Ok lay it on me.

Me: Ok here it goes. One. Im very moody. I may fj2a curse at you then smile easy again. ((no i dont have bi-polar disease)) Two. I talk alot like really alot. I tend to blab so much that it may want you to jump off the London bridge. Get used to it. Three. I like the way I am. I will not change for you or for anyone. This is me Im a package either take it or leave it. If you dont like something your just gonna have to get used to it. Four. Im very neat and tidy. If I see one thing out of plcae I will go insane and just have to fix it. 3ala gool kl a7ad, Im Monica Geller. Five. No one gets to tell me what to wear. Yeah your a guy and all and you guys have a problem if your girl wears sleevless in public. But let me tell you something. There are many diffirent styles of sleevless. El7mdelah umi rabatni zain so I know what Im doing and what Im wearing. Your just gonna have to turst me and shut up. Thats all I have so far. Any updates I’ll let you know. Understood ?

5aled: …….

Me: 5ALED !

5aled: Yeah sorry I’m still taking it all in.

Me: Good. Take as much time as you need cause I ment what I said and its not gonna change. So now do you still want me ?

5aled: Doody the first time I saw you, when you smiled at me, that smile had me. From that moment I knew I wanted you to be mine. That smile… the most cutest beautiful smile Ive ever seen.

Me: Hehe ok stop.

5aled: What are you shy now ?

Me: Maybe..

5aled: Well my little shy princess I have to go.

Me: WHAT? WHY IS IT ALWAYS YOU WHO HANGS UP GIVE ME A CHANCE Y3NI !

5aled: Wallah 7beebty I have to go. My family is sitting down for dinner now. Aw3adik 3ala6ool after I eat I’ll call you.

Me: Promise ?

5aled: Pinky promise.

Me: How can you pinky promise?

5aled: Why do you always have to hold onto the tiniest little things ?

Me: Toshay… (however you spell it)

5aled: Yallah 7beebty talk to you soon.

Me: Bye.


Awwwww isnt he adorable.. He called me 7beebty again! Aghh feek ya 5aled. You give me vertigo.

House of mirrors, I see your face
Come nearer, it’s so hot in this place I can’t hear you
I can’t breathe when you touch me
I drown and I drown and I drown

I feel like Alice falling down through the hole
Can’t stop this, going out of control
But I like it, in a freefall
That keeps going up, going up, going up

I’m so high from this love, I don’t wanna look down
The room starts to sway every time you’re around
Like the teacups at Disney, you’re making me dizzy
You give me vertigo

When I jump on the table, I spin like a dreidle
Hold on to me baby, I feel so unstable
If I’d try to drive, I’d get a DUI
You give me vertigo

( Jordin Sparks – Vertigo )

el lotion tidahenaw feeh 3ade.. bs the cream for ur feet yaaa salaaaammm !!! w reeee7ta babies ;p beautiful babies:Pta7iyaaaaaaaaaty;*

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