She is downstairs!She is downstairs right now!Ya3ny if I scream she can hear me!I am literally shivering right now!We are in the same house!But of course she didn’t come to my room..and she won’t..and YES.. I am talking about my best friend here..What …

Three weeks later I called him.

I started missing him again.

I started picturing my future without him. I couldnt…

I mean he knew me inside out. He accepted all my flaws. He accepted my past. He loved me os much and showed it e4ach and every day. Some guys dont do that. He made me laugh and blush each and every day that we were together.

He’s the romantic kind. Always surprising me when I least expected it. Either by his words or by taking action.

I kept thinking what if I cant find someone who treats me the way he did? I knew that if I was with anybody else I would compare him to 5aled my entire life. So what did I do? I went back to the start, to my mom. I didnt wanna call 5aled without her knowing. I never do anything behind my mothers back, never. I cant even if I tried. Thats how close we were.

So I went up to her and told her what I’ve been thinking about the past couple of days and ofcourse I bawled like a baby. She gave me permission and I called him.

Me: Hey you…

5aled: Dina ?

Me: Yeah who’d you think it was ?

5aled: I didnt expect this..

Me: I didnt expect it either. So how are you.

5aled: Good you ?

Me: Good.. ummm happy birthday.

5aled: That was 2 weeks ago.

Me: I know but —

5aled: I know..

Me: Yeah so how’s life ?

5aled: Making it through..

Me: I miss you you know ?

5aled: I miss you too…

Me: Listen I’ve been thinking latley… We could have fixed all of this right? I mean I’ve spent the last few days picturing my life without you and I cant.

5aled: Yeah we could have fixed it I guess… but you didnt want to.

Me: Dont say that. Ofcourse I wanted to but I just… I dont know, I just couldnt take all the drama and pressure anymore. Mn jd it was killing me. It was just too much for both of us.

5aled: 6yb so what do you wanna do ?

Me: This is gonna sound totaly out of the blue but Ive been thinking about it for a while now.. I think you should ask for me.

5aled: You mean your hand in marriage ?

Me: Yeah…

5aled: Isnt it a little two early ? I mean you still didnt graduate high school ?

Me: We can have a long engagment, alot of people do it. We can have a two year engagment.

5aled: Ma a8dar ya Dina. My parents wont allow it and I for fact your mont either.

Me: I just wanna be with you.

5aled: So what are you saying… are we back together ?

Me: I dont know what we are…

5aled: You cant call me and do this to me. 7aram 3leeki.. you cant get my hopes up then break them down again. Its a simple question, are you in or out ?

Me: Listen I got to go. I’ll call you back.


What was I doing? I didnt even have a plan to approach him with. But there was one thing I did mean, well atleast I think I ment it. Marriage. I thought it would be the right thing to do. That way we would be official.

But I ended up breaking his heart again and kind of took back everything I said. I know it was such a horrible thing of me to do. When I think about it, I think it was just a moments thought. You know when your anxious about something and you do something about it. But then you regret ever doing it. Thats how I felt. I didnt think it all through. I acted without thinking.

Then like a couple of weeks before the summer in which we were going to spend in London :D I called him up AGAIN!

But this time for a whole other reason.

” Listen we’ve known eachother now for what? Almost 2 years? I dont wanna throw all that away and I know you dont either. I mean we know everything there is to know about eachother. And obviosuly by now feeling have disappeared. So why cant we just stay friends? I mean theres nothing wrong with ex’s being friends. What harm could there be? And I dont wanna lose someone who could be a very good friend. “


He agreed and so our friendship began. Our feeling were mutual, no feelings what so ever. I couldnt even feel any sparks. It was all gone. I was relieved, I actualy thought this was going to be awkward but it turned out to be nice.

Summer had finaly arrived and we were off to London for a month. I was so excited!! I couldnt wait. Since last year we only got to stay four days due to my grandfathers illness.. Not that I regret any of it. But I was so thrilled to be spending a month there.

You see I lived in london for 4 years when I was young, my dad had a job there for a while before we moved back to Kuwait. For those of you that still dont know, yes I’m from Kuwait :)

Every night when I’d come back home 5aled would call me and we’d stay up talking for five hours. Then I realized I started missing “us”. So day by day my feelings from him started coming back. I didnt really understand what was going on with me, so I put this little thought on hold.

But you see I couldnt put it on hold. It kept digging in deeper and deeper into my head. But I was scared to do anything about it since we both come from diffrent tribes. Ahlo mn makah w ana ahli najdi. I honestly dont know how to explain it except that we were from diffirent tribes. And thats sometimes forwned upon. I was scared to tell my mom.

I called 5aled one night in heavy tears telling him how much I miss him and wanna be with him. I told him that Ive fallen in love with him all over again. And then I told him about the tribes issue and he said it was ok, that we were gonna figuire it all out.

I didnt wanna talk to my mom about it while we were in London, I wanted to wait until we got back home.

My mom knew that me and 5aled were talking again but just as friends.

Rama’6an was finaly here and I was happy. I loved Rama’6an. All my cousins from Riyadh would come and it would be the whole family together. Rama’6an is the most holiday I look forward to.

After dinner at around 10 pm we would all stay back and drink tea and have some cake in the 5aimah. Our 5aimah was gorgous. Gold and beige from the inside. Beautiful!

So one night after dinner were all sitting down drinking our tea. Me, my mom, my aunt, my cousin, and my cousins new bride.

The topic of marriage came up…

5alty: E bs lazim you marry someone who’s at your level.

Me: Sam7eny 5alty bs mo shar6.

5alty: Kaif ?

Me: Well if you love someone thats all the matters. He doesnt have to be from the same tribe. Aham shay el 3eila, if he had a good family and loves me thats all the matters. I mean would you rather be with someone you love or someone your forced to love through an arranged marriage ? It all comes down to love.

5alty: E bs shofy half the family had arranged marriages and look how well they turned out.

Me: Yeah but that doesnt mean I have to have an arranged marriage also. I mean this is my life and I get to choose my husband. I mean not the whole family have to approve. Im the one whos gonna marry him and be with him not you guys.

5alty: So your saying not everyone has to approve.

Me: Yeah. I mean aham shay my mom and dad w bs. Not the the whole family from both sides. Its going ot be my marriage and my future not yours. And I will not allow anyone to take me away from the man I love.


My aunt ofcourse didnt know about 5aled. We were just having a small polite conversation. Thsi wasnt an argument or anything.

Laer that night I was sitting with my mom in the 9alah when she opend up about what happend earlier in the 5aimah. She told me she knew what was truly hidden behind those words. I told her that I ment every word I said, that I wouldnt allow anyone to take away my happiness. She agreed with me one hundred percent. She told me that the yes decision will be made my her and my dad. No one would get in the way of my happiness. She promised me that she will stand by me with whatever I choose to do.

I was relieved. Now I knew this ment she’s given me the green light to be with 5aled in the future, law Allah kateb inshallah.

I was so happy! I called 5aled 3ala6ool.

He was over the moon.

And other great news… he was coming to Jeddah!! :D

Was this my lucky day or what ?

My man was coming to see me in a few days.

But then like two days later he told me things backfired and that theres a chance he wouldnt be able to make it.

I cried at first begging him to come and that I need to see him. But then I took a second and thought really hard. This guy was up to something. Something I wouldnt let him fool me with again.

Oh it was on. He wants to play? Oh I’ll play.

Only this time, I get the last laugh.

Since all of you are confused, here’s the character key…

Guy with the Economist and suitcase in hand AKA Hamad: Main character.

Nouf: Hamad’s fiancée.

Nhayan: Hamad’s brother.

Girl that Hamad spilled his coffee over her papers in Part 1 AKA girl Nhayan met with: Nhayan’s best friend.

‘He’ as in guy who checked in: You’ll have to figure that out!

P.S. El mar7oom that I mentioned is her (Nhayan’s best friend) brother.

Clear?

Love you all.

ليس الفتى من قال كان أبي
و انما الفتى من قا ها أنا ذا
I LOVE HAL BAAIT! Its soo truee….Itha wa7id ib yathbit roo7a aw sha59eeta fa rajaa2aann la ytifalsaf ib a9la w fa9la aw ina ubooy kaan ysawwi chithee…ithbit roo7ik w sha59eetik ib sum3itik w ib majhoodik…ma y9eer na7kum 3ala L naas ib a9ilhum w fa9ilhum winni3im ib kil L 3waayil…bas ballah wa7id min 3ayla waayid high moo zain..w L thany w 3ayla anzal shway..a5laa8 w tarbiyya w 5osh wa7id…in7ib L awwal laish ina min L 3ayla L flaniyyaa? La 6ab3aan! I’m soo soryy to say this..bas ba3th L naas illi bil kuwait waayid 3indihum racisim min na7yat a9il w fa9il w kuwaitiyya aw moo kuwaitiyya..my friend moo kuwaitiyya galatli..Glittery i was standing in line w illi waray itgoolli fee nas moo mitrabyeen fee nas ma ysti7oon 3la wyoohim yayeen deeratna w ham ya5thoon doorna…Ya3ni shagool? seriously! moo la2ina i7na kuwaitiyeen nrfa3 5shoomna 3ala baji L naas….w bas mani imkamla cuz i know myself i’ll never stop :p mawthoo3 kaan waayiid im2azzimni :p….anywayzzz…..
I WROTE A POST! :O :O :O WAA7IIDDD THAALITH! U LOVE ME? Pshhh i know u do (a) :Pp

THIS ONE IS DEDICATED TO 7AMOOOOOOD! :p hehe..welcum to the family ;D

P.S. illi yabi dedication ygooli wana 7aathir :p

ENJOY:**

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Previously

Jood: Zaaid i can’t.. i get that ur sorry..w i get that u regret everything..i know that we were young at that time and u thought u were doing the right thing..bas no matter what Zaid *sniff* we can’t be together…though i love you…*gasp* bas we can– can’t…

she started crying…the thought of them not being together broke her heart…its true she still loves him..but what about Mshary? she won’t just leave him will she?He hugged her tight…he was trying to clam her down..

Zaid: Bas joody..bas la tabcheen…5alaa9…everything has a solution..

Jood: laaa *sniff* moo kil shay Zaaid..moo kil shay…*gasp*

Zaid: *wiping her tears* we’ll work it out i promise…

JOod: w *sniff*..Mshary?

He stepped back, held her face, and looked straight in her eyes..

Zaid: it7ibbeena?

Jood shifted her gaze to the person behind Zaid…she was trembling with fear….

Zaid: Joody shfeech?

Jood: *pointing her finger at the person* .. M-Mshaa–Mshary
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Zaid turned around to face him, expecting the worst..a fight? maybe..but whatever it is he was ready for it..ready to face him for Jood..but what he saw is something he never expected to see..he looked at Jood who was still shocked from the scene…he grabbed her arm and took her away..away from Mshary…

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M7ammad~

Ma taboon it3arfoon shgilt 7ag Amanda? .. hahaa..tw8a3t..ooo nisaait Shaheeen! kahu 3umra 6weel..la7tha shway..

Shaheen: ALOOOOOOOOO! WAAIINIIIK?

M7ammad: Agoollik ba3daain …

Shaheen: La wallaah? 5 digayig inta 3ndi FAAAHIIMMMM?!

M7ammad: hehehe…zaain zaaaiinn..kaani yaay..

6oooo6 6oooooooo6 6oooooooooooo6…

ohh intaw lail7een hnee? 3aadi 6awfaw..ana w shaheen killa chithee.. :p ….agoollikum ? ….inzaain 5alaa9 bagool :p

tathkiroon yom illi shft fee Jood w s2ilatny itha shft hatha illi isma…walaaaaiinn killa ansa isma..ee ee Mshaary? tathkiroon? chan agoolaha ina kan y7achy wa7da…ma chathabt..kan 9ij y7achy wa7da..bas lama shft.ha mi5tar3a w ibtabchi gtlaha ina y7achy rifeeja…tadroon ohwa laaish yaay Miami? moo 3ashaan Jood..*laughing sarcastically*…haha..i know every single girl in Miami..w knt 6ali3 marra ma3a L shabab wla ashoof Amanda…Galatli.. “Ohh..Mohd..there’s a cute kuwaiti guy called Mashary..we two are dating..do u know him?” .. awwal shay gtlaha la2..ba3dain chan astaw3ib..sa77abt minha 7achi..la la ma sa77abt ihya no3ha tgool min ghair la a7ad ys2alha..9aida wallaah :p .. 6ala3 ohwa nafsa Mshary 5a6eeb Jood..gtlaha ina he’s engaged w min hal 7achi…chan tgoolli “OMG! THAT FREAK! :O :O :O.. poor thingy Jood..Oh My god he’s such an ass..” ..moo gtlikum hablaa :p daggaait 3alaiha w gtlaha 3an L 5i66a..inha troo7 ma3a Mshary…w t5alli Jood itshoofhum…

thbi6at L 5i66aa?

Wallah madri….

Yallah wi9alt L garage…

asma3 naas tith7aak…”banat” .. akeed Haloo..la la bas hatha moo 9ot.ha..

He went inside the garage and saw Shaheen smiling..he looked Happy…Very Happy..

’3areeba? shfee ytibosam? tawwa im3a9ib ..

the giggles and laughs kept continuing…

M7ammad: Hala ib shaheen…haa mistanis?

Shaheen: hala ib bu Jasooom! hala ib 7abeebii….ee akeed mistanis… ;D

shfeeh hatha?

M7ammad: moo tawwik im3a9ib w 7altik 7alaa?

Shaheen: willi yshoof hal wayh ygdaar y3a99ib..*looking to his right side*


























M7ammad: *looking to Saheen’s right side*………Nooraa?!

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Zaid~

Zaid: Joody Imshaayy…

Jood: shloonn sawwaa feeni chithee?! SHLOON?

Zaid: 5alaa9 Jood insee! ma yestahal!

Jood: hdni Zaid..baroo7laa ..BAROO7LA!

Zaid: shbitsaween ya3ni..? Jood 5alaa9 shftay sh.sawwaa..moo zain itkalmeena wintaay chithee..!

Jood: Mali shi’3il….MA YSTI7I 3ALA WAYHAA!

Zaid: Jood la7thaa…JOOOOOOOD!

she went to Mshary..burning with rage..she didn’t know what to do to him…but she was determined to go…she saw him kissing a girl in public..w he’s engaged..even though she didn’t love him..but he’s her cousin..she trusted him..SHE BELIEVED HIM..and now he simply cheats on her…Zaid could’nt stop her..knowing how stubborn she is..he just let her go…ofcourse still being behind her…

Jood: Mshary?

Mshary: uhh…Jood? intay shyaybich hnee? uh…*nervous*

Jood: mino hathi?

Mshary: haa?! mino illi mino? intay shga3da tgooleen?

Jood: MSHARY RID 3ALAY! LA ITSAWI ROO7IK MA TADRI! MINO HATHI L SHAGRA ILLI KANAT TAMSHI MA3AK TAW MSA3?!

Mshary: Jood i can explain…wallaah i can explaain…

Jood: TA7LIF BA3AAD?! TA7LIFF! EXPLAAIN WHAT HAA? EXPLAIN U KISSING A GIRL BIL SHARI3? UR ENGAGED FOR GOD’S SAKE! WAAIN ILLI GALLI ANA TA3BAN W BARID L HOTEL? HAAAA? LAAISH ITCHATHIB 3ALAAY ? ANA SH.SAWWAAYTLIK?! RID 3ALAY MSHAARY ANA SH.SAWWAAYTLIK!?

Mshary: ……………………

Zaid: Jood yallah …

Jood: la7thaa shway Zaid..

Mshary: HUH..yaybaa hatha ma3ach ba3ad?

Jood: AT LEAST MOO ANA ILLI GA3DA BIL SHARI3 MA3A BANAT 8ALEELAAT ADAB!

Mshary: BAS! LA IT9AR5EEEN….YAYA IT9AR5EEN 3ALAY WNTAY AL3AAN MINI! MOO BAS ANA ILLI GA3ID MA3A BANAT..KAA 3ADLAAY NAFSICH AWWAAL!

Jood: *tearing up* shino?! anaaa?! ana illi a3addil nafsi awwal ya mshaary?! haaa?

She felt offended…a5yas shu3oor bil 3alam lama a7ad ygool inkum sawaitaw shay wntaw moo imsaweenaa..3araftaw L feeling?

Mshary: La tg3ideen itibachbichaain 3ndii..! laa w yaybita ma3ach ba3ad!

Zaid: I7TIRIM NAFSIK A7SANLIK!

Mshary: OHHHH! w itdafi3 3anha ba3ad! 9ij inik Ma tisti7i 3ala wayhik! lik 3aain itta7achaa haaa?!

Zaid was about to talk when Jood shouted..

Jood: MINO ILLI LA 3AAIN YT7ACHA? INT WLA OHWA? *Sniff* .. MADRI MINO ILLI GA3I–














*SLAAAPP*

before she continued her sentence mshary slapped her.he slapped her infront of everyone…..infront of Zaid..

Mshary: *breathing heavily* 3ashan it3arfeen shlon itkalmeeny marra thanya! FAHMA!

Zaid went to punch him, to slap him..to kill HIM! he was furious..but Jood didn’t let him..

Mshary left before they even left..he knew zaid won’t let this go..and he’s definately starting a fight..he was mad..he couldn’t understand what he just did…he felt..GUILTY..

Jood: *grabbing Zaid’s arm* lets go Zaid…

Zaid: hideeeni …

Jood: *sniff* zaaid 5alaa9 5alla yroo7…

zaid: *facing her* YMID EEDA 3ALAICH W A5ALEEH YROO77??!!

Jood: *gasp* zaaid please..*sniff* please zaaid..bas 5alaa9…

Zaid: *calming down* ufff….bas 5ala9 la tabcheen yallah nroo7…

He wrapped his arms around her shoulders and walked with her till they reached home..

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W 5ALLAA9 L POSSSTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <– ( LOOL Meemz tithakkartich :p) hehe..SHBI9EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEERRRR???!!! W MINO NOOOORAAAA???!! w SHISAWI MSHAARYY??! bifilloon l 5i6baa?! Hmm…*thinking*..ooo 9a7 i don't neef to think cuz i already know (6) MWA7A7A7A7A7A7A7A7AA7A7A7A :p hehee…

W comments? pleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeezz :p

LUV U :************

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I would like to thank you all for commenting its so exciting, I will try to post whenever I can finals are coming up soon then I am heading back to kuwait.Here is part 2 enjoy, let me know what you think.”mamaty”"na3am mama”I was sitting in the study r…

I would like to thank you all for commenting its so exciting, I will try to post whenever I can finals are coming up soon then I am heading back to kuwait.Here is part 2 enjoy, let me know what you think.”mamaty”"na3am mama”I was sitting in the study r…

I have a question? is anyone reading my story ya3neee i have no feedback fa please abee a3arif 3ashan i either continue as planned wila i hurry up with the events 3ashan a5ali9 il story o i stop writing !!fa please tell me what do u think;**

I just wanna thank all of you!
Mn jd your comments about my mom were the sweetest! You guys put a huge huge smile on my face! I love you all so much ! ;**

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Yes 2009 had hidden doors for us.

Doors we never thought we’d enter.

It all started in March, our constant non stop fighting. We fought every single day and if we were lucky, we’d get an off day of not speaking to eachother. I didnt know what was going on. It all seemed so perfect. I guess its true what they say… nothing in this world is perfect.

He got jelouse more and more each day. His sensitivity was starting to take controle over him. His rules were too demanding and I just couldnt stand for it. It was getting too much. He was pressuring me, my own parents dont even give me this much orders and rules. I felt trapped, like he put me on a corner.

I told him how I felt but all it would do is lead ot more fighting.

Im not saying I was perfect, I too had my bad side in all this.

According to him, ana 3aneda. And ok yeah fine ymkin a3anid from time to time bs mu dayman. No one ever complained ini 3aneeda other than him. Its the only explination he could ever give me. “inti 3aneda inti 3aneda”. 6yb ok etha ana 3aneda fine we got that, bs wsh ba3ad? Give me something to work with here!

And yeah I was stubborn. What girl isn’t ? It’s in our nature!

So you can all see where Im going with this?

IT WAS TOO MUCH!

I couldnt take it anymore so I asked for a break.

5aled: What do you mean a break ?

Me: I wanna take some time apart to think.

5aled: Think about what ?

Me: Thats the point, thinking. I dont know ya 5aled.. I just wanna be alone for a while.

5aled: For how long y3ni ?

Me: Mdri ymkin a week.

5aled: Aha…

Me: Yeah…

5aled: You know I love you right ?

Me: Yeah.. me too

5aled: So when does this break start ?

He said that in such a cold sarcastic way.

Me: I was hoping after I hung up..

5aled: Wow thats fast…

Me: The faster the more progress..

5aled: You think we need progress?

Me: Oh c’mon 5aled you know we do! Am I theonly one thats been alive these past couple of weeks? Were falling apart!!

5aled: 6yb ya Dina 6yb. Eli yeray7ik.

Me: So yallah I have to go.. bye.

5aled: Umm…

Me: Haa?

5aled: Dont you wanna say anything else ?

Me: No. I cant say it.

5aled: Bye.

Me: Bye.


That was so painful for me. I never expected it to get this bad for us. We had fights before, we took a few hours to think things through then figuired it all out. But I did what I thought was best and I was satisfied with my decision.

Three days later I called him.

Me: I dont know how to say this…

5aled: You said you needed a week.

Me: I guess I just needed three days.

5aled: 6yb esh feeh ?

Me: I thing we should break up..

5aled: What ?

Me: I dont think were doing so well. Its been so many weeks, were going through hell and we cant seem to fix it.

5aled: Dont you have faith in us? We can and we will fix this.

Me: I dont think we can.. 5aled wallah Im sorry but I just cant take this anymore. I dont wanna cry every night before I go to sleep and wake up depressed. Im only 16, I shouldnt be pressure this much. Im still a kid.

5aled: So this is it y3ni? 5ala9? Entahena?

Me: Yeah..

5aled: I cant bleieve this..

Me: Listen …

5aled: Na3am ?

Me: I want you to not let this bring you down please. Your capable of amazing things and I believe in you. I may not be there with you, but I’ll be thinking of you. Your off to college by the end of the year and I know you’ll do great. Iam so proud of you. And if another girl comes along I want you to take that chance. Love the girl. Treat her like a queen. I want you to be happy. Dont drown yourself. If you love me then move on and be happy.

I could hear him crying.

5aled: Dina ma a8dar.. Im in love with you. I cant imagine myself with anyone other than you. Please.. please dont do this. Dont break my heart.

Me: You think this isnt killing me? You think this is easy for me? Its not! But Im doing what I think is best.

5aled: So I cant even call from time to time to check up on you? We cant even be friends? Nothing?

Me: We both know that would be a bad idea.

5aled: Dina Al X …. I love you. No one can ever take your place.

Me: Someone will 5aled. Someone will.

5aled: So…

I started tearing up.

Me: So now were both gonna hang up and wash our faces and smile.

5aled: Mn jidik ?

Me: E Im serious.. life is too short.

5aled: Good bye Dina..

Me: Good bye 5aled… I love you.


That phone call haunted me for the rest of the days that came. I couldnt believe how strong I was, the way I pulled myself together and made that call. It was one of the hardest things I ever had to do.

Other than losing 5aled, I also lost 3bdulah.

I decided to not have any man in my life. I guess I wanted a fresh start. So I called him up, gave him a ten second talk. “listen alot of problems are happening and I just cant talk to you anymore, I hope you understand “. And he said ” I uderstand, whatever it is I hope you get through it “.

He didnt really show much emotion, he was kinda cold I guess. But I mean I guess I would be too if he fj2a called me up and said those words to me. But I had my reasons, he just didnt know them.

Two of my favorite men in the whole world were then gone in a blink of an eye.

It was hard, especialy with 5aled. I was depressed sitting at home for 2 weeks. My mom would be by my side the entire time. She was the only one that I could talk to really about how I was feeling. She did her best to try and make me forget him and move on.

At times I’d be happy and cheery but then Id suddenly remember him and break down all over again.

I would be in my pijamas and glasses all day until my mom forces me to go shower.

I know your all reading this thinking how could a guy do this to her?

Well he did. And Im not making any of this up. From the start I told you all that I would be very blunt and honest.

The most harderst day was our anniversary… May 11th.

My best friend Lulu asked me to come over to her place ont hat day. She didnt want me to be alone and breakd own again. She wanted me to forget about him. I was so afraid of this day. I didnt wanna be depressed. I was sick of it.

Remember when I said how music controled my emptions? Well it did on my way to Lulu’s house. I listend to sad love songs on my ipod the while ride over. I wanted to switch to a more cheerful song but I just couldnt. I wanted to listen to hearbreak and feel it all over again.

Once I was there, I started to smile and laugh again. I was my old self. But then in the middle of it all I broke down. Lulu was there by my side the whole time. She talked to me and made me realize that I’d done the right thing and that I will eventualy get over it. Her words cooled me down.

I eneded up having a really nice annaversary with Lulu.. ;p

Then three weeks after that.. I called him.

Missed you all Oh so much .. Dedicated to all of you Specially ZARH:* since your staying a little longer Inshallah Doom your inspired 3ashan you never leave-Nawarii .. This is 4 u cause im pretty sure your not gonna hate me this time by the end of the …

Ahlaaaaain!! 3indi email 7ag eley 3endihum ay so2al 3an ayam gabul. 7ag eley yabi yitwa9al ma3ay b3ad. Hatha uhwa el email; sham3at.al.jillas@live.com. Ou tislimoooon.

After fixing up his famous dessert and excusing himself from the two couples at dinner, he took his coat and walked out of the house to meet her. He walked to 857 Broadway in Union Square. When he got to Tisserie the smell of the fresh Venezuelan cocoa filled his nostrels as he scanned the place for her.

He found her sitting at the coffee table next to the window looking out of the other street. He walked over to her and sat opposite to her, remaining quiet as she was lost in thoughts. He studied her face. It had gotten thinner and the black circles under her eyes weren’t helping. That spark that was in her eyes wasn’t there anymore. Her lips weren’t curved upwards the way they used to be.He reached out for her cold hand.

“I’m here,”

A small smile formed on her face, she missed him. She missed the shoulder she had to cry on. She missed the love and care he used to radiate. She missed him, the brother she never had. The best friend who was always there for her is finally here.

“I miss you,”

“I miss you more,” he sat next to her as he side hugged her, “how’ve you been?” he asked her, dreading the answer to his question.

“I won’t lie to you and tell you that I’m completely normal, because I’m not. I miss him, Nhayan. I miss my baby, my love. I miss him. Everyday I wake up with hope that he’ll come back to me, trying to make myself smile again when at the end of the day I’m crying myself to sleep just because he hasn’tcome yet. I’m tired, Nhayan.”

He felt her voice get shaky when he pulled her in for a warm, caring hug.

“When will you stop?” he asked her.

“What do you mean when will I stop?”

“When will you stop waiting for him? He’s gone. Why are you doing this to yourself.”

“Nhayan, you don’t get this. I’ve been with him for the past three years or so and you simply want me to forget about him? That’s not an easy thing to do, to forget your loved one,” she felt hurt.

“If he really loved you he wouldn’t have left you, no?”

“Oh please, you’re not making this any easier,” she said, frustrated.

“That’s because you’re running away from reality. You’re scared. I don’t care if you’re ignoring the fact, but come on! Your mom is worried sick about, your sister, w law el mar7oom kan mawjood, he would’ve been here to help, but I’m doing that for him. That’s not the only reason. You’re like my small sister, I look out for you. I know whats best for you, and what you’re doing now is not healthy, don’t you understand?”

She turned her head and looked out the window as a single tear made it’s way down her cheek.

“Bs a7eba ya Nhayan, a7eba,” she broke down.

“Shhh, it’s ok babe, we’ll get through this together, I promise you,” he calmed her down.

Later that night he walked her back to her appartment and left for his hotel. His hands were in his side pockets and the cold was getting worse. Small snow flakes began to make their way down onto the surface.

He entered the hotel and straight away walked to the elevators, but little did Nhayan know that he was at the reception desk checking in.

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The next morning they were having breakfast at the local coffee shop.

“Nouf,”

“3youn Nouf,” she answered him.

“Let’s get married,”

Wow, that was out of the blue…she thought.

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Hahaha, enjoy the cliffhanger 7abaybe :*

P.S. DAZZY, I MISS YOU! Wainich? :(

P.P.S. Ignore the speeling mistakes, my spell check thingy isn’t working :S

P.P.P.S. Feel better soon Inshalla Zuzzy :*

Missed you all Oh so much .. Dedicated to all of you Specially ZARH:* since your staying a little longer Inshallah Doom your inspired 3ashan you never leave – Nawarii .. This is 4 u cause im pretty sure your not gonna hate me this time by the end of th…

It was the morning of my birthday and I honestly couldn’t care less. I woke up with barely enough energy for anyone. I saw a missed call from A7med but I just ignored it and went back to sleep. A few moments later I felt my phone vibrate and it…

ta’alaqat;pta7iyaaaty;*

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and let out a hearty
deep
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Such excitement from the one and only Arab Times.
This would make such an interesting short story.
“KUWAIT CITY, Nov 25: A drunken boyfriend of a Kuwaiti woman sustained injuries to his hand when the woman tried to hide him on the rooftop of her husband’s home in Meshrif, after the man announced he was coming home.
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there was a plump, red chicken
who scratched the ground
intently
with her golden corny feet,
raising some dust,
annoying others
with her scratchy habit.
what is that chicken looking for so intently?
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IT7IBBOOONYYYYYYYYYYYY??????????? WAAYY MIN ZIMAAN 3AN HAL QUESTION :p ams ketchup yshib laitaat lazer 3ala my room :) .. moo 9a7i hal 9baay wallaah…anyways..2 POSTS WARA BA3ATH :O :O :O SHFTAAW SHLOONNN?! 2 POSTS WARA BA3ATH?! :O
ma raa7 agrig waayiid..L yom i’ll just let u read :p

this one is dedicated to AL-ZAIN! ya rabbiii i luv her! ityannin hal insana..www! CHECK OUT HER BLOG..ITS A MUST READ..! www.zuzzypie.blogspot.com

7AWOORY! I JUST STARTED READING UR BLOG W 7ADDA 3AJEEB! I’ll comment as soon as i can :p w check her blog out nice ;) http://7awoory-ya-ba3adhom.blogspot.com/

P.S. Ma chayyakt my mistakes fa 6awfaw ;p

w bas :p

ENJOYY :********

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Calling Zayood…

M7ammad: aloo..hala ib Bu 7arooth..ba’3aitik shway…ZAID LAZIM ITYEE THAROORY! .. SHINO MA TGDAAR!?…AGOOLLIK THAROORY TA3AAAL !…Ma feeny shay…bas abeek ityee shway…ana bil supermarket illi yam L garage…yallah moo it6awwil na6rik…BSIR3A!

okaaayyy sawwaait L 5i66a L oola ba3daain? chinni bablish nafsi..la2ana madri shlon ba5alleehum y7achoon ba3ath :)..iffff…fakkir 7amoodd fakkir! LIGAIT.HA!

Calling Amanda...

M7ammad: Hi Amanda…I need a favor..

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hahaha! mission 2 is done…L7een L dor 3alay…

He took a deep breath and entered the supermarket..looked for Jood in his eyes..he smiled when he found her, and he stood right behind her…

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Jood~

Waaayyy yaa rabbii! kilshaay bil dnya 7atta L kakaaw 9aar 3la hannah montana…waaayy! ma thba7oonna feehaa? (5brat glittery L disneyya :p)

M7ammad: Jood?

*turning around to face him* shfee serious chithee?

JOod: na3am?

M7ammad: sim3eeny Zaain…ana adri inich ma it7ibeen Mshary, w adri ina waayid im2atheech..i can tell ina u too are just friends, i can see it in ur eyes. ur always distracted..w its only 3 times that i actually saw u..bas u always smile to urself..weird,to alot of people but not to me…*smile* tadreen laish? Because ur in luv..w i know how it feels when ur in love JOod..w ur not in luv ma3a Mshary…U luv Zaid..

Jood:…………..

WTH? how did he?…How does he know me so well? ..shdarraaah?

M7ammad: *smile* Jood there’s something i know…bas mabi agoollich iyyaah..3al a8al moo L7een…

JOod: ….*clearing her throat* e7m..ee bas u don’t know me…shdarraak ina i’m not in love with Mshary! w laa i’m not in love with Zaid!

M7ammad: *smile* stop lieing to urself Jood..u can’t keep running away forever…u feared zaid not coming back..bas now u fear his presence..tadreen laaish? tadreen ina kil ma a7ad iyeeb 6ari Zaid ur face lights up? i’m not stupid Jood..i can see that ur truely in love with him…

Jood: *nervous*I’M NOT! U DON’T KNOW ME A9LAAN! ITS ONLY THOSE 3 DAYS THAT I ACTUALLY TALKED TO U!

she didn’t want to admitt it..you know when ur nervous and u don’t know what ur saying? this is whats happening to Jood now..He left her when he knew she was about to cry..he left and saw Zaid running towards him…

Zaid: haa shfeek?! *breathing heavily* sh9aayiirr?!

M7ammad: Shaheen ta3baan…ana baroo7la L7een wnt ma 3alaaik amir mur L jam3iyyaa yeebla 3a9eer..

Zaid: shfeee shaheeen?! 7AMOOD GOOLLI SH9AYIR!?

M7ammad: ma fee illa L 3afya..la it7aatee…bas roo7 yeeb 3a9eer wana na6rik bil garage..

Zaid rushed in the supermarket…and went to the juice section..thats when he saw her..thats when he was mesmorised by her beauty..by the look in her sad eyes…she turned around and there eyes met…it wasn’t like every time…it was different..u know when u love someone and that someone is very close but no matter how close u are ur still too far away? thats how they felt…he came closer to her..he didn’t know what to say..he just continued walking forward..every step he took towards her made him happy..she saw him and uncontrollably smiled..what M7amamd said kept repeating in her head..she couldn’t stay away from zaid..her childhood friend..the love of her life..but she also has Mshary who was there for her when Zaid was not..who stood beside her and supported her in every important step in her life…

JOod: *smile*

Zaid: *smiling back* hi..

JOod: hi..

Zaid: uhh..Joody..i mean Jood ..

Jood:….

Zaid: *deep breath* Jood..we need to talk…

She looked deep into his hazel eyes…she couldn’t disagree..

Jood: sure..

Zaid: ni6la3?

Jood: uhh…

ee bas mshaary?..huufff! whatever i need to hear him out…

Jood: ok..

she dropped her basket, placed it on the side, and walked beside Zaid…they stayed silent for 15 minutes…15 minutes just walking in the streets side by side..he didn’t know what to say but he just didn’t want her to go…

Zaid: *sigh* asiff…

Jood: 3la shino?

Zaid: for everything Joody..for me leaving and never come back..for me not being there for you..for me being selfish and only thinking about myself..for me loving u..and for me never forgeting u..asiiff Jood..asiiff..

They stopped walking and faced each other..

Jood: I’m sorry too…*looking down*

Zaid lifted her chin up gently..he looked lovingly at her and smiled..

Zaid: 3la shino Joody?

Jood: …………………

Zaid shifted his gaze to the necklace wrapping her neck..it was a butterfly necklace..he remembers it very well..how could he possibly forget it? he was shocked to find her still wearing it..she didn keep her word..she did wear it all those years…guilt started to eat him up…

Zaid: lail7een labsat.ha?

she looked to where he was looking ,saw the butterfly necklace he gave her, and nodded silently…

Zaid: asiff..wallaah asiff Jood..ma kaan 8a9di asawwi feech chitheee…ma kaan 8a9di athaygich.. sawwaait kil hatha la2ini a7ibbich…a7ibbich JOody…w lail7een a7ibbich..

Jood: Zaaid i can’t.. i get that ur sorry..w i get that u regret everything..i know that we were young at that time and u thought u were doing the right thing..bas no matter what Zaid *sniff* we can’t be together…though i love you…*gasp* bas we can– can’t…

she started crying…the thought of them not being together broke her heart…its true she still loves him..but what about Mshary? she won’t just leave him will she?

He hugged her tight…he was trying to clam her down..

Zaid: Bas joody..bas la tabcheen…5alaa9…everything has a solution..

Jood: laaa *sniff* moo kil shay Zaaid..moo kil shay…*gasp*

Zaid: *wiping her tears* we’ll work it out i promise…

JOod: w *sniff*..Mshary?

He stepped back, held her face, and looked straight in her eyes..

Zaid: it7ibbeena?

Jood shifted her gaze to the person behind Zaid…she was trembling with fear….

Zaid: Joody shfeech?

Jood: *pointing her finger at the person* .. M-Mshaa–Mshary..
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W 5ALLAA9 L POSSSTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SHFTAW SHLON ANA 3AJEEBAA? 2 POSTS WARA BA3ATH :O :O :O SHBI9EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR???!!! MA TADROON? MWA7A7A7A7A7A77A7A7A7A7AA7A7 (6) ull know next postt :p nanananaa :p hehee :p

LUV U :*********

- I am emotionally mentally stressed,There’s a feeling inside me ETA3EB ile jad bs ma agdar! Do u feel me?!- Men keep asking me,What perfume are you wearing? What shoes are you wearing!? eseer feni Laish!? and they r like for my Girlfriend/ Fiance …W…

I wished I could have stayed longer but my friend was waiting for me out in the car. I was happy yet sad at the same time. I only got to sit with him for ten minutes.

When I got home later that night my mom asked me…

Mama: Ha shfty ?

Me: Umm.. huh ? You know ?

Mama: E 6b3an I l know..

Me: Kaif ?

Mama: Well he called me a few days ago and we kind of planned this.

Me: Haha my boyfriend and my mom !! Now thats something you dont see often everyday!

Mama: Al 3omoom did u have fun ?

Me: Yeah.. Ummm.. can I see him tommorow ?

Mama: You already saw him.

Me: La Sarah kanat m3ay f bs ga3at ma3a 10 minutes.

Mama: 6yb ok.

The next day we met up and it was really amazing.

The place where we met up at was so empty, I mean there were only like 4 other people bs besides us.

Each table was inside a booth, so ofcourse we took one.

I sat on his lap and rested my head on his chest.. and we just talked. He would kiss the top of my head every now and then. My stomach was filled with butterflies, they wouldnt go away. See what this guy does to me? Just by a simple kiss on the head and I would go crazy!

Theres something about him, the way he makes me feel. He makes me feel good about myself. He makes me feel beautiful. He makes me feel smart. He makes me feel confident. He makes me feel all the possible good a person can have.

So while I was restING my head on his chest, I fj2a fell asleep.

Here’s what he told me later that night…

” You were so cute I didnt wanna wake you. So peaceful.. I never knew you could be. Half your chest was showing and see I was such a gentelman that I didnt take advantage. I covered you up nice and proper. I didnt even stare down. Ther best half hour of my life.. I wanna wake up everyday with you lying on my chest.”

Awwwwwwwwwwwww isnt he the best ?!

Anyways so before I left earlier that night I did something.. something we both did no expect to happen.

I kissed him goodnight on the cheeck and then stood up. I took a step then turned right back around and kissed him!!

I kissed him !!!

On his bloody lips !!

What was I doing ??

No !!

I didnt even wait for him to reply, I just ran off and into my car. Didnt even give him a chance to speak.

When I got back home I texted him.

oh my god im so sorry !! wallahi i never ment to do that.. i dont know what got over me.. lets just forget it ever happend!! ;$

lat 5feen 7beebty bl 3ax.. i dnt wish it never happend. Im happy it did.

wallah? so were ok? you dnt think im a whore or anything ?

why would i think ur a whore? i love you..

it was so outta the blue.. i dont want you to think im one of “those” girls…

ma asm7lik tgoleen kitha.. you are not and will NEVER be one of those girls. i know u.. the only thing i thought about when u kissed me was how much i love u.. ;** 7beebty inti

ok good.. i was so scared ;s

7beebty theres no need to be.. umm lsn im still with the guys .. fa when they drop me back home ill call u !

ok 7beeby i love u <3

not as much as i love u <3<3

This guy was amazing.

He’s all I think about every minute of the day.

2008 was the best year of my life.

I met someone real.

Someone who loved me for me.

Accepted all of my bagage.

Understood me completley.

Didnt judge me.

He was the perfect man.

I used to always think about the one, the one who will sweep me off my feet and carry me off into the sunset. Although this wasnt exactley like that, but still.. he treated me like his little princess. He spoiled me rotton.

Yes, 2008 was where everything started to look up.

Well true, except for one thing…. 3aysha.

For the whole year she’s been nothing but distant with me. I tried talking to her a million times, repeating the same thing over and over again but my words would just go through one year then out the other.

I sat her down and talked to her three times but still nothing !!

Me: Listen I dont know whats been going between us but I really want it to stop.

3aysha: Stop what? Theres nothing wrong ?

Me: C’mon 3aysha dont play dumb you know exactley what I mean.

3aysha: Dina.. you know what you did I dont have to sit her and explain it to you.

Me: I think you do cause I have no idea what your talking about..

3aysha: ……

Me: Aha 6yb.. well whatever I did to to you Im sorry. But you have to apologize too you know.

3aysha: Ana wsh sawait ?

Me: You were kinda rude at my sweet 16 —

Whenever I’d try to speak, to say something that involved her she would find a way to shut me up. To me it’s like she knows what she’s done but does not wanna admit it. Her whole life whenever she does something wrong she never owns up to it. She always has to be right. Little miss perfect. But thats not healthy. We have to be aware of what we do, both the good and the bad.

Ive had this exact same conversation with her over and over again. But it’s like talking to a brick wall!

This showed me what a cruel selfish immature person she is.

Who knew that someone you’ve grown up with your whole life would one day actualy turn on you?

After that I gave up. Whenever I saw her I would say hi and thats it. I would take the hight road and smile like nothing happend. She didnt bring me down, she only helped me rise higher. :)

El 7mdelah everything was picture perfect betweeen me and 5aloodi. We were both crazy for eachother.

But 2009 had hidden doors for us.

Doors we never thought we’d enter.

Nothing really happens much during the last two months of 2008. It’s all just perfect. All you’ll be hearing is the same thing over and over again. So why bore you with that?

Love you all and goodnight!

i reached sara’s house..tired from the flight.its alwys the short flights that get to me..i dont mind the longer ones..shorter ones gives me a constant headache!sara: i want details about the GUY now..everything spill..so i re-cap the whole story start…

who do you turn to when you have completely isolated the people you love.who can you go to when you left everyone.what happens when he crushes you.I was happily engaged to the perfect man he was everything any girl wanted. He loved and respected me, h…

who do you turn to when you have completely isolated the people you love.who can you go to when you left everyone.what happens when he crushes you.I was happily engaged to the perfect man he was everything any girl wanted. He loved and respected me, h…

7amad has a girl friend :) …. w no its not me…waaii33 waaii33 waaii33 6AB3AAAN ITS NOT MEE! L mohim shlon Glittery L thakiyya 3rifaat?! a9laan its soo expected of him ina 3nda GF since he’s a FLIRT :) .. anyways…marra dashait dari w kanat my window opened .. gabil la afta7 L lights smi3at voices…w when i peeked chan ashoofa masik his mobile w ygool “7ayaaatiii”….9ar feeni waaiii33333! ofcourse he’s not his friend cuz he’ll be TOOOOO GAAAYYY! L mohim … marrat L ayyaam….w tathkirroon lama agoollikum ina he sings..well he sings even more in winter! cuz his window is constantly opened..fa i always here him sing and stuff..w ma y’3anii illa lama ykoon 3indi EXAMZ! 7maar! excuse my language :) .. marra which is 6 days ago i think..i closed my lights w r7t ba9ik my window wla ashoofa masik his mobile w y’3ani…”aaahhhh…bla bla bla …a7ib…bla bla bla…aahhhh” thats all i could here :p he sings 7ag his GF! waayiidd ksaraat 5a6ri maskeena ma tadri billi ysaweeeh :p..wallah he’s such a player! ta5ayyilaw! y’3ani 7ag his GF w his eyes 3ala my window! I SWEAR TO GOD Y6LAI3 MY WINDOW EVEN WHEN MY LIGHTS ARE CLOSED! WHICH IS SOOO SPOOOKY! MA A7IBBAAAAAAAAA!! IN 10 DAYS 39 ZEGAAYIRR! w bas 5alaa9 :p mani imkamla …:P the rest of our adventures tngaal ba3dain..min wana 9’3eera min gabil L notes fee adventures tara :p anyways….this is a post like i said :p

w this one is dedicated to … HOPE ;* … THANK U HUN FOR ALWAYS COMMENTNIG :*

My lovely readers a small msg…plz comment…la2ana when i don’t see enough comments killish ma atshajja3 aktib post..a9lan shlon ba3arif u read the post illa if u commented istaw3abtaw? :p w 7ag my faithful commenters..y3arfoon roo7hum..I LUV U WAAYIIDD WAAYIIIDDD W THANK U FOR ALWAYS SUPPORTING ME..MEANS ALOT WALLAH :**

ENJOY :************

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I CAN SERIOUSLY KILL THAT PERSON RIGHT NOW! WAAAIIII33333333333! *imitating his voice* bye ya 7lwa…iffff … maleeeeeeeeeeeeeeee8! maleee88 maleee88 maaleeeeeeeeeeee8! killish ma 7abbaaita! madri shlon zaaid rifeejaa…o he made me doubt Mshaary! GOD i feel like a bitch for doubting him akeed he won’t cheat on me…its Mshary..he said he won;t leave me for nohing..plus he came to the states just to see me…he won’t be cheating 9a7?

Mshary: aahhh….joody asiif 6awwalt 3alaaich .. yallah mishaaina?

Jood: ohh Mshary… yallaaah *smile*

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Mshary was staying for a week. the next 2 days were awesome! Jood had a lot of fun with Mshary…yeah he was still getting these phone calls but at least she knew it was one of his friends or his mother. Jood was worried about Zaid, she didn’t see him much in college those past days..its only that one time when he smiled at her then walked away…he didn’t even say hi..it worried her, although thats what she wanted right? him staying away..atleast just when Mshary is around? She couldn’t stop thinking about him..

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Zaid~

*sigh* ta3abt min kithir ma fakkart..madri shasawi..ya3in shlon abni sa3adti 3la ta3asat insan thani? ma gdart alga 7al yarthi Lkil…maku 7al! Ana w Joody bintim chithee..bntim b3aad 3an ba3ath…5ala9 a7san 9a7? w ymkiin itha wa–

M7ammad: Hala ib Zayood..hala bel Sar7aan..

Zaid: hala hala..

M7ammad: mino illi sha’3il balik?

Zaid: ………..

M7ammad: Zaid shfeek? gooli.. tra ana u5ook..

Zaid looked at him and smiled..he knew M7mmad won’t stop talking until he knows whats wrong..

Zaid: *smile* tathkir Jood?

M7ammad: jood? ay Jood?

Zaid: JOod illi gtlik 3anha..

M7ammad: aahhh illi *wink* it7biha..

Zaid: *throwing a pillow on his face* EEe!

M7ammad: hehehe..inzaain shfeeha?

Zaid: it3arif Jana?

m7ammad: mno Jana ba3ad?

Zaid: Jana rfeejat Hala..

M7ammad: haa! moo isim hathi Jood ba3ad?

Zaid: *nodding silently*

M7ammad: Zayood shfeek? shaku hathi ib hatheech?…laykoon…?!

M7ammad is a smart guy..ya3ni he could get what u wnt to say before u even say it..3araftaw L no3? illi they can see right through you..he’s not a wizard or whatever :p bas he could tell..not always ofcuorse..there was one little thnig he was never sure of…

Zaid: ee M7amad Jood ihya nafs.ha Jood rifeejat Hala…

M7ammad: haa?! wnta tadri inhaa,,

Zaid: adri ..

M7ammad could see sadness in his eyes..he didn’t know what to do..

Agoollaa? la la china ma agoollaa a7san? ee bas hatha zayood rifeej 3umri…hufff! wallah madri shasawwi! akallimha? ee bas shlon akallimha wana .. wana …la la akallimha?

M7ammad: E7m…*getting up*..ana baroo7 3nd Shaheen shway galli amura L garage sayyarta 5arbana..

Zaid: Allah weyyak..

M7ammad got up and went to Shaheen. He had to do something for his friend who was always there for him.

He stopped while seeing Jood…He saw her with him..with Mshary. He could see from the way she treated him he was just a friend. Maybe zaid can’t tell but M7ammad can…he knows when a person is in love and he knows when he’s not…

She stopped and stared at him..he stared back and smiled then disappeared in the crowd..at least thats what she thought…

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Jood~

so me and Mshary were going out for a walk…we were talking about random stuff..as in totally random..w ba3dain M7ammad pops out from God knows where..w gave me that stare..it gave me goosbumps! and then suddenly he disappeared..seriuosly this guy is a FREAK! anywayz… ba3dain as usual Mshary’s phone rang…madri laish bas i was really pleased this time..galli birid L hotel and he was tired…waayyy it3arfoon lamma a7ad y5izkum…well maku a7ad ga3id y5izni bas i feel that someone is watching w it doesn’t feel good..at all! L mohim i nodded ina okaay roo7…w he just left..iifff! ma y7is hal insan! he’s too cold sometimes! i was happy ina raa7! i’m kinda getting bored of him..madri laish..bas istanast..w i decided w to go to the super market ( knt baktib Sultan Center chan astaw3ib inhum ib Amreeka :p)

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M7ammad~

la7agt.ha…tammait waraha..shft L far7a b3yoonha yom ra7 hathaak illi isma..uhh…shisma? ee ee Mshary..mishat w dashat L jam3iyya…hathi for9iti! hathi for9itik ya 7amood!

Calling Zayood…

M7ammad: aloo..hala ib Bu 7arooth..ba’3aitik shway…ZAID LAZIM ITYEE THAROORY! .. SHINO MA TGDAAR!?…AGOOLLIK THAROORY TA3AAAL !…Ma feeny shay…bas abeek ityee shway…ana bil supermarket illi yam L garage…yallah moo it6awwil na6rik…BSIR3A!


okaaayyy sawwaait L 5i66a L oola ba3daain? chinni bablish nafsi..la2ana madri shlon ba5alleehum y7achoon ba3ath :)..iffff…fakkir 7amoodd fakkir! LIGAIT.HA!

Calling Amanda…

M7ammad: Hi Amanda…I need a favor..

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W 5ALLAA9 L POSSTTT!!!!! I NKOW I KNOW I KNOW! ITS SHORT! bas lazim cliff hanger (6) As i promised :p hehehe…shbi9eeeeeeeer??? w whats up with M7ammad?! w who’s Amanda? hmm…..w what about Zaid w Jood? .. w Mshary?! OHH MSHAARYY!? :p any guesses? no? okaaay :p

LUV U :***********

I sat comfortably on his lap as he hugged me and held my hand, tracing the lines on my palm with his finger,“I missed you” he whispered, taking in a deep breath and smelling my hair, “I missed everything about you”“Me too” I said turning ar…

I sat comfortably on his lap as he hugged me and held my hand, tracing the lines on my palm with his finger,“I missed you” he whispered, taking in a deep breath and smelling my hair, “I missed everything about you”“Me too” I said turning ar…

..thirst that is never quenched
regardless of how many drinks
are consumed.
..a flame that won’t be extinguished
no matter how low the embers
burn, or how strong the winds blow.
..a need that is inexplicable
despite reasons that are fully
comprehensible.
..binds that refuse to break free
even when they are unlocked.
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Endings that are not endings
Deaths that are beginnings
Sequels that are endless
in their path [...]