The rain drops trickled down the window behind me. I felt the cold through the back of my head, filling my body. I was cold. It was such a cold place; an eerie place. The hard hospital chairs were aching my back and thigh muscles. I got up to stretch my legs. I couldn’t handle the thought of sitting while he was in there, on the operating table.

Bader was in surgery.

My Bader.

I couldn’t believe it.

We were just on the phone a few minutes ago, and then ….

Just thinking about it makes me naucious.

I wanted so bad to run in there and hold his hand. Alot of crazy thoughts were going through my head that time.

Any second now and I would to rush into the OR and scream!

I was scared, terrified that he may not make it.

What if something happend to him ? I mean this time he got lucky. But what about next time ?

I’m still so angry at him. He was in the middle of the street, he should have seen the car coming his way.

Also in a way I blame Msh3al. He could have told Bader to move out of the way. And at times I actualy think that Msh3al intended for Bader to get hit. Maybe I was being a bit paranoid, I don’t know.

But all I know is that I have to see Bader soon. It’s been two hours since they first took him in. I kept thinking about what they were doing in there. Was he hurt? No, cause then I remembered the gas.

Millions of unpleasant thoughts were rushing through my head. I just couldn’t seem to think positive. I mean I don’t know what I would have done if anything had happend to him.

I was going mad inside my head. Any second now and it would expolode.

Morning arrived and I woke up to the smell of fresh black american coffee in Msh3als hands.



Msh3al: Hala bl gamar…

Me: Mu wagtek abadan !

I pulled myself aggresively off the chair and started looking for a nurse.

Msh3al: Jenah sit down, eat something, your body’s empty…. your pale !

Me: BAS ETRKNY EB 7ALI !

I then finaly found a nurse leaving a patients room. I hurried up to her.

Me: Excuse me, hi. I’m a friend of Bader Al – Flani.. could you pkease tell me which room they put him in. I fell asleep in the waiting room so…

The nurse escourted me into Bader’s room.

First I took a deep breath then slowly walked in.

7ayati he was so helpless.. I couldn’t.. I didin’t want to see him like this. It literlay broke my heart. I just wanted to rush over to him and hold him in my arms.

He was lying there with a cast around his leg.

Scratches all over his face.

I was standing too far away to see what else had happend.

So I pulled a chari close to his bed side and sat. I wanted to remain that way for as long as it took, until I see those beautidul eyes look into mine again.

So there I was waiting and waiting.. hour after hour.

Msh3al kept begging me to come back home with him but I would continously refuse. I didn’t want to leave Bader. I wanted to be the first thing he see’s once he wakes up.

Msh3al said he would go back home to shower and rest. He would later be back the next day to check in.

He wasnt worriesd, knowing how I have this incontrolable act of helping others when their in need.

I was exhausted too, and wanted nothing more than to lay in my soft bed and drift off to sleep. But I couldn’t. Not if Bader was like this.

If I were to sleep, it would be my head on his bedside.

If I were to eat it would be from the vending machine out in the hall.

If I were to shower, it would just be me using a wet cloth to wipe my forehead.

I didn’t care. All I cared about was for Bader to get better.

I was putting his health before mine.

I wished I could take all the pain he was feelig and put it in me instead. He did not deserve this.

Nurse: Miss visiting hours are over.

Me: Oh no please no.. I’m staying the night.

Nurse: He’s in real critical condition..

Me: I dont care please just let me stay the night.. PLEASE !

Nurse: Alright fine Miss… have a goodnight.



There was nothing else to do but wait.

I was in that tiny room just roaming around, my arms were crossed and all I kept on doing was praying to God for him. “Ya rab gawamo bl salamah”

Finaly I decided to give myself a break. I sat back on the chair and rested my head on Bader’s bed side. I dozed off so fast, that’s how tired I was. Up for five hours pacing around the room just waiting for him to wake up.

El 7mdelah he wasn’t in a coma but just in a deep sleep. He would be awake soon said the nurse before she left the room.

At 12 el thohor the next day I got a light tap on the top of my head.

With a sudden shock I woke up to find Bader’s eyes opend. There he was. He was looking straight at me. Those big beautiful eyes were looking into mine. I couldn’t believe it!

He tapped twice on the bed signiling me to get in with him.

I got in and he put his left arm around me, his right hand was cupped on one side of my face.

He looked pale and so tired. It broke my heart seeing him like this.

Bader: Your here…

Me: I thought I lost you.

I started to tear up.

Bader: You could never lose me.

Me: How are you feeling ?

Bader: Having you in my arms.. I’m immune to absolutley anything.

Me: And you better stay immune !

Bader: Haha wla tz3aly..

Me: I thought I’d lost you, you know ?

Bader: It happend alls of a sudden Jenah. One minute I was talking to Msh3al, then the next…

Me: Answer me honestley, did he push you ?

Bader: No no ofcourse not ! Dont think that !

Me: Then I don’t get it…

Bader: Yarabiii.. as I was on my way out of the house he was following me accusing me of the fight that broke out between you two. He though I told you. So we started arguing, and my car was across the street. I was crossing but then in th emiddle I stopped to tell him something then the next thing I know.. I end up here at the hospital.

Me: I’m just so happy your safe. I don’t know what I would have done if I lost you…

Bader: You will never lose me. I will never let that happen. 5ala9 your apart of me Jenah. I love you.



Bad timing or what?

Just as he said those three little words, Msh3al walked in.

He was there this whole time listening to the words Bader and I were saying to eachother.

We both froze in our place as Msh3al walked in, put down the vase of flowers on the table and came towards us.

I could actualy see his vains popping out. I was so afraid. I’ve never seen him this upset before.

Msh3al: 7mdelah 3ala el salamah..

Bader: Allah yslmik…

Msh3al: Now if your done charming my wife, I’d like to take her home.

Me: Msh3al don’t start please.. the guy’s just woken up..

Msh3al: Yet he seems fully energized to hold you in his arms.

Bader: I’m sorry…

Msh3al: For what ? For loving my wife ? Hey I don’t blame you…

Me: Is that supposed to be a joke or something?

Msh3al turned around and started to walk towards the door to leave.

Me: Now where are you going ?

Msh3al: You’ve got a decision to make Jenah. Let me know when you do.

Me: Well what if I cant ?

Msh3al: Well then I’ll make it for you.



He walked out leaving me and Bader staring into deep space.

Bader: What do we do now ?

Me: I dont know about you but I’m up for a nice hot shower.

Bader: Jenah I’m seriouse.

Me: Yeah I am too.

Bader: This can’t keep going on like this…

Me: I know.. but I like things the way they are.

Bader: Are you hearing yourself right now ?

Me: Pretty clear.

Bader: 7beebty you know this cant keep going on forever.

Me: Im not saying forever.. I’m just saying… hey wait.. this isnt any of your buisness ok! Just leave me alone.

Bader: I’m only trying to protect you. Even if you dont choose me I will understand. He’s your husband. All I want is for you to be happy.

Me: Yeah well I dont know what I want anymore. So just stop it !

Bader: *sigh*Could you call the nurse in for me..

Me: Why what’s wrong ?

Bader: I think the pain killers are starting to wear off…

Me: Yeah sure…

What the hell was his problem !

Thats all I kept thinking during my shower.

This is my life and I get to do whatever I want whenever I want.

Y3ni wsh ybeeni asawi ? Ma agdar aqarer.. is it my fault two amazing men are in my lives and I’m in love with both of them? No. This happened beyond my controle. And if I could turn back time and change it all I would…

But unfortunatley this is reality…

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My world’s turned upside down.

I didn’t know what to do.

How could I stay in the same house as him ?

Yet how could I judge him when I was doing the exact same thing to him ?

But this is diffirent I love…

Yeah, that’s when I realized I loved Bader.

I never thought I could ever love anyone but Msh3al.

Somehow he found a way into my heart.

I guess you could even say he stole it away from Msh3al.

But why did I have to realize my feelings for him after he’s betrayed me ?

I fell into a black whole.

Sob7an Allah..

Nawal called me on my way back home.

I asked if I could spend a couple of days with her.

I told her everything. And I mean everything.

About Bader. About Msh3al.

My feelings.

Everything.

She calmed me down. She always did.

So for the next week I was with Nawal.

I swtiched off my phone.

Both Bader and Msh3al would call Nawal’s cell but we wouldn’t pick up.

They’s message but we would’nt reply.

What was I to say to them ?

I didn’t know what to say to them.

I wasn’t ready to face either one of them.

After a week of avoiding them.

I decided it was time to pull myself out of the bubble I was in.

My first call was to Bader.

I wsn’t ready to face him just yet.

Bader: I wanted to tell you.. ma t9adgeen shkthr bs I couldn’t betray Msh3al.

Me: Oh so it was ok to betray me ?

Bader: No.. that’s not what I ment…

Me: So then tell me. Why was it so hard for you to tell me ?

Bader: Because if anyone was going to hurt you I wanted it to be him. I didn’t want to be the one to cause you pain. I didn’t want to tell you and have you cry infront of me from something he’s done. I didn’t want to see a tear fall infront of my eyes from him.

Me: Bader I…

Bader: This killed me so much. Being around you. Seeing you smile.. not knowing what was going on.

Me: So you knew about this the whole time ?

Bader: I found out a while ago.

Me: I don’t know what to do Bader.. I’m so confused…

Bader: Do whatever makes you happy.. I can’t decide for you.

Me: I’m scared…

Bader: Min esh 7beebty?

Me: Everything…

Bader: Jenah…

Me: Hmm ?

Bader: Can I see you ?

Me: I have to see Msh3al first…

Bader: Oh… right…

Me: Yeah…

Bader: I think I’m gonna go now..

Me: Wain ?

Bader: Out…

Me: Oh…

Bader: Yallah bye.

Me: …. Bye



I felt bad.

I could sense he was sad and upset.

I felt so guilty.

But why should I be ?

He was the other man.

I had no reason to right?

I guess wrong… I loved him.

Hearing him down broke me into a tiny little pieces.

I called Msh3al next…

But he didn’t pick up.

Once, twice, no answer.

He’d call me back.

Maybe he was busy with work.

It was noon time.

So yeah he was busy…





























































































































Just as Bader was on his way out he got a surprise knock on the door.

Msh3al: You just had to tell her. You couldn’t keep it to yourself could you ?!!

Bader: I didn’t say anything !

Msh3al: Are you seriously going to stand onfront of my face and lie to me ?!!

Bader: Msh3al of all the years I’ve known you.. why would I lie ?

Msh3al: Mdri 3anik !

Bader: I didn’t say a word !



He walked passed Msh3al and made his way out of his house.

He walked across the street, till’ he stopped in the middle to look back at Msh3al.

Bader: You brought this on yourself Msh3al. Your wife isn’t an ideot. You took her for granted.

Msh3al: I ended it.

Bader: Now? After she found out ?

Msh3al: I wanna make it right with Jenah. You have no idea how much I love her Badoor.

Bader: I don’t know what —-

Msh3al: BADOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOR !!! BADOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOR !!! BADOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOR !!!

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“Mays,” there was a certain sparkle in his eyes.

“Khalifa,” she swallowed back her tears.

He rushed over to her and took her in his arms. She felt imprisoned, like she had no other choice but to surrender in his warm, loving embrace.

Just as her head was on his chest, his scent hit her…it’s still the same, the same perfume she bought for his twenty-fourth birthday last year. By now she was sure that all this wasn’t a dream, but a reality.

What she had prayed and hoped for this past year has finally become a reality.

He dug his head in her hair…the beautiful rich strawberry scent even stronger.

He tightened his grip around her and stroked her silk like hair.

“Why, Khalifa? Why?” her voice was muffled, trying to hold back these endless and painful tears.

“I’m willing to tell you everything, Mays…just when you’re ready,”

Before she said a word, she took a deep breathed.

“I am,”

And with that their evening started, her hand in his, and in they walked into her apartment…that’s when he saw the cut on her hand.

“What is this?” he looked at her palm closely.

She pulled her hand away and his it behind her back.

“A small cut,” she whispered.

“Oh God Mays, you still can’t control yourself, can you?” he hugged her tight while she pushed him away.

“You said you’d tell me everything…why don’t we start?”

But before they did, he cleaned her cut and wrapped it just perfectly in order for it to heel…and half an hour later, they were in the bedroom, Mays tucked in and Khalifa sitting on the edge of her bed.

“We used to have our Chinese take out here, watching Friends,” he remembered.

“Ready?” he changed the subject, sensing her discomfort.

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The two had fell asleep right before Khalifa was about to start. He slept on the couch while she slept restlessly on her bed, hugging her pillow tighter than ever.

Every once in a while, he’d check up on her…just like the old days.

He joined her and laid down next to her, playing with her hair and twirling it around his finger.

“You promised me you’d tell me…I’m getting impatient,” she whispered to him.

“I thought you were asleep,”

“How could I when the most beautiful person is laying down right next to me,” she dug her head into his chest.

It was seconds later that her tears started falling on his shirt.

“Why the tears now?”

“Because I don’t believe this, I can’t believe this is happening right now. I’m afraid that it’s a dream, like many of them in the past…and if it is, I don’t want to wake up. Having you close to me in a dream is more than enough for me. I just need…”

She became silent for a while until he urged her to continue.

“I need you next to me…I don’t care if it was your mere presence…but I need you. And your unconditional love,” she whispered in the end.

Hearing him say that was like a knife stabbed into his back. He never thought he had such an effect on her, and if so…he regretted the day he had to leave.

“I’m here now, and you’ve got me by your side. We’ll get through this. I love you more than I love myself,”

They stayed and cuddled for a while, until they both got up to freshen up.

Khalifa went back to his hotel while Mays stayed under the hot water, washing those thousands of thoughts out of her head.

Passing by Starbucks on his way back, he ordered one latte and her favorite signature hot chocolate with a sprinkle of cinnamon powder topping the whipped cream.

“Ok, start talking,” they sat on her couch an hour later.

“One night, before you’re 24th…I got a 02:00 a.m. call from my brother, Faris. I wasn’t surprised or even worried, I just thought it was the usual phone calls…it didn’t come in mind that out of all his early morning calls, this would be the most important of them all. I diverted all my calls to voice mail but then switched my phone off,”

“I remember I had my last final the next day, and I was so nervous. Once I flipped the booklet and saw the first page, I thought not bad…and as I started flipping through the rest of the pages I knew that everything would pass by just smoothly.”

He paused when his phone vibrated on the tea table and continued seconds later.

“Fortunately for me, everything went as planned…and when I finally finished, the only word that kept repeating itself in my head was “Freedom”. I mean seriously, who am I kidding? I was a month away from graduation! And so of course, I had the fun of my life during that single day…remembering the events, it was pretty crazy, but worth it all.”

“I remember you and Mohsin coming back looking wasted,” she giggled.

“That’s what happens when you’re over the clouds, so majorly ecstatic. Between, how many times do I have to convince you that we weren’t high…it was just the adrenalin rush,”

“Anywho! Back to the story please!”

“Ok, so, as you know…I ignored my phone for a whole day. It was just about us, the newly grads….so yeah, when I went back to our place, I totally forgot that my phone’s battery was dead. Being me, I neglected it some more, had a warm shower and slept…that was until Mohsin came barging in my room at four in the morning and woke me up,”

Just as he was about to continue, the door bell rang…and they both knew who it was.

“Mayassa, open up. I bought some fresh coffee and bagels, we’ve got a long day ahead of us,” Nhayan said from behind the door.

“He’s here?” he whispered to her.

“Obviously,” she rolled her eyes, whispering.

Just as she was about to get up and tip toe her way to the door, his beautiful eyes sparkled.

“Remember that back staircase? From the balcony?”

“What about it?” she whispered back.

“Are you up for some fun?” he grinned devilishly at her.

She nodded her head enthusiastically.

“Well, today is going to be different…something you haven’t experienced in a long, long time,”

He got up pulling her behind him and tip toed to her room. They hurried over to her closet and she randomly picked out an outfit while he went back out in the living room.

“Mayassa?! You in there?” Nhayan called from behind the door, again.

When she finished changing into her warm clothes, she picked up her coat. She grabbed her wallet and phone and stuffed them into her huge Prada bag. She got into her boots and joined Khalifa in the living room.

“Did he leave?” she whispered to him.

“Mayassa? Is that you?” he called, yet again.

Khalifa lifted an eyebrow in sarcasm.

It wasn’t until seconds later that they were out onto the balcony, running through the long flight of stairs down ahead and out into the cold, snowing atmosphere of New York City.

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Sorry for taking so long…been extra busy.

Previously on Oh Doctor, Doctor.

“Why?” she cried as she ran her fingers through her hair, and the blood stained forehead and hair.

Seconds later she heard a knock on the door.

“Nhayan, I told I’ll be fine,” she called as she evened her breathing.

The knocking got louder.

“Are you always this stubborn?” she yelled as the tears started falling again.

“Mayasa, open the door!” he said.

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No, she kept repeating to herself.

Not know, why?!

“Open the God damn door! Now!”

She felt a quick rush through her body…many emotions travelled through her in this single minute. Love…hatred… anger…and many more.

“Mays Al-Reem! I swear if you do not open this door, I swear, you wouldn’t like what I’m going to do!”

He never said her first full name unless her was serious.

“Why is that? I think you’d leave me…just like last time,” she screamed.

Her words were like a cold slap on his face. He didn’t imagine hearing that from her…but she wasn’t to blame. She was right.

She hadn’t realised what she’d said until a few seconds later. The anger flowing through her eased. She never had the courage of saying such a thing…neither did she ever think so…but she was never to blame.

She quietly took a few steps to the door.

She placed her hand on the handle but something kept her, held her back from opening the door.

What was it? She wondered.

She slowly let go, turned around and slid her back on the door…carefully sitting on the wooden flooring.

Her eyes teared up. Wanting to let out a cry, full of pain and sorrow, she placed her hand on her mouth and kept quiet. She carefully placed her head back on the door, trying to figure out if he had left or not…but there was nothing, not even the smallest of sounds.

She kept still in her place for the longest and most frustrating ten minutes of her life.

With her breathing finally synchronized, she was about to get up…and lose hope of everything…if there was anything left, that is.

“I saw you with him,”

It pained her the way he said it.

“Mayasa, I’m sorry. No, that doesn’t explain how I feel. There are no words that are capable of explaining how sorry I am to you, Mays,”

He then became quiet.

She waited…and waited…and waited….

Another warm tear dropped down her cheek, only this time, it landed on the wooden flooring. He heard it from behind the door, where he was sitting down, too, his back to the door.

“Mays, don’t cry…I don’t deserve your tears,”

“I know I promised your brother – Alla yr7ma – that I’d take care of you, and never let you out of my sight…but I broke that promise. And believe me, you do not know how much I regret what I did,”

“I don’t have the courage of looking you in the eye…it’s because I see our past, the wonderful images flying past so fast….and I can’t stand the fact that I threw all hat we had away, so simply…and then it’s you…I don’t call myself a man to what I’ve done,”

“I know you hate me…I know that you want nothing to do with me anymore, but give me a chance, a first and an only chance, but then again…I understand.”

She could hear him getting up.

“I don’t expect you to forgive me. Mays, if this is a Goodbye, then I’d just like to say that I’m more than devastated. I wish you all the best in life…and I’m sorry, but that won’t do,”

He started walking towards the lift when he paused an turned around.

“I love you.”

She remained in his position, his eyes fixed to the door.

Minutes later,he turned around, and just as he was about to walk into the lift, he heard the door knob turning behind him.

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“Baby, what’s the matter?” he asked her.

“Nothing,” she lied.

That’s one thing that never worked on him, her lying to him. He could see it in her eyes, even when she tried avoiding it.

“Wait here,” he got up and walked to the kitchen.

Hot chocolate.

It was her drug, it helped her relax and open up, and his way of letting her open up to him…even when she didn’t want to.

When he was done, he finished by adding his favorite touches onto his signature hot chocolate, marshmallows…and in her walked near to the fire place.

She was rapped with a cashmere shawl, rubbing her hands against her arms trying to warm herself.

“Oh dear God,” she sighed.

She knew what was about to happen.

He handed her the warm mug and sat down next to her, where she placed her head on his strong shoulder.

They were both quiet as they took their first few sips, until she let out a huge sigh and started ranting to him.

“I’m afraid you’re sad or something…maybe even angry…at me for saying no,” she whispered.

“Nouf! You know that I’d never be! Look,” he sat her on his lap.

“I respect you and your decisions, babe. You know that no matter what happens, it won’t change a thing. Let’s just enjoy the moment, let’s live it and have fun like there’s no tomorrow,” he kissed her forehead.

“I love you,” she side hugged him.

“What about me?!” Nhayan came in and plopped himself onto the couch.

“Nhayan!” Hamad whined.

“Haha yes, I love you too…but not as much as your brother,”

“Nouf!” Hamad whined, yet again.

“Enta el7een eskt bs, 5al enmasheeha,” she shushed him.

“Afaa, ya3ny mat7beeny Noufo?” Nhayan pouted.

“Nouf, law sma7t,” his brother eyed him.

“Baal enzain enzain, ma glna shay. Agool Noufo- qa9dy Nouf, Alla y3eenich 3la raylich, ’3ayoor, 7anaaaaaaaaaaan, o to top it all, u5ooy w 7mar,” he smiled that sarcastic smile of his.

“Bu Thnayan, e7term nafsk a7sanlk, maly 5lg emthoob7,”

“Bs bs! Ento ‘thnainat’kum 7ameer! Yalla t9b7oon 3la 5air,” she got up.

“La laaa, wain btro7een? Mafy kiss good night?”

“U5ook jdamna, esta7 3la wayhk,” she whispered.

“Wehhh mn 9jjich Noufa? Agool, Bu Thnayan, ’3ame’9 3yoonik,”

She thought he was kidding…but he wasn’t.

“Akoo! ’3ama’9ttt!”

“Yalla, wain my kiss?” he pulled her down.Instead of receiving a small peck on his cheek, he got a slap and she walked away.

Next thing was Thnayan laughing like he never did before and his brother eyeing him furiously.

“7maar,” Hamad got up and left.

He walked up the stairs and into her bedroom, he waited for her on the bed.

Minutes later, she came out of the bathroom wearing her nighties and fluffy slippers. When she saw him she gave him the look and later on ignored him. She went over to the dresser and opened her bun, her curly hair wild again. She applied a few moisturizers on her soft smooth skin and walked to the door.

“Out,” she ordered him ever so calmly.

He got up and walked to her.

“Baby, I’m sorry! Walla!”

“We’ll see about that tomorrow,” she threw him out and locked the door behind her.

She got in bed, smiled a victorious smile and slept peacefully.

1.I want to have this body!!Bs I’m short:(2. Ticked off one of my new years resolution:D which is loose weight..3. My cousin is engaged:D I’m with her right now, wallah I’m soo happy… Fa I won’t be posting..4. DONE WITH FINALS:Dps: girls pleaaaase do…

I knew immediately that it was him and the first thought that went thru my head was how angry I was that the Chocolate Bar manager took the liberty of giving my mobile number out to any random guy who asked. Then I relaxed and thought, well you wished …

I miss you; how can you miss someone you’ve never met? I don’t know, but I do. I look for you in every face I see, you might be the guy standing by the cashier, or the one sitting there warming his hands on the steaming cup of coffee.Here I am sitt…

A 24 years old kuwaiti girl with good heath, mafeha ila el 3afya!She went to sleep and never woke up…Lal7en min9adma O mu gadra a9adig el 5abara7is ib 8amta wide abchi 3ashan arta7 bas mu gadra!اللهم ارحمها برحمتك الواسعة وا…

Alf L 9alaaat W L salaaam 3alaaaik ya 7abeeb Allaah M7aammaaaddd…


KOLOLOLOLOLOLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEESH!

Yibbaaabbb…YIBBAAABB!

KOOOLOLOLOLOLOLOLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEESSHH!

seriously?

kololololeeeeeeesh?

yibbaaab?

I don’t get it :p

Laaish inyabbib?

ya3ni wanasa?

Laa 9ij wallaah…chinnaa hnoodd 7umir :p

i’m crazy? (a)

yeaah i’ve been told :p

ma anlaaam ga3da adris :p

Hheehheee…

W Bas :p

adri ma 3ndi saalfa ;p

P.S. MA A3ARIF AYABBIB! :p

More to come with Love Happens When You Least Expect It, but I couldn’t resist this. True story!!I met this guy through a friend and he started sending me messages about a week ago. He started with the “lets be friends” angle and quickly moved to the “…

Me: So, tell me .. How does it feel like having a d***?     : WTF       Look if u wanna see my d*** just say so.Me: Nooo, seriously .. I’m just asking ..     : I was born with it, so I do…

chan ag3ad min il noom 7:55 :)ahabel mo ?

I’ve been dancing my butt off all day long .. I’m not wasting my time .. I’m actually .. Happy ..  I must have lost some GREAT amount of calories .. here or there .. somewhere .. It’s a girl thing .. even if you don’t have to .. you always wanna l…

Heeeeey everyone !I miss yoooouuuu aaaaall ;*Sorry wallah i had aloooot of exaaams ;s i just finished finals and guess what !? my family is baaaack mn USA !! ;DMost grades i got el 7mdelah they’re good ! bas allah yaster mn el bajee ;(Goodluck on yooou…

Sorry short post.. bs yesterday was a LOOONG day. 1. my nanny told me her daughter was about to commit suicide bs they saved her in time:( fa z3alt mn el 9b7! 2. Went to my exam, caught cheeting, bs ashwa my teacher is going to give me exrta marks=D ha…

They don't know that I've been crying in my room for so long.

They don't know that I sacrificed what I needed and wanted the most.

They don't know that whatever was told to them was a complete lie.

They don't know that I did that to please them.

They don't know how special that person was to me.

They're hypocrites…very sad ones.

They think with those small minds of theirs the most outrageous things.

They're fakes…they're liars.

But I'm better than them.

I have pride.

But in the end…nobody knows.

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Ok, so first of all don't kill me…I just don't have that instant daily dose of inspiration…I guess I've got to give it some time.

• There's this person, very dear and special to my heart. I love him so much. He's the best uncle I can ever ask for…including Uncle K :* But Uncle A I love and appreciate him extremely loads :* Alla y7af'9k o ya36eek 6ool el3umr :*

• I'm sad from someone…or should I even be? I'm not sure…

• I have a red nose, watery eyes…and annoying coughs. Damn you flu.

• I enjoyed today so very much :* Thank you Jay.

•BBQ this Thursday…but I'm not sure :/

• This post is meaningless.

• There's nothing else to write.

• The end.

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Me: Badoor you with me ?

Bader: Eeh 7beebty I’m sorry.

Me: You ok ?

Bader: I just didn’t get much sleep last night.

Me: We could cut lunch short is you want.

Bader: La la ofcourse not. I haven’t seen you in a long time.

Me: Are you sure nothing’s bothering you ?

Bader: 7beebty don’t worry. You know if there is I would tell you straight away.

Me: I hope so…

He’s been acting realy weird around me.

Not focusing when I’d talk.

He would try not to look directly at my eyes.

Sometimes he’s even stutter when he talked.

How could lack of sleep do this to someone ?

I haven’t herd of anything like it before.

I sensed something was wrong, but I didnt want to force it out of him.

I wanted him to want to tell me.

Didn’t want to be forceful.

Plus Msh3al had been acting a bit strange around me aswell.

Were they both up to something? I had no clue.

I reached a point where I couldn’t take it anymore.

So I decided to confront Msh3al.

Msh3al: Why would you think something’s wrong ?

Me: You and Bader have been acting really strange around me latley.

Msh3al: When have you seen Bader ?

Me: Uhhh… he’d sometimes drop by to see you …. you wouldnt be here… so…

Msh3al: Ah ok. La wallah 7ayati mafi shay.

Me: Should I ask him or stick with you ?

Msh3al: *siiiiiiiiiiiigh*

Me: I’m waiting…

Msh3al: Well…

Me: Yes…

Msh3al: We lost a client thats all..

Me: But what’s that got to do with me ?

Msh3al: I dunno why he’s acting off but I’m just upset about it..

Me: Aha…

I didnt believe him, not for one second.

A client ? Really ? I’m not that dumb..

Fine, I said to myself.

When their both ready, they’ll tell me.

A Week Later…


Msh3al was being distant, too distant.

He wouldn’t even carry on a conversation with me.

Was it something I did ? Say ?

I started questioning myself, feeling like utter trash.

Did he find out about me and Bader?

I was going insane.

Should I confront him ?

What if I did ? Then it turns out he didnt know after all.

I talked to Nawal, as always.

She said I should just sit Msh3al down and have a talk with him.

So I did.

He was out of the house already. And when I called his cell it went directley to voicemail.

I left like four messages but he still didn’t call me back. I was starting to get worried.

This wasn’t him. He’d never divert his calls to voicemail. By now he’d be home.

Dinner was always prepared at nine, which is when he’s be home.

But for the week that past we havent had a decent meal together.

It got late, really late.

I searched through his phone book which he keeps next to his bedside table.

I found his secretary’s number and dialed.

Me: Hey Rana this is Msh3al’s wife Jenah.

Rana: Oh hey how are you ?

Me: I’m fine. And yourself ?

Rana: Tamam. Is something wrong ?

Me: Oh no no. Umm.. it’s just that Msh3al isn’t home yet. I hoped you would know where he was. I know it’s late but I didnt know who else to call.

Rana: No it’s ok. I was up anyways. Ummm.. when I left the office he was with a client. That’s the last I saw of him.

Me: Was he finishing up or…

Rana: I don’t know really. He told me not to disturb him so I’m guessing it was pretty important.

Me: Aha and when did you leave the office ?

Rana: At around 8:30.

Me: Strange. He should be back by now.

Rana: Don’t worry I’m sure he’ll be home soon.

Me: I hope so.

Rana: Are you ok ?

Me: Yeah I’m fine… it’s just that we haven’t sat down to a decent meal in a long time. I’m starting to miss him thats all.

Rana: Mashel 7alik.. he’s been really swamped with work latley. A new client and all. Seriouse case.

Me: He got that account along time ago.

Rana: No this is a new client. Apparentley this women’s ex husband is out to take everything she has.. money, cars, you name it. It’s a shame what anger can do to a person.

Me: Yeah… what a shame. So he’s been working late hours alot with this women ?

Rana: Like I said he’s swamped, he’s see her at the end of the day after he’s done.

Me: Intresting… Do you think he’ll be there now ?

Rana: I’m not sure.

Me: Ok then thank you so much Rana. Have a good night!

Late hours she says huh ?

I wanted to see just how late.

So I decided to make a surprise visit to see my Msh3al.

Swamped ?

How swamped.. to not call his wife to tell her he can’t make it home for dinner.

I barged into his office.

There I stood.

Standing there.

Humiliated.

My husband. And his…. uh.. mistress ?

I saw them both all over eachother.

She was sitting on his lap with her arms all over him.

His lips were on hers.

Those lips I once kissed and craved more than anything in the world.

Were taken from me by some other women.

Msh3al: Jenah… wa5ryyy !!!

Me: Oh now you pull her off you ? Wow… I’ll tell the maid to get the guestroom prepared for you.

Msh3al: Jenah wait ! *running after me*

Me: NO DON’T TOUCH ME ! DON’T YOU DARE TOUCH ME !

Msh3al: Please don’t do this.. we can work this out.. your my wife … I love you..

Me: YOU LOVE YOURSELF ! YOU KNOW WHAT , I SUGGEST YOU DON’T COME HOME TONIGHT !

Msh3al: Jenah please don’t do this !

Me: YOU DID THIS TO YOURSELF !

Msh3al: I can’t believe he told you.. what did he tell you ?

Me: What are you talking about ? Who ?

Msh3al: Bader…

Me: What does he have to do with — Oh my god.. that’s why he’s been acting…

Msh3al: What ?

Me: I gotta go…

Msh3al: JENAH !

Me: STAY AWAY FROM ME !



The next thing I know I’m standing infront of Bader’s front door.

I walked in and confronted him!

My head was aching from all my yelling.

I had to take breaths in between.

He tried to calm be down but I wouldn’t let him touch me.

After I was done I ran out of his house.

I couldn’t look at him for one more minute.

He betrayed him.

He knew. And he kept it from me.



Msh3al…..

Bader…….

After a 20 minute wait, my friend Sarah and I sat down at an outside table. I noticed again that the weather was being extremely cooperative – beautiful Kuwait weather is something to take advantage of, so on this day we choose a seat on the outskirt…

I am extremely sorry all you guys walla I know I promised bas I was going through a lot of things and I am kind of back so I will hopefully write a post as soon as possible… sorry again kids :*** ma kansh asdeeee :p