One afternoon during the Eid holiday I was parked outside the little neighbourhood shopping complex. My attention shifted to loud cries by some young girls walking to the corner shop as  a black feral cat sauntered past them.
“Ya hmara (you ass) don’t! It’s a black cat,” one girl shouted to another.
Was the girl going to [...]

Him: Do you want to be forgotten…?! Her: For those who can forget, Yes…wa shukran ;*

Sam7oony if there are any spelling mistakes.. so not in the mood to check hehe ! ;***




My man was coming to see me in a few days.

But then like two days later he told me things backfired and that theres a chance he wouldnt be able to make it.I cried at first begging him to come and that I need to see him.

But then I took a second and thought really hard. This guy was up to something. Something I wouldnt let him fool me with again.

Oh it was on. He wants to play? Oh I’ll play.

Only this time, I get the last laugh.

Ever since the day he told me that he might not be able to make it I’ve been sad. I mean I really wanted to see him.

He would tell me that he’s gonna try and convince his dad and find a plane ticket as soon as possible. But mainly it was about his dad. I whined and whined a thousand times begging him to come. I even cried!! It seemed like he didnt even care when I cried. All he had to say was “its ok 7beebty” in such a normal non sad way. I felt that he didnt even care wether he came or not.

Then as the days went by it showed more and more like he didnt care.

5aled: Well I have good new and I have some bad news.

Me: Aha..

5aled: The good news is I’m coming but just not sure when, maybe in 2 weeks.

Me: 2 WEEKS ?!

5aled: Wait.. and the good news is your getting the claddagh ring!

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{ Suzy 101 }

For five years now I’ve been searching for an Irish ring called ” The Claddagh Ring “. It’s design features two hands clasping a heart, and usually surmounted by a crown. The elements of this symbol are often said to correspond to the qualities of love (the heart), friendship (the hands), and loyalty (the crown). The expression which was associated with these symbols in the giving of the ring was: “With my two hands I give you my heart, and crown it with my loyalty.” Yet, the expression, “Let love and friendship reign forever” can be found as another meaning for the symbols. Doesnt it just sound beautiful ? Well my baby surprised me and got it for me!! I was so happy! Over the moon! It was gorgouse. And now I never take if off my finger!

Me: Thats two good news, wheres the bad news ?

5aled: Ummm.. well I dont wanna keep you waiting any longer since youve already waited 5 years. So I want you to have is as soon as possible. So my relative is in Jeddah, I already gave her the ring a couple of days ago just in case. So she’ll give it to you then I’ll see you when I get there.

Me: 6yb since your already gonna come why dont I just wait and have you give it to me?

5aled: Youve waited so long 7beebty.

Me: Yeah well I’ve waited 5 years. Two more weeks wont kill me.

5aled: 5alah m3na she’s already there just take it.

Me: Fine whatever.

5aled: Hey ya bnt !

Me: Haa?

5aled: A77bk!

Me: W ana ba3ad.

It was fine.. 5ala9 I’ll just take the ring and see him in 2 weeks. Not the plan that was on my mind bs yallah 3adi. I was gonna meet his relative, Sarah he told me her name was, in 2 days.

I was disappointed but I didnt wanna make a big deal out of it. He was coming and I wa thrilled.

Then the day I was supposed to meet Sarah I called 5aled and asked him to give me her number so that we can arrange evrything. He first told me no need for that. But after I insisted hard he gave in and said she’s call me in a bit.

I was surprised, this time I was getting a call.

So minutes later 5aled called me connecting the line with Sarah. I spoke to her telling her to meet me at Starbucks. I was not in the mood to go anyplace else, since it was near my house. I’d quickly get in there, take the ring and get out.

Her voice seemed rather odd to me. All squeeky and k2no 3ndeha ba7a f 9otha.

After I talked to her she hung up and it was just me and 5aled on the line. We talked about random things. But then something weird happend. Awal ma athan 9alat el 39r 3ndena, at that exact time athan 3ndo. Huh.. thats strange since yeathan f Riyadh gabel ma yeathan f Jeddah.

And thats when I put it all together.

He was here my baby was here !!!!

Haha he thinks he can lies to me again and put through another torture surprise?? I dont think so!! See now I’ve become smarter!! I’ve trained myself very well ;p

Here’s how I put it all together…

1. He acted cool like it didnt bother him wether he came to see me or not. I cried and he didnt even show that much concern. Usualy he’s be flipping out trying to calm me down and help. But nope, he didnt.

2. When I insisted that he let me speak to his relative he said ok yes, BUT half an hour after I asked him that he called me. I asked for “Sarah’s” number not a connected call from his phone. Meaning he wanted to find someone who could portrait as a girl. And boy was I right.

3. “Sarah’s” voice, remember how I described it? I’ve never herd a girl talk like that, not ever. And I know half the girls in Jeddah and Riyadh. I knew he asked one of his friends do this small yet embaressing favor for him.

4. Laman athan 3ndo w 3ndi f nafs el wagt. No way can both citites athan at the same time, no way!

Shfto mashallah 3alay kaif Im a smart ass? Goolo mashallah!! ;p

I was really impressed with myself. I felt kinda like a detective or something. I had fun with this whole situation he put me in. Haha does he really think I’m that dumb? Like I wont figuire it out? Turned out he was the dumbass not me. He should have been more smarter and thought it through. Awww my baby’s a dumb ass bs he’s my dumbass.. a55555555 bs ya 5aled. I love you!!
So I was going to meet “Sarah” In an hour. I quicly got dressed. I wore my dark blue skinny jeans. A flowly mixed dark colored top. And red Louboutin Heels. And since 7beeby was inlove with curly hair, I curled my up and did I high ponytail.

No offence to those with curly hair but I dont like it. I mean its nice on some girls but its not for me. I love my wavy and straight hair. Mdri wallah kaif bs their like mixed together. My baby claimes he loves it on me more than curly but I know he’s just saying that cause he loves me. I just play along and dont complain.

I dont know whats the big deal with curly hair… all it adds it more volume thats it. Almhm the point it I love my hair hehe…

If any of my pretties have curly haor wallah Im sorry I didnt mean to offend anyone. I love you all.

Anyways while I was on my out of the house my mom stopped me for a second.

Mama: Ry7a kitha ?

Me: E laish ?

Mama: La bs shklik 7lo.

Me: Shkran.

Mama: 3amla sh3rik curly…

Me: E I remember 5aled likes it that way.

Mama: E bs your not going to see 5aled, your going to see his relative.

Me: I know bs I felt like doing it curly today.

Then I gave her a wink.

The whole ride I was nervouse. My heart was speed racing. I knew 5aled was going to show up, I just knew it. But I was kinda scared I might be wrong. I hope Im not. I played detective for three days now. Wallah if it was all for nothing I seriously kill myself.

I arrived. Started to make my way up the steps. I tried finding us a seat but it was too crowded so I just stood at a corner near the elevator. I didnt want people staring at us. Ma kan le 5ulg el nas ywaswesoon!

5aled sent me a message if I was there or not and I told him I was waiting at a far end table. I lied hehe.

Then there he was. Walking up the steps. I could see him. I could see my baby!! Aghhh did he look more fort then ever!!! And yup even though I was standing so far away I could still tell that his abs were rock solid!

Once he got to the top he turned to the right trying to look for me. I was standing to his left.

Me: A77m a77m… so you really thought you could fool me huh ?

Now remember this was the first time seeing him since we broke up.

5aled: Hehe..


We were silent for the first couple of minutes but then he pulled me into him and hugged me tight. I buried myself in his chest. It felt so good to feel his touch again. I missed it so much. Whenever he holds me, I feel safe. I feel like no one could ever harm me.

He then pulled out a small bag and inside it was a Laker jeresey. I love the Lakers!! I hate soccer!! Just this year I learned half the teams hehe.. Mn kthr ma ana ma a6eeeg el kora. Sometimes Im forced to watch the games with my cousins. Wallah ma afham shay. When anyone of the team scores a goal I just yell goal. But I am good at playing it. Strange huh?

Back to me and 5aled.

He then pulled out from his pocket the CLADDAGH RING!!!!!!!!!!!!

I jumped hugged him. I didnt care who was looking!!! I was so happy!!! I finaly got my ring!!! Five years of waiting was SOOOOO worth it. Getting it from 7beeby th elove of my life was so wortht the wait.

I he took my hand and put in on my middle finger then kissed it. I promised him I’d never take it off. And I kept my word. Every now and then I’d kiss it. My friends and cousins would stare at me funny and I would just curse them off.

I spent 2 wonderful AMAZING hours with my baby. Mostley we just stared at eachother and cuddled up. I loved burying myself in his chest. It was cozy.

My baby…

My everything…

7ayati…

’3aramy…

3yooni…

7beebi…

I loved him so much. I’d do anything just to see a smile on his face. 5ala9 this man stole my heart and forever it will be his.

You know that he has this little thing he always says to me… “Always and Forever”

And now all of you are picturing One Tree Hill in your heads right?

He doesnt watch any series. Im the series addict here not him. The only thing he does watch, that I FORCED him to watch it Desperate Dousewives!

He didnt even know about One Tree Hill until I told him about it. He doesnt even watch it.

Awwwww he always says that to me and I instintly feel like Haley :”’)

I told him that it was from the show and he yelled saying “Laaaaaaaaaaaa2 its my words to you.. screw brad mdri nathan hatha el kalb”

Everytime he says it I remind him of the show and he yells to me the same words. I just laugh like crazy! He is the most cutest thing alive!!

A555 and he has this little voice he does which drives me insane!! He’s bad you know that? Whenever Im upset from him or not int he mood he 3ala6ool does the voice and I go CRAAAAAZYYYYYYYYYY !!! It sounds like the little green dinosaur Yoshi but so much more cuter!!

Oh that man is going to drives me into the mad house!! Into a damn asylum if he doesnt stop!

Allah la y7remni mnk ya 5aled !! Gooooloo ameeeeeeen !!

He’s like my own personal brand of heroin .. screw rehab !!!

Theres this one song that reminds me so much of him… I listen to it practicly every single day..

It’s my song people you head me? My song!! ;p
Its so much more diffirent when you hear it.. listen to it !!

I’ll Be – Edwin McCain

The strands in your eyes that color them wonderful
Stop me and steal my breath
And emeralds from mountains thrust towards the sky
Never revealing their depth

And tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I’ll be captivated, I’ll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above

And I’ll be your cryin’ shoulder
I’ll be love suicide
And I’ll be better when I’m older
I’ll be the greatest fan of your life

And rain falls angry on the tin roof
As we lie awake in my bed
And you’re my survival, you’re my living proof
My love is alive, and not dead

Previously on Oh Doctor, Doctor.

The next morning they were having breakfast at the local coffee shop.

“Nouf,”

“3youn Nouf,” she answered him.

“Let’s get married,”

Wow, that was out of the blue…she thought.


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“You’re funny,” she giggled nervously.

He’s joking, right? she thought.

“Baby, I’m serious. Let’s get married. I’d take care of you and look after you. I could transfer back to Doha, if that’s what you want. We don’t have to stay here,” he went on.

“You’re serious?” her eyes narrowed.

“Ee baby, ee. I am,” he took both her hands in his.

“I…I,” she started stuttering.

“Do you know what you’re asking from me?” she continued.

“To be mines,” he held her hands tighter.

“I’m…I’m really sorry Hamad…I can’t,” she lowered her head.

“Why can’t you? We’re official and all, you’re legally mines. It doesn’t matter if we have that big fancy wedding. We could have a small dinner. I want to spend every second with you,”

“You’re pitying me, aren’t you?”

“No,”

“Yes, you are Hamad, I told you. That’s not what I want…we were supposed to break if it off after this,” she whispered.

“Break it off? Why? Laish Nouf? Laish?!”

“I came here to say goodbye. You have your life…and I have mines,” she looked down at her palms, “I have to spend all my times with the people I love. Don’t get me wrong. I love you, I honestly do…but what about my family, don’t you think it isn’t fair for them too? Besides…mabeek t’t3alag feeny wayed. I simply can’t allow that to happen ya Hamad,” she started sobbing.

“Ana already mt3aleg feech ya Nouf! Don’t except me to forget you, because I simply can’t and that’s not something I’m capable of,” he said firmly.

“Hamad, I’m tired. Can we go back and rest for a while?” she massaged her temples.

“Yeah, whatever,” he got up and she followed him.

They walked silently next to each other, each one lost deep in his thoughts.

Why? he thought.

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It was like any other cold day in New York City as Nhayan walked down the streets making his way to Mays AlReem’s appartment. Just a few minutes away from her building, he remembered her feaures and how she changed when he saw her the night before.

“Mayoos,” he called her after many attempts of ringign the door bell.

He could hear two pair of feet dragging themselves to the door.

“Yeah?” she stood at the door.

“Shno yeah? Yalla get up, we’ve got a long day ahead of us,” he turned her around and got in.

“Y3zm nafsa b3d,” she rolled her eyes.

“Mays!”

“Nevermind…just make me a hot cup of coffee will you?”

“No, we’re having breakfast outside.”

“Ok. Just make yourself at home till i finish, yeah?” she called from the bathroom.

“Sure,”

Half an hour later they were out of the appartment heading to one of the local coffee shops downtown. They laughed and played around as he managed to get a few things off her mind. She managed to smile like she used to, only difference was that her face had gotten thinner and her big eyes not as bright anymore.

“How’s Hala and her baby?” she asked about her older sister.

“They’re good. Awashy ntfa, she’s so tiny Mashalla,” he smiled.

“How’s Mishaal?” she referred to his brother and her brother-in-law.

“Alla y3een Halo. Mo em9adeg, kl shway y’3arbelhum,”

They talked about their family and the reminised the good times.

After breakfast, they got up for a long walk down the park.

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Nouf was lying down on the sofa, sideways, her head on his lap. Drawing circles of all shapes and sizes on her back with the tip of his finger, she whispered quietly.

“Z3alt mny?”

“Shloon az3al mnnich?”

“Madryy,”

“I’m sorry,” he kissed her crown.

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“Shtabeen ensawy elyoum?” Nhayan asked her as they exited the park.

Just about to answer, Mays stood in her place, frozen. She couldn’t belive her eyes. She feared it was a mirage…

Khalifa? she thought.

Dear Romeo to be,Been a while since I last wrote you. No, I’d never forget about you .. you’re always a classic background music in my life movie.Well, nothing much to tell you for now .. It’s just a quick note that you should bear in mind!This is a hh…

She is downstairs!She is downstairs right now!Ya3ny if I scream she can hear me!I am literally shivering right now!We are in the same house!But of course she didn’t come to my room..and she won’t..and YES.. I am talking about my best friend here..What …

Three weeks later I called him.

I started missing him again.

I started picturing my future without him. I couldnt…

I mean he knew me inside out. He accepted all my flaws. He accepted my past. He loved me os much and showed it e4ach and every day. Some guys dont do that. He made me laugh and blush each and every day that we were together.

He’s the romantic kind. Always surprising me when I least expected it. Either by his words or by taking action.

I kept thinking what if I cant find someone who treats me the way he did? I knew that if I was with anybody else I would compare him to 5aled my entire life. So what did I do? I went back to the start, to my mom. I didnt wanna call 5aled without her knowing. I never do anything behind my mothers back, never. I cant even if I tried. Thats how close we were.

So I went up to her and told her what I’ve been thinking about the past couple of days and ofcourse I bawled like a baby. She gave me permission and I called him.

Me: Hey you…

5aled: Dina ?

Me: Yeah who’d you think it was ?

5aled: I didnt expect this..

Me: I didnt expect it either. So how are you.

5aled: Good you ?

Me: Good.. ummm happy birthday.

5aled: That was 2 weeks ago.

Me: I know but —

5aled: I know..

Me: Yeah so how’s life ?

5aled: Making it through..

Me: I miss you you know ?

5aled: I miss you too…

Me: Listen I’ve been thinking latley… We could have fixed all of this right? I mean I’ve spent the last few days picturing my life without you and I cant.

5aled: Yeah we could have fixed it I guess… but you didnt want to.

Me: Dont say that. Ofcourse I wanted to but I just… I dont know, I just couldnt take all the drama and pressure anymore. Mn jd it was killing me. It was just too much for both of us.

5aled: 6yb so what do you wanna do ?

Me: This is gonna sound totaly out of the blue but Ive been thinking about it for a while now.. I think you should ask for me.

5aled: You mean your hand in marriage ?

Me: Yeah…

5aled: Isnt it a little two early ? I mean you still didnt graduate high school ?

Me: We can have a long engagment, alot of people do it. We can have a two year engagment.

5aled: Ma a8dar ya Dina. My parents wont allow it and I for fact your mont either.

Me: I just wanna be with you.

5aled: So what are you saying… are we back together ?

Me: I dont know what we are…

5aled: You cant call me and do this to me. 7aram 3leeki.. you cant get my hopes up then break them down again. Its a simple question, are you in or out ?

Me: Listen I got to go. I’ll call you back.


What was I doing? I didnt even have a plan to approach him with. But there was one thing I did mean, well atleast I think I ment it. Marriage. I thought it would be the right thing to do. That way we would be official.

But I ended up breaking his heart again and kind of took back everything I said. I know it was such a horrible thing of me to do. When I think about it, I think it was just a moments thought. You know when your anxious about something and you do something about it. But then you regret ever doing it. Thats how I felt. I didnt think it all through. I acted without thinking.

Then like a couple of weeks before the summer in which we were going to spend in London :D I called him up AGAIN!

But this time for a whole other reason.

” Listen we’ve known eachother now for what? Almost 2 years? I dont wanna throw all that away and I know you dont either. I mean we know everything there is to know about eachother. And obviosuly by now feeling have disappeared. So why cant we just stay friends? I mean theres nothing wrong with ex’s being friends. What harm could there be? And I dont wanna lose someone who could be a very good friend. “


He agreed and so our friendship began. Our feeling were mutual, no feelings what so ever. I couldnt even feel any sparks. It was all gone. I was relieved, I actualy thought this was going to be awkward but it turned out to be nice.

Summer had finaly arrived and we were off to London for a month. I was so excited!! I couldnt wait. Since last year we only got to stay four days due to my grandfathers illness.. Not that I regret any of it. But I was so thrilled to be spending a month there.

You see I lived in london for 4 years when I was young, my dad had a job there for a while before we moved back to Kuwait. For those of you that still dont know, yes I’m from Kuwait :)

Every night when I’d come back home 5aled would call me and we’d stay up talking for five hours. Then I realized I started missing “us”. So day by day my feelings from him started coming back. I didnt really understand what was going on with me, so I put this little thought on hold.

But you see I couldnt put it on hold. It kept digging in deeper and deeper into my head. But I was scared to do anything about it since we both come from diffrent tribes. Ahlo mn makah w ana ahli najdi. I honestly dont know how to explain it except that we were from diffirent tribes. And thats sometimes forwned upon. I was scared to tell my mom.

I called 5aled one night in heavy tears telling him how much I miss him and wanna be with him. I told him that Ive fallen in love with him all over again. And then I told him about the tribes issue and he said it was ok, that we were gonna figuire it all out.

I didnt wanna talk to my mom about it while we were in London, I wanted to wait until we got back home.

My mom knew that me and 5aled were talking again but just as friends.

Rama’6an was finaly here and I was happy. I loved Rama’6an. All my cousins from Riyadh would come and it would be the whole family together. Rama’6an is the most holiday I look forward to.

After dinner at around 10 pm we would all stay back and drink tea and have some cake in the 5aimah. Our 5aimah was gorgous. Gold and beige from the inside. Beautiful!

So one night after dinner were all sitting down drinking our tea. Me, my mom, my aunt, my cousin, and my cousins new bride.

The topic of marriage came up…

5alty: E bs lazim you marry someone who’s at your level.

Me: Sam7eny 5alty bs mo shar6.

5alty: Kaif ?

Me: Well if you love someone thats all the matters. He doesnt have to be from the same tribe. Aham shay el 3eila, if he had a good family and loves me thats all the matters. I mean would you rather be with someone you love or someone your forced to love through an arranged marriage ? It all comes down to love.

5alty: E bs shofy half the family had arranged marriages and look how well they turned out.

Me: Yeah but that doesnt mean I have to have an arranged marriage also. I mean this is my life and I get to choose my husband. I mean not the whole family have to approve. Im the one whos gonna marry him and be with him not you guys.

5alty: So your saying not everyone has to approve.

Me: Yeah. I mean aham shay my mom and dad w bs. Not the the whole family from both sides. Its going ot be my marriage and my future not yours. And I will not allow anyone to take me away from the man I love.


My aunt ofcourse didnt know about 5aled. We were just having a small polite conversation. Thsi wasnt an argument or anything.

Laer that night I was sitting with my mom in the 9alah when she opend up about what happend earlier in the 5aimah. She told me she knew what was truly hidden behind those words. I told her that I ment every word I said, that I wouldnt allow anyone to take away my happiness. She agreed with me one hundred percent. She told me that the yes decision will be made my her and my dad. No one would get in the way of my happiness. She promised me that she will stand by me with whatever I choose to do.

I was relieved. Now I knew this ment she’s given me the green light to be with 5aled in the future, law Allah kateb inshallah.

I was so happy! I called 5aled 3ala6ool.

He was over the moon.

And other great news… he was coming to Jeddah!! :D

Was this my lucky day or what ?

My man was coming to see me in a few days.

But then like two days later he told me things backfired and that theres a chance he wouldnt be able to make it.

I cried at first begging him to come and that I need to see him. But then I took a second and thought really hard. This guy was up to something. Something I wouldnt let him fool me with again.

Oh it was on. He wants to play? Oh I’ll play.

Only this time, I get the last laugh.

Since all of you are confused, here’s the character key…

Guy with the Economist and suitcase in hand AKA Hamad: Main character.

Nouf: Hamad’s fiancée.

Nhayan: Hamad’s brother.

Girl that Hamad spilled his coffee over her papers in Part 1 AKA girl Nhayan met with: Nhayan’s best friend.

‘He’ as in guy who checked in: You’ll have to figure that out!

P.S. El mar7oom that I mentioned is her (Nhayan’s best friend) brother.

Clear?

Love you all.

ليس الفتى من قال كان أبي
و انما الفتى من قا ها أنا ذا
I LOVE HAL BAAIT! Its soo truee….Itha wa7id ib yathbit roo7a aw sha59eeta fa rajaa2aann la ytifalsaf ib a9la w fa9la aw ina ubooy kaan ysawwi chithee…ithbit roo7ik w sha59eetik ib sum3itik w ib majhoodik…ma y9eer na7kum 3ala L naas ib a9ilhum w fa9ilhum winni3im ib kil L 3waayil…bas ballah wa7id min 3ayla waayid high moo zain..w L thany w 3ayla anzal shway..a5laa8 w tarbiyya w 5osh wa7id…in7ib L awwal laish ina min L 3ayla L flaniyyaa? La 6ab3aan! I’m soo soryy to say this..bas ba3th L naas illi bil kuwait waayid 3indihum racisim min na7yat a9il w fa9il w kuwaitiyya aw moo kuwaitiyya..my friend moo kuwaitiyya galatli..Glittery i was standing in line w illi waray itgoolli fee nas moo mitrabyeen fee nas ma ysti7oon 3la wyoohim yayeen deeratna w ham ya5thoon doorna…Ya3ni shagool? seriously! moo la2ina i7na kuwaitiyeen nrfa3 5shoomna 3ala baji L naas….w bas mani imkamla cuz i know myself i’ll never stop :p mawthoo3 kaan waayiid im2azzimni :p….anywayzzz…..
I WROTE A POST! :O :O :O WAA7IIDDD THAALITH! U LOVE ME? Pshhh i know u do (a) :Pp

THIS ONE IS DEDICATED TO 7AMOOOOOOD! :p hehe..welcum to the family ;D

P.S. illi yabi dedication ygooli wana 7aathir :p

ENJOY:**

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Previously

Jood: Zaaid i can’t.. i get that ur sorry..w i get that u regret everything..i know that we were young at that time and u thought u were doing the right thing..bas no matter what Zaid *sniff* we can’t be together…though i love you…*gasp* bas we can– can’t…

she started crying…the thought of them not being together broke her heart…its true she still loves him..but what about Mshary? she won’t just leave him will she?He hugged her tight…he was trying to clam her down..

Zaid: Bas joody..bas la tabcheen…5alaa9…everything has a solution..

Jood: laaa *sniff* moo kil shay Zaaid..moo kil shay…*gasp*

Zaid: *wiping her tears* we’ll work it out i promise…

JOod: w *sniff*..Mshary?

He stepped back, held her face, and looked straight in her eyes..

Zaid: it7ibbeena?

Jood shifted her gaze to the person behind Zaid…she was trembling with fear….

Zaid: Joody shfeech?

Jood: *pointing her finger at the person* .. M-Mshaa–Mshary
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Zaid turned around to face him, expecting the worst..a fight? maybe..but whatever it is he was ready for it..ready to face him for Jood..but what he saw is something he never expected to see..he looked at Jood who was still shocked from the scene…he grabbed her arm and took her away..away from Mshary…

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M7ammad~

Ma taboon it3arfoon shgilt 7ag Amanda? .. hahaa..tw8a3t..ooo nisaait Shaheeen! kahu 3umra 6weel..la7tha shway..

Shaheen: ALOOOOOOOOO! WAAIINIIIK?

M7ammad: Agoollik ba3daain …

Shaheen: La wallaah? 5 digayig inta 3ndi FAAAHIIMMMM?!

M7ammad: hehehe…zaain zaaaiinn..kaani yaay..

6oooo6 6oooooooo6 6oooooooooooo6…

ohh intaw lail7een hnee? 3aadi 6awfaw..ana w shaheen killa chithee.. :p ….agoollikum ? ….inzaain 5alaa9 bagool :p

tathkiroon yom illi shft fee Jood w s2ilatny itha shft hatha illi isma…walaaaaiinn killa ansa isma..ee ee Mshaary? tathkiroon? chan agoolaha ina kan y7achy wa7da…ma chathabt..kan 9ij y7achy wa7da..bas lama shft.ha mi5tar3a w ibtabchi gtlaha ina y7achy rifeeja…tadroon ohwa laaish yaay Miami? moo 3ashaan Jood..*laughing sarcastically*…haha..i know every single girl in Miami..w knt 6ali3 marra ma3a L shabab wla ashoof Amanda…Galatli.. “Ohh..Mohd..there’s a cute kuwaiti guy called Mashary..we two are dating..do u know him?” .. awwal shay gtlaha la2..ba3dain chan astaw3ib..sa77abt minha 7achi..la la ma sa77abt ihya no3ha tgool min ghair la a7ad ys2alha..9aida wallaah :p .. 6ala3 ohwa nafsa Mshary 5a6eeb Jood..gtlaha ina he’s engaged w min hal 7achi…chan tgoolli “OMG! THAT FREAK! :O :O :O.. poor thingy Jood..Oh My god he’s such an ass..” ..moo gtlikum hablaa :p daggaait 3alaiha w gtlaha 3an L 5i66a..inha troo7 ma3a Mshary…w t5alli Jood itshoofhum…

thbi6at L 5i66aa?

Wallah madri….

Yallah wi9alt L garage…

asma3 naas tith7aak…”banat” .. akeed Haloo..la la bas hatha moo 9ot.ha..

He went inside the garage and saw Shaheen smiling..he looked Happy…Very Happy..

’3areeba? shfee ytibosam? tawwa im3a9ib ..

the giggles and laughs kept continuing…

M7ammad: Hala ib shaheen…haa mistanis?

Shaheen: hala ib bu Jasooom! hala ib 7abeebii….ee akeed mistanis… ;D

shfeeh hatha?

M7ammad: moo tawwik im3a9ib w 7altik 7alaa?

Shaheen: willi yshoof hal wayh ygdaar y3a99ib..*looking to his right side*


























M7ammad: *looking to Saheen’s right side*………Nooraa?!

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Zaid~

Zaid: Joody Imshaayy…

Jood: shloonn sawwaa feeni chithee?! SHLOON?

Zaid: 5alaa9 Jood insee! ma yestahal!

Jood: hdni Zaid..baroo7laa ..BAROO7LA!

Zaid: shbitsaween ya3ni..? Jood 5alaa9 shftay sh.sawwaa..moo zain itkalmeena wintaay chithee..!

Jood: Mali shi’3il….MA YSTI7I 3ALA WAYHAA!

Zaid: Jood la7thaa…JOOOOOOOD!

she went to Mshary..burning with rage..she didn’t know what to do to him…but she was determined to go…she saw him kissing a girl in public..w he’s engaged..even though she didn’t love him..but he’s her cousin..she trusted him..SHE BELIEVED HIM..and now he simply cheats on her…Zaid could’nt stop her..knowing how stubborn she is..he just let her go…ofcourse still being behind her…

Jood: Mshary?

Mshary: uhh…Jood? intay shyaybich hnee? uh…*nervous*

Jood: mino hathi?

Mshary: haa?! mino illi mino? intay shga3da tgooleen?

Jood: MSHARY RID 3ALAY! LA ITSAWI ROO7IK MA TADRI! MINO HATHI L SHAGRA ILLI KANAT TAMSHI MA3AK TAW MSA3?!

Mshary: Jood i can explain…wallaah i can explaain…

Jood: TA7LIF BA3AAD?! TA7LIFF! EXPLAAIN WHAT HAA? EXPLAIN U KISSING A GIRL BIL SHARI3? UR ENGAGED FOR GOD’S SAKE! WAAIN ILLI GALLI ANA TA3BAN W BARID L HOTEL? HAAAA? LAAISH ITCHATHIB 3ALAAY ? ANA SH.SAWWAAYTLIK?! RID 3ALAY MSHAARY ANA SH.SAWWAAYTLIK!?

Mshary: ……………………

Zaid: Jood yallah …

Jood: la7thaa shway Zaid..

Mshary: HUH..yaybaa hatha ma3ach ba3ad?

Jood: AT LEAST MOO ANA ILLI GA3DA BIL SHARI3 MA3A BANAT 8ALEELAAT ADAB!

Mshary: BAS! LA IT9AR5EEEN….YAYA IT9AR5EEN 3ALAY WNTAY AL3AAN MINI! MOO BAS ANA ILLI GA3ID MA3A BANAT..KAA 3ADLAAY NAFSICH AWWAAL!

Jood: *tearing up* shino?! anaaa?! ana illi a3addil nafsi awwal ya mshaary?! haaa?

She felt offended…a5yas shu3oor bil 3alam lama a7ad ygool inkum sawaitaw shay wntaw moo imsaweenaa..3araftaw L feeling?

Mshary: La tg3ideen itibachbichaain 3ndii..! laa w yaybita ma3ach ba3ad!

Zaid: I7TIRIM NAFSIK A7SANLIK!

Mshary: OHHHH! w itdafi3 3anha ba3ad! 9ij inik Ma tisti7i 3ala wayhik! lik 3aain itta7achaa haaa?!

Zaid was about to talk when Jood shouted..

Jood: MINO ILLI LA 3AAIN YT7ACHA? INT WLA OHWA? *Sniff* .. MADRI MINO ILLI GA3I–














*SLAAAPP*

before she continued her sentence mshary slapped her.he slapped her infront of everyone…..infront of Zaid..

Mshary: *breathing heavily* 3ashan it3arfeen shlon itkalmeeny marra thanya! FAHMA!

Zaid went to punch him, to slap him..to kill HIM! he was furious..but Jood didn’t let him..

Mshary left before they even left..he knew zaid won’t let this go..and he’s definately starting a fight..he was mad..he couldn’t understand what he just did…he felt..GUILTY..

Jood: *grabbing Zaid’s arm* lets go Zaid…

Zaid: hideeeni …

Jood: *sniff* zaaid 5alaa9 5alla yroo7…

zaid: *facing her* YMID EEDA 3ALAICH W A5ALEEH YROO77??!!

Jood: *gasp* zaaid please..*sniff* please zaaid..bas 5alaa9…

Zaid: *calming down* ufff….bas 5ala9 la tabcheen yallah nroo7…

He wrapped his arms around her shoulders and walked with her till they reached home..

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W 5ALLAA9 L POSSSTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <– ( LOOL Meemz tithakkartich :p) hehe..SHBI9EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEERRRR???!!! W MINO NOOOORAAAA???!! w SHISAWI MSHAARYY??! bifilloon l 5i6baa?! Hmm…*thinking*..ooo 9a7 i don't neef to think cuz i already know (6) MWA7A7A7A7A7A7A7A7AA7A7A7A :p hehee…

W comments? pleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeezz :p

LUV U :************

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I have a question? is anyone reading my story ya3neee i have no feedback fa please abee a3arif 3ashan i either continue as planned wila i hurry up with the events 3ashan a5ali9 il story o i stop writing !!fa please tell me what do u think;**

I just wanna thank all of you!
Mn jd your comments about my mom were the sweetest! You guys put a huge huge smile on my face! I love you all so much ! ;**

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Yes 2009 had hidden doors for us.

Doors we never thought we’d enter.

It all started in March, our constant non stop fighting. We fought every single day and if we were lucky, we’d get an off day of not speaking to eachother. I didnt know what was going on. It all seemed so perfect. I guess its true what they say… nothing in this world is perfect.

He got jelouse more and more each day. His sensitivity was starting to take controle over him. His rules were too demanding and I just couldnt stand for it. It was getting too much. He was pressuring me, my own parents dont even give me this much orders and rules. I felt trapped, like he put me on a corner.

I told him how I felt but all it would do is lead ot more fighting.

Im not saying I was perfect, I too had my bad side in all this.

According to him, ana 3aneda. And ok yeah fine ymkin a3anid from time to time bs mu dayman. No one ever complained ini 3aneeda other than him. Its the only explination he could ever give me. “inti 3aneda inti 3aneda”. 6yb ok etha ana 3aneda fine we got that, bs wsh ba3ad? Give me something to work with here!

And yeah I was stubborn. What girl isn’t ? It’s in our nature!

So you can all see where Im going with this?

IT WAS TOO MUCH!

I couldnt take it anymore so I asked for a break.

5aled: What do you mean a break ?

Me: I wanna take some time apart to think.

5aled: Think about what ?

Me: Thats the point, thinking. I dont know ya 5aled.. I just wanna be alone for a while.

5aled: For how long y3ni ?

Me: Mdri ymkin a week.

5aled: Aha…

Me: Yeah…

5aled: You know I love you right ?

Me: Yeah.. me too

5aled: So when does this break start ?

He said that in such a cold sarcastic way.

Me: I was hoping after I hung up..

5aled: Wow thats fast…

Me: The faster the more progress..

5aled: You think we need progress?

Me: Oh c’mon 5aled you know we do! Am I theonly one thats been alive these past couple of weeks? Were falling apart!!

5aled: 6yb ya Dina 6yb. Eli yeray7ik.

Me: So yallah I have to go.. bye.

5aled: Umm…

Me: Haa?

5aled: Dont you wanna say anything else ?

Me: No. I cant say it.

5aled: Bye.

Me: Bye.


That was so painful for me. I never expected it to get this bad for us. We had fights before, we took a few hours to think things through then figuired it all out. But I did what I thought was best and I was satisfied with my decision.

Three days later I called him.

Me: I dont know how to say this…

5aled: You said you needed a week.

Me: I guess I just needed three days.

5aled: 6yb esh feeh ?

Me: I thing we should break up..

5aled: What ?

Me: I dont think were doing so well. Its been so many weeks, were going through hell and we cant seem to fix it.

5aled: Dont you have faith in us? We can and we will fix this.

Me: I dont think we can.. 5aled wallah Im sorry but I just cant take this anymore. I dont wanna cry every night before I go to sleep and wake up depressed. Im only 16, I shouldnt be pressure this much. Im still a kid.

5aled: So this is it y3ni? 5ala9? Entahena?

Me: Yeah..

5aled: I cant bleieve this..

Me: Listen …

5aled: Na3am ?

Me: I want you to not let this bring you down please. Your capable of amazing things and I believe in you. I may not be there with you, but I’ll be thinking of you. Your off to college by the end of the year and I know you’ll do great. Iam so proud of you. And if another girl comes along I want you to take that chance. Love the girl. Treat her like a queen. I want you to be happy. Dont drown yourself. If you love me then move on and be happy.

I could hear him crying.

5aled: Dina ma a8dar.. Im in love with you. I cant imagine myself with anyone other than you. Please.. please dont do this. Dont break my heart.

Me: You think this isnt killing me? You think this is easy for me? Its not! But Im doing what I think is best.

5aled: So I cant even call from time to time to check up on you? We cant even be friends? Nothing?

Me: We both know that would be a bad idea.

5aled: Dina Al X …. I love you. No one can ever take your place.

Me: Someone will 5aled. Someone will.

5aled: So…

I started tearing up.

Me: So now were both gonna hang up and wash our faces and smile.

5aled: Mn jidik ?

Me: E Im serious.. life is too short.

5aled: Good bye Dina..

Me: Good bye 5aled… I love you.


That phone call haunted me for the rest of the days that came. I couldnt believe how strong I was, the way I pulled myself together and made that call. It was one of the hardest things I ever had to do.

Other than losing 5aled, I also lost 3bdulah.

I decided to not have any man in my life. I guess I wanted a fresh start. So I called him up, gave him a ten second talk. “listen alot of problems are happening and I just cant talk to you anymore, I hope you understand “. And he said ” I uderstand, whatever it is I hope you get through it “.

He didnt really show much emotion, he was kinda cold I guess. But I mean I guess I would be too if he fj2a called me up and said those words to me. But I had my reasons, he just didnt know them.

Two of my favorite men in the whole world were then gone in a blink of an eye.

It was hard, especialy with 5aled. I was depressed sitting at home for 2 weeks. My mom would be by my side the entire time. She was the only one that I could talk to really about how I was feeling. She did her best to try and make me forget him and move on.

At times I’d be happy and cheery but then Id suddenly remember him and break down all over again.

I would be in my pijamas and glasses all day until my mom forces me to go shower.

I know your all reading this thinking how could a guy do this to her?

Well he did. And Im not making any of this up. From the start I told you all that I would be very blunt and honest.

The most harderst day was our anniversary… May 11th.

My best friend Lulu asked me to come over to her place ont hat day. She didnt want me to be alone and breakd own again. She wanted me to forget about him. I was so afraid of this day. I didnt wanna be depressed. I was sick of it.

Remember when I said how music controled my emptions? Well it did on my way to Lulu’s house. I listend to sad love songs on my ipod the while ride over. I wanted to switch to a more cheerful song but I just couldnt. I wanted to listen to hearbreak and feel it all over again.

Once I was there, I started to smile and laugh again. I was my old self. But then in the middle of it all I broke down. Lulu was there by my side the whole time. She talked to me and made me realize that I’d done the right thing and that I will eventualy get over it. Her words cooled me down.

I eneded up having a really nice annaversary with Lulu.. ;p

Then three weeks after that.. I called him.

Missed you all Oh so much .. Dedicated to all of you Specially ZARH:* since your staying a little longer Inshallah Doom your inspired 3ashan you never leave-Nawarii .. This is 4 u cause im pretty sure your not gonna hate me this time by the end of the …

Ahlaaaaain!! 3indi email 7ag eley 3endihum ay so2al 3an ayam gabul. 7ag eley yabi yitwa9al ma3ay b3ad. Hatha uhwa el email; sham3at.al.jillas@live.com. Ou tislimoooon.

After fixing up his famous dessert and excusing himself from the two couples at dinner, he took his coat and walked out of the house to meet her. He walked to 857 Broadway in Union Square. When he got to Tisserie the smell of the fresh Venezuelan cocoa filled his nostrels as he scanned the place for her.

He found her sitting at the coffee table next to the window looking out of the other street. He walked over to her and sat opposite to her, remaining quiet as she was lost in thoughts. He studied her face. It had gotten thinner and the black circles under her eyes weren’t helping. That spark that was in her eyes wasn’t there anymore. Her lips weren’t curved upwards the way they used to be.He reached out for her cold hand.

“I’m here,”

A small smile formed on her face, she missed him. She missed the shoulder she had to cry on. She missed the love and care he used to radiate. She missed him, the brother she never had. The best friend who was always there for her is finally here.

“I miss you,”

“I miss you more,” he sat next to her as he side hugged her, “how’ve you been?” he asked her, dreading the answer to his question.

“I won’t lie to you and tell you that I’m completely normal, because I’m not. I miss him, Nhayan. I miss my baby, my love. I miss him. Everyday I wake up with hope that he’ll come back to me, trying to make myself smile again when at the end of the day I’m crying myself to sleep just because he hasn’tcome yet. I’m tired, Nhayan.”

He felt her voice get shaky when he pulled her in for a warm, caring hug.

“When will you stop?” he asked her.

“What do you mean when will I stop?”

“When will you stop waiting for him? He’s gone. Why are you doing this to yourself.”

“Nhayan, you don’t get this. I’ve been with him for the past three years or so and you simply want me to forget about him? That’s not an easy thing to do, to forget your loved one,” she felt hurt.

“If he really loved you he wouldn’t have left you, no?”

“Oh please, you’re not making this any easier,” she said, frustrated.

“That’s because you’re running away from reality. You’re scared. I don’t care if you’re ignoring the fact, but come on! Your mom is worried sick about, your sister, w law el mar7oom kan mawjood, he would’ve been here to help, but I’m doing that for him. That’s not the only reason. You’re like my small sister, I look out for you. I know whats best for you, and what you’re doing now is not healthy, don’t you understand?”

She turned her head and looked out the window as a single tear made it’s way down her cheek.

“Bs a7eba ya Nhayan, a7eba,” she broke down.

“Shhh, it’s ok babe, we’ll get through this together, I promise you,” he calmed her down.

Later that night he walked her back to her appartment and left for his hotel. His hands were in his side pockets and the cold was getting worse. Small snow flakes began to make their way down onto the surface.

He entered the hotel and straight away walked to the elevators, but little did Nhayan know that he was at the reception desk checking in.

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The next morning they were having breakfast at the local coffee shop.

“Nouf,”

“3youn Nouf,” she answered him.

“Let’s get married,”

Wow, that was out of the blue…she thought.

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Hahaha, enjoy the cliffhanger 7abaybe :*

P.S. DAZZY, I MISS YOU! Wainich? :(

P.P.S. Ignore the speeling mistakes, my spell check thingy isn’t working :S

P.P.P.S. Feel better soon Inshalla Zuzzy :*

Missed you all Oh so much .. Dedicated to all of you Specially ZARH:* since your staying a little longer Inshallah Doom your inspired 3ashan you never leave – Nawarii .. This is 4 u cause im pretty sure your not gonna hate me this time by the end of th…

It was the morning of my birthday and I honestly couldn’t care less. I woke up with barely enough energy for anyone. I saw a missed call from A7med but I just ignored it and went back to sleep. A few moments later I felt my phone vibrate and it…

ta’alaqat;pta7iyaaaty;*

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ENJOYY :********

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previously

Calling Zayood…

M7ammad: aloo..hala ib Bu 7arooth..ba’3aitik shway…ZAID LAZIM ITYEE THAROORY! .. SHINO MA TGDAAR!?…AGOOLLIK THAROORY TA3AAAL !…Ma feeny shay…bas abeek ityee shway…ana bil supermarket illi yam L garage…yallah moo it6awwil na6rik…BSIR3A!

okaaayyy sawwaait L 5i66a L oola ba3daain? chinni bablish nafsi..la2ana madri shlon ba5alleehum y7achoon ba3ath :)..iffff…fakkir 7amoodd fakkir! LIGAIT.HA!

Calling Amanda...

M7ammad: Hi Amanda…I need a favor..

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hahaha! mission 2 is done…L7een L dor 3alay…

He took a deep breath and entered the supermarket..looked for Jood in his eyes..he smiled when he found her, and he stood right behind her…

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Jood~

Waaayyy yaa rabbii! kilshaay bil dnya 7atta L kakaaw 9aar 3la hannah montana…waaayy! ma thba7oonna feehaa? (5brat glittery L disneyya :p)

M7ammad: Jood?

*turning around to face him* shfee serious chithee?

JOod: na3am?

M7ammad: sim3eeny Zaain…ana adri inich ma it7ibeen Mshary, w adri ina waayid im2atheech..i can tell ina u too are just friends, i can see it in ur eyes. ur always distracted..w its only 3 times that i actually saw u..bas u always smile to urself..weird,to alot of people but not to me…*smile* tadreen laish? Because ur in luv..w i know how it feels when ur in love JOod..w ur not in luv ma3a Mshary…U luv Zaid..

Jood:…………..

WTH? how did he?…How does he know me so well? ..shdarraaah?

M7ammad: *smile* Jood there’s something i know…bas mabi agoollich iyyaah..3al a8al moo L7een…

JOod: ….*clearing her throat* e7m..ee bas u don’t know me…shdarraak ina i’m not in love with Mshary! w laa i’m not in love with Zaid!

M7ammad: *smile* stop lieing to urself Jood..u can’t keep running away forever…u feared zaid not coming back..bas now u fear his presence..tadreen laaish? tadreen ina kil ma a7ad iyeeb 6ari Zaid ur face lights up? i’m not stupid Jood..i can see that ur truely in love with him…

Jood: *nervous*I’M NOT! U DON’T KNOW ME A9LAAN! ITS ONLY THOSE 3 DAYS THAT I ACTUALLY TALKED TO U!

she didn’t want to admitt it..you know when ur nervous and u don’t know what ur saying? this is whats happening to Jood now..He left her when he knew she was about to cry..he left and saw Zaid running towards him…

Zaid: haa shfeek?! *breathing heavily* sh9aayiirr?!

M7ammad: Shaheen ta3baan…ana baroo7la L7een wnt ma 3alaaik amir mur L jam3iyyaa yeebla 3a9eer..

Zaid: shfeee shaheeen?! 7AMOOD GOOLLI SH9AYIR!?

M7ammad: ma fee illa L 3afya..la it7aatee…bas roo7 yeeb 3a9eer wana na6rik bil garage..

Zaid rushed in the supermarket…and went to the juice section..thats when he saw her..thats when he was mesmorised by her beauty..by the look in her sad eyes…she turned around and there eyes met…it wasn’t like every time…it was different..u know when u love someone and that someone is very close but no matter how close u are ur still too far away? thats how they felt…he came closer to her..he didn’t know what to say..he just continued walking forward..every step he took towards her made him happy..she saw him and uncontrollably smiled..what M7amamd said kept repeating in her head..she couldn’t stay away from zaid..her childhood friend..the love of her life..but she also has Mshary who was there for her when Zaid was not..who stood beside her and supported her in every important step in her life…

JOod: *smile*

Zaid: *smiling back* hi..

JOod: hi..

Zaid: uhh..Joody..i mean Jood ..

Jood:….

Zaid: *deep breath* Jood..we need to talk…

She looked deep into his hazel eyes…she couldn’t disagree..

Jood: sure..

Zaid: ni6la3?

Jood: uhh…

ee bas mshaary?..huufff! whatever i need to hear him out…

Jood: ok..

she dropped her basket, placed it on the side, and walked beside Zaid…they stayed silent for 15 minutes…15 minutes just walking in the streets side by side..he didn’t know what to say but he just didn’t want her to go…

Zaid: *sigh* asiff…

Jood: 3la shino?

Zaid: for everything Joody..for me leaving and never come back..for me not being there for you..for me being selfish and only thinking about myself..for me loving u..and for me never forgeting u..asiiff Jood..asiiff..

They stopped walking and faced each other..

Jood: I’m sorry too…*looking down*

Zaid lifted her chin up gently..he looked lovingly at her and smiled..

Zaid: 3la shino Joody?

Jood: …………………

Zaid shifted his gaze to the necklace wrapping her neck..it was a butterfly necklace..he remembers it very well..how could he possibly forget it? he was shocked to find her still wearing it..she didn keep her word..she did wear it all those years…guilt started to eat him up…

Zaid: lail7een labsat.ha?

she looked to where he was looking ,saw the butterfly necklace he gave her, and nodded silently…

Zaid: asiff..wallaah asiff Jood..ma kaan 8a9di asawwi feech chitheee…ma kaan 8a9di athaygich.. sawwaait kil hatha la2ini a7ibbich…a7ibbich JOody…w lail7een a7ibbich..

Jood: Zaaid i can’t.. i get that ur sorry..w i get that u regret everything..i know that we were young at that time and u thought u were doing the right thing..bas no matter what Zaid *sniff* we can’t be together…though i love you…*gasp* bas we can– can’t…

she started crying…the thought of them not being together broke her heart…its true she still loves him..but what about Mshary? she won’t just leave him will she?

He hugged her tight…he was trying to clam her down..

Zaid: Bas joody..bas la tabcheen…5alaa9…everything has a solution..

Jood: laaa *sniff* moo kil shay Zaaid..moo kil shay…*gasp*

Zaid: *wiping her tears* we’ll work it out i promise…

JOod: w *sniff*..Mshary?

He stepped back, held her face, and looked straight in her eyes..

Zaid: it7ibbeena?

Jood shifted her gaze to the person behind Zaid…she was trembling with fear….

Zaid: Joody shfeech?

Jood: *pointing her finger at the person* .. M-Mshaa–Mshary..
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W 5ALLAA9 L POSSSTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SHFTAW SHLON ANA 3AJEEBAA? 2 POSTS WARA BA3ATH :O :O :O SHBI9EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR???!!! MA TADROON? MWA7A7A7A7A7A77A7A7A7A7AA7A7 (6) ull know next postt :p nanananaa :p hehee :p

LUV U :*********

I wished I could have stayed longer but my friend was waiting for me out in the car. I was happy yet sad at the same time. I only got to sit with him for ten minutes.

When I got home later that night my mom asked me…

Mama: Ha shfty ?

Me: Umm.. huh ? You know ?

Mama: E 6b3an I l know..

Me: Kaif ?

Mama: Well he called me a few days ago and we kind of planned this.

Me: Haha my boyfriend and my mom !! Now thats something you dont see often everyday!

Mama: Al 3omoom did u have fun ?

Me: Yeah.. Ummm.. can I see him tommorow ?

Mama: You already saw him.

Me: La Sarah kanat m3ay f bs ga3at ma3a 10 minutes.

Mama: 6yb ok.

The next day we met up and it was really amazing.

The place where we met up at was so empty, I mean there were only like 4 other people bs besides us.

Each table was inside a booth, so ofcourse we took one.

I sat on his lap and rested my head on his chest.. and we just talked. He would kiss the top of my head every now and then. My stomach was filled with butterflies, they wouldnt go away. See what this guy does to me? Just by a simple kiss on the head and I would go crazy!

Theres something about him, the way he makes me feel. He makes me feel good about myself. He makes me feel beautiful. He makes me feel smart. He makes me feel confident. He makes me feel all the possible good a person can have.

So while I was restING my head on his chest, I fj2a fell asleep.

Here’s what he told me later that night…

” You were so cute I didnt wanna wake you. So peaceful.. I never knew you could be. Half your chest was showing and see I was such a gentelman that I didnt take advantage. I covered you up nice and proper. I didnt even stare down. Ther best half hour of my life.. I wanna wake up everyday with you lying on my chest.”

Awwwwwwwwwwwww isnt he the best ?!

Anyways so before I left earlier that night I did something.. something we both did no expect to happen.

I kissed him goodnight on the cheeck and then stood up. I took a step then turned right back around and kissed him!!

I kissed him !!!

On his bloody lips !!

What was I doing ??

No !!

I didnt even wait for him to reply, I just ran off and into my car. Didnt even give him a chance to speak.

When I got back home I texted him.

oh my god im so sorry !! wallahi i never ment to do that.. i dont know what got over me.. lets just forget it ever happend!! ;$

lat 5feen 7beebty bl 3ax.. i dnt wish it never happend. Im happy it did.

wallah? so were ok? you dnt think im a whore or anything ?

why would i think ur a whore? i love you..

it was so outta the blue.. i dont want you to think im one of “those” girls…

ma asm7lik tgoleen kitha.. you are not and will NEVER be one of those girls. i know u.. the only thing i thought about when u kissed me was how much i love u.. ;** 7beebty inti

ok good.. i was so scared ;s

7beebty theres no need to be.. umm lsn im still with the guys .. fa when they drop me back home ill call u !

ok 7beeby i love u <3

not as much as i love u <3<3

This guy was amazing.

He’s all I think about every minute of the day.

2008 was the best year of my life.

I met someone real.

Someone who loved me for me.

Accepted all of my bagage.

Understood me completley.

Didnt judge me.

He was the perfect man.

I used to always think about the one, the one who will sweep me off my feet and carry me off into the sunset. Although this wasnt exactley like that, but still.. he treated me like his little princess. He spoiled me rotton.

Yes, 2008 was where everything started to look up.

Well true, except for one thing…. 3aysha.

For the whole year she’s been nothing but distant with me. I tried talking to her a million times, repeating the same thing over and over again but my words would just go through one year then out the other.

I sat her down and talked to her three times but still nothing !!

Me: Listen I dont know whats been going between us but I really want it to stop.

3aysha: Stop what? Theres nothing wrong ?

Me: C’mon 3aysha dont play dumb you know exactley what I mean.

3aysha: Dina.. you know what you did I dont have to sit her and explain it to you.

Me: I think you do cause I have no idea what your talking about..

3aysha: ……

Me: Aha 6yb.. well whatever I did to to you Im sorry. But you have to apologize too you know.

3aysha: Ana wsh sawait ?

Me: You were kinda rude at my sweet 16 —

Whenever I’d try to speak, to say something that involved her she would find a way to shut me up. To me it’s like she knows what she’s done but does not wanna admit it. Her whole life whenever she does something wrong she never owns up to it. She always has to be right. Little miss perfect. But thats not healthy. We have to be aware of what we do, both the good and the bad.

Ive had this exact same conversation with her over and over again. But it’s like talking to a brick wall!

This showed me what a cruel selfish immature person she is.

Who knew that someone you’ve grown up with your whole life would one day actualy turn on you?

After that I gave up. Whenever I saw her I would say hi and thats it. I would take the hight road and smile like nothing happend. She didnt bring me down, she only helped me rise higher. :)

El 7mdelah everything was picture perfect betweeen me and 5aloodi. We were both crazy for eachother.

But 2009 had hidden doors for us.

Doors we never thought we’d enter.

Nothing really happens much during the last two months of 2008. It’s all just perfect. All you’ll be hearing is the same thing over and over again. So why bore you with that?

Love you all and goodnight!

7amad has a girl friend :) …. w no its not me…waaii33 waaii33 waaii33 6AB3AAAN ITS NOT MEE! L mohim shlon Glittery L thakiyya 3rifaat?! a9laan its soo expected of him ina 3nda GF since he’s a FLIRT :) .. anyways…marra dashait dari w kanat my window opened .. gabil la afta7 L lights smi3at voices…w when i peeked chan ashoofa masik his mobile w ygool “7ayaaatiii”….9ar feeni waaiii33333! ofcourse he’s not his friend cuz he’ll be TOOOOO GAAAYYY! L mohim … marrat L ayyaam….w tathkirroon lama agoollikum ina he sings..well he sings even more in winter! cuz his window is constantly opened..fa i always here him sing and stuff..w ma y’3anii illa lama ykoon 3indi EXAMZ! 7maar! excuse my language :) .. marra which is 6 days ago i think..i closed my lights w r7t ba9ik my window wla ashoofa masik his mobile w y’3ani…”aaahhhh…bla bla bla …a7ib…bla bla bla…aahhhh” thats all i could here :p he sings 7ag his GF! waayiidd ksaraat 5a6ri maskeena ma tadri billi ysaweeeh :p..wallah he’s such a player! ta5ayyilaw! y’3ani 7ag his GF w his eyes 3ala my window! I SWEAR TO GOD Y6LAI3 MY WINDOW EVEN WHEN MY LIGHTS ARE CLOSED! WHICH IS SOOO SPOOOKY! MA A7IBBAAAAAAAAA!! IN 10 DAYS 39 ZEGAAYIRR! w bas 5alaa9 :p mani imkamla …:P the rest of our adventures tngaal ba3dain..min wana 9’3eera min gabil L notes fee adventures tara :p anyways….this is a post like i said :p

w this one is dedicated to … HOPE ;* … THANK U HUN FOR ALWAYS COMMENTNIG :*

My lovely readers a small msg…plz comment…la2ana when i don’t see enough comments killish ma atshajja3 aktib post..a9lan shlon ba3arif u read the post illa if u commented istaw3abtaw? :p w 7ag my faithful commenters..y3arfoon roo7hum..I LUV U WAAYIIDD WAAYIIIDDD W THANK U FOR ALWAYS SUPPORTING ME..MEANS ALOT WALLAH :**

ENJOY :************

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previously

I CAN SERIOUSLY KILL THAT PERSON RIGHT NOW! WAAAIIII33333333333! *imitating his voice* bye ya 7lwa…iffff … maleeeeeeeeeeeeeeee8! maleee88 maleee88 maaleeeeeeeeeeee8! killish ma 7abbaaita! madri shlon zaaid rifeejaa…o he made me doubt Mshaary! GOD i feel like a bitch for doubting him akeed he won’t cheat on me…its Mshary..he said he won;t leave me for nohing..plus he came to the states just to see me…he won’t be cheating 9a7?

Mshary: aahhh….joody asiif 6awwalt 3alaaich .. yallah mishaaina?

Jood: ohh Mshary… yallaaah *smile*

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Mshary was staying for a week. the next 2 days were awesome! Jood had a lot of fun with Mshary…yeah he was still getting these phone calls but at least she knew it was one of his friends or his mother. Jood was worried about Zaid, she didn’t see him much in college those past days..its only that one time when he smiled at her then walked away…he didn’t even say hi..it worried her, although thats what she wanted right? him staying away..atleast just when Mshary is around? She couldn’t stop thinking about him..

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Zaid~

*sigh* ta3abt min kithir ma fakkart..madri shasawi..ya3in shlon abni sa3adti 3la ta3asat insan thani? ma gdart alga 7al yarthi Lkil…maku 7al! Ana w Joody bintim chithee..bntim b3aad 3an ba3ath…5ala9 a7san 9a7? w ymkiin itha wa–

M7ammad: Hala ib Zayood..hala bel Sar7aan..

Zaid: hala hala..

M7ammad: mino illi sha’3il balik?

Zaid: ………..

M7ammad: Zaid shfeek? gooli.. tra ana u5ook..

Zaid looked at him and smiled..he knew M7mmad won’t stop talking until he knows whats wrong..

Zaid: *smile* tathkir Jood?

M7ammad: jood? ay Jood?

Zaid: JOod illi gtlik 3anha..

M7ammad: aahhh illi *wink* it7biha..

Zaid: *throwing a pillow on his face* EEe!

M7ammad: hehehe..inzaain shfeeha?

Zaid: it3arif Jana?

m7ammad: mno Jana ba3ad?

Zaid: Jana rfeejat Hala..

M7ammad: haa! moo isim hathi Jood ba3ad?

Zaid: *nodding silently*

M7ammad: Zayood shfeek? shaku hathi ib hatheech?…laykoon…?!

M7ammad is a smart guy..ya3ni he could get what u wnt to say before u even say it..3araftaw L no3? illi they can see right through you..he’s not a wizard or whatever :p bas he could tell..not always ofcuorse..there was one little thnig he was never sure of…

Zaid: ee M7amad Jood ihya nafs.ha Jood rifeejat Hala…

M7ammad: haa?! wnta tadri inhaa,,

Zaid: adri ..

M7ammad could see sadness in his eyes..he didn’t know what to do..

Agoollaa? la la china ma agoollaa a7san? ee bas hatha zayood rifeej 3umri…hufff! wallah madri shasawwi! akallimha? ee bas shlon akallimha wana .. wana …la la akallimha?

M7ammad: E7m…*getting up*..ana baroo7 3nd Shaheen shway galli amura L garage sayyarta 5arbana..

Zaid: Allah weyyak..

M7ammad got up and went to Shaheen. He had to do something for his friend who was always there for him.

He stopped while seeing Jood…He saw her with him..with Mshary. He could see from the way she treated him he was just a friend. Maybe zaid can’t tell but M7ammad can…he knows when a person is in love and he knows when he’s not…

She stopped and stared at him..he stared back and smiled then disappeared in the crowd..at least thats what she thought…

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Jood~

so me and Mshary were going out for a walk…we were talking about random stuff..as in totally random..w ba3dain M7ammad pops out from God knows where..w gave me that stare..it gave me goosbumps! and then suddenly he disappeared..seriuosly this guy is a FREAK! anywayz… ba3dain as usual Mshary’s phone rang…madri laish bas i was really pleased this time..galli birid L hotel and he was tired…waayyy it3arfoon lamma a7ad y5izkum…well maku a7ad ga3id y5izni bas i feel that someone is watching w it doesn’t feel good..at all! L mohim i nodded ina okaay roo7…w he just left..iifff! ma y7is hal insan! he’s too cold sometimes! i was happy ina raa7! i’m kinda getting bored of him..madri laish..bas istanast..w i decided w to go to the super market ( knt baktib Sultan Center chan astaw3ib inhum ib Amreeka :p)

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M7ammad~

la7agt.ha…tammait waraha..shft L far7a b3yoonha yom ra7 hathaak illi isma..uhh…shisma? ee ee Mshary..mishat w dashat L jam3iyya…hathi for9iti! hathi for9itik ya 7amood!

Calling Zayood…

M7ammad: aloo..hala ib Bu 7arooth..ba’3aitik shway…ZAID LAZIM ITYEE THAROORY! .. SHINO MA TGDAAR!?…AGOOLLIK THAROORY TA3AAAL !…Ma feeny shay…bas abeek ityee shway…ana bil supermarket illi yam L garage…yallah moo it6awwil na6rik…BSIR3A!


okaaayyy sawwaait L 5i66a L oola ba3daain? chinni bablish nafsi..la2ana madri shlon ba5alleehum y7achoon ba3ath :)..iffff…fakkir 7amoodd fakkir! LIGAIT.HA!

Calling Amanda…

M7ammad: Hi Amanda…I need a favor..

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W 5ALLAA9 L POSSTTT!!!!! I NKOW I KNOW I KNOW! ITS SHORT! bas lazim cliff hanger (6) As i promised :p hehehe…shbi9eeeeeeeer??? w whats up with M7ammad?! w who’s Amanda? hmm…..w what about Zaid w Jood? .. w Mshary?! OHH MSHAARYY!? :p any guesses? no? okaaay :p

LUV U :***********

I sat comfortably on his lap as he hugged me and held my hand, tracing the lines on my palm with his finger,“I missed you” he whispered, taking in a deep breath and smelling my hair, “I missed everything about you”“Me too” I said turning ar…

I sat comfortably on his lap as he hugged me and held my hand, tracing the lines on my palm with his finger,“I missed you” he whispered, taking in a deep breath and smelling my hair, “I missed everything about you”“Me too” I said turning ar…

يوم اقلبت.. صوت لها جرحي القديميوم اقبلت .. طرنا لها انا وشوقي والنسيموعيونها ..عين لمحتني وشهقتوعين حضنت عيني وبكتويافرحتيالحظ الليله كريم…

“Daloooooooool!! I miss you!!” I yelled into my phone,“Hehhe I miss you too.. how are you? It’s been ages since I talked to you”“I know, I’m sorry, I’ve been really busy with the gallery”“Yeah? Not too busy for cousin Mohammed thoug…

I’m so into romance movies. Really into them. They effect me so much and leave me thinking at the end. And whenever I would see one, I’d always think of 5aled. That was how much he was on my mind and in my heart.

I remember the time when we said we loved eachother. I was planning on telling him the next time he came to see me. That was the plan.

But then one night I was watching this movie called “If Only”, Jennifer Love Hewitt acts in it. It’s such a moving movie. The whole time from start to finish I was crying. Im being dead honest here, I was crying the whole time. I couldnt stop crying! It has such a strong effect on me. The most things that get me emotional are music and movies.

3ala6ool after the movie ended I called 5aled…

5aled: Halla 7beebty.

Me: 5ALED !!

I was in tears.

5aled: Bismilah 3leeki wsh feeki ?!

Me: I LOVE YOU !! I LOVE YOU !! I LOVE YOU !!

5aled: Haha I love you too 7beebty bs why are you crying ?

Me: I know this wasnt how it was supposed to happen bs I had to tell you. La sama7 Allah 9arlik shay ?

5aled: 7beebtyyyyyyy ma ra7 y9eerli shay.. aw3adik I’m yours!

Me: E bs you never know! I mean what if fj2a Im gone or your gone! I want you to promise me that from here on out we will say everything we wanna say to eachother. At any moment when you wanna tell me something you say it 3ala6ool without a thought! And I will do the same! I dont wanna lose you!

5aled: Doody.. 7beebty.. 7ayati.. 3yooni.. I love you and I promise you that I will always be here. I wont leave you.

Me: Wallah ?

5aled: E wallah 7beebty… you know your a theif ?

Me: Huh lesh ?

5aled: Cause you stole my heart..

Me: Hehe..

5aled: Aha2 was that a laugh I just herd ?

Me: Its a giggle!

5aled: Still, you smiled.

Me: L2 a laugh is hahahahaha and a giggle is hehehe.

5aled: Aaha 6yb shokran 3al information.

Me: Hehe…

5aled: There it is again! A5555 wsh tsaween feeni!!

Me: I love you.

5aled: A7bik akthar!

Me: L2 say it in english.

5aled: Why ?

Me: Its more romantic in english.

5aled: La Doody, bl 3arabi.

Me: L2 english!

5aled: 6yb 5ala9. I love you my Doody.. forever my Doody.

Me: E kitha zain!

5aled: Whatever puts a smile on that beautiful face.


That night we stayed up until 6 am. Most of it was me telling him “I love you”. I was obsessed with those 3 little words. He would just laugh at me. I would too if I were in his shoes, I was seriosuly obsessed. Mdri wsh 9ar feeni. :$

Now THIS MAN is a theif… he stole MY heart!!

It was still summer. And in a few days 5aled was leaving for camp. I didnt want him to leave! 3 weeks! I had no problem with it at first but then I found out that he wouldnt have phone privledges. How were we gonna talk? I cant go 3 weeks without hearing his voice.

I was so worried. It was a mixed camp. Girls from all over America and Europe were gonna be there, plus half the middle east. I started to complain!

I trusted him, but the girls were the ones I had a problem with. You know keif el ajanib.. yshoofoon shay yb’3o w 3ala6ool ye7awloon ya5thoo. Sometimes men give in too quickly. Mathalan if a hot girl came and started seducing him, he might freeze up and allow her to do whatever she wants. Some men give in fast! I didnt want my baby to give in. I know he would never hurt me but still, you never know. Bs he assured me he would never allow any girl to touch him other than me.

I was complaining about alot of other stuff too. But he talked me through it all, and I became ok.

It was just 3 weeks, 3adi. No biggie. I knew he would call me or text me every chance he got. :)

The first 2 days he didnt contact me. 3adi… he was probebly settling in and all, so I waited.

A week passed and I hadnt herd from him, I was starting to get worried. Its been one whole week where was he?! Inshallah ma 9arlo shay!

I was so down during those 3 weeks.

3bdulah was in the States and the only way we would talk is through MSN. You see at that time he and I were still friends. Nothing happend yet.

All my cousins from Riyadh flew in. We all spent the summer together. After my grandfathers death, we didnt wanna go anywhere. We couldnt. Our parents told us to get out and enjoy the rest of our summer. They all listend except for me. I didnt want to have fun.

My mom told me not to feel guilty and that 2booy 3bdulah would want us all to be happy, especialy me. So I listend to her and tried to enjoy my summer.

We would all go to the beach everyday and I have to say I did have fun. It was hard at first but I made it through.

But I couldnt stop thinking about 5aled and what he’s doing. Was he thinking of me? Did he forget me? Why isnt he calling me? Texting me? Did something happen with …. a girl? Thats all I could ever think about.

Two weeks later he finaly contacted me. It was short phone call.

5aled: Gulbiii !

Me: 7aytiiiiii !

5aled: I miss you so much !

Me: I miss you so much more! Where are you !! Two weeks !!

5aled: I know 7beebty wallah I know bs they wont allow us to use the phones w kitha. Once a week and I had to call my parents.

Me: Your parents w ana l2 ?

5aled: Its not like that wallah.

Me: 6yb then what ?

5aled: You really wanna waist our time now talking about the past ? This is my friends phone w ma a8dar a6awel fa lets make the best of it.

Me: Ok.

5aled: Kefik ya gamar ?

Me: Good bs Im depressed shway…

5aled: Lesh ?!

Me: I miss 2booy 3bdulah.

5aled: 7beebty lat thygeen nafsik zeyada. Your too stressed already. Allah yr7amo w yd5lo el jannah inshallah bs al7een enjoy your summer.

Me: Thats what mama said too.

5aled: Esme3y kalam umik. Shes right.

Me: Yeah…

5aled: Anything intresting happen ?

Me: La walla abad. I just want you to come back.

5aled: Where to Jeddah ?

Me: E ajal wain. You said you and your family are spending Rama’6an here.

5aled: Uhhh… ymkin l2.

Me: What do you mean ymkn l2!! 5aled I have to see you !!

5aled: I wanna see you more 7beebty bs I dont think we’ll be spending Rama’6an in Jeddah this year. I dont think I’m coming. Most probably its straight back to Riyadh.

Me: AGHHH !!!

5aled: Hadi 7beebty…

Me: Kaif ahda? Gooli kaif ? I was waiting for these weeks of hell to end so that I can see you, w al7een tgoli ma ra7 tjy ?

5aled: I’m sorry 7beebty.. I really am…

Me: Whatever!

5aled: Kam marra agoolik ma a7b hathal klma.

Me: Sorry…

5aled: I love you ya bnt!

Me: Hehe.. I love you too.

5aled: A555 3ala that giggle !! Wnk bs !

Me: Ana hina f Jeddah !

5aled: Im sorry ya galbi..

Me: I know…


He wasnt coming… I was devastated. I kept counting down the days, and now I have nothing to count down to. He didnt even tell me when I was gonna see him again. :”’(

When he got back to Riyadh he told me he got me something. His cousin was going to Jeddah and so he said he will give it to her and have her give it to me. I found it wierd, why couldnt he just hang onto it until the next time?

I told him ok and it was set, the next day I was going to meet his cousin. I didnt want to accept it from her but 5aled insisted on it.

I was only gonna see her for like 5 minutes bs. That day I had plans with one of my closest friends, so I told her I’d be stopping by someplace to pick up something. She said she’d wait for me in the car knowing I’d only be a couple of minutes.

5aled said there was no need to give me his cousins number. And that he’ll plan everything. It made no sense. why wouldnt he just give me her number so we can arrange everything ourselves?

We were meeting at this little cafe, I arrived there first. Why is it that no matter where I go I have to be the first one there? Ma a7b kitha!

I sat for a while and waited. B3dain fj2a someone hits the back of my head. I turn around and who do I see?

5AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAALED !!!! <3 <3 <3

I couldn’t believe my eyes! My jaw dropped to the ground! He was here! My baby was here! I got up and hugged him so tight. So many people were staring at us but I didnt care. He was here!

Finaly… I was in his arms. I’ve waited so long for this.

Me: B-b-b-b- ut how? Y-y-y-y…

I couldnt stop stuttering.

5aled: Do you really think I’d spend Rama’6an away from you?

I slapped him.

Me: I hate you!!

5aled: Haha 6yb I love you.

He took both my hands and kissed them.

Me: Why did you lie to me!

5aled: I wanted to surprise you.

Me: This isnt a surprise, this is torture! A surprise is when you fj2a show up without putting me through all this misery.

5aled: Wallah I’m sorry 7beebty. La tz3aleen aham shay a7na al7een m3 ba3ath..

Me: Ummm.. hehe is that for me ?

5aled: 7ag a’3la w ajmal w7da bl 3alam…. where she is by the way she’s kinda late..

Me: Heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeey !!

5aled: Haha I love you 7beebty.. ya a7la ma 5alag Rabii… ofcourse its for you. 6ool 7ayati ra7 ykoon kitha. Adala3ek w adala3ek w adala3eek.. t3refeen lesh ?

Me: L2 lesh ?

5aled: 3ashanik testahleen kl shay f hathal dnya..

i hope u enjoyed ur eid vacation because i did ;Do enjoy everyone;***Noors Point Of View:I cant believe ina omee ri’6at ib kil sohola bas yimkin l2na yousif is coming with me hmmm bas ana ma giltlaha ina ra7 iyey wallah madree bas at least im gonna see…

1) Because I don’t post :(2) Because I don’t know what to post!Tara wallah I actually have something TO post I just think it’s just as close to crap as writing can get. Ya3ne honestly, at this point all I have is the lovey-dovey crap.. which is corny…..

I eventualy managed to forget about the whole fight and move on. I gave him an excuse this time, that is slipped out. I mean other than that he was perfect. He treated me like a queen, sometimes more than I deserved.

The next time I saw him was two days later at a Cafe called pearls. Here in J- town (thats what me and cousin call it, and Riyadh as Rio) the two most hot spots are Senses and Pearls.

The thing that I hate about 5aled is that whenever were supposed to meet up, he’s always late. Sometimes I would tell him to meet me at 8 and I would plan on coming at 8:30. Just to kind of teach him a lesson. But no, he wouldnt be there when I show up. So when does he finaly show? At 9. I just wanna strangle him.

So I was at Pearls and as usual he was late. Half an hour late to be exact. I wasnt just going to sit around, so I called 3bdulah, aka Boodi. My best friend.

We talked about when we saw eachother. It was the first time I had come to Pearls. That was one HILARIOUS night. But he was so sweet, he got me a present for my 15th birthday. So as it is obvious, this was like in 2007. He got me an adorable Tiffany necklace. I fell in love with it. And the way he gave it to me was adorable.

He handed me the box and I was so excited that I actualy ripped the ribbon off with my teeth! But there was nothing in it. “is this a joke” I asked him.

He said, “la la wallah here it is, I just wanted to see you go crazy. I hear it on the phone, so I wanted to actualy see it live”

“agh 7mar! give me”

And I snatched it from his hands.

I quickly got up and hugged him. It was so sweet, I wasnt even expecting a gift. But still I also got him something as a surprise.. he’s obsessed with Vans and hoodies. So I got him a Vans grey and white hoodi. I love mens wear, well their shirts and sweaters. Their so comfy, so I got myself one aswell. It warms me up, agh its amazing.

He adored it.

So while we were on the phone, he reminded me of how silly I was. See we ordered french fries and to me it tasted like the cheif mixed flowers in with the oil. So I actualy called out the cheif and complained. 3bdulah was so embaressed that he kept saying “no its ok the food’s great. ignore her.” He told me “wla tz3aleen, we’ll order something else”. So we ordered rasberry icecream. I thought it would be like the one at basken robins. Bs lel asaf it wasnt, it was worse. I actualy spit it out onto the plate. All 3bdulah had to say was “seriously?… seriously?” I just giggled. Bs wallah y7lelo he still ate the icecream, well from the other side.

I laughed and laughed so hard. Whenever we talk on the phone he has to mention these two things. Me waking him up at 4am when he had a huge exam the next day, just so he coulde check something for me on facebook. And the french fries and icecream incident.

Finaly 5aled arrived so I told Boodi I’d call him later.

That day me and 5aled spent 7 hours together. From 6 till’ 11. My mom told me to be home by 8. I lost track of time, but she didnt call me so I thought it was ok. So while I was in the car I called my mom…


Mama: WAINIK ?

Me: Hallah mama, bs knt aby agolik ini al7een fl 6areeg.

Mama: Ah mashallah al7een jayatli ? Inshallah you had fun? Dis obeying my rules?

Me: Wallah mama Im so sorry I lost track of time wallah Im sorry lwsm7ti la tz3leen mni.. allah yrtha 3leeki sam7eeny.

Mama: Dina… ba3al salamah.


And she hung up in my face. I was so scared. I hate it when shes upset from me. I called 5aled and told him what happend once I got home. My mom didnt even look at me, I just went straight to my room. He told me he would call and explain that it was his fault not mine. Awwwwww!! He was gonna take the blame for me.

After 20 minutes my mom called me to the 9alah and told me that she forgave me and to never do it again or else I wouldn’t be allowed to see 5aled anymore. I 3ala6ool said 7ather, I didnt wanna mess things up for me and 5aled. Not seeing him? Just saying that kills me!

We continued seeing eachother for the rest of the week. It flew by so fast, I didnt want him leave. Why couldnt he have just lived here? I hate long distance relationships!

A few weeks later 5aled started to get jelouse of 3bdulah. Not there’s any reason to be since were just friends, but he was so jelouse. He never had a problem with me talking to him before and now fj2a he does! I have to say I was so pissed!

5aled: I just think you should back away from him a little.

Me: Are you seriouse? Sorry bs l2.

5aled: Wsh eli l2?

Me: L2 y3ni l2. He’s like my brother. We’ve been best friends for four years now. He treats me like his little sister. I’m not going to ruin all of that. You know how many friends have backstabbed and hurt me in the passed. This guy stayed with me through the good and the bad. Sorry bs I cant have you take that away from me.

5aled: You have me.

Me: 5aled ism3ni.. I wont be the type of girl that relys on her boyfriend for everything. I need to have other people in my life too. I love you and all bs c’mon 7aram 3leek you do this to me.

5aled: Im not asking you to stop being friends with him, I just want you to minimize your time.

Me: Sh89dik ?

5aled: I mean dont talk to him after 10, cause its late and I dont feel comfortable. And dont talk everything at-thayag.. like two times a week would be fine. And talking for an hour, l2… talking for 5 to 10 minutes would be more than enough.

Me: Your joking right ? What the hell 5aled. I’m not your daughter to give me all these rules.

5aled: Bs ana at-thayag.

Me: You went to camp last year and came back with more than 50 girls whom you became friends with. Your facebook is packed with those girls. But do I say anything? No. Cause I trust you blindly. I’ve known 3bdullah for 4 years. How long have you known those girls ? 3 weeks at a camp bs!

5aled: Bs I dont talk to them on the phone.

Me: Its still the same. Msn, texting… facebook.. phone calls.. all the same.

5aled: Dina please 5ala9 entaha el mawthoo3!

Me: WHATEVER !!!!

5aled: Na3am ?

Me: E YOU HERD ME W H A T E V E R.. DO I HAVE TO SPELL IT OUT AGAIN ?


I was mad as hell. How could he just throw those rules in my face. He had no right to do that. I dont care what he’s reasons were bs he had no right what so ever. Wsh eli 2 times a week for only 10 minutes? 5air ?!

Now looking back I actualy wanna slap myself. I followed his rules without putting up a fight. If only I could go back in time. I would tell him that he’s my friend. He’s never made a move on me. We never had feelings for eachother. He treats me good, so good! He’s always there for me… I could go on and on.

And now.. me and him arnt friends anymore. Im so sad whenever I think about him. But I did this for love. For my 5aled. I really wish I hadnt since 3bdulah had done nothing to me. I dunno how this all became such a mess. It’s his jelousy. Un-neccesary jelousy. I wish that I could turn all this around. I miss 3bdulah and our friendship. But I cant tell 5aled that. He would get the wrong idea and make such a big deal. Its one of the reasons why Im depressed these days.

Yeah, Ive been depressed latley and losing 3bdulah is one reason. I lost yet another best friend.

But this is life, sometimes we gotta do things to make the other person happy. But why did I have to get rid of my best friend. The one person I knew I could count on. That knew all my secrets and my past. I just wish 5aled could understand and allow me to have my best friend back. I wish that he would understand what a big deal he’s making out of all of this. I wish that he could trust me. I wish that he could give me my best friend back. But I know he wont.. because he just wont.

To sum it all up… 3bdulah is gone.

Meanwhile summer was near and we were headed to London. Every summer has to start in London. Sometimes we would spend the whole summer their or spend a week or so and then off to some other place.

Since my grandfather was very sick , my mom didnt want to leave him for too long. She wanted me and my sister to have fun so she took us to London for 2 weeks. But unfortunatley we only stayed 4 days.

Once we landed my mom got a call from one of her sisters saying that my grandfather became even more sick and that he isnt properly taking his food nor mediacation. So they had this bag hanging above him filled with food. Not the actual food, but the juice. And injected into his arm was a thin tube connected to the bag of juice. Thats how he would have his meals. Through a tube. It was heartbreaking.

He also couldnt breath properly on his own, he needed the oxygen mask most of the time.

He had no strength, he was so weak and tired.

We booked the next flight out!

Everyday the family would gather in his bedroom. He had a huge bedroom, where there are two rooms in it. One was where he was at, and the other was a big 9alah.

Out of all my cousins I was the most one that stood by him. I couldnt leave him, not even for a second. for the next two months I would wake up, shower then rush straightly to him. I just wanted to hold his hand and kiss them.

My cousins were all having fun! Going to dinner each night! The beach each morning!

For gods sake your grandfather is dying and your off having fun !!

Have a heart for the love of god!! Allah yesam7kom! I was filled with rage

Yeah they would come and sit with him, but only for like an hour and then they were off.

I remember one night it was 1 am and I had just finished my shower. I came up to his bedroom to sit with him for a while before I went off to bed.

I walked in to find 5 of my cousins in the 9alah on their laptops, talking and laughing. Basicly enjoying their time.

I clinched my fists and kept whispering to myself. “dina just keep walking dont start, dont start. keep walking”.

{Suzy 101}

Im the type of person that says whats on her mind. I cant hold it in and wait for another time. It sometimes gets me in bad situations but its something I sometimes cant controle.


So I walked up to them…

Me: Your grandfather is sick in there and your out here playing on your laptops? Mashallah 3leekom, yallah have fun.

Meeny: La wallah 7beebty a7na hina kl leela.

Me: Really? Doing what exactley? Sitting out here doing whatever the hell it is your doing? Thats not called being there for him, thats called being bored in there so were sitting around in here.

3aysha: Look whos talking.

Me: Na3am 7beebty? 3ala fkra.. while you were out at dinner each night and at the beach each morning I was here. Here holding his hand watching over him. I wouldnt even allow the nurse to touch him. I took care of him.

Meeny: Yallah yallah bs engl3y..

Me: Screw you bitch!


I know, I know. I probably should not have cursed but once again I had no controle. But I didnt feel bad. Bl3ax I felt great! It felt so good saying those words to them. But c’mon, I had every right to say what I said. Imagine your in my position, how would you feel?

And I know deep down inside I got to them with my words.

I ignored that they were out there and went in to be with my grandfather.

A few days later I was sitting in my room on my laptop when my mom suddenly walkes in all gloomy.

Me: Mama shfeeki ?

Mama: 7beebty I have something to tell you…

Me: 5air esh fee ?

Mama: 2booy twafa elyoum el sboo7.

Me: Mama lwsm7ty goleli 83da tmze7y ?


My eyes started to water.

Mama: La 7beebty.. twafa…


I started to cry and cry and cry. I screamed, I just kept screaming la2 la2 la2 ! My mom tried to hold me but I would push her away and keep screaming. I didnt want to believe it. After about 10 minutes of contant crying and screaming my mom managed to calm me down. She took me in her arms and just held me. Garat 3lay Quran.

I told her I wanted to see him bs she told me it will only hurt me more.

I didnt care. I wanted to see him once last time. I hated myself for not being there. For being lazy and not waking up until 2 el thohor. I wanted to be there for him, with him when he passed. Until this day, I hate myself for not being with him.

I didnt care, I went to him. I went in to find all my aunts and uncles and cousins. I pushed my way through. They all grabbed me and told me not to go in but I just pushed them roughly aside and continued pushing through.

I got in. I saw hm lying on the bed with the sheets covering his face. The men were on their way to pick him up and take him away.

I started walking towards his bedside.

I pulled off the covers and kissed his head, then both his cheecks, then both his hands. Then I took a moment and hugged him. The last hug I was ever gonna have.

” Yaaaa raaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaab er7im 2booy yaaaaa raaaaaaaaaab da5ilo el janah yaaaaaaaa rbbbbb er7amooooo yaaaaaaaaaa rbbbbb!!!

Ahhhhh 2booy marrah w7shtany.. mat 9dg 8ad esh. Afaker feek kl youm! Mafi youm ymar bdoon ma afakir feek. Int f 8lbi dayman w dayman ra7 tfthel feeh! A7bk marrah !! A7san ab fl dnya kilah.. Allah yr7amik ! “