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Cashmere.Poison: What’s Left of Me (17)
[18 Feb, 2016 at 6:29 pm ]
Dedicated to Fofa, I love your comments!:****I walked into class with my head down. I didn't give two shits what they thought of Razzag, I was worried about my own reputation that I worked so hard to improve, even if it seems like people still cared about the past.I didn't lift my head to see if the two girls I'd seen at breakfast were there. All I could focus on was when Razzag would walk in and when class would finish. I thought about skipping class but it would be too suspicious.Razzag finally walked in, and I could see he ...

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Cashmere.Poison: What’s Left of Me (16)
[16 Feb, 2016 at 9:12 pm ]
Double post today because I couldn't yesterday! Thanks for your comments and feedback:)**I couldn't defend myself. Blood was boiling in my veins at what I was hearing."Hatha 6ab3an '3air libsich jidami oo '3air the expected special treatment mini professionally. Tabeen Saad yt3alam kl hatha? Ana ma ar'6a, lo 9ij tkhafeen 3alaih chan 3a6aiteeh a7ad thani. Bas intay matfakreen ila bnafsich, kntay tabeen a sense of control oo Saad was your only tool," he said."Sh-Shaku," I could only say. I waited till I could speak again."Tara ga3da at'3ayar 3ashan Saad, oo tara ga3da a7awil. Mu ga3da agoul I'm perfect, bas how dare ...

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Cashmere.Poison: What’s Left of Me (15)
[16 Feb, 2016 at 8:16 pm ]
We left the cinema, picked up dinner at McDonald's and went back home at 11. Saad was ecstatic, and I was happy to see him happy again. If my mother knew we were still out she'd probably kick me out of the duwaniya, let alone who I was out with.Saad didn't stay up for long before he fell asleep on the couch in the living room while we were all watching a comedy show, and Razzag carried him to his bed before returning to the living room."Matshakart minik 3ala the quiz," I told him.He turned to me. "Mbayin you're not ...

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Cashmere.Poison: What’s Left of Me (14)
[14 Feb, 2016 at 10:14 pm ]
Hey guys,Small request but I'd appreciate actual feedback instead of "post al7een please/longer". I don't mean to sound rude (I'm very very grateful for your support, couldn't ask for more!) bas those comments really make me nervous and I don't write well when I am. I'm trying my best:(Hope you understand! Cash**I was nervous to be seen with my professor in his car, even if our nephew was in the backseat. I really prayed I wouldn't see anyone from college there."Shkthr bagi 3ala ilfilim?" Saad asked, bored."Thilth sa3a," Razzag told him. "Ana awa9lkum 3nd ilbab oo intaw sbgouni 3ala ma adawer parking," ...

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Cashmere.Poison: What’s Left of Me (13)
[13 Feb, 2016 at 8:39 pm ]
Who was she?Did my father have a second family I didn't know about?I looked at the messages again and confirmed that my father did indeed have a second wife. No wonder he was so relaxed with our family and did whatever my mom told him to. He was more focused on his second one, it made so much sense that it sickened me."Umm nisait 3ndi sha'3la '6arouri asaweeha," I quickly said before I excused myself. I didn't even wait for my family's replies, if they had any.Tears raced down my cheek as I walked to the duwaniya and opened the ...

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Cashmere.Poison: What’s Left of Me (12)
[12 Feb, 2016 at 11:32 pm ]
Sorry for the late post guys, busy busy week!***I took a deep breath before I spoke."Razzag shlon ttwaqa3ni I can make it through oo you're a different person ma3ay?""Gltlich fee farg bain personal oo profess-" he began saying that bullshit sentence."Professional, I know. Bas that line is blurred lama you threatened me b darik, wala hatha 7ail 3adi 3ndik lay darajat inik nisait?" I asked him."3ayal shtabeeni asawe? Nothing is in my hands, tabeen grades? Dersay oo rakzay, oo s2leeni b my office hours nafs baji ilstudents. Maku special treatment," he said."I wasn't asking for it," I clarified."Sounds like you ...

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Cashmere.Poison: What’s Left of Me (11)
[10 Feb, 2016 at 2:44 pm ]
I didn't feel comfortable in my own house.
I wanted him gone but I knew I had no choice. I didn't want Saad to take sides, I didn't want to create any problems and I sure as hell wouldn't want to piss off Razzag even more that it affects our "professional" relationship. I was cornered.
I barely got any sleep and woke up to the sound of Saad looking for his cereal and Razzag making his coffee. I didn't want to see him so I just stayed in bed despite me wanting to see my nephew again.
I hated that I was jealous. ...

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Cashmere.Poison: What’s Left of Me (10)
[8 Feb, 2016 at 10:20 pm ]
I looked back at him but he was paying me no attention and I walked to his office and waited in the semi-empty corridor. I waited for nearly fifteen minutes until he finally showed up with his folder in his hand. He unlocked his door, looked around as I went in before him, then locked it again."What the hell, Razzag adri ijabti 9a7!" I told him."Trick question," he said as he sat at his desk. "Oo latkhaleeni anag9ch 3ala language and attitude," he said."I'm speaking in a personal manner.""We're in college, last time I checked," he said."Okay fa nadaitnee all ...

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Cashmere.Poison: What’s Left of Me (9)
[8 Feb, 2016 at 8:17 pm ]
The rest of the day was spent with Saad watching TV and ordering dinner mn bara (we didn't mention McFlurry's to Razzag, who'd been in his room the whole time)."May laish Khali Razzag may7bni?" he said as he took a bite of his fries."Uhwa yzifik l2ana y7ibik oo he wants the best for you," I said. I knew it shouldn't be to that extreme, but I didn't want to separate him and his uncle."Bas ga3d ykhari3ni," he said."Adri wallah. Latkhaf ilsalfa mafeeha sides, we're all on your side bas nabee the best for you okay?" I told him as I ...

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Cashmere.Poison: What’s Left of Me (8)
[6 Feb, 2016 at 9:56 pm ]
I went to Saad's room and found him trying to do his homework but I knew his mind wasn't focused at all.He stood up and hugged me while crying."Shnu sawait '3ala6?" he said."Masawait shay, il'3ala6 mina uhwa," I said as I kissed his forehead."Tabi McFlurry?" I told him to cheer him up and he nodded while wiping his tears."Yallah khali9 hal homework oo a6arish Kumar iyeeb," I said. "Sh3ndik?" I said as I grabbed a seat and sat next to him while I looked at his homework.I helped him finish most of his homework while keeping my promise about the ...

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Cashmere.Poison: What’s Left of Me (7)
[5 Feb, 2016 at 10:03 pm ]
Sorry for the short posts, I promise to make them as long as I can xx**I picked up Saad from school before heading home. I didn't tell him about Razzag, I felt like he might spill the beans or something to someone, I was already worried about him telling my parents about him living with us for the time being.We got home and Razzag's car was already parked in his usual spot."Khali rad?" Saad asked."Ee, khala9 dawama," I told him."Oh," he only said as we walked in.Razzag was in his dishdasha in the living room on his laptop."Ilsalam 3alaykum," Saad ...

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Cashmere.Poison: What’s Left of Me (6)
[3 Feb, 2016 at 10:13 pm ]
The class ended rather quickly, or maybe I was too carried away with my thoughts that I didn't pay attention.I could see girls trying to prove themselves to him from the first class, first impressions and everything. It was ridiculous. I could also tell he was trying too hard not to look at me. We were both too weirded out by this. I wanted to drop the class but it was my final course and I would not stay another course for this class, which he might teach again.I hated this."Please make sure to read chapter one as you will ...

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Cashmere.Poison: What’s Left of Me (5)
[1 Feb, 2016 at 8:20 pm ]
I froze. I was basically half naked in my own living room in front of a stranger I had non stop arguments with."Shtsawi hal 7aza bl ma6bakh?" I asked him in shock. I really hoped the dark was covering up what I was wearing."Yo3an?" he said, as if it was obvious. I couldn't see what he was eating but I felt his eyes were fixed on me. I guessed the dark was doing nothing to my pajamas.His face was traced by the moonlight, his sharp jawline was well defined and his eyes just stood out in the dark. He was ...

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[31 Jan, 2016 at 10:34 am ]
It was late at night that she missed him the most. Not after a long day at work when everything fell apart in one go, and she broke down because she had no one to pull her out of it with. Not after her best friend told her point blank that she was a spoilt brat who got everything she wanted, somehow not managing to see through the tornadoes inside her. Not after she'd had a huge fight with her family about the guy who is proposing to her, while she was still thinking of him. Not after she'd called her brother because she'd ...

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Cashmere.Poison: What’s Left of Me (4)
[30 Jan, 2016 at 8:31 pm ]
I woke up the next morning with a huge headache. It was nearly 10 AM, I wanted to have breakfast out with Saad but my plans were ruined thanks to Razzag and this huge headache of mine, also caused by Razzag.I got dressed since I couldn't walk into the living room in my pajamas, which I hated, and took a deep breath before leaving my room.I didn't look at Razzag but said good morning to Saad and gave him a kiss hard on the cheek. I just wanted him to know I was still here for him. I still didn't ...

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[30 Jan, 2016 at 5:15 pm ]
Footbridge, Toledo, Belize

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[27 Dec, 2015 at 12:08 am ]
Hello readers, I didn't bail on you I promise ! I came down with the flu and still recovering, BUT a new long and extended part will be out tommorow enshallaa. Goodnight and stay warm xx 

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[18 Dec, 2015 at 12:44 am ]
Head resting against the wheel, I tried to even out my ragged breathing. Another panic attack and this time a witness. I hated the attacks, they made me feel weak and helpless and he's the one to blame. No your weakness caused this. Shit , now the little voice in my head was being a bitch too. I needed my bed. I woke up hours later , head pounding , disoriented , my iphone blaring with text messages. I sat up straight and reached for it. 15 messages from my closest friends in our whatsapp group. Mariam: a little birdie told me you are ...

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[16 Dec, 2015 at 7:15 pm ]
Hello gorgeous readers! i'm back for real and I'm to start posting regularly, been travelling all year long and it's hard to keep up with blogging! Anyways I'm going to publish a new part tonight enshallaa but I want you guys to support my other new personal blog/journal where I'm going to write non-fiction ,aaand I need your support! Follow and read my other blog https://medium.com/@queenzenobiaThank you xoxo

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[8 Dec, 2015 at 11:16 am ]
Valley Gate,Yorkshire, England

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[7 Dec, 2015 at 9:15 am ]
My hands shook, spilling coffee all over my white shirt, I inhaled loudly, suddenly feeling claustrophobic. * as soon as I land we meet and talk things through* I reread the message I just received from Mubarak again and the icy fingers of despair wrap around my heart just like the first time I found out about the other woman. "are you okay?" My friend frowned, snapping my attention. By now I was sweating like a pig, my thoughts all jumbled, and I just needed to leave." I'm sorry I...that was home, they're coming back I've to go""But shaikha! at ...

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Madliar: Let me in 23
[30 Aug, 2015 at 4:24 am ]
Abdulrahmam: shfeech ga3d achayk 3ala elbaby! I gave him that side stare with my straight lips. 7aqeer ya3ny goul bashof shfeech 3gb el vomiting la eshof el baby shlouna...We got to our house and a smiled formed as soon as I saw our wooden white door, I missed it! We walked to the door and my mood flipped 180 degrees. Better of-course!Me: yaa ahl baaayyt ana yeeet Abdulrahman was so shocked, I'm always quite with him and so he's amazed as I revealed the real me. Noufa and my brothers were in the living room they all looked at us and smiled and ...

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Madliar: Let me in 22
[8 Aug, 2015 at 2:45 am ]
Its super duper long! So I hope no one complains :p Enjoy ______________________________Dania's point of viewI couldn't sleep, it took me more than 30 mins I THINK. I couldn't fiddle with my phone because I was trapped in Abdulrahman's arms all I did was breath. It was so dark too. I gave up of course and I slept. ....: Daniaa... daniaaI woke up to someone calling my name and moving strands of my hair away from my face.Me: ana 36alt ma 3ndy jam3a khala9 latga3dony bas Abdulrahman: goumayy yuba wallah bas el adweya... Hahah yallah gomayI woke up immediately half shocked half asleep, Helen ...

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[6 Aug, 2015 at 5:45 am ]
(SO SORRY THAT I HAVE TO RUSH THROUGH THE ENDING..)Today was the night. It was the night Afaf and Abdullah would finally get married..after years of their innocent love..Dhklt Afaf elqa3a ou kl man y6al3ha nzlt 3la ghneyat hab elsa3ad...3ma mzna: shnu???? shtgoul??? entaw wain??Afaf: 3ma shfech?3ma mzna mn el9dma 6a7 telephonha mn eedha.. Afaf took it..Afaf: shfeek matgoul???Feehaid: Afaf a7na eb mstshfat el ...Afaf: laish sh9ayer???Feehaid: Afaf.. Abdullah sawa 7adeth ou a7na bl6reej lel 3rs......They rushed to the hospital, afaf was crying in her beautiful white wedding dress.. it was the night they would finally be together bl7alal ou ...

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BlueVelvetBlog: Chapter 25 – The end
[6 Aug, 2015 at 5:31 am ]
FINALE!I had the best almost two years experience with my readers with this story! I am so honoured to have you guys reading and always there by my side, commenting and giving me feedback. And I just love talking to you guys so once again..I am so sorry for not completing the chapters i have written chapter 24 2 years ago and this as well a year ago and have not completed the rest, so elyoum 6ara 3la bale ene adsh this account ou ashuf shnu 9ar 3laih so so so sorry that i didnt give a proper ending i ...