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4 Ketakeet emfarzineen: The smile of my life.. Part17
[9 May, 2016 at 12:46 am ]
Othman started to wipe basma's tears using his qetraa..Othman: 7ayaaateee 3umri entay ana hny 3ndechh!!!Basma took a step backward and started to wipe her tears herself: sorry sorry sam7ny getlek 3ethmany nesait nafsyOthman gave basma a wondered stare: asaam7ech 3ala shinu!! Basma ana 11 sena metshafeg asma3 halkelma mennech men 9ejjech!!! Kellaaa ensy naaafsechhh!!!Basma: la 3ethmaan laaa mu men 7aggy elkelma men 7ag mertek, noura!Othman: basmaa! 6alabtech la t7e6een masafaat!!Basma: shloun ma7e6 3ethmaaan!!! Mu anaa ely akharreb byouuut!! Luw enha 3elaqa mu zawaj chaaan kharaaabt'ha chaan ge6a3t'ha min 3erjhaaa!!! Bs hatha zawaaj maagdaar!!Othman: ok 7e6y 7awajez bs mu al7een basma ...

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4 Ketakeet emfarzineen: The smile of my life.. Part16
[7 May, 2016 at 12:34 am ]
Othman's blood went down the moment he heard the word "7amel"..Othman: shinu?Noura happily: ana 7amel! AkheeraannnHe faked a smile: la? 3albaraka.. 3albarakaNoura: way el7emdellah 7addy mestansaaaShe took a few steps toward him and hugged him tightly..Noura: bet9eer obo 3ethmanHe slowly moved his arms to wrap her body.."Yaa rab el6effff"He thought of the previous sentence while his eyes were filled with tears.....Bo aziz: basoma 7abebty e7na kelena met'akdeen ou meqtan3een enna entay mafe mukhech shay ou esmella 3alaich manty maynoona bs nafseetech te7taj men e3alejha ou ma tenlamain 11 sena marat benesba lech chenha lailaaBasma smiled: yuba! Mala da3y tbarrer! 3ady ...

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4 Ketakeet emfarzineen: The smile of my life.. Part15
[6 May, 2016 at 1:04 am ]
Othman's eyes popped out..His tears started to fall heavily..It was from his shock that she knows.. It was from his sadness that she talks from her hurt.. Basma tried her best to hold her tears..She moved her wheal chair and turned around..Othman went in front of her: basma!! Ana 9ej tezawajt noura bs wallah..She interrupted him saying: shhhhhOthman: basma tukfain abe ashra7lech!!She shook her head "no"..Othman: muu men 7agech temne3eeny!!She puts her hands on her ears..Othman sighed and sat down in front of her..Othman: meste3ed an6er lain eedech tet3abb!!She lowered her eyes and they started to tear..Othman: basma laaa!!! Latabcheen bsebbty!! Ana ...

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4 Ketakeet emfarzineen: The smile of my life.. Part14
[4 May, 2016 at 12:32 am ]
Part14:*ashtaag athem jfounek shoug elneda lewroud zan el3e6er befnoonek washtam feek el3ouud.. Galaw ana majnoonek gelt el3agel mardood amout luw y6roonek ghayeb ou bey mawjoud..*Othman: bashray shloun basmaa! Walhaan abe ashofhaaLujain: umm ok akalem joud ou ared lek khabarOthman: may9eer akallemha bel mobile? Lujain: la 3ethmaan! Ma tegdar la'anna kella esh3a3at mu zain lahaaOthman took a deep breath: ok kalmay joud ou redeelly khabarLujain: okk...Sana: basoma mama? Enty za3lana? Thayg khelgech?Basma ignored her mom's words..Sana: 9arlech yomain wentay mu 3ajbatny! La akel takleen wala ebtesama tebtasmainBasma rolled her eyes to see the ground..Sana: basoma? 7abeebty enty shemthaygech?Basma sighed..Sana: ya ba3ad galbe ...

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4 Ketakeet emfarzineen: The smile of my life.. Part13
[3 May, 2016 at 1:12 am ]
Joud smiled: atwaqa3 3refatkum!!Othman took few steps closer to basma and sat down holding her hand: basoma?? Om yousif!! Thekarteeeny?Lujain threw herself on basma's lap: basomaaa walaaaht 3alaaichhh!!!Basma was staring at them silently showing her happiness..Joud was surprised from Othman's action!!Lujain was busy hugging Basma..Othman: basoma! Sheddy 7ailech!! Enty gad'ha wegdood! Ou ana watheq enech btamsheen ou etekalemaain bfatra baseee6a!Lujain: ee basoma!! Kelena na6reenech!! Tathkereen gabel ayam elshalaih?? Tathkereen sahratna ou f9latna!! Othman: tathkereen ga3dat elba7ar ely men ta7at lay ta7at? *he smiled*Lujain pinched his thigh and whispered: khertaaOthman: e7m! Joud ma 3alaich amer abe mayJoud: eee sure! Lujain tabeen?Lujain: ee ...

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4 Ketakeet emfarzineen: The smile of my life.. Part12
[28 Apr, 2016 at 11:04 pm ]
Othman's heart beats accelerated and his legs became weak..Othman knocked the door..Hayouna: minuuuOthman: ana yummaHayouna whispered: we ghubra 3asa ma sema3na!!!Lujain: khal ydry yumma maskeen 10 sneen ne6arha!Hayouna: ee bs tezawaj ou khala9na!Othman: yumma? Hayouna: edkhal 7abebeeHe got inside, kissed her head and lujain's cheeks: mabroook lajounLujain: allah ybarek feeekkOthman: sh3ndekum ga3deen foug ou 9arlech sa3a t7ar9een lajoun ma tgoollyLujain: ummHayouna: ee ma wedna ngoollekOthman: yumma? Hayouna: ekhtek deema 7amel ou ma wedna ngolek 3ashan la tgol 7g mertek ou ma thebat el7amelOthman: men meta ana anogel 7achy! Ba3dain deema mu awal marra t7amel!!Hayouna: ee bs 9arlaha fatra mu 7amla fachethy! Wain ...

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[25 Apr, 2016 at 1:00 am ]
10 minutes passed and I was still staring at his text message. The strange thing was that he obviously knew who I was.. How did he know my number? And he acted all honorable when I mentioned my marriage and now he seemed more than eager to text. *already regretting it?* I jumped when I recieved the second message , okay this was too late I initiated this, I might as well finish it. * no. How are you?* I sent, feeling less like myself, my self image dimming fast through my eyes. * didnt expect you to text. I'm glad**... Why?**want a ...

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[24 Apr, 2016 at 12:10 pm ]
Announcement: this Author will be posting a full length post tonight. Apologies and kissess xoxoxo

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Cashmere.Poison: What’s Next?
[25 Feb, 2016 at 10:55 pm ]
Wow I'm honestly surprised at the amount of reads I've been getting and most of all the comments! Thank you guys so so much you seriously inspire me to blog everyday!I have to ask, dear readers, which story did you like better?A. What's Left of MeB. Don't Forget MeI honestly enjoyed writing Don't Forget Me more, I got lost in it! I was very stuck in What's Left of Me but then it all suddenly hit and I guess that's why it seemed rush, I'd just wanted to get it done until I realized that I actually liked where it ...

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[25 Feb, 2016 at 10:02 pm ]
Six months later,I sat in the living room of my family's house and joined my sisters on one of their movie nights. I baked some brownies, with the help of Rosie, and arranged the seating to be a bit more "cinematic". The living room was dim and there were blankets everywhere, along with a "snack bar" with goodies that were essential for movie nights, to me at least. I'd moved out from the duwaniya and into my family's house not long ago. I didn't need to isolate myself anymore and I missed out on so much. I did stick to my promise. ...

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[24 Feb, 2016 at 10:47 pm ]
He chuckled. "Razzag," I said. I was desperate to know what his secret was.He took in a deep breath before he looked around. "3ajbatni wa7da," he said. And my heart was caught in my throat."Ha?" I could only say. His eyes twinkled as he looked at me."Ma3ay bljam3a," he said as his eyes were fixed on mine. I couldn't look at him. I looked at my hands in front of me."Mu3eda 7ag class thani," he said. I was confused. Actually I was stunned and completely caught off guard that I was embarrassed of my own reaction."Wayid rakda oo madri, 3jibatni," he continued, paying ...

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Cashmere.Poison: What’s Left of Me (24)
[24 Feb, 2016 at 3:13 pm ]
The following day was different. I didn't feel trapped anymore, I didn't feel like I had no purpose. It felt like there was finally something to look forward to. I got another surprise visit from Razzag and Saad, and we had lunch together. Razzag wasn't feeling quite himself, it was as if he felt ashamed around me and I couldn't really blame him. But I knew he was just as weak as I'd been, and just as vulnerable."Y9eer nrou7 ilcinema?" Saad asked and I chuckled. "Okay, Razzag?" I asked Razzag, who was glued to his phone and avoiding my gaze. "Umm okay," he said ...

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Cashmere.Poison: What’s Left of Me (23)
[23 Feb, 2016 at 9:09 pm ]
Dedicated to JJ!***"Alu?" I heard his voice and I was, for once in my life, relieved."Razzag?" I said. "3ndik shay?""May? Shfeech?" he asked. Was he actually concerned?"Razzag please ta3al ikhithni ma3ndi a7ad oo madri shga3d y9eer," I said, sounding desperate for him to come."Wainich?" he asked me."Ilsalmiya," I said."Ilsalmiya wain?" he asked I was sure he could hear the wild music in the background. "Umm bshi8a, I'll send you the location. Bashra7 klshay bas please ta3al," I begged and I could hear him sigh."Okay bas bayeech 3ugub ni9 sa3a aw sa3a ila rub3 l2ani blshalaih, 3adi?" he asked and I nodded ...

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Cashmere.Poison: What’s Left of Me (22)
[23 Feb, 2016 at 6:23 pm ]
I eyed my reflection in the mirror. I hadn't been to a gathering in so long that I forgot what I should be wearing. I wore a pair of dark high waisted loose pants with a beige blouse and heels. I curled my hair and left it flowing down my shoulders and applied light makeup to my face. I grabbed my red purse and waited for Hani's text in the living room. This week was very uplifting, I got to reconnect with an old "friend" of mine, see my nephew again, and even got a semi-apology from Razzag. Hani texted that he ...

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Cashmere.Poison: What’s Left of Me (21)
[22 Feb, 2016 at 8:37 pm ]
Since the story is complete, would you like double posts everyday or one post per day?:) Dedicated to "Purple Acorn", thanks for your advice and I still hope you're reading!***I felt hungover the next morning. I'd somehow managed to fit the large slice on Saad's cake into my stomach along with chocolate and other stuff. Now I knew why I'd been so emotional. I grabbed my phone and texted Hani, the poor guy must've felt very awkward yesterday. Hey, so sorry about yesterday. It's a super long story that I can explain in another meetup. Also don't worry I'm not back to my ...

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Cashmere.Poison: What’s Left of Me (20)
[22 Feb, 2016 at 5:58 pm ]
Dedicated to SF!:****"Wow pizza's here already?" Hani joked and I rolled my eyes as I stood up from the couch."Are you fine with me being here?" he asked as I approached the door."Trust me at this point no one really cares," I said as I turned the doorknob. I let out a small gasp of surprise as Razzag was in front of me with a foil dish. He looked surprised at my reaction, and looked me up and down to see why I had dressed up. He was wearing a pair of jeans and dark gray shirt, while his light hair looked ...

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Cashmere.Poison: What’s Left of Me (19)
[21 Feb, 2016 at 6:14 pm ]
Dedicated to H! I LOVE your comments! ***Four months later,I had no life, only a routine. Wake up, have breakfast, go on my laptop, watch TV shows, lunch, shower, more tv shows with the occasional outing to buy necessities. I didn't even go to college, or see Razzag again from that matter, or my family.I drowned myself in movies, books and other distractions to keep my mind busy, but my mind craved things that seemed to be a more effective distraction method. I knew I couldn't get any of what I was craving, I'd lost the numbers of all the people ...

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Cashmere.Poison: What’s Left of Me (18)
[20 Feb, 2016 at 5:03 pm ]
Dedicated to Soso, thank you for your enthusiasm!:****I could only stare at the white wall in front of me as I tried to register what had happened.I was numb.I realized I lost everything.My family.My chance at graduating with honors if not at all.And maybe even Saad, the only person who truly loved me, wasn't probably allowed to see me anymore. I was sure Razzag would take him from me, and that my mother would tell my brother, who wouldn't want his son to live with me anymore, as if he'd been the best parent ever.I had nothing and I didn't ...

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Cashmere.Poison: What’s Left of Me (17)
[18 Feb, 2016 at 6:29 pm ]
Dedicated to Fofa, I love your comments!:****I walked into class with my head down. I didn't give two shits what they thought of Razzag, I was worried about my own reputation that I worked so hard to improve, even if it seems like people still cared about the past.I didn't lift my head to see if the two girls I'd seen at breakfast were there. All I could focus on was when Razzag would walk in and when class would finish. I thought about skipping class but it would be too suspicious.Razzag finally walked in, and I could see he ...

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Cashmere.Poison: What’s Left of Me (16)
[16 Feb, 2016 at 9:12 pm ]
Double post today because I couldn't yesterday! Thanks for your comments and feedback:)**I couldn't defend myself. Blood was boiling in my veins at what I was hearing."Hatha 6ab3an '3air libsich jidami oo '3air the expected special treatment mini professionally. Tabeen Saad yt3alam kl hatha? Ana ma ar'6a, lo 9ij tkhafeen 3alaih chan 3a6aiteeh a7ad thani. Bas intay matfakreen ila bnafsich, kntay tabeen a sense of control oo Saad was your only tool," he said."Sh-Shaku," I could only say. I waited till I could speak again."Tara ga3da at'3ayar 3ashan Saad, oo tara ga3da a7awil. Mu ga3da agoul I'm perfect, bas how dare ...

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Cashmere.Poison: What’s Left of Me (15)
[16 Feb, 2016 at 8:16 pm ]
We left the cinema, picked up dinner at McDonald's and went back home at 11. Saad was ecstatic, and I was happy to see him happy again. If my mother knew we were still out she'd probably kick me out of the duwaniya, let alone who I was out with.Saad didn't stay up for long before he fell asleep on the couch in the living room while we were all watching a comedy show, and Razzag carried him to his bed before returning to the living room."Matshakart minik 3ala the quiz," I told him.He turned to me. "Mbayin you're not ...

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Cashmere.Poison: What’s Left of Me (14)
[14 Feb, 2016 at 10:14 pm ]
Hey guys,Small request but I'd appreciate actual feedback instead of "post al7een please/longer". I don't mean to sound rude (I'm very very grateful for your support, couldn't ask for more!) bas those comments really make me nervous and I don't write well when I am. I'm trying my best:(Hope you understand! Cash**I was nervous to be seen with my professor in his car, even if our nephew was in the backseat. I really prayed I wouldn't see anyone from college there."Shkthr bagi 3ala ilfilim?" Saad asked, bored."Thilth sa3a," Razzag told him. "Ana awa9lkum 3nd ilbab oo intaw sbgouni 3ala ma adawer parking," ...

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Cashmere.Poison: What’s Left of Me (13)
[13 Feb, 2016 at 8:39 pm ]
Who was she?Did my father have a second family I didn't know about?I looked at the messages again and confirmed that my father did indeed have a second wife. No wonder he was so relaxed with our family and did whatever my mom told him to. He was more focused on his second one, it made so much sense that it sickened me."Umm nisait 3ndi sha'3la '6arouri asaweeha," I quickly said before I excused myself. I didn't even wait for my family's replies, if they had any.Tears raced down my cheek as I walked to the duwaniya and opened the ...

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Cashmere.Poison: What’s Left of Me (12)
[12 Feb, 2016 at 11:32 pm ]
Sorry for the late post guys, busy busy week!***I took a deep breath before I spoke."Razzag shlon ttwaqa3ni I can make it through oo you're a different person ma3ay?""Gltlich fee farg bain personal oo profess-" he began saying that bullshit sentence."Professional, I know. Bas that line is blurred lama you threatened me b darik, wala hatha 7ail 3adi 3ndik lay darajat inik nisait?" I asked him."3ayal shtabeeni asawe? Nothing is in my hands, tabeen grades? Dersay oo rakzay, oo s2leeni b my office hours nafs baji ilstudents. Maku special treatment," he said."I wasn't asking for it," I clarified."Sounds like you ...

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Cashmere.Poison: What’s Left of Me (11)
[10 Feb, 2016 at 2:44 pm ]
I didn't feel comfortable in my own house.
I wanted him gone but I knew I had no choice. I didn't want Saad to take sides, I didn't want to create any problems and I sure as hell wouldn't want to piss off Razzag even more that it affects our "professional" relationship. I was cornered.
I barely got any sleep and woke up to the sound of Saad looking for his cereal and Razzag making his coffee. I didn't want to see him so I just stayed in bed despite me wanting to see my nephew again.
I hated that I was jealous. ...